In my eyes it's so clear-In my eyes Your Soul dissappears NAME: Lucy, Broken Halo Babydoll, Lucy Angel/Kitten, LICKYFACE, Lulu, LaaLaa, Angry Kitten Grrl...etc...

LOCATION: Under the sun and stars.

NATIONALITY: My mother is full blooded German. She even has a small accent. And my father is Black.

PETS: One Kitty named "Loniz" and 2 fish crink and nesta, and a bottonm feeder names nubby lipshitz.

RELATIONSHIP: I really liked this one person who lived a few hours away from me, and i cared so deeply for them, and now they are seeing someone, i am not saying i expect this person to be waiting for me, but you know, it kind of hurts. i am lonely at the moment, but hopefully i will be okay, or maybe someone who really likes me and makes me feel human will come along into my life.

TASTES: I like all kinds of different people. If i am into someone i do not care where they are from or how they dress, if i like someone-i like them. I would like to of course be physically attracted to the person I am with, I want someone with a big heart but not apathetic towards their own well being. Someone who makes me smile when they look at me, someone who known how to makes me laugh. I want someone who will lie on the grass with me and not worry about the damn bugs (even though they are oogie) and stare at the stars, cuddle in bed, not make sex a priority, someone who will share themselves with me, and parts of themselves no one else knows...I want someone who will be there for me regardless of what is going on with my emotions or life. If someone decided to be loyal to me, i'd hope they keep their word. I really cant handle people who lie to me anymore though. I believe everyone has someone...and I hopefully will find my someone soon, damnit, i am so imapatient....

DECISIONS: I have made a lot of hard decisions in my life, and I think that I have grown a lot from all of my past experiences. I feel a need to be liberated, and I am the only who can do that. But I know that if I am able to survive myself at this point in my life, then I am able to survive anything. I have made a lot of decisions that I am not proud of and mistakes are a given. I have done things, though, that I am proud to say I have done, and that I will never want to change. I do not regret a thing, and it is hard to not regret things, but I do not regret the things I have done or words I have spoken. There are things I wish I had said thought about before i did them, but nothing I would change. There are a few situations though, which involve me getting physically hurt, where I know I did not deserve what was given to me, that I wish did not happen. Those are not regrets though; those are things that NO ONE should have to go through. My mind has gone through a lot, but still,I remain a child.... Forever.

PERCEPTION: The way I see the world is through my eyes and through the eyes of everyTHING around me. I stand back from myself sometimes, just to see what everyone else sees. When I can live vicariously through someone else, while still being who I am, and feeling how I feel at the same time, makes me happy. To me, what I know in my life so far, is that all that counts at this point is perception. Being able to use yours and being able to see others. It is perception.

IMAGINATION: All of my friends tell me that the one quality that they admire in me, is my imagination. Katherine tells me that I am a perpetual child. I believe it because I see how I act, and I wonder how the hell I am the way I am. When I look at something, for example; say a glass of water, when I stare at it, I will actually start to be inside of the water, I will be a particle floating around in that clear, crystal liquid stream. It's amazing...I love it. I like living in my own mind.I feel so happy and free sometimes, when I can exaggerate myself to the point of animation. I like my imagination. It's what makes me-me.

APPEARENCE: I look different from day to day. I have no labels on me, and I have no specific genre that I belong to. I have been in every scene I can think of and I have never labeled myself a Punk/Goth/Raver/Clubkid or anything like that. I dress the way I want to. Sometimes it is in little babydoll shirts, a skirt and boots. Sometimes it is in giant sheet pants and a hoodie. It all depends on how I feel like dressing. I design my own clothes as well, and I also wear what best expresses my persona and my mind. Whether it is in stages of my life, or different days. I love having choices. I like not looking the same way all the time. It is a part of me. If I am comfortable-I am happy. I stand with my toes in, and I walk with my toes in. I look like a confused kitten most of the time, a bumble bee with a voice box at other times. (if i can describe it like that) Most people say that I look like a babydoll in my gestiction or when I smile...do I? I like to be the way I am, and I never ever ever try to be something I am not. I like being real. That is what I am.

