" Just hang in there, you're doing just fine." Nick said placing a kiss on my forehead.
" Nick, I don't know if I can. It hurts so much." I said leaning my head on his shoulder.
" I know it does, but you have to be strong. Do it me?" he stated.
" Ok....... I'll do it for you." I said exhaling.
" Don't worry, your contraction is almost over."
" There....... man, that was the worst one." I said taking a deep breath.
" Sure was, I thought I was going to lose my hand for a minute there."
" Oh Nick, that's nothing yet." I laughed.
" Geeze, I can't wait." he said with little emotion on his face.
" So how long have we been here?" I asked.
" I'd say a good 4 hours."
" How much longer is this going to take?" I questioned.
" You're asking the wrong person sweetie. I wish it were over just as much as you want it to be. I hate seeing you so much pain."
" You're lucky you're not the one going through with this." I laughed.
" I won't fight with you there."
~ knock knock~
" Hey Tatum, I'm Dr. Smith, I just came to check up on you, and see if you needed anything."
" Other than the pain I'm having every 4-min., I'm doing just fine." I said with a laugh.
" That's good just give me a buzz if you need anything."
" I'll be sure to do that. Also, is it ok if walk around, I'm tired of just laying here."
" Yeah, I don't want you to feel that you can't do anything. Feel free to walk around if you want." she said.
" Thanks." I said.
" I'll see you in a little while Tatum, take care of yourself." she stated as she left the room.
" Alright I get to get out of bed." I said.
" Are you sure you want to do this?" Nick asked.
" Yeah, I'm tired of just lying here not doing nothing."
" Ok, let's go." he said helping me out of bed.
While walking up and down the hallways of the hospital, it was still hard to believe that the time was now. Just to think, we'll be seeing our son in couple of hours. I wonder what that will be like, whether he has Nick's eyes or my eyes. Whether he'll have blonde hair, or brown hair like me. It really doesn't matter to me at all what he look's like, just as long he's happy and healthy, that's all that matter's to me.
Being able to hold him, and take care of him for the rest of his life is something that I'll cherish more than life itself. No matter what he does, I'll always love him with all my heart. Even though, he caused me and Nick to have our little disagreement about whether or not we should bring him in this world or not, I'm glad I made the choice to let him enjoy life with us.
" What's with that smile on your face?" Nick asked.
" Oh nothing, just excitement. Wondering what he's going to look like."
" Me too. I bet he's going to look like you." he said.
" Na, he's going to look like you. With your beautiful blue eyes, and blonde hair." I said wrapping my arm around his waist.
" I really don't care what he look likes, just as long as he's healthy."
" Me too."
" Hey you want to go stop by the waiting room to see your parents?"
" Yeah sure."
Going through the stages of labor made me feel as if it would never end. Will it end? All the pain and suffering, what for? How come labor can't be painless? Is there something that us women have done to deserve all this pain? Oh well, in the long run, I'm sure all the pain and suffering that I'm going through now will be all worth it. Right?
As we made our way over to the waiting room to see both our parents and friends, I noticed who the hallway was filled with the press along with of course the fans. Nick and I just looked at each other and knew that we all should just head back to the room.
" Maybe we all should just go back to my room. There's no way we're going to be in peace here." I said to all in the room.
" Are you sure they're going to let us all in the room?" asked my mom.
" They can't say anything. So are you guys coming?" I responded.
" Yeah of course. I won't miss my grandson being born for the world!" said Jane.
We all made our way back to my room while, until a sudden contraction creeped up on me. To me, Nick had the look of, What-should-I-do? There's not much he could do anyways. He should be lucky he's not the one going through this. The only thing that helps was just being held in Nick's arms, knowing that he'll be there for me to the end. Hearing him say, ' you can do it' made me feel good that I had gotten that far into the labor.
" Are you ok?" Nick said rubbing my back.
" Yeah." I sighed.
" We better get you back to the room." he said, helping the rest of the way back to my room.
" Ok."
Having knowing that what I'm going through is going to get worse made me want to just give up and ask for anything that could take the pain away. The thing that has stopped me from doing that was Nick. Even though I know he never said anything like that, I feel like I should see if I can do this on my own without any types of medicine to cure my pain. Although if any guy was in my shoes right now, they would have asked for something for the pain with in the first 30 min. of there labor. Am I right or wrong? Guys may be stronger than women may but there is no way they could ever handle this. Although I'd like to see them try. That would be something to laugh at.
" Hey Brian, where's the rest of the guys?" Nick asked as he stood beside me on my bed.
" They management needed them to stay behind to finish the interview and the autograph session."
" Are they coming?" he questioned.
" Yeah, but I'm not sure what time. You know how long that takes."
" Man....... I wanted them to be here."
" They'll be here, don't worry about it." said Brian.
" Nick....." I said sensing another contraction coming along.
" Breathe, breathe, come on Denise, breathe, breathe-" he said before being cut off by me.
