WHY NOW?!?!?!
Mood:  incredulous
Topic: *Sigh*
Why now? I've only been a part of my new family for a month or two. Everything was- is going great. Problem; one of the people I most enjoyed talking to has now left. The word 'sabbatical' has now taken on a whole new meaning to me. I don't mean to be selfish, but (yes, the dreaded 'but') I really wish he hadn't left. Well, all I can do now is hope he comes back soon.
Is it wrong of me to wish he hadn't left, even though I know he wanted to leave? Is it a bad thing that I never really had the nerve to talk as much with him as I had wanted? He was just so smart and 'cool' and I felt so stupid and naieve.
Oneirus never once made me feel stupid. He and AQuel hooked me up with an account and taught me the ropes, even having to repeate things to me multiple times when I missed the point of something or just got overwhelmed with all the new concepts and terms. Oneirus especially helped to draw me out some; I remember saying that I was a little shy and he said not to worry. So I didn't. Much.
Anyway, the point is that I think that O is a great guy, and even though I can probably count on my hands the number of times we talked, I still learned a lot from him. He taught me how to get around Heorot, he taught me to post lots and to speak my mind, he taught me that talking to other people isn't really as scary as I always thought it was, and he taught me that friendship is the most increadable experience offered to man (and woman!) kind. Just hearing the way his friends, now my friends as well, talk about him, both when he's present and when he's not, I don't even have to have talked to him to know what a great guy he is. To have so many people of all ethnicities, ages, genders and geographical positions talk about him with such caring~ well, it just makes me hope that he has some clue of the amount of lives (and unlives) he has touched and given greater meaning to.