LOVES: My dreadlocks, Angels, Faeries, Music, 1st ammendment, Choice, people watching, Dan, Candy necklaces, KITTENS , fluffy stuff, clothing, SHOES, Katherine(my heart and best friend, and no she is not my girlfriend) Cheesy 80's horror movies, Coffee, Ice Water, Being warm, Being cold, Sleeping, Stretching, People who are open minded and do not judge you by who you hang out with or what you look like, kisses , huggles, DJ, Singing, showers, chinchilas, glitter, piercing(s), Matt, Dancing, smiling, Clubbing, Talking late at nite til 4am with some good friends, nightmare before christmas, power puff girls, cow and chicken, vegetarian friendly products , animals, love, sweetness, caring, people who will compliment you without knowing you just because, sleeping in, LAUGHING , Photography, Art, Expression, emotion in people, when someone tells you how much they care about you out of nowhere just so you know , vanilla ice cream with rainbow sprinkles, fantasy, venting, the stray cats, poetry, things that make me smile, people who do not care what other people think because the are having fun, astrology, stars, katelyn, devon, getting letters in the mail, sending letters, getting presents in the mail, my parents, my friends , glittery band aids, stickers, colorful things, glass, mirrors(although i hate looking in them), charlottes web, pictures, analyzing, my camera, feathers, safety pins, platforms, embracing life, clouds, nail polish, bunni rats, poofs, when someone holds my hand because i am sad or because they want to , when people confide in you because they trust you, loyalty, massages, hairpins, water, snow, rain, happiness, caring, cuddling, showing my affection, people who are not close minded and won't judge someone by what they listen to, designing clothes, Germany, traveling, david, nice weather, icicles, snowflakes, car rides with lots of music, sleeping once again, iridesent stuff, velvet, vinyl, old blues singers, drawing, painting, being at katherines house, in company of people who love me, writing, making someone smile or laugh, giving good advice, when someone listens to what i have to say, Gloom Cookie, books, old bookstores, pixies, fairy wings, boots, video games, playing, sleeping, sitting in the grass when we party, laughing really hard, taking bubble baths, blowing bubbles, breezes, fuzzy stuff, 80's music, animation in people, when someone is comfortable around me and can confide in me, and... being myself .

DISLIKES: close mindedness, hate, people who say they like being whipped when they do not realize they are not being whipped-being whipped is what happened to slaves-they are merely just being toyed with by a whip-it's sick (i agree with katherine on that), RACISM, people who are mean to me and my friends, people who cheat, people who are stupid and narcissistic , having to go to the bathroom, being restless, boredom, being sick, nausea, people who act like they are better than everyone when they are no better than anyone-we are all the same, people who put down something they have never expierienced or seen, feeble minds, people who are shallow , people who talk a lot of shit, stinky stuff, wet dog smell, the smell of worms on the sidewalk after it rains, getting sick from everthing because i have such a stong sense of smell, not being able to wake up, Being cold in the morning , Annoying people, being too analytical, people who are to anal and uptight, Smooth Jazz , People who make fun of every single person who listens to Britney spears, nsync, backstreet boys, or hanson because they do not like the music-when all in all the music is what THOSE people like and you dont have to like it and those people are having fun and they are not picking on you for what you listen to so stop being such asses, (that was not directed to EVERYONE just..those people), Not knowing what will happen to me when i die , When i miss things, when i am sad, my depression, being lonely, ennui, sickness, when my pens don't work, Hypocrisy, Assholes, people who break up with you when you have done nothing wrong and then they feel bad and then they try to turn it around on you like it was all your fault, perverts, being wasted, hallucinating, vomiting, migraines, the dumb cat that harrasses my kitty across the street, emotional pain, LIARS!!!!! , Fear, being confused, being left out, alienation, meaningless words that sould never have been said, falling in love and then being hurt severly, getting yelled at, people who are condescending, aerosol spray when it's all over the room and you breathe it in and you choke, meat, animal slaughter, being ice cold, being hot, blunt pain(i do not mind sharp pain), being tired and still wanting to stay up, when my ears pop, getting yelled at for no reason, people who use me or take advantage of me, HATE, SEXISM, RACISM, FEMINISM AND ALL THOSE OTHER ISMS. That is all for now.
FAVORITE MOVIES: Lost Boys, Nightmare Before Christmas, Fight Club, Stigmata, My Own Private Idaho, Gas Food and Lodging, Torch Song Trilogy<--such a good movie if you can ever see it, Labrynth, Instinct, Se7en, Run Lola Run, Romy and Michelles high School Reunion, Empire Records, American Pop, City of Lost Children, Great Expectations, Blue Angel, Some Like It Hot, Willy Wonka (or Charlie) and the Chocolate factory, Depeche Mode videos, The Broken Videos, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, The Addams Family, Dumbo, American Beauty, Lady and the Tramp, Sleeping Beauty, Nightbreed, Dead/Alive, Night of the Demons 1 and 2, 12 Monkeys, In Dreams.
THINGS I LIKE TO DO: I like to paint, jam with my friends,draw, write, design clothing, dance, sing, play, hug, kiss, sleep, hang out with my friends, smoke cigarettes(even though i hate them), drink coffee and water, play with my kitty, work on my series, read books, talk to people on the phone (even though sometimes it bothers me) go shopping, spend time with people i love, laugh, cry, vent, stare out the window, go people watching, organize my stuff, throw things away, thinking, compliment people, always be there for someone.

