well, i've successfully avoid my muse up until today. i spent friday night with a bottle of wine and the last four episodes of the second season of 24, which isn't nearly as good as the first season but still has its moments. it doesn't matter really. it's all about keifer sutherland. i don't usually go for blondes, but he's just too cool. i'm curious to see what they've done this season, which i've heard mostly sucks, but the guy that played the pretty principal on buffy the vampire slayer is in it as the president's brother. *wipes drool away* sorry about that. anyway, one glass of wine for each hour, fours hours, and then i was asleep. muse, i mock you! ha ha! yesterday, we spent money on things to try to get our apartment organized and cleaned up to make it easier to move into a real house. and then i spent most of the day roaming the internet and writing scenes in my head. but not on paper, damn it! no, i refused to give in! then we installed the CD burner i bought and watched hockey and football all night. muse is mocked again, mwaha!
today, i cleaned out the office closet. that was scary. i'd forgotten about some of the notebooks i'd kept. the very first journal i ever kept, circa fall of 1988! i was too frightened to read them. trust me, it would be terrifying. these are not typical teenage girl journals, no "i love so and so" or "so and so has a crush on me! he's so cute!" oh no, none of that. this is scary girl in the corner wearing black with a razor blade a match book and scribbling in a notebook ... in blood. this is "heathers" worthy shit. really, really scary. and one day when i'm dead and gone, someone will find these and read them and wonder why i was never locked up in the state mental prison.
anyway. muse has calmed down and agreed to stop pestering me. so i've been able to narrow my work load to three. "the church," "texas," and the raven thing that doesn't have a title yet.
after researching hypnosis and posting a question on the nanowrimo forums, i've decided that i need to redo that whole scene so that either hayden realizes while it's going on that the priest is trying to hypnotize him but isn't successful OR hayden realizes this but is for some reason convinced there's a hypnotic suggestion planted deep in his head, which leads to him hesitating, conrad doing stupid stuff and the conversation that hayden has with taren about getting rid on the suggestion, except that taren is talking about the bottle of bourbon in hayden's desk drawer while hayden is talking about the hypnotic suggestion. it's an amusing scene and i hate to cut it or change it, but we'll have to see what happens after the rewrite of the hypnotizing scene.
duncan and jake just refuse to stop, so "texas" gets to stay on. of course, it needs a better title than that i think. or not. i kinda like that. it works for them. until i come up with something better.
the last needs a title as well. i was thinking for some reason "raven and the red dawn," but that sounds like ... i don't know. something it isn't. "raven's dream" is probably what i'll end up using, since i've decided that's the basic premise. raven has a dream of the apocalypse, tells everyone about it because he believes it's an important dream, but no one believes the dream has any merit; they all think it's some kind of elaborate trick. but it's not, and so raven sets out to prove to them that he's not trying to trick them and maybe find a way to stop the world from dying. i still need to reread the book of revelations and skim through some more of my research stuff, so this one will stay on simmer rather than full boil.
hopefully this will get me through march or so without any hitches. and then i can worry about the rest of the detective stories and all the other bits and pieces of things i've got floating around. but i'm still left with a problem. where do i start? better think of something because the football game starts at eight or something like that. and this is a game i don't wanna miss!