Me sick on my mother's bed after just vomiting, pregnant with David last summer

This is the TPN bag that I carried around,

do you see the tube on my leg, that is where the

TPN is and it is going into my arm to David. The

bag was so heavy to carry around but I did it!

On a cloud way up in the sky is

where my little angel baby

is playing in God's playground.

Sitting there with my hand on my belly, I

was always having my hand rest on my belly to let

David know that I knew he was in there and that I

loved him, he would tug me back too.

David's grave, all his decorations for

Valentines Day(when he was concieved), I wanted to

put a lot of that stuff out there for him, I made

the flower arrangement myself, someone stole it not

to long ago, it was out there for a couple of weeks

all the other babies stuff was out there except for

his, and so I plan to make another.

David's grave, mind you, that is not 94',

the camera is off, I just took that a couple of

weeks ago, David won the Winnie the Pooh at Busch

Gardens last summer for him. Most of the other

babies out there have pinwheels so David has two. I

had just taken off his Easter decorations, I should

have taken pictures of those. Next year I will.

David at his sons grave, we went back there

later the afternoon, I wanted to spray the flowers

with water and keep them blooming.

I tried very hard to smile for the picture

when all I wanted to do was cry, so there is my

smile. I wore those colors because I wore white the

day I found out David had died, I wasn't planning

that but it happened, I wanted to do the same the

day I wanted to send him to heaven finally. I hate

wearing black for funerals, this day was a day my

Angel took his wings of flight.

My bestfriend, Joy, she came down here to be

with me, she wanted to come when I was about to give

birth my mother tole me, she called her and gave

her the news. She lives in northern Virginia, and

she got up early in the morning, dropped her son off

at pre-school and drove down here to be with me, I

sure do love my bestfriend, Thank You Joy.

This is Babyrest, where all the little

babies, 0-10 months are buried, it is so peaceful

out there, the other part is where everyone else is

buried.

David and I took turns spraying the flowers

and as you see the flowers they are all so pretty.

The stuff animals are all that I have collected

since a child and wanted to give to my children one

day, so I did.

The flowers as you can see are all flowers

people sent to the funeral home for David, the big

pink ones on the left are my mothers, the little

one with daisies are David's cousin, Della, the

purple ones are David's stepfather's, the heart is

big David's mother Mary, the red ones are David's

Dad and Rose, and the spray David and I got. They

all looked beautiful, there are more flowers out

there for him but there not in the picture, I have

another with all of them, have to find it though.

David's headstone, it reads,

David Alan Jesus Savage, III, with an angel on the

side. All the stuff animals around him, the tiger

Sean's(my brother), one of his friends at Food Lion

bought that and gave it to David for the little

David, Sean told him what had transpired. I miss

my David so much, I wish I could hold him forever.

The song that is playing is called Baby of

Mine by Bette Midler from the movie Beaches, I love

that movie.