Reality
I have scars to prove the pain
I've seen horror as a child
Raped and robbed of innocence
I'm told I'm not the one to blame
Will this all make me a better person
Now I've got nothing but a deep depression
I hurt others with my emotions
Thoughts of suicide run through my mind
I need time to unwind
I listen but I am not heard
I cannot give trust from a person's word
I've been betrayed too many times
Fooled and lied to by lovers
I'm left to do nothing but wonder
What did I do this time how was it my fault
Self esteem is far below average
To be told to stop pitying myself
Well tell me how you thought it felt to be tricked
By the wicked and cruel
Taught physical love but not emotional caring
I can feel my heart once again tearing
It's all my fault I'm a curse
My life is no good it will only get worse
The cuts on my arms show fear
Where am I headed death feels near
Those I care about don't show it back
There is something not in me
Something I must lack
How do I get those people to love me
When I bairly love myself
I cheer up and think happy
But I'm always brought back down
I'm not meant to experience beauty
You get sick of me when I say
I'm ugly but you don't of me that way
Tell me how can you teach a child
That has been insulted and tossed out
That they are wanted and cared for
For years they have heard bad
Now they can only be sad
Think the world tries to be kind
But feel as if all you've done is lied
You cannot tell me one thing
When I've grown up believing another
Blame it on yourselves
Blame it on society
I don't feel good I'm sick from my past
I know that my happiness will never last
-
Me
|Poems|Home|
Email: lilearthangel2k2@yahoo.com
