7:02pm
A very full day indeed this has been.
Robert was on the computer this morning when I usually go online to talk to Shaughn so I kept myself busy until he was done. Then a weird thing happened to the computer and the password was mysteriously lost. Robert, in his haste to get his gothic looking clothes together for a "Queen of the Damned" wardrobe meeting, could not for the life of him remember it. And now Robert is gone until tomorrow. No matter, it will probably be good for me to have an excuse to stay away from the computer for a while.
That's not what I thought this morning though when an uncontrollable urge to talk to my beloved made me grab my mother's phone card and dial a complicated series of numbers until I heard his voice at the other end of the line. He was pleasantly surprised and I couldn't stop crying. I was beginning to forget how beautiful his voice sounds. It was a good idea. We talked for probably much too long about inconsequential things, it didn't matter, the point was just to share our voices. I told him about how the ocean makes me feel and that I don't even miss him when I'm sitting by it because there he doesn't seem so far away.
I harbour an unecessary amount of anxiety since I left Canada, but when I watch the ocean I feel none of it. Robert said that there's a scientific reason for that, but I can't remember what it is and science matters little to me anyway. All I know is that on the beach, my muscles don't hold stress, the lump in my throat telling me to cry goes away and I feel close to home.
I went into Frankston with Angela. She needed to get a birthday present for Aileen and I had to mail a letter to my boy. We walked Robert to the train station carrying his clothes.
I had a good time with Angela today. I like her very much. I seem to be spending more time with every member of the family but Robert. It's probably just as well. Robert will be busy with this movie stuff pretty soon. There are certain parts of both Angela and Alex's personalities that I don't get from Robert anyhow: from Alex I tend to gleen sort of a child-like wonder about things (Robert's much too jaded for that) and Angela and I share similiar anxieties about the city and trams and getting lost that Robert just doesn't understand.
So the next very exciting thing that happened today is that I got a gig for tomorrow afternoon. Angela and I stopped for coffee (strawberry milk for me, satisfying a month-long craving I couldn't appease in the presence of Shaughn) at this place called "Heart 'n Soul" that Angela frequents. We spoke to the very groovy owner (who's name I can't remember now) and arranged a bit of a show during the busy lunch hours tomorrow. The place and the people who work there apparently have quite a lot of connections to other cafes, clubs and such venues where, if they dig my stuff, I may be suggested as a performer. So this could be the start of something. Whether it is or isn't, I'm happy just to play a show in Australia and "Heart 'n Soul" seems like a good place to do it. The lady listened to my CD and everyone seemed impressed. I think the whole Canadian thing is going to turn out to be a big novelty selling point with people. Which is good because I'm relying on audience donations for this show (and free food). It occurred to me on the way home that I'd have to practice my songs that I haven't played in almost a month. This guitar makes them sound very different.
I went for a walk with Angela and Alex to the milk bar. Angela bought Alex ice cream and this made him hyper and start to annoy and embarrass Angela. It made me miss my little brother.
When we got home I went for a swim in the backyard pool. It was colder than I expected, so it took me a long time to get in. Once in though, it was lovely despite the sun deciding to hide behind the clouds. I actually swam (no really, Steph!) which I haven't done in a long while. I'm terribly out of shape though. Now that it's getting hot, I think I'll take advantage of that pool more often.
I'm very tired now. It's early, but it's been a long day. 7:43pm
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