THIS HAS NOT BEEN UPDATED RECENTLY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL I WANT IN A GUY RIGHT NOW.
I want a lot of things in a guy. Besides him being cute and at least 5'10 (but not too tall) and skinny with muscles, but skinny, I want so many other specific things too. I don't want him to be too hairy. I want him to have nice hands. I like guys with rough hands. Smooth hands means that you're not a real man. I don't want him to have any tattoos. An earring is OK. He has to be a good dresser and he has to talk like a normal, smart person. He has to know something about everything and be able to explain and teach me stuff, but not try to force his opinions on me. He has to be able to fix stuff. Besides the whole nice, smart, and funny thing, he has to have my sense of humor (or something parallel to my sense of humor) and to say things that I find cute. He has to like learning, and to be doing something with his life. He has to get along with his mother. He has to be gentle, yet strong. He has to be honest and respectful. He can't be a dirty slut. He has to be confident about himself, but not overly confident, he should have some insecurities, but not anything annoying that he will complain about. He has to read. I don't want a guy who keeps talking about the Yankees or baseball, or is a huge obsessive fan of any sport. I don't want a 'frat guy.' He can't be a party-ish overly outgoing person. He has to be able to have fun without having to go out and do something. I don't want him to smoke. I don't want him to like violence. I want him to like and respect nature. I want him to be a caring person. I want him to have a unique taste in music (even better if he likes the crap I listen to) or at least to not listen to rap or techno. Big plus if he likes the Beatles and Pink Floyd. No, he must like the Beatles. I want him to play the guitar or the piano. I want him to like and appreciate the stuff in my pink notebook, because that notebook pretty much summarizes me. I want a guy who can happy by making me happy. I want a guy who understands how and why I feel certain things and who is able to truly be happy for me when I'm happy about something (I hate it when people don't know how to be happy for other people and only care about themselves) and is able to feel bad for me and care about what's wrong when I'm upset. I want a guy who thinks the same way that I do. I want a guy who makes me laugh and can leave me saying "wow" in my head for hours after I see him.
Now, lets ingore the fact that a guy like that doesn't exist, or if he did exist he wouldn't even bother to glance in my direction. Lets pretend that I am with a guy like that. Not only does he have to like me as much as I like him, but he actually has to like and accept all of me. All the stupid little things that I do or say, all my tee hee's, and everything, he has to think they're cute. And not just think I'm a weirdo and wait until I'm done being silly, but he actually has to understand what caused the sillyness. He has to be patient and calm and be able to listen to all my insecurities about our relationship. He has to have control over his feelings and to be able to talk to me if anything is wrong, instead of just flipping out. I want him to see me as a friend, not just a girlfriend. I want him to be amused by the silly things that amuse me. I want his kisses to be passionate. I want him to hold my face or my waist when he's kissing me. I want him to have nice, soft lips. I want him to kiss my hand and gently touch my face and look at me like I'm the most precious thing there is. I want him to think I'm pretty, and to tell me that.
As you can see, I'm really picky. It takes a lot for me a like a guy enough to be in a relationship. So when I do like someone enough for that, I care a lot and give my all. And then I get hurt.
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