"What? oh yes make the neccesary arangements."

Chakotay laughed at her and placed the padd he was holding on her desk. Getting up from his chair he walked around her desk and picked her up out of her chair, admist her protesting squeals.
"What are you doing? You are crazy you know that.. What if Tuvok were to come in here?Ó "He won't.. remember you started to lock the doors when we are here together."

"That s only because I can't trust you to behave.""Me? And just what was keeping your lovely mind busy as we were trying to work?"

"I was just thinking."

"About what?"

"You...me...us... our first time..."

He reached the couch and sat placing her in his lap his arms wrapping themselves around her waist, his nose buried in her neck nuzzling the tender flesh.

"This couch seems to get quite a workout. want to see if it still works after all these years?" "Chakotay we can't." her protest was clearly did not convince him of her sincerity as his hands continued to explore her body slowly unzipping her jacket.

Her hands stilled his as she moved to stand. "Do you remember the first time we made love?

"Like it was yesterday. I will never forget and I will be forever thankfull starfleet thought ahead in making these cushions more comforatable.

"Argh!" Kathryn playfully punched his arm. "I am being serious. I was just remembering what brought us together."

Chakotay began to worry...He also remembered the catalyst that brought them together...His Kathryn had freted for days the wormhole they were so sure would lead them to the Alpha quadrent would lead them further away.
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The crew had worked for weeks readying Voyager for the return trip the entire bridge crew was a jumble of pent up excitment as the departure time drew near... Everyone was in his or her plave excpet one. One chair stood empty. Kathryn had walked onto the bridge and immediatly retreated to her ready room , a frown on her face none of the earlier joy being expressed.

Chakotay called to her over the comm, informing her they were ready to go through the wormhole. She did not come out she simply gave the order for Tom to proceed through the wormhole towards home.

Chakotay handed the bridge over to Tuvok with express orders they were not to be disturbed except for an emergency. When she did not acknowledge his signal for admittance he walked in looking around almost afraid of what he would see. There in front of her window her back to him she stood. Her shoulders slouched and he could swear he saw her shaking. He walked up behind her and put a hand on her back rubbing in slow circles. She turned to him then with red eyes and tears flowing down her face a question in her eyes.

"Kathryn?" his eyes pleaded with her to not lock him out of her life and tell him what had her so scared. He lifted her chin up and wiped the tears from her face, "what's wrong?" Her sobs only worsened as he pulled her to him and wrapped his arms around her waist her head resting on his chest above his heart. Her tears soaked through his uniform jacket. His hands rubbing her back while he whispered in soothing tones words of comfort in her ear telling her in was all going to work out and they would be fine.

Kathryn used her arms to push against his chest looking into his face in disbelief. "How can you say that when everything is about to change. When you walked in here did you signal?" at his affirmative nod she continued. " Why? We have not done that for over two years. Why now?

Chakotay, we have become so comfortable around each other that the rules that keep us apart have long since passed us by and have faded into the background."

Chakotay was taken aback at her questions she seemed more upset at the prospect that he would withdraw than she was with what star fleet would say.

" I only thought that it would be easier on you if we started now to make changes so when we get back to Earth the transition will have been made. I am only trying to make it easier on you." "Easier? Chakotay look at me. No I mean really look at me. Over the last two years I have been happier than I can remember. I pushed away protocol because I wanted to be with you even if that means giving up star fleet so be it but I refuse to lose someone else I love cause of rules or star fleet decisions." His face had grown paler with each word that she spoke but when she said the "L" word he had to shake his head to clear his hearing. "Love?"

Chakotay grabbed her by her arms and brought her closer to him, "you did just say you loved me?" "Yes,...... I have loved you for a long time I was just afraid....... afriad of losing you and it destroying me, I was afraid you had finally given up on me that you no longer felt the same, afraid that when...." Her words were cut short when Chakotay pulled her closer and his lips closed in on hers. Quieting her fears with his mouth proving he certaintly had not given up on her and he was very much relieved to hear her say she loved him. Her hands stole into his hair pulling his head down for a deeper kiss they both poured their feelings into this kiss feeding off it as it were to be their last. Only the lack of oxegen made them part. His arms still held her close afraid he would lose her if he let her go. "Kathryn, I will say this once and then as many times as you want me too, I love you and not a damn thing in the universe is going to change that not the alpha quadrant nor protocol. You are stuck with me now." "I was unsure if you would still feel that way after I waited so long to tell you or show you how I felt." "I knew already. All those midnight chats, the long walks on the bank of lake George. You may not have voiced your feelings nor acted very strongly on them but I did know they were there and I was willing to wait for you to choose the right time"

During his speech one of her hands began combing through his hair as the other rested directly over his heart. She raised up on her toes til she could whisper in his ear, " I'm more than ready now."

