Entry 000085; 01.09.01

Try not to...think. About being a prostitute of sorts. Try not to think of what it means to be a "friend." Try not to think about situations here and now, think of re-written memories of before, or hopes of later...Try not to think about weakness, abou dependances, about weakness, humanity, weakness. About what it takes to keep people. To think to think to think. Try not to think about fear; about inability to avoid distasters. Try not to think about what levels you will sink to, what that makes you, to avoid those things you try not to think about. Try not to think about what you are.

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