Entry 000036; 10.28.01

I am so fucking pissed off i can't even sleep.

Orgasmic mailed me earlier this week saying he needed a ride from the airport. it's a pain in my ass, but I mean if he needs a ride and I have a car, it would be mean of me not to give him a ride. I told him i didn't know whether I'd be available or not.

I just hate the way he expects me to revolve my fucking life around his fucking flights.

I lost my phone yesterday morning (or rather, i left it at Alicia's house.) He probably called my cell phone sometime between then and now to tell me the flight time and airline and what airport.

Initialize cursing rant...

Fucking shit eating dick head. Who teh FUCK does he think he is, giving me less than a day's notice as to when and how and WHERE THE FUCK his stupid plane gets in? that stupid shit head won't even talk to me unless it's about school, and he expects me to go travelling around the fucking state picking him up and fucking taxiing him around all over the fucking place. i hate him i hate him i hate him i hate him. FUCK.

Ok I'm done for now.

So anyway, I had plans to hang out with icon. I was going to catch a train at 10ish and get to Braintree around 1:45, where icon could pick me up. But oh no. around midnight tonight, org calls the apartment and leaves a message for me to pick him up. Oh wait. here I go again.

I FUCKING HATE shitheads who pull this shit. I fucking hate orgasmic. i hate him for not talking to me anymore. i hate him for expecting me to do him favors even when he pulls this shit on me. i hate him because he fucking dumped me as a friend because i'm not his stupid backup whore. i hate i hate i hate i hate.

Lots of hate today.

So now I have to decide what to do. Do I go hang out with icon and leave the shit head orgasmic to figure out how to get home his own damn self? I would feel so guilty. It sounds like something Orgasmic would do. And I don't want to be Orgasmic. I don't want to be anything like him. He's a horrible friend. I don't want to be a horrible friend.

Or, do I cancel seeing icon (whom i haven't seen since mid-summer) and go pick up this piece of shit who won't even talk to me unless he needs something? But I would feel so guilty about cancelling on icon, especially for Orgasmic the AllMightly Shit. But I don't want to be a bad person. And I like to always consider myself someone who would drop whatever they are doing to help their friends. But I have to remind myself. Orgasmic isn't my friend. Orgasmic won't even talk to me. But he used to be my friend, and I also consider myself someone who will forgive her friends even if they have been royal shits.

I'm so pissed off. Whatever I do, I hope it isn't something that is wrong.