For the second time that day she shocked him. Her blatant comment and the desire flashing in her eyes told him he heard right she was serious , dead serious and she wanted him now in her ready room. "Kathryn are you sure?" "Chakotay right now I am the more sure about this than I have been about anything. I want you and I want you now." With that she brought his head down for another bruising kiss that left them breathless.

He lost all thought as her tongue slipped between his lips and pushed pass his teeth to taste and explore his mouth. While her hands did some exploring of their own. One of her hands slid down his body to find the hard length of him straining against his uniform. She broke the kiss and through stolen breaths she looked into his eyes without removing her hand, " I am ready for this and I want it to happen at least part of you does as well but if you don't think you are ready.."

Only his hand covering her mouth stopped her cry of surprise as he pulled her down under his body on the sofa resting most of his weight on his arms he looked down at her with his dimples, " Are you sure you can handle it? Cause lady I am more than ready for you but I will give you one more chance to back out now."

His only answer was her legs coming up and wrapping themselves around his waist drawing his lower body closer to hers and rocking her hips to met his. He happily obliged her and rocked his hard length against her, the fabric of their uniforms causing more friction with each movement. Chakotay's hands worked busily on divesting her of her jacket as his lips nuzzled her neck pushing the turtleneck underneath down with his teeth. The next few minutes were a jumble of limbs each one in a hurry to remove the others clothing in between teasing kisses and playful nips. When they were finally clad in only their uniform pants, their boots having already been kicked off and now laying on the floor, Chakotay pinned her arms above her head causing her breasts to jut out even more the tips of which were a rosy pink taught from the cool air. Chakotay licked his lips as his eyes darted from the tempting peaks up to her face. His eyes locked with hers as he lowered his mouth darting his tongue out and tracing a path from her neck to just above her nipple then around repeating the process with her other breast. Coming just close enough where she could feel his tongue on her nipple but not covering it moving back to the flesh of her neck when she arched her back. Only when she started to whimper did he give in. First his tongue would flick over the hardened peak then his teeth would gently nip and pull till her body was arching off the sofa. With his lips he would pull them gently into his mouth and suck on the puckered flesh till she made soft mewling noises. Her finger nails dug into the back of his hands where they held her hands above her head braced on the cushions. Kathryn could feel him hard against her stomach and used her thighs to squeeze the sides of his hips where they rested, cradled against her while rocking her body against him. Sending waves of anticipation to her core the sensation both pleasurable and impatient. Chakotay moved lower down her body his lips making sure to hit each freckle that anointed her flesh all the way down to her stomach and the edge of her pants. His erection rubbed lightly against her as he moved sending a shiver through both their bodies. He paused to rub against her eliciting another low moan as she arched her hips towards his her hands pushing into the cushions for leverage. With his teeth he slowly lowered the zipper of her pants stopping to kiss her skin as it was exposed. When it was as far as it would go he pulled them off by the pants legs leaving her laying there nude and totally exposed to his appreciative gaze. One of her legs dangled off the couch the other was bent at the knee she seemed unabashed at her position as her eyes dared him to continue.

Continue he did. He kneeled at the side of the sofa and traced with his fingertips lines from her hairline all the way down over the curve of her breast around her belly button down her left leg till he reached the heel of her foot then he retraced the path going back up the other leg. Each time he barely brushed against her sex before moving away. Kathryn's eyes were screwed shut her breathing becoming faster and her hands squeezing his it was becoming increasingly harder to stay quiet. Her eyes widened as he stood and removed his pants and boxers. Standing there in nothing but his dimples his erection standing rigid waiting for her touch, the head purple and swollen. Kathryn leaned up on her elbows to take in the entire view, her first officer and best friend, soon to be lover, was standing in front of her unabashed with his nudity and looking down at her with a look of pure desire with love shining through his eyes.

