<font face="Exotc350 Lt BT"> ~*~ Tragically Beautiful ~*~

~~ Tragically Beautiful ~~

I've heard them ask about your solitude And bitch about your lack of gratitude Who cares if they think you're out of tune I know better.... I've held my breath just to hear your voice A bitter angel's only chosen noise My broken heart for your broken toys What's better?.... You never let one second pass you by But those seconds became minutes & miles And memories & wonder whys; Remember? I've held my breath just to hear your dreams Full of crowns & casualties All the doubts & wait & see's I know better.... If there's such a thing as the tragically beautiful Such a thing as passion & wishful thinking And when I see the tragically beautiful I close my eyes & drown like crystal sinking I'd leave everything behind If your tragedy was mine..... -C.

~*~ The Magi ~*~

He dripped silent like a candle But torched me like a fire on the coldest day I stare, the cat has got my tongue a 5 foot 6 heroine with nothing to say… I’ve been lost in your reflection Aimless of direction from your bottle of rain Maybe your life is like a window but you avoid transparency like the plague… And he’s watching me, but he’s watching himself Never keeps from being heard I’m right here for as long as it takes but you never say a word (so listen) You’re a dream of consciousness Reality & gorgeousness You could be my magi star Complicated, ballroom, bar So give me more than just a glance And save yourself for one last dance I’ve been meaning to tell you all But my heart is not ready for the fall… Maybe the boy has such an ego And thinks that I’m not good enough to march his parade It’s easy trying to forget Trying to tell myself it’s just a charade… But I’m still lost in your reflection Dodging all deception while saving face Are you alone for the fashion Cuz someone like you is a sad thing to waste And I’m watching him but I’m watching myself An acid bath of conflicts I feel a chain reaction; it’s a chain on my neck My passion; my conviction (so listen) You’re a dream I happened upon Royalty and vagabond You could be my magi crown My celebrated barroom clown I live inside my aching head And sink inside this empty bed Someday I hope to tell you all But now my heart’s not ready for the fall…… -C. 2/27/96

~*~ Season ~*~

Tear drops fall down the mirror to the floor Where I see myself much clearer The dark is a friend & holds the key to the door To the room where I’ve locked all my fears… Sometimes I can’t see tomorrow Sometimes I forget yesterday Sometimes memories are better faded Sometimes I wish they’d only stay… Cloudless skies rarely graze my window My curtains keep the rainbows black Starry eyes rarely gaze into mine The hardest lesson’s never looking back… Sometimes I can’t see the future Sometimes I forget the past Sometimes memories are better jaded Sometimes I wish they’d only last… If it rains forever where will I be? Seems like it’s raining forever Did the fairytale end unhappily……. –C. 3/96

~*~ Halter ~*~

Dear someone, can you torch my house so I can’t live there anymore So I can never look back So I can learn from all the words I wished I’d never heard and live with all the pain I wished I’d never learned Dear someone, dear anyone… I’m still a child sometimes Playing with matches & paper dolls You crowned me with your sickness, silence & shallow heart… Dear someone, can you tell me that the black sheep isn’t always so bad So I can breath again So I can keep all the scars I hold as trophies And destroy a world that helped betray me Dear someone, dear anyone… I’m still a child sometimes Wishing on fainting stars You killed me with your perfume, punches & prison bars….. my memory is my halter….. –C. 11/15/96

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