" Nick, shut up, what does it look like I'm doing?!"
" I'm sorry baby-" he said placing his hand on my back.
" Nick don't touch me!"
" Nick man, just chill. Maybe she just needs to deal with this on her own. You can't really take the pain away." Brian said.
" Are you sure?" he responded.
" Positive. Beside, they always say things like that when they're in labor."
" I hope your right Rok."
" Trust me."
" Man why did they have to leave?!" Nick asked in anger.
" Because they didn't think all this was going to happen this quickly." stated Brian.
" Maybe I should go get the doctor. She doesn't look too good." Nick said running his hand through his uncombed hair.
" No, I'll go; you just stay here and be by her side." he said making his way for the door.
" Thanks Brian, I owe you."
" Don't worry about it."
" Denise, Sweetie, Brian went to go get the doctor, everything is going to just fine. Just hang in there, you can do it."
" Nick, I can't do this anymore more, it hurts too much." I said out of breath.
" Yes you can. I believe in you. You can do it."
" When is it going to be over?" I cried.
" I don't know sweetie, just hang in there. You're doing great." he said placing his hand on my forehead.
" How is she doing?" said Dr. Smith as she entered the room.
" I don't know ma'am, it seems as if it's time."
" Let me just get my gloves on and I'll check her to see if whether or not she's ready to deliver." she said.
" Ok, thanks."
" Do you think it's time?" said Brian.
" I think it is. Look at her."
" Denise, hang in there. Me and Nick are here with you; everything is going to be just fine." Brian said.
" Ok, everything is all set to go. Lets get the show on the road." said Dr. Smith.
" You hear that Denise, our son is coming!" Nick said with excitement in his voice.
" Let me call the nurses in here and we'll be ready to go."
" Wow, I can't believe this. I'm going to see my Godson being born." Brian said in amazement.
" Yeah it is wonderful."
Can it be that in just a few short min. I'll be holding my son in my arms? Is it, or is it not amazing? Nothing could take away the excitement that has been given to me these whole nine months. Well..... I can't really say that, how about these whole five months. Even though I had my thoughts of whether or not to have this baby, I'm glad I did. Look what it has brought to both me and Nick's life.
A life filling with happiness and never ending love. The love that I have for him is something I've never had for anyone. In a way I guess you can say is the first for me. My first love, my first kiss, my first one to make love to, and the first one to ever tell me that he loves me.
" Denise, come on baby, you can do it!" Nick said encouraging me to keep pushing.
" Nick I can't do this!" I said wanting to give up.
" Denise don't you ever say that. I believe in you enough to know that you can do it. There's nothing more that I hate other than seeing you in pain. Do this for me, please." begged Nick.
" Nick, I.... I..."
" Yes you can, it's almost over. Just a few more pushes and it'll all be over. Please Denise, do it for me. You know how much I love you and would anything for you. All I am asking is that you do this for me. Please." he said giving as much support to me as possible.
" Ok Nick........ I'll do it for you."
" That's my girl. Now let's get this over with." he said placing his hand in mine.
" Yeah."
"1....2.....3.....4....5....6....7....8....9....10. Now breath. You're doing great." He said placing a kiss on my forehead.
" Ok Denise, just one more push and we'll all be done with this." said Dr. Smith.
" Just one more?" I stated.
" Yes, one more, and then you can hold your son in your arms."
" Come one Denise." Brian said.
Hearing Nick encouraging me throughout the whole delivery made me realize how much he actually loves me more than he love's himself. Is it possible for someone to love someone more than life it's self? The sound of Nick counting down the last time was a big relief knowing that when he reached one, that it would all be over and done with. Knowing that in a couple of days we'll have a new member of our family living with us from now on.
I closed my eyes causing the visions of all the happy times Nick and I had together flashed before my eyes, making me more excited about what the future will hold now that we're about to have a son. The sounds of amazement filled the room along with the cry a baby, along with tears of joy flowing down Nick's cheek causing me to do the exact same thing.
" Denise, look at our son." Nick said not taking his eyes off our newborn son.
" He's beautiful." I said pulling Nick in for a kiss.
" I love you." He said as his tears pressed against my tears that ran down my face.
" I love you ."
" I'm so proud of you Denise, I knew you could do it."
" Thank you for your support." I stated.
" You're welcome. But don't thank me, thank God for giving you the strength to undergo such a hard delivery."
"You're right, I'll be sure to do that a little later."
" Just rest, you deserve it." he said.
" Wow, look at him Nick. It's he beautiful?" I asked.
" Yes, he takes after his mother."
" Yeah, but he looks just like his father."
" I love you, and I am so proud of you. I promise I'll make it all up to you."
" Nick, don't. Don't think about what happened in the past. Think about how great life is going to get from this point on."
" You're right. Life couldn't get any better than what it has been since I've met you. I love you." he said placing a gently kiss upon my cheek.
" I love you too."
