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December 31, 2001 HAPPY NEW YEAR! and such. I've been doing some thinking about my year. Lets summarize it. No, not summarize. Lets talk about the guys.

The year started off with me STILL trying to get over Nathaniel. Then I met Josh. He turned out to be an asshole. It was fun while it lasted although I was too stupid to realize he didn't actually like me. Apparently he liked some stupid freshman chik. Ehh well. It was cool because he was the first guy I liked who I was able to "get" because before him I was never able to get with any guy I actually liked. Plus he smelled great.

Then there was Danny. After a year of both of us thinking that we like each other, and complaining to our mutual friends about it, we realized that there's absolutely nothing there between us.

Somewhere in between Danny and Josh there was the whole S**** mess up. It turns out he was acting all stupid because he liked me. Was it my fault I didn't share the same feelings? NO! And then there was something about me going out with all his friends but not him, or something... which lead to his face being crossed out in all the pictures. Ehh well.

Next is the boy who writes on pink paper. Don't know how that started. Oh, I know. Jane decided that I like him. Somehow everyone decided that I liked him. So they decided to tell him. I didn't like him. I just wanted to see what happens and if he asks me out. He did. He was really cute. But about as interesting as the weird thing stuck to my left slipper. (what the hell is that?!?!?) He also wrote me cute little notes and his number on pink paper. That scared me.

The school year ended. I had a whole lot of crushes on a whole lot of graduating senior boys. None of them gave a damn, of course. Summer started. Spent two weeks at an all-girl college thing. There were pretty boys to drool over in the cafeteria. But ehhh...

Then one day, some idiot with the sn Thenician Dusk IM'ed me. We talked about goat dragons. I sent the conversation to Julie because the guy seemed to be so very cool. I told her that the kid is probably butt ugly, and even if he isn't I'll never meet him because he lives in Boston. Then I saw his picture... Tee hee hee hee. Still haven't shut up about him once in the last six months.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

December 30, 2001 Kate go to a club? HAHAHA, right... Got pretty close to it today though. Was a block away, then decided to turn around and go play pool. Is it possible to bend over in ANY direction without being looked at by the sickos in the pool place? And ew! stupid drunk russian men in Dunkin Donuts. EW

He bleached his hair??? WHO gave him permission to do THAT?!?!?

December 29, 2001 SOME people appreciate glowing pickles, unlike OTHERS (Nick) Grrr... Now that my grandma moved, we have to do our own laundry!!! She used to come over every Friday and do the laundry... cool grandma... but now I have to waste time on stupid things like that. UGH.

"I could have literally snogged until the cows came home. And when they came home I would have shouted, 'WHAT HAVE YOU COWS COME HOME FOR? CAN'T YOU SEE I'M SNOGGING, YOU STUPID HERBIVORES???' I think I may be a bit feverish."

I'm reading a really cool book. Tee hee. The chik in it thinks and talks like I do. Mostly thinks like me. Or maybe I think like her. Either way, the thing about the snogging and the cows is double cool with knobs. Herbivores. Tee hee hee.

I am 46% evil. I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil. Are you evil?

December 28, 2001 From now on everything that's really really cool is "double cool with knobs," OK? yay! And a penis is called "how's your father." Why? I don't know, British books are weird. Oooh, and one more: I can't wait for Nick to come back so we can do some "full-frontal snogging." Tee hee. Enough now.

I've been called "a freak and a half." I shall start using that on people. I like that.

SaSsY44a: i think u have a crush on me
Fa11en Star 151: dude, i was eating a cookie and i spit it all up on my keyboard!
SaSsY44a: good
Fa11en Star 151: ew!
SaSsY44a: u love me!!
SaSsY44a: u desire me!
Fa11en Star 151: oh gawd...
SaSsY44a: u love me more than nick
Fa11en Star 151: umm... yes.... i uhh.. confess my true love to you
SaSsY44a: everyone loves me
SaSsY44a: i feel so special
Fa11en Star 151: yes... and "special" you are

Since when do chiks hit on me? NICK COME BACK!!!

December 27, 2001 I have a LAVA LAMP!!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeee! I can sit in my room for hours watching the pwetty colors and the bubbles go up and down. Whoa, i'm wow'ed. Ooh, and I'm also doing the most pathetic thing imaginable. I'm a loser. OOOH! I went to the library today, and I took out two hilarious books by Louise Rennison - Angus, Thongs, and Full-Frontal Snogging and On the Bright Side, I'm Now the Girlfriend of a Sex God It's like junior high reading level, but it's hilarious, Alanna you should read it! (or if you're a girl you should read it!) I was in my parents' room reading it and I couldn't stop laughing and I was being looked at funny (as usual). Tee hee! Kate's semi-happy again.

