Entry 000004; 09.06.01

I am. So Cool.

I went to the first Jujitsu class of SOMA this year. all summer, i never really did any exercising, so i was happy when he taught the class really gently and didn't make us do any extraneous exercise. So all was going well, until about halfway through the class.

He had us do some rolls, some falling breaks, and then he showed us how to do a basic hand hold (you bend your opponents fingers back). this all went well. all the people in it seemed friendly if a little...large. They were all at least six feet tall and probably wieghed twice what i do. BUT....a LOT of them were cute.

I was just standing there listening to ben (the instructor) go over some basic blocking techniques, while i was thinking about what a good class this was and how he was a very good instructor. Then all of a sudden i got kind of woozy, and thought "oh dear i hope i don't get sick enough to vomit" and then i got woozier. Soon, everything in my vision sort of darkened, and slowly everything went black.

Oh fuck. i'm blind.

I felt, and actually HEARD all of my blood rush up into my head. I heard waves rushing past my ears, and the sound drowned out the voice of ben. slowly i made my way to the corner, to where i remembered there being a chair, and sort of sat down, hoping to land in the chair

I missed. But not entirely ungracefully

So i sat there put my head between my knees, and hoped that no one thought i was TOO much of a pansy. What a great way of impressing everyone. The big important SOMA officer can't even take a few finger holds. Ugh.

I asked someone to get me some water (i would have gotten it myself, but i couldn't even sit straight, nevermind walk down the stairs and across the gym) and after sitting for a while, the blood drained from my head and i could sort of hear again, although it sounded like i was underwater, and i knew that a severe headache was awaiting me in the near future.

I repeat. I am SO cool.