It’s been a week since Nick’s party and I haven’t seen or spoken to him since. I had just sneaked away at about midnight and gone straight to bed.
Jay arrived yesterday and went straight out again to work. We’re gonna eat together at about 4am and I can’t wait. I need to talk to him, laugh at his jokes and lose myself in his arms. Jade is over to greet her brother but she’s not going to stay long.
“And he’s gonna do spag bol, as usual,” I roll my eyes as I finish telling Jade about Jay’s promise to me earlier in the day.
“Figures,” she laughs.
“Yeah,” I grin. “I’m so lookin’ forward to it. He’s the only guy I can REALLY talk with…” I trail off as I realise Jade isn’t listening. “Hello?!”
“Uh, sorry,” she mutters and I follow her gaze to the TV where MTV is playing without sound. I realise they’re premiering the NSync Girlfriend video and switch the sound back on. “Great,” she mutters as her face appears on-screen with JC. They are laughing and look totally in love.
“Maybe he won’t see it,” I try to make her feel better.
“As if,” she sighs. “It’s gonna really hurt him. Damn, why’d I have to do that video?!”
“You didn’t know what was goin’ to happen,” I shrug. “Nobody did.”
“But LOOK!” she exclaims, angry at herself. “I look like I’m his girlfriend! How could I have thought that doing that wouldn’t hurt Brian in some way?!”
“I dunno.”
“I’m so dumb,” she mutters and I decline to comment. “Ugh.”
“It’ll be ok,” I tell her just as the door opens.
“JAY!” we both yell and run out into the hallway to greet him.
“Whoa!” he flattens himself up against the wall as we throw ourselves on him. “Hey!”
“I missed you!” Jade exclaims as he picks her up in a big hug.
“Missed you too pookie!” he laughs and lets go of her to hug me. “You too Ali.”
“You look good,” I tell him as we all walk back into the lounge and sit down.
“Why thanks,” he drawls and I colour up slightly.
He really DOES look good, good enough to cover with kisses and… I shake myself out of my thoughts and try to concentrate on the banter going on between brother and sister. Instead I find myself studying Jay’s face intently, comparing him to Nick. They are total opposites. Nick is blonde, blue-eyed and innocent looking. Jay is dark, brown-eyed and dangerous-looking. How can I be so attracted to both of them?!
After leaving Jay and Ali, I meet AJ and Kevin for dinner. Brian is playing a charity basketball game with Nick and I hope he hasn’t seen the Girlfriend video yet. I want the chance to warn him, make sure he knows it’s only acting. Lunch goes well and I drink a little more wine than I should. I think it’s cos I’m nervous about telling Brian about the video. Kevin heads off to the restroom and AJ pulls his chair closer to mine.
“Ok, what’s up?”
“What?” I look at him.
“I know you too well Jady,” he says quietly. “There’s somethin’ on your mind.”
I sigh heavily and shrug lightly. “It’s just another of my dumb ideas coming back to bite me in the ass.”
“And what a fine ass it is too,” he jokes lightly before eyeing me seriously. “C’mon Jady, tell me. You know you can trust me.”
“I know,” I smile slightly. “Ok, I saw MTV premiere the NSync Girlfriend video this morning.”
“That’s how you met JC right?”
“Uh huh. It’s AWFUL Aje,” I tell him. “I look like I’m totally into him and it even looks like we kiss. I mean we didn’t… In the video anyway,” I correct. “Brian’s gonna find it totally disrespectful and hurtful and it’ll bring the whole thing back!”
“It probably will,” AJ agrees. “But he loves you and you love him. I mean, in the end you chose him.”
“Uh huh,” I say quietly and he lifts my chin up with his finger.
“You chose him right?”
“Kinda…”
“Jade,” he murmurs. “Tell me.”
“I chose JC but he had already gone,” I confess miserably and AJ looks shocked. “And then Brian found me and I stayed. So I did choose him really, I mean I coulda called JC and asked him to come back. Or gotten a car and followed him.”
“Whoa…” AJ mutters and shakes his head. “Brian must never find that out. Who knows?”
“Just you and my mom.”
“It better stay that way,” he tells me and I nod.
“You think I’m evil now,” I say.