I am NOT Alanna's long distance lover! And yes, I have a goat farm. Yeeeee-haw! i mean, baaaah, or something. Kate got all her animals confused. I love Nick. How does it go from goats to Nick? No clue. Don't wanna know. Tee hee hee hee

December 26, 2001 UGH. This is the first year I'm allowed out of the house for New Years. And Julia's leaving. Nick's gone. I can probably go to Danny's house or something, but ehh. This is gonna be soo depressing. Wow, my mom is so cool all of a sudden. When I told her about the whole thing with Nick she said "well, you can go to Florida with him in the summer, make him take you." (!!!!) Would she actually let me?!?!?

Not happy. Not angry, but definitely NOT happy, and a bit paranoid. Actually, quite paranoid. But I'll be OK. Kate didn't smile much today. Kate also wasn't hungry (now you KNOW something's wrong). Only like, 2 weeks of that left. I'll live. My dad's an asshole. I was all upset and he's like "Don't worry, you shouldn't like him that much. He doesn't care about you. He's just trying to see how many girls he can get. Trust me, don't worry about him, he doesn't care about you. Oh, and I don't like him because he's too sweet-looking." LOVELY. That sure makes me feel SO much better. UGGGGHHHH. I'm really hoping that I have good reason to trust him.

December 25, 2001 Merry Tuesday! I tried sushi for the first time today! It was... interesting... Trying to work the chopsticks was even more interesting. Tee hee

UGHHHH!!! I'm soo upset and pissed off right now!!! Nick's going to Florida for a while. So much for the power I have over him. Yea... I don't want him not to go, but he could have picked some other time to go! There's no school all of this week and I could actually see him more than once a week, with my parents out of the house, and he decides to leave. Great. UGGGHHH. I hate thinking. It makes me think bad bad thoughts. For the last four months (wow, i've been with him for four months, that's amazing) I haven't realized that this is it, this is how often I'm gonna see him, and this is how this relationship is gonna be. For some reason I always thought that it was just the beginning, and things are just starting out, and soon we'll see each other more often and blah blah. Today I realized that that's not gonna happen. Kind of depressing. No, it's actually very very depressing. If I don't see him more I'll never be comfortable around him, and that's obviously not good. We're never gonna have a real relationship because we don't know each other at all. This is all kind of stupid and pointless and I don't know how it got this serious and why. Or if it is. Heh, if I were him I'd probably cheat on me in Florida. Yikes, that would be the most horriblest thing.

He's coming over now to give me a hug goodbye. Lovely. Like I really wanna see him now. Tears are not fun. UGH and I was actually trying to write a stupid staples poem for him. UGH.

He's so stupid. Why did he tell me that he doesn't wanna go? It was obvious that he wanted to. UGH. He could have at least told me the truth. What an ass. UGH. I wanna rip his... something off and like, smack him with it until he turns funny colors and thinks there are big green monkeys chasing him.

Wow, I'm so paranoid and pathetic.

Wow, if I'm all depressed over this, what the hell is gonna happen to me when/if we break up? Now I'm scared... But I realized that I really trust him, I think (hehe) Should I trust him? I think... we'll see, I guess... It's funny how the only thing that cheered me up after all this is him telling me that I look like crap.

Fa11en Star 151: merry christmas
SmarterChild: Same to you! :-)
Fa11en Star 151: i'm jewish
SmarterChild: Really? How Jewish are you, anyway?

December 24, 2001 ARGH! Stupid Christmas songs! Tee hee. I saw Not Another Teen Movie... It was funny but not in a funny way. I mean, it wasn't funny but it was. Err, yea...

Ooh, my parents are leaving to Jamaica for the February break! That probably means that my grandma is gonna stay with us that week. ARGH! But it would be so yummy if Nick could come over and we could somehow get rid of my brother... Never gonna happen...

