Arg

Not feeling well; a cold or something, sad; I found out yesterday that there's no way that Theanna can come over New Years, stressed about Joe at the Seattle International Comedy Competition; although he's doing really well, he came in second (out of 16) the first two nights, and I'm getting twitchy about the trip next week with amy.

And on top of it all my friend, Jim, is not getting hold of the idea that I don't feel like talking. It's always a drama and I don't have the energy for a normal phone call. Last night I went to sleep before Joe hit the stage so I couldn't send him good vibes; I was that tired. I'm so rarely unavailable I wish he could understand that there are times when I have to be all about me.

I don't know that I have the energy to explain that it doesn't mean I don't care, it means I have stuff going on, too.