NOIZE: roni size, TOOL,Anti Flag, Battershell, Bell, And one, Babes in Toyland, Bauhaus, ani difranco, diesel boy, nigel richards, young mc, al green, temptations, the animals, scott henry, perfect circle,Depeche Mode, Lunachicks, Sisters Of Mercy, Drill, Seven Year Bitch, Underworld, Stray Cats, Project86, Delirium, Nine Inch Nails, Wolfsheim, Magnapop,Gitane Demone, Helium, Patti Smith, tricky,switchblade symphony, the goons, Culture Club, siouxsie and the banshees, lords of acid, Atari Teenage riot,Leonard Cohen, Joy Division, Kittie, New order, Hole, The cure, Nick cave and the badseeds, pj harvey, bikini kill, L7, Blondie, Project Pitchfork, Front242, FLA, Casualties, Anti-nowhere league, violent Society, the Vecks, Dead or Alive, Ministry, Apoptygma Berzerk,Mono, The Roots, Exploited, XRaySpex, POE, KMFDM, Snake River Conspiracy, Blindside, portishead,les claypool, primus, pink floyd, That is all i can name for now.
FAVORITE FOODS: Noodles, Ramen, Anything Italian, RICE!, Sushi, Rice, tomato Soup, grilled cheese, pop tarts, ice cream, rice crispies,vegtable crackers and salad.
WHO AM I: I am a person who likes to have fun, a person who likes to help people. I love showing my affection verbally and physically(not sex necessarily) to people. I am a pacifist, an artist and a writer. I like to dance and sing. I love spending time with my friends and drinking coffee, and doing our thing. I do not discriminate against anyone. I treat everyone how the should be treated-as an equal. I love my family and my pets. I try to hold back my anger without using hurtful words. I am anti-racism, sexism, and all those other "ism's." I like to learn about the world and the universe. I am easily *AMUSED* . I like talking to people and getting to know who they are. I am obsessed with kittens. I love reading and all forms of art. I make mistakes. I am human. I think too much. I have rapid thoughts, i am distracted very easily. I love when people help me see things in a different light. I hallucinate due to reasons i do not want to explain. I understand that I will die someday, and that I have to go through tough things in order to appreciate all the good. I do not like to associate with people who are rude, hypocrites, snotty, liars or people who are just horribly nasty and mean. I love animals, I don't eat them. I have no problem with people who eat meat, I just do not believe it is okay to slaughter animals, but there is not much I can do about it. I love the stars. I always think about people who have died that i love. I am usually cold. I have lost a lot of friends. I have ESP. I giggle a lot. I cry a lot too. I am a sensitive person, to people's needs and in general. I rarely watch T.V. I like movies. I am a happy person even though I accept my depression. I am real.
MOMENTS: Sometimes I have these moments where everything, and I mean EVERYTHING seems so perfect and wonderful. I just want to hold everyone and do everything. I want to fly to the moon and lie in the grass, i want to blow kisses to people i do not know. I want nothing else but to let the earth know i love it, and let people know that they will be okay, and to just...be alive. And at these times...my life is getting closer to complete...at these times..I feel so human it is unbelievable.