Whoa, I'm pathetic. I've kept myself occupied with THIS for at least an hour. But I have a whole new set of away messages! Ooh, and I'm also pathetic cuz I keep CONSTANTLY thinking about him non-stop all day. Kate's a bit redundant now, isn't she, repeating everything she said over and over, because sometimes Kate repeats everything a few times, well, actually more than a few times, which makes Kate redundant because that's what redundant is. Tee hee. (Kick me)

December 23, 2001 I'm gonna die. My throat is all iffy. I sound like a guy going through puberty. I played SET with my mommy!!! Wheee!!!
December 22, 2001 From now on there should be three days in a week - Weekday, Saturday, and Sunday. We'll go to school on Weekday.
December 21, 2001 I've been waiting for a Friday for like, 4 months now. yea... I have a green vibrator..thing! (tee hee) It tickles your head.

After school I stopped by Danny's house. What's his face was there. I found it all so humorous... Is that kind of sad?

December 20, 2001 Pink: the OTHER white... I (temporarily) broke a bus! Tee hee! I was playing with the button thingy and it stopped working for a few stops! YEA! I told you I'm god!

Today I asked my mom how you know if you love someone just because I expected her to say "NO, you don't love Nick" just like she'd normally say. Instead she answered "why are you asking me? Now you know, so you can be the one telling people what love is." I was like "...what? durf?"

MY FRIEND: are you still so happy?
ME: yes!!
MY FRIEND: I am telling you, it is not natural

December 19, 2001 I had one of those days where I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I kind of ignored whoever talked to me and walked away, or just said "uh huh" and walked away. So now people think I'm bitchy. Oh well. According to YM's "are you seriously depressed?" quiz I am "at risk." I now have to talk to my "family and doctor and ask to be examined by a mental health professional (the last one, maybe) before the gloominess gets worse." Tee hee hee hee. That's funny.

I have a sexy liver!

December 18, 2001 Winter concert. I was supposed to be an usher because ushers don't really do anything and I wanted to go to the balcony with the light people and chill there instead... but Knudsen wanted more people to be stage crew so Sabrina and I had to do it. So we spent the rest of the time hiding from Knudsen. Tee hee. It was fun. We did the whole fake cop thing. Wheee! The guy Julie is stalking is really cute! Go Julie! (no, of course Julie doesn't stalk anyone, I was just kidding...) Abanty said something about the chorus not being good because the teacher couldn't see the penis (pianist). Hmmm... It was fun.
December 15 (Alanna, are you happy now?), 2001 Today at 2:23 PM I get a phone call. It's Nick. He's shopping for Barbies... Oh no, what did I do to the poor lad?

SENIOR VICTORY!!! SING was soooo HOTT!!! Whoa, the breakdancing, and the band, and the quacking song, and oh so wow. It was amazing!!! Even better than last year with Patrick in the tight gold pants, and to beat that you know it's gotta be REALLY good! (he was there today, UGH... so was Joe)

I think I really really miss Nick. Yes, I'm pretty sure I do. I miss him.

I'm a banana... Hmm. I was told I have absolutely no sense of humor. Stupid test. But bananas are cool

What Fruit Are You?
December 14, 2001 Ahhh, trig makes my brain itch!!! Nick has a BANANA yellow suit! He says I'm about as sexually satisfying as a pillow. He's threatening to turn gay. tee hee.
December 13, 2001 UGH. I come home from school and that kid Jeff is sitting on Linda's porch. Then out of nowhere Linda's little annoying sister comes out and starts yelling "Hi Kate! Guess who's here! Jeff is here! Say hi to Jeff! You know you want to. Why are you just leaving? Say hi to him..." and blah blah... I felt so stupid. It's not like a care anymore, it's just that because of her he thinks that I still do, and it pisses me off because I don't and he's just a big-headed moron. ARGH

I'm in love with a girl named Fred... hehe... boys in tights...

Note: If I could, I would worship the creator of the Utterly Surreal Test, I would even give up my position as God for him/her

I am Matched Phrenology Busts.

I enlighten Norwegian glass bacteria with richly sponged hardwood thought processes. Four ripe metronomes ridicule my lucky castle of relief. My auspicious mercury rides level coral.

What erudite spheres reveal strata? The Utterly Surreal Test

If I were a work of art, I would be Vincent Van Gogh's The Starry Night.

I am a tiny village at peace while overhead rages the tumult of the heavens. Objects whirl and flash around me in a fevered haze only partially reflected in reality while I remain grounded and secure in my isolation.

Which work of art would you be? The Art Test

December 12, 2001 On Monday Julia said "well obviously Nick's gonna come over, it's your birthday tomorrow, he has to" and I told her that I honestly didn't expect him to do that...

