Dear Diary,
Wow! It's been two years since I last wrote. A lot has happened. Umm, where
to start? Shannon died at the concert. Right after we got off stage. I don't
remember crying so hard. Well, when my dad died. I didn't go to her funeral.
I couldn't. I wanted to remember the happy, warm, alive Shannon. Not the
cold, dead, fake lookin' Shannon. Rachel and Jake married in the spring.
They
are expecting a kid any day now. I'm still with Brian and I love him to
death. I know he loves me too. Whenever I look into his blue eyes I can see
it. I wish there was some way I could tell him. Just saying 'I love you'
isn't enough. I know he's the one. Yes, the magical one. I wish I could get
enough courage to tell him this. Oh well. That's life. Wait, Idea!!
Ding!
Ding! Ding! Light bulb. I shall write him a letter! He's in Europe now, but
jive can get this letter to him.
Dear Brian,
As you know, I'm the biggest wuss in the world, and as much as I would like
to tell you in person, I wouldn't be able too. I love you Brian. I know you
know that, but those three words cannot do justice for me to tell you how
much I care for you. I used to think that I knew what love is. I didn't. Know
I do. When I wake up in the morning no matter how bad my day is, I don't
care. As long as I can hear your voice. I miss not being with you, even if
you just went to get a drink. I don't even care that I have to share you with
millions of girls. Just as long as I'm the one in your arms. Does any of this
make sense? I love you Brian. That's the only way to say it. Your the only
one I wanna be with baby. I love you. I better go.
Love,
LO
I'll tell you when I get a reply. See ya!
Dear diary, it's been a week since I last wrote. Everyday I hold my breathe
until the mail comes. Everyday so far there's been no reply. I haven't talked
to Brian on the phone, because Jive says we can only talk once a week.
They
say its better for both our careers. Next week I leave on my own European
tour, and I don't know what I'm going to do. I know that I will meet up with
Brian in Italy, which is in our second week. I can't wait. Better go, that's
the phone. ~LO
Hey~
I'm in Europe, two days until I see Brian again. I talked to him on the
phone, and he mentioned nothing about it. I'm beginning to wonder if he got
it. Maybe he did and he doesn't want to tell me that he doesn't feel the
same. I will die. I will honestly die. I got to go. Time for us to go on!
~LO
Hello!
I'm so happy! I floating on cloud nine! I'm so happy! I feel like I could
fly! La La La.
Sorry. I can't wait to see Brian tomorrow. I better go!
Love ya!
LO!
The next day I got off the bus and looked around for Brian. It had been
two months since I last saw him. I missed him, but I didn't want anyone to
know that. I don't know why. I just like to hide my feelings. I lay down on
a hill near the parking lot and closed my eyes.. It was hot. Too hot. I heard
someone come sit next to me. I sat up and looked into the most beautiful blue
eyes.
"Hey baby." Brian said
"Brian..." I said. I leaned over and hugged him.
"I missed you."
"I missed you too. I love you."
"I love you too." He kissed me. It was the best thing ever. Being in his
arms. Hell, just being with him! But something was bugging me...
"Did you get my letter?" I asked
"Ummm..." He looked nervous.
"Brian." I said softly. I looked into his eyes. I couldn't read them.
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