1:22am
The number of times I acutely missed Shaughn today is astronomical. I thought about keeping a tally at one point, but decided I would surely lose count.
Robert and I ventured not only out of the house today, but out of Frankston and into the city. An exciting excursion indeed. We didn't get our act together to go until much later than planned due to an unexpected phone call from Miwa and lots of good old fashioned procrastination. Consequently, we decided to skip the Queen Victoria Market for today and instead wandered quite aimlessly along rainy Melbourne streets (it was hot out when we left Frankston) stopping to look at touristy souvenier's or in shops like a mixture between Alternations and Stuff back home.
Then we met Souraya at the train station. All of that missing Shaughn stuff from the first paragraph was a direct result of nearly everything that occurred after this point in the story. Robert and Souraya are awfully cute together. And good for each other, I can tell because I've never seen or imagined Robert so completely giddy as he was tonite. They were both quite silly actually and this led Souraya to believe that my contrasting quietness meant that she (they) was annoying me. This was not the case. If anything, I was annoyed by this pesky ocean between me and my love. Shaughn and I are a very different couple, but still, seeing Robert and Souraya together made me miss him more than I ever have. So I was feeling a little sad about being so far away from the person that makes me smile like they were smiling and consequently, I came off as, at best, a little anti-social. I explained tihs to Robert later and he said that he had that all figured out before I said it and that he felt a little bad about it. I didn't want him to feel bad, but it was nice that he noticed.
We ended up going to dinner at this place called "The Planet Cafe" in Fitzroy. We were intending to go someplace called "Vegetarian Orgasm" but ended up not finding it (Souraya thinks she may have imagined it). I had the biggest, most elaborate veggie burger I've ever seen there. I could only eat half. I didn't make for a very good dinner table conversationalist. I mostly just stared at my food. Souraya was feeling generous and paid for the meal. I didn't remember to thank her until later. I like everyday kindnesses.
We waited for a tram outside the restaurant. I took a photo of Robert and Souraya on a bench in front of a plant nursery that smelled fantastic. I tried not to look at the way they were comfortable in each other's arms and instead paid excessive attention to properly framing the shot.
We met Souraya's friend Andre back in the city (a nice looking boy in pvc pants) and headed to Souraya's place where we met Pru (who asked me about the presence of a goth culture in Canada...I didn't know what to say). Andre put on some Depeche Mode entirely too loud and the girls were drinking warm free champagne.
The whole thing made me feel like I was 17 again.
Shortly, Robert and I had to leave to catch the last train to Frankston (now I have the Monkees in my head). I know he would've liked to stay and felt vaguely bad about being his reason to leave, but I really needed to get home. The combination of all that walking and fresh air and the remnants of jet lag were really working against me.
Robert and I had great conversations on the way home about things as varied as peanuts and the art of female standing urination. I feel closer to him right now than I ever have. And in a completely unsexual way. How refreshing and mature of me. Yay for me. Personal and intimate interaction with a person of the opposite sex without sexual overtones of any kind. Yay indeed.
I'm getting silly now. Can hardly hold my head up. Time for sleep. 1:54am
10:28pm
Today I did absolutely nothing except talk to Shaughn which I did for several hours. I feel good about that.
Tomorrow we're going to the beach. I'm going to step in the ocean, even if it is too cold to swim still. Shaughn said the ocean's a nice place to be and I've never seen one before. 10:31pm
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