I just dont understand how either of the following thoughts didn't cross his mind: either "hmm, I like Kate, and I want Kate to be happy... it's Kate's bday, I wonder if there's anything I can do to make her happy" or "dammit I'm going out with this stupid chik and I gotta get her something for her b-day or else she'll bitch about it, plus maybe this way I can get laid." How come any guy I'm with always somehow does something stupid for my birthday? What is wrong with me? All my guy friends who have girlfriends are constantly writing little notes and letters to them, taking them out, buying them flowers and stupid corny stuff, but for some reason no one ever bothered to do that with me. That makes me feel like crap. Am I really not worthy of all that? Do I just pick retarded boyfriends? It's not like I even want the flowers and candy (especially teddy bears, ugh, if a guy got me that I'd have to kick him). I think it's ridiculous to expect that from a guy all the time. But once in a while, especially on my birthday, a little something would be nice. It's not like I want or expect that much anyway. I guess I should have learned a while ago never to expect anything because I'll always be disappointed. And now it's all stupid. He's all sorry, but even if he does anything now it's because he has to, not because he wants to make me happy, so it won't matter as much. But he wants me to just forgive him and forget about it? He's frustrated with how I'm reacting?!? ("you might as well forgive me and put this behind you because you're going to eventually anyway") I'm sorry, but that's not gonna work, because this really really hurt... So he better try to make it up to me somehow. And you know what? After all this I'm still trying to make him look like a good guy... When my mommy came home I put my head under the covers so she'd think I was sleeping and wouldn't see me crying and ask what's wrong and then I'd have to tell her. (Hehe, that calmed me down... even when she doesn't know, mommy always makes everything better) And all my friends keep asking what he got me and I said "nothing" and they're all surprised and telling me to break up with him because that's the worst thing he could have done. That didn't even cross my mind! I don't know what is wrong with me. It's like I'm weak, or something. You know, that's why short relationships are better. There's less of a chance of them being on my birthday.

December 11, 2001 It's my birthday!!! Yay! Well, like, it's my birthday... yea... Happy Birthday Kate! And Alanna, I didn't mean just guys with cheekbones, I meant guys with THE cheekbones... duh!

Goddamn... Even people I haven't seen since June sent me an e-card thing. (No, that's not a bad thing, it's just that some people really disappointed me. Particularly one person)

lifesux1111: Today is mad weird, a bird shitted right on my head, this chick tells me that she had a dream that we were f*cking and then your voice pops out of my peaceful speakers

December 10, 2001 Kate had a crappy day. Tomorrow is my birthday. Haha, yesterday is 2 years since Nathaniel asked me out. Today is 2 years since our first kiss... haha... how stupid I was. Anyway, Kate had a crappy day.

Hehe, i cheered myself up. It turns out we have a microphone, so I played songs and recorded myself singing... LOL I'm a loser. I can't sing. It's so much fun! Yay! Kate feels better. Oh, and Kate drank a whole lotta milk.

December 9, 2001 OMG My grandma said Nick is cute... hmmm... that makes me think twice about him... jk
December 8, 2001 Spent the day cleaning my room... fun... achoo! And like, ugh, parents are annoying... I ask if Nick can come over tomorrow, and my mom seriously looks at me and tells me to make him go to my grandma's house and help her unpack and stuff tomorrow. WTF?!?!? UGGHHHHH

EWWW! Old men on trains jerking off and looking at me... EW EW EW thats so gross.

Tee hee. Comedy clubs are funny (duh)

OMG! I SAW THE PRETTY GUY FROM MARYMOUNT ON THE TRAIN! (I THINK it was him) the one I thought was pretty that looked like a model and didnt change his clothes... WOW, I really think it was him, but I wasn't sure... I should have asked but I would have felt so stupid if it was him. I completely freaked out... He looked at me all funny (but who doesn't???)ARGH!

December 7, 2001 Today was the Unofficial Senior Pajama Day! Tee hee, I wore my cow pajamas and I brought in my cow! For some reason people kept giving me weird looks... Hmm... But people told me I looked cute, so me happy. As usual, there are the stupid girls who walk behind you talking to their friends - "WHAT is she thinking? WHY is she dressed like a cow? WHAT is wrong with her?" So I kind of turned around and MOO'ed at them... tee hee... When Sabrina saw me in the pajamas she said "Oh, so THAT'S how you seduce all the guys to go to bed with you." Tee hee

NICK GO SEE MY GUESTBOOK! My name IS pretty!!!