His gaze was enough to send a new wave of pleasure through her. She reached her arms out for him her body already missing the warmth of his. Chakotay knelt between her parted legs and stared at her sex covered by a down of red leaning over he gently slid a finger across her lips wetting them with her moisture. He nuzzled her sex inhaling her scent and with tiny flicks of his tongue teased the tiny bundle of nerves till it hardened almost painfully before pulling it between his lips and sucking with a fever wringing little moans from her. Kathryn's hands clung to the cushions her knuckles white from holding so tightly. Her head thrashed back and forth as she bite down on her bottom lip to keep from crying out as her hips bucked up against his mouth. She could feel the tension building and pooling in the pit of her stomach her body teetering on the edge begging for release. Chakotay could sense and feel her muscles clenching. Kathryn began to plead with him. He just grinned at her and without giving up his hold on her clit he pushed two fingers into her more than ready opening. She came instantly one hand covering her mouth before her screams could alert the bridge, the other hand clenched around his shoulder her nails biting into his skin. He continued to pump his fingers in and out of her never letting her body calm before sending another wave crashing through her. Her hips arched off the sofa nearly dislodging his hold on her yet he continued to suck greedily. Slowly he withdrew his fingers from her clenching walls as her third orgasm dissapated, leaving her body flushed and covered in a thin sheen. Her lungs were left panting for air.

Chakotay raised his head to watch her. Her eyes were still shut tightly her hand now rested in her stomach he could see the teeth marks between her thumb and forefinger where she bite down to keep from crying out. She opened her eyes to look into his, he looked smug and very pleased with himself. Languidly he crawled up till his mouth was hovering directly above hers, licking his lips and making approving and satisfied noises. Kathryn could only moan as his lips descended and claimed hers in a tender kiss as his lower body rubbed against hers tempting her for another round. She stole her hand down to cup him as his tongue werestled with hers. He was hard as a rock. When she held him in her hand he jumped his hips pushing into her his low growl ebbing her on. She raked her nails lightly up and down his erection till she reached the head, her thumb caresed across the top taking the moisture she found and rubbing it across him, her hand easily sliding up and down his length. With her teeth she pulled his lower lip between hers and sucked lightly nipping it as she released it. Her other hand raked up and down his back her nails leaving faint lines in his bronze skin.

"Kath-ryn....I..I can't wait.." She gave him a crocked little evil grin.. "The teasing is fun when you are giving but you can't take it can you?" "I'll show you teasing lady." With that he nuzzled his penis between her thighs not entering but rubbing against her causing twin moans to escape them both.

She planted her feet under her and arched against him trying to get closer her swollen lips swelling more at the feel of his hot member so close but not close enough. Her patience waning she growled at him. "No more." Chakotay reached for her legs and brought them up to encircle his waist staring deep into her eyes as he slowly entered her. Their eyes widened as he pushed slowly into her , her muscles clenching and unclenching welcoming the feel of him. She locked her ankles and thrust against him her hips meeting his gasping as he filled her completely.

She could feel him pulsing inside her his rhythm beating in tempo with his heart where it hammered against hers. Chakotay kissed her again nibbling his way down her throat till he reached the spot behind her ear, his hands holding his weight off of her as he slid slowly out then pushed rapidly and fully into her once again. Unlocking her ankles and getting them under her once again as leverage she met him thrust for thrust till they were both hurdling fast to an explosive climax. He felt her inner walls tightning around him right before he exploded, milking him while he pumped harder into her driving her over again till they were both spent and her spasms turned into small shivers.

Chakotay rolled them where they were laying facing each other on their sides his penis slipping out of her much to her disappointment. "I wish we could stay like that forever." Grinning he replied, " I would love nothing better but it would probably distract Tom and the rest of the bridge during alpha shift." Kathryn playfully slapped his chest but could not hide the grin as the mental image he described came to her mind. She and her first officer on the bridge connected at the hips, literally. "How about we live our lives together for the rest of our lives and when not in public we can work on that forever joined fantasy".
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