Has Gone, Parts 1, 2, 3
Has Gone
By C.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, Paramount does...Yata yata yata...
Rating:G
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She died an honorable death, not in battle, but honorable no less. I remember the sounds, forever to be associated with her death. The scents, the sounds. Why would I not? It happened a moment ago, no, 5 hours ago, you know, I'm not really sure when it happened. Time's funny that way.
I guess it really doesn't matter now, that she died an honorable death, because, hey, she's dead. But I know Kathryn, and to her, it does matter.
I remember the first time I looked into her eyes, I mean really looked into her eyes. I think I gasped. I had never seen that before. Never seen anyone with their life in their eyes, for all the world to read. Beginning to end, it was there. I doubt she knew it was there, as far as Kathryn was concerned, she'd live to be a 100, surrounded by grandchildren and dogs and love. Only I, at that point knew what was ahead for her. Years after, she must have stumbled onto the secret. Knew her death, accepted it, had let go of the last, very last of her childhood hopes and dreams and it must have hurt like hell.
By saying I saw her death, I don't mean dates and times and weather reports. Hers would have been a violent and vicious one, I knew that, she knew that, but that knowledge didn't stop me from trying to protect her from every paper cut and battle. That knowledge didn't stop her from dreaming.
The only thing that keeps me from joining her, giving up, is knowing that that's not how I'm going to go. I'm going to go in peace.
Didn't I tell you
What I believe
Did somebody say that
A love like that won't last
Didn't I give you
All that I've got to give baby
-Sade "No Ordinary Love"
Has Gone-2
By C.
Disclaimer:Paramount owns all, yata yata yata
Due to the overwhelming demand to find out what happened to Kathryn Janeway in Has Gone-Part 1, I've written parts two and three. This was written near December 6th, a time where most Canadians remember the incident known as the Montreal Massacre, where a man walked into a nursing school, separated the men from the women in the class, then proceeded to kill each woman, committing suicide when he was finished. It always casts a sad period in year, for the weeks leading up to and past it, and well, my rant's over...sorry.
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Captain Kathryn Janeway, of the newly returned federation starship U.S.S. Voyager was the single fatality of the shooting at the Starfleet Academy. The newly returned Voyager crew was in the middle of debriefing after her 10 year M.I.A. status when sometime around noon, two unknown assailants shot their way past the security officers, wounding 7, and broke into the debriefing room. Details at the point are still sketchy but it appears that upon entering the room, they divided the men from the women and ordered them to leave, then proceeding to open fire on the women, hitting all but 7 month pregnant Lt. B'elanna Torres-Paris, Voyager's chief engineer. Upon finishing this, they called up Captain Janeway and shot her execution-style and then proceeded to kill themselves. So far, no one organization has taken responsibility. Captain Kathryn Janeway is survived by her 5 year old daughter, Kale Janeway and her husband, First Officer Commander Chakotay. So far, memorial plans have not been made, we'll keep you updated.
Elsewhere in the galaxy, Cardasia has ....
Has Gone-3
By C.
Disclaimer: Paramount owns all, yatayatayata Absence of Fear is off of Jewel's Spirit CD. Candle in the Wind is preformed by Elton John, I know, I know, it's cliched and all but when I heard it on the radio (The Marilyn Monroe original) it just seemed to click.
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I hate to say it, but I don't feel bad, I mean, I was only 5, but I don't remember much about you mommy, mom, I'm 16 now, mature, I don't say mommy anymore.
I remember you smell like cherry bark, which is probably why I always wear it now that I'm old enough.
I remember you sang me to sleep, you couldn't sing, but you sang me to sleep, I can still hear some of what it was, I'm not sure if it's cause dad sings it sometimes near "it" or something, but I remember, "Inside my heart there's an empty room, it's waiting for lightning, it's waiting for you" he says it's the song he seduced you with, I say it's ewww, because as much as I love you all, I do not want to think about your sex life, dad says you liked handcuffs, Uncle Tom says that's odd, you seemed like a leather kinda woman, I say ewww again and run out the room. Uncle Harry just blushes, I think he had a crush on you.
Dad says I look like you, from the pictures that I've seen, it's a compliment, I mean, there are the pictures in uniform where you look so/so, you know presentable and all, (Oh, dad showed me how you did that bun thing with your hair) but in pictures with dad, and Aunt B and Uncle Tom, Uncle Harry, everyone, and just out of uniform, you looked wow. Dad says she looked like that every time you were with me. Dad says I look like you, I say he lies, she says I'm a perfect mix of the two of you.
She's Carter, dad's new wife. We all talked about it, I don't mind, I hope you don't either. Carter knows she's not my mom but that she'd like to be there for me when I need her, and so far, she has been. Grandma says you'd actually like Carter, and that you'd want to know I'm being taken care of. Uncle Tom says he's known you longer than dad, he had a crush on you, that's when Aunt B slaps his arm and I have to pull out the regenerator and he never has a chance to finish saying what he was going to. Dad says that no one will ever fill up the space in his heart for you, but he has a big heart.
Everyone says we're a lot alike, we both have a caffeine dependency disorder ; ), we both love chocolate chip cookies dipped in peanut butter and then in milk, that we both love cheesy holo-novels, that our favorite movie is "Anna and the King", dad says you cried too every time Anna plays the music box at the end, you know, the whole "I would just like to know why if science can explain something as beautiful as music, it is unable to posit a solution for a King and a schoolteacher" line, and the whole meaningful moments-...excuse me, I need a hanky.
Dad just came in, said I need to get some sleep tonight, said you always had trouble sleeping before something big, Carter brought me a mug of warm milk, it's funny, she's the one going to give birth and she's taking care of me. Well, they know it's a girl, do you know what they're gonna name her? Dana Cote, I like it, Dana.
Well, the doctor says she'll start her contractions tomorrow morning and told us to get our last good night's sleep for a while. So I'm gonna have to say good night 'till tomorrow.
Good night...
I would have liked to known you,
But I was just a kid,
Your candle burnt out long before,
Your legend ever did.
-Candle in the Wind, Elton John