Argh, I miss him so much I wanna kick myself... argh

Yay! Julie has her computer back! YAY! Tee hee... I was talking to her, and I was going to say "I want Nick" but for some reason I said "I want Keanu" without realizing it. hmm... tee hee... how would Keanu and bubble wrap work together? hmm...

December 5, 2001 ICK! Birthday in 6 days... ick. Got report cards today. ick. 88 average. ick. Tee hee. My english teacher said "you know when someone breaks up with you and you can't be with them anymore, you will settle for having their left foot with you at all times" Now that's Laugh Out Loud funny. Tee hee...

Two old ladies were waiting for a bus and one of them was smoking a cigarette. It started to rain, so the old lady reached into her purse, took out a condom, cut off the tip and slipped it over her cigarette and continued to smoke. Her friend saw this and said, 'Hey that's a good idea! What is it that you put over your cigarette?' The other old lady said, 'It's a condom.' 'A condom? Where do you get those?' The lady with the cigarette told her friend that you could purchase condoms at the pharmacy. When the two old ladies arrived downtown, the old lady with all the questions went into the pharmacy and ask the pharmacist if he sold condoms. The pharmacist said yes, but looked a little surprised that this old woman was interested in condoms. He asked her, 'What size do you want?' The old lady thought for a minute and said, 'One that will fit a Camel.'

December 4, 2001 Done with ALL my college stuff... I made a pickle glow!!!! YAY! I am very happy for Nick, who is "not a failure anymore" as he put it. Except that he spelled "anymore" as "anymroe". Haha. (Another Nick, my Nick is still a failure, hehe)

Leaves. Fun. Yeah, right.

December 3, 2001 AIM is acting all funny... I'm sitting here and it keeps making noises like someone is IM'ing me, but there's no one online, and no one IM'ing me. Also, I made it so it doesn't make the IM noise, so like, I don't know what's wrong with it... Mmmm... I just had the best chocolate ever. It's SO good. It's like, yummier than Nick. That's how good it is. Tee hee. This chocolate can probably make me orgasm if I eat enough of it. WOW

This morning I was on the bus and this lady was sitting there and staring at me, not taking her eyes off of me the whole bus ride, not even blinking. When I was getting off the bus she got up too, waved to me and said hi, while still staring at me. Then she held the back door open for me. When I was off the bus she was watching me walk away... That was soo creepy!

December 2, 2001 Trying to recall details from last night... Not working... Something about balloons, dancing chicken, and waiters dressed as sailors. Tee hee.

He doesn't trust me... UGH! What can I possibly do with anyone? Even if I could do something, I wouldn't. There's really no one I can think of who even comes close to being as whoa as him, so like, he should shut up about not trusting me. Putting our relationship in jeopardy would be the stupidest thing I can do, especially because of something stupid like that. So all this paranoia or whatever he has is all for nothing. Narf.

December 1, 2001 Ew, it's december. My grandma is gonna live with us for a week. UGH. I love her, but she gets on my nerves soo much. It's a whole messed up stressed out parents day for some reason. UGH.

Tee hee. I was looking at myself in the mirror today and wow, I'm so pretty! (I think) I was completely wow'ed by that. I should be kicked.

November 30, 2001 They don't let me sleep. I bit the insides of both of my cheeks. (hmm... it's impossible to bite the outside of your own cheeks, right?) I have a soar throat. UGHHH!
November 29, 2001 Alanna's Birthday! yay! Whoa! Today they lit up a pickle in the science office! They took a pickle, hooked it up to two wire thingies and plugged it in. And it glowed!!! (glew? no, glowed)Burnt pickles don't taste good. Tee hee. Today in physics we were flexing our pectoral muscles. We were all sitting at a table trying to make our boobs go up and down. Only the guy did it. Girls suck.

Fuck. I knew this was going to happen. Fuck. I'm so stupid. What's wrong with me?!?

November 28, 2001 My physics teacher was absent!!! That's pretty much the coolest thing that happened today. My day was crappy. Cocktopus.

Whoa, creepy stuff happened. The TV turned on by itself. Me and my mom were in the kitchen talking, and my brother and stepdad were in their rooms, and there was no one in the living room. All of a sudden we hear the TV, we look at it, and it turns on. Creepy!

