I've mailed off the DVD's to NetFlix. This means that Donnie Darko is no longer in my control. I watched it a total of 4 times in 3 days. It was so good.

Now I'm watching Hedwig and the Angry Inch, another favorite. I think I really enjoy the darkness and comedy combo. It makes sense to me in a way that nothing else does. When things are dark sometimes the only thing you can do to bring the light is laughter.

I laughed at my mother's funeral. I was looked at with scorn and hate, how could you laugh -- your mother is dead. My mother loved to laugh, I wish I would have been together enough to suggest telling funny stories about her. I think she would have liked that.

I hope that after I die there will be a party and stories will be told about how I made life a little lighter, a little easier, by helping those around me to laugh.

I think that would be fitting.

What do you want done after you die?