This has nothing to do with anything I've been talking about but I'd like to put this out there; Walmart is evil. They run smaller businesses out of business and underpay their workers.

They might be cheaper, but evenually there won't be any other choices because of them. Then I'll bet their prices will go up.

Evil.

For reasons I can't begin to understand Blogger couldn't publish my blog for the last couple of days. I got error message that my user name or password was wrong. I checked and changed what I had, got the same error message. I changed it back and now it works.

I'm confused.

I got a perscription for Zoloft.

There will be talk therapy.

I'm feeling better.

The show Tuesday night was wonderful and really fun. Joe played with the audience a lot, which was fun to watch. He wasn't mean like some can be, he was teasing and playful. He wished Di a happy birthday from the stage then seemed about to say something else when a table near the back chirped up that it was someone's 21st birthday. I think he was about to say something about me, thank Scott for the interruption. I am in no mental state to defend or accept praise for the site, so when he acknowledged some people that he used to work with and the only thing that was said about the site was the URL, I was so relieved.

When we were talking after the show, Joe realized that he hadn't mentioned his Webmistress and felt bad about it. Even mentioned it the next day when we were on the phone. He's sweet and a good friend.

I was supposed to be at the Mental Health Place by now, but I had another bad night sleep and can't quite function yet. I'm watching a very food Spike episode of Buffy then I'll take a shower and go. Then it's lunch with Charles, hang out time with Di then home.

I'm tired already.

Be proud of me, I called a mental health place and they can write perscriptions and sign State Disability forms. I called over half an hour ago and I'm still shaking. I don't know what that's about.

I'm going to fall apart at the intake, I know it. It took me so long to call now that I have I hope that I can follow through with the rest of it. The nice lady on the phone said that it was best to go in as early as possible, I'm going to try to get up early tomorrow and go in.

This makes me happy. Charles has been working on this book for three years and now you can preorder it. How cool is that?

I'm having another bad day.

I had a dozen nightmares last night. The first was within the first hour of falling asleep and woke me up. When I fell asleep I had a different dream with the same bad guy; it was a dream extra playing the role of a friend who was snuggling up to me and then tried to bore his way into my chest through my ribcage. I kept saying no, as if that would make it stop, but nothing did except waking up.

I don't remember the others except I kept waking up afraid over and over.

Today I have a headache and I'm so tired that I don't know how I'm going to make it till midnight or whenever I get home from the show. I know part of this is knowing that this is something I have to do and although it's something I want to do it's still stressing me out.

Tomorrow Joe is headlining The Punch Line San Francisco. Come to the show if you can.

And if you can't: tomorrow night, at around 10pm SF time, think funny thoughts for Joe. He's worried because we're filming it and there's a Comedian Murphy's Law that says if you're being filmed, you set won't go well. There will be 3 cameras, so I guess that he's 3 times as worried as if there were only one camera.

I'm looking forward to it, because Joe's a funny guy, I haven't been out in a club since January, and I get to hang out with Diane.

I'll let you know how it goes. Or, hopefully, Joe will put it up on his blog.

Charles is going to be on the radio tomorrow morning at 8am PST.

Listen if you can, he's a hoot.

Less of me to love. HA!

I've lost another 5 pounds. I'm not skinny by any means but I'm happily down to 180.

Joe has entered his first blog entry. I'm very pleased that he's picking this up so quickly. I think that he was overwhelmed by the whole technology thing.

I look forward to seeing what he posts.