November 27, 2001 HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIE!!! Penguins. Cocktopus. Tee hee. I kick ass in basketball!!!
November 26, 2001 Whoa, the chocolate chip cookies. Tee hee! I'm a dumbass. I'm so giddy. Wow, I was telling my mom about it yesterday, and I was so happy that I had tears coming down my face because I was laughing and giggling so much. I am such a moron.

"I left my metrohard at come" <--That was not me talking. That was said by someone who's turning 17 tomorrow... EWWW old...

November 25, 2001 I spent 20 minutes under the computer desk trying to figure out what all the little wires do, and why my printer is not turning on. Turns out that the little wires need to be plugged in, and when they are being plugged in they make pretty little sparks that scare the poopie out of me and make me jump up and hit my head on the desk. Ow! Girls should not go anywhere near computers. And I'm applying to lots of technology colleges. Funny.

OMG... the cookies... WOW I'm in love. And all it is is stupid chocolate chip cookies... but WOW. Apparently you can't fall asleep if you have a huge grin on your face. Tee hee!

November 24, 2001 Did you know that November is "escalator safety month"??? Whoa, I didn't know that! And something about a "weeeeeeeeeee." yes. You'd think that when you are away from the cats you'd be fine, right? NO... It's even worse now. UGH. Tee hee. Chocolate chip cookies. Left is that way (---->) and right is that way (<----)
November 23, 2001 You know how everyone always says "you just know" and it's soo annoying because you think that doesn't really tell you much? Well you do just know. And I know!!! It's amazing. It's like whoa. It's so amazing that you're still happy after sleeping in the cold living room with the clocks because you woke up in the middle of the night because you had allergies and you only got eight hours of sleep. (waking up 3 times every half an hour because of the clocks)

Wow, I'm sitting here and just thinking about how happy I am.

November 22, 2001 Thanksgiving. What is wrong with me? Tee hee, Artem's back! yay! Family gatherings are.... annoying. Wow, I have friends and they invite me places. Kate's a loser.

I have ksh-ksh pants! and they have an orange stripe! woo hoo! Hehe... my mom's nosy friends approve of Nick. My mom's nosy friends also accidentally mentioned that I have a boyfriend in front of my grandma. Wow she freaked out. There were dozens of questions asked. It was horrible. I had to lie. I feel bad. But I think my mom has gotten used to the the idea of me having a boyfriend. OMG... she actually admitted that she liked Nathaniel. She, like, realizes that its OK for me to have a boyfriend. But she's still a bit weird about it. When one of them asked me if he loves me and if I love him, my mom gave her friend a really weird look. But I said "yes" in a really cheery way so like, she figured I was just being silly.

Turkey goood. Apple pie gooood.

November 21, 2001 My friend wrote me a love letter. Tee hee. I was reading it while walking home and I walked into a man. Oops!

UGH! How long will it take me to learn that I shouldn't try to cook?!?!?

Maybe I do have friends. Just one.

Am I like, confident? I was taking a survey today and it told me to rate how confident I am, and like whoa, I think I'm confident! Then I asked my friends about it and they said "yea Kate, you're so confident it's scary" (no sarcasm) Tee hee! The survey also made me realize how well my mom raised me and that she's the best mom ever. There were questions like "did your parents ever read to you when you were a kid?" or "how often do you discuss you life (social and academic) with your parents?" Whoa, my mom's the coolest! It's so cool that I have this great relationship with her, cuz most of the other kids got so surprised by those questions, like its something unnatural.

Maybe I'm not confident...

How stupid does a person have to be to put the wrong check in with the wrong application?!?!? UGHH... I am moron.

Did you know you have to "always unplug toaster when not in use"?? Whoa... we NEVER do that! UGH I burned the roof of my mouth with the funny food that I was eating.

I got a new definition of love:
Fugitive Turkey: Well, my feathers become flustered.

Turkey turkey turkey...

November 20, 2001 UGGHHHH That stupid chik... (yes, again) UGHHH, and the colleges... They're all due tomorrow, and most people have lists of about 10 colleges they're applying to, while I only have 4, 2 of which I don't want to go to. STRESS! No, not really, but I'm so sick of writing my full name everywhere.

Tee hee, I have friends! (I went to Danny's house after school) Buster quacks and oinks! Tee hee! And ew, guy magazines don't make sense... And they give really bad advice. Maybe it's just me, cuz I'm weird, and I don't like most of the crap that girls like anyway.

