Do you know how do people feel
When they make wishes that ain't real
I have those feelings and I despise them
They only makey my poor heart slam
I wish I have a real friend
Who can put my sadness to end
I wish I have a real chum and really know her
Not only around when there is laughter
I wish I have a close bond to my blood
Not the ones who fill my eyes with flood
I wish he is here to make me feel better
Cause I know he wouldn't be bitter
I wish I could scream my painful thought
But instead what I did was fought
I wish I could run
From this so-called fun
I wish I can stop acting
That everything's fine and not flaming
I wish I could stop feeling sad
And stop feeling mad
I wish I could stop ruining my eyes
But how could I do it with these devils in disguise?
I wish I could throw the appearance of unpretty
It's really hard, oh what a pity
I wish I could say something cool
But all I did was saying something stupid and makes me look like a fool
I wish I could write such a beautiful song
Not like what I wrote like a total bonk
I wish I could tell these feelings to someone
But I know it's hard to find the real one
I wish I can throw this thing called fat
Cause it only makes me look like a big rat
I wish they could stop tearing them apart
Don't they know it really breaks my heart?
I wish so much it makes me cry
Cause I know they will fry
Until comes the real one in myself's city
Then only my wishes could be a reality
But maybe they wouldn't but I don't care
Cause now I have a thing I cannot spare
Being happy when the one is around
How I wish I will be found
-Copyright by Sol@^KaOs^
Originally written on September 19, 1999
