I think I raped him.

Not in any way that would hold up in court, of course, but...

I really think I did.

I pushed him into it.

I held him down and felt him up.

I called him "whore".

I sucked him and sat on him and didn't let him finish.

I hit him and bit him and scratched him until he bled.

I ripped at his fragile psyche with every ounce of knowledge I had.

I hurt him as badly as anybody possibly could.

I broke him.

The next morning, he kissed me; and he tasted of love.