“I don’t,” he touches my hand softly. “I just think you make things harder than they need to be sometimes. But you’re my friend and I love you.”
“I love you too,” I tell him and lean forward to hug him.
Of all the conversations he has overheard in his entire life, Kevin never wanted to erase one from his mind so much as the one between AJ and Jade. What the hell does he do with that information?
“Honey I’m home!” I yell as I shut the door behind me.
There’s no response but I can hear the shower running so I dump my bag on the floor and head upstairs to our bedroom. Brian’s sport kit is all over the bed and I figure he just got back from playing basketball. I giggle to myself and peel off my clothes before walking into the bathroom and pulling open the shower curtain. Brian has his back to me and is about to pour the shampoo out onto his hand.
“Let me do that,” I tell him as he turns around.
I step into the shower and close the curtain behind me, taking the shampoo from him as he looks me up and down with a slow grin.
“Hey baby,” he hooks his arm around my waist and pulls me underneath the water as he kisses me.
I feel his body begin to stir next to mine and break the kiss with a small giggle. I turn him around so he has his back to me and pour some shampoo onto my hand. I start to lather up his hair.
“Did you win the game?”
“Nuh huh,” he mutters and I laugh, kissing his shoulder.
“Aw, never mind baby.”
“Good meal with Kevin and AJ?”
“It was real nice,” I tell him and run my fingers slowly through his hair, massaging his scalp gently.
“Mm, that feels good,” he leans back into me and moves his arms so that he can rest his hands on my butt.
I move as close as I can get to his body and his hands slowly massage my skin. I finish shampooing his hair and change the angle of the shower head so that it rinses out the shampoo. He pulls my body even closer and I gasp as he pushes his butt back into mine. I let my hands slowly travel along his chest and down to his hard penis, stroking it gently as his head lolls back onto my shoulder and his knees buckle slightly. I let go of him and gently kiss along his neck until I get to his earlobe. I suck it gently and he moans softly. He turns around so that we are facing each other and runs his hands along my body and down to my wetness, feeling how much he has turned me on. He slips two fingers inside me and I moan, feeling my knees begin to give way. I push against his hand and wrap my arms around his neck. He withdraws his fingers and pushes me up against the shower wall, kissing me hard as the water beats down on us both. I spread my legs slightly and pull him as close to me as I can, gripping his butt with my hands. He breaks our kiss to look deep into my eyes, knowing just how much I want him right now. He smiles slowly and steps back to kiss his way down my body. I tangle my fingers in his wet hair and gently pull him back up to my lips, wrapping one leg around his waist as he finally thrusts inside me. We both gasp loudly and I feel him fill me perfectly. My arms tighten around his neck as his thrusts get deeper and deeper inside of me.
“God I love you so much, my circle baby,” he tells me breathlessly, smoothing the wet hair back off my face.
“I love you right back B-Bear,” I gasp as he hits my spot. I scream and hold onto him even tighter as I orgasm against his hard body. “Oh God,” I gasp as the tingles shoot all along my spine and out the edge of my toes.
He thrusts harder and harder, his eyes closing as he comes inside me. I feel him fill my body and cling to him as I orgasm again in his arms. He pushes himself even deeper into me and I moan loudly, feeling my body beg for more.
“Don’t stop baby, please don’t stop.”
“C’mon,” he murmurs and moves me away from the wall, lifting me up so that my legs are around his waist.
He draws back the shower curtain and carries me out into the bedroom, his hardness still inside me. The movement of his hips against mine as he walks makes me moan in ecstasy and I grind myself hard against him. He stops and holds onto me tightly as he thrusts into me again.
“Oh God baby,” he moans as I feel him come inside me again.
He slowly lowers us both down to the floor and starts to slowly rock our bodies together, his arms around me. He looks into my eyes as I orgasm then lowers his head to kiss my lips, his tongue dipping gently into my mouth as my breathing slows down. I run my hands over his back, resting them lightly on his butt as he breaks off our kiss. We look at each other and start to laugh.
“We really should take more showers together,” he grins, rubbing his nose against mine in an Eskimo kiss.
“Definitely,” I agree. “You still have soap in your hair.”
“So do you,” he laughs and gently moves off of me before pulling me up. He leads me back into the shower where he soaps up my body gently and shampoos my hair before rinsing his own out.