~I love drinking cold drinks ~Collages are wonderful ~Hoodies are an obsession ~People admire my imagination ~Katherine tells me I am immortilized as a 4 year old ~I have big brown eyes ~I love "people watching" ~I have a photographic memory ~I am obsess with water and showers ~Cleanliness is wonderful ~The tip of my nose is quite cold a lot of the time ~I am obsessed with disposable thermometers ~i like emotional people ~People say I am too empathetic ~My lips are pouty and deep pink ~Plucking my eyebrows is tedious but fun ~The human body is OVERLY interesting ~My septum is pierced ~Independant films are great-no matter how boring ~Art is art. music is music. expression is expression. no question. ~I see fairys ~I like things with feeling not assumption ~i love reading books, classical literature and poetry. ~I like hearing people's lives and their stories. ~warmth is good. ~comfort is good. ~sweetness is wonderful, especially in people. ~I enjoy beautiful weather. ~i loooooooove nature, the outside, i hate bugs though and i have never been camping. ~Snow makes me cry, the fact that tiny sugary soft cold heavenly glittery dust can fall from the sky and never look the same and cover the land in complete icey heaven is so beautiful to me. ~photography is beauty ~i love my friends and all of my family ~i dont truly hate anything ~soda makes my insides feel sticky ~i never pretend to be who i am not. ~i need love, security, sentiment, empathy,freedom, choice,warmth, happiness, passion,stability and a place to rest my head. ~i love my family, i would not be who i am without them. ~pens are good ~i have faith ~Heaven must exist ~I have been called;beautiful,an angel,a kitten, a fairy, a flirt, special, a mistake, important, adorable, sweeter than candy, delicious, perfect, irreplaceable, a memory, a sigh, a bitch, a loser, no one, nothing, gorgeous, a beautiful soul, a place to cry to, a girl, a dork, something i can never have, ugly, babydoll, an artist, a writer, intelligent, admirable, my sweetheart, my angel, my love, my grrl, my sweetie, the one, heaven, hell, my saving grace, someone, lucy, lauren. ~I dont take compliments well, but i still say thank you ~i despise animal cruelty ~babydoll dresses are wonderful ~ankhs are beautiful ~isolation is painful ~i am in love with salamanders, kittens, pandas, bats, angels, fairys, pixys,puppies, babys elephants, giraffes, ostriches, armadillos, and all animals basically. ~underwear is wonderful, especailly shopping for it ~kittens are soft and sweet ~i am bi polar... ~i permanently hallucinate ~i like my boobs, they are wonderful. :) ~sometimes i feel happy ~katherine tells me i am the most sentimental person ~what would we do without a rainbow? ~i love stratchy cottony stuff ~i have a jaw-locking problem ~i trust people pretty easily ~i am obsessed with trapeze grrls and the circus (french, russian, circus de soleil) ~i can dance ~i love going to parties ~b-girls and b-boys are wonderful ~breakbeat rawks ~i am me,lucy,a girl with dreams, a girl with a mind, a girl with a soul, a girl with her own thought and mind.
Thank You's: Tank you to angela for drawing the picture of me,, it is sooooooo beautiful. Thank you to Lisssa for letting me use her face on one of my banners. Thank you to everyone who let me put them on here. Thank you to ALL of my friends for always being themselves around me and being there for me. Thank you for coming to my page and signing the bookie. Thank you to anyone/everyone who has helped me through anything or has helped me. Oh, yes, and all of the things on this page that I have done are copyright, so please dont steal anything, if you are going to , please mail me about it first. Thank you all.
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