Wow, I'm such a loser. I get invited to go places and I don't wanna go. I know I should go, but ehhh... I'm like anti-social, but not the regular kind of anti-social, I'm just against unnecessary socializing. It's hard to explain. But yes, I am a loser with no friends cuz I realized I have no one to go to SING with. I'm sure (actually I'm not) that I can find someone and make them go, but like, once again, the unnecessary socializing, and the pathticness of "looking for a friend" as opposed to having people come to me and ask me if I'm going to SING. And I don't even wanna go all that much, but it's senior year, I should...

November 19, 2001 UGGHHHH That stupid chik... UGH... EVERYONE thinks I'm a junior because I "act all cute and fun." narf?? Tee hee... My mommy is cool. I was telling her that I think I might have done bad on a math test, and she said "that means everyone else did even worse, so don't worry." I love my mom. I am against Shakira's song: "Lucky you were born that far away so we could both make fun of distance"... NOOO, I completely disagree... UGH

I think I'm in love with Marc Anthony again. His voice... WOW... yumm

November 18, 2001 I was beating my meat and tickling my pickle and now my arm hurts... =(

My friend Abanty was on TV... Channel 13... hee hee

I deleted a bunch of people I usually don't talk to from my buddy list. Now I have a total of 75 people! Thats including the "Online Dudes" and "Annoyerz." I have no friends.

Ooh! I finally learned how to put my hair up in a turban-type towel thing. It took me years, but I finally got it!!! Tee hee...

November 17, 2001 Tee hee... Was looking at a bunch of notes passed between me and Julia during the 8th grade... WOW we were soo stupid. The notes came in all sizes and colors. It's amazing how the neon orange ones managed to fly across the room without us being caught. Whoa, we were skilled. The notes are all about hippy, kitty, jeepy, rocky, baboon, stiffy, model, 151, sweet 16, arcky, peace, baby peace, 94 degrees, doggy, sunny, lollipop, Mr. President, mitsubishi, and probably lots more... "For hair so healthy it shines" Tee hee... HOW did people EVER think we're cool?!?!? What was wrong with us?
November 16, 2001 Home early cuz I have to go to Stevens for the interview... My debate was OK. We didn't pick our noses!... LOLz... My two-minute speech turned into a minute speech cuz I was nervous and talking really fast. Oh well, at least I didn't pick my nose!... It's Senior 70's Day! I didn't dress up because I'm a loser and I don't have friends.

I'm an idiot because I wrote something and I'm probably gonna give it to someone even though I probably shouldn't... ehh

Interview went great! They think I'm smart! It's amazing how much a person can fib and bs in under 15 mins... but I impressed them =) Go Kate!

November 15, 2001 This isn't working... I can't do it...

Tee hee... I've discovered a new font... Kristen ITC... It's soo cute!

November 14, 2001 Tee hee... If words had a taste, then the words "I love you" would taste like cheesecake....

MOO!!!

November 13, 2001 It's my brother's birthday! He's 12 today! (aww) And ew! I'm gonna be old in exactly 4 weeks... ew!

Did your brain ever itch when you tried to think and you didn't want to? Like, when you don't wanna, for example, do math, you just kinda want to scratch your brains out?

I feel all fat and iffy cuz I ate way too much cake... and the chocolate... and cheez... ewww I feel sick... plus I feel kinda lonely... I want Nick... "I've become somewhat pathetic"... Ugh, I miss him so much it hurts. It hurts seeing him only once a week. And its not like I'm pathetic or obsessed, I just really like him and care about him a lot. Hopefully this won't scare him off, but it's all his fault! Before I wasn't letting myself like him, I mean I did like him, but I wasn't letting myself like him too much (it's hard to explain) because I was scared to get hurt. But now that I know (I think) that he's as serious about us as I want us to be, I think it's OK to like him as much as I do. That's why I'm all poopey now. Umm..., Nick, when you read this, don't think that I'm some obsessed weirdo, and don't be all like "oh no, what did I get myself into". I'm just trying to figure out what's been depressing me. Plus, the dickhead didn't even call me today! (jk, I love you)

One of my so-called "friends" was so mean to me. Today on the bus he started saying that he doesn't know what Nick sees in me: beauty - ehh, intelligence - ehh, sense of humor - ehhh, willing to f*ck - ehhh... UGH! What the hell is that about? Then when we were walking to school and I said it was cold, he said he know what would help, and he punched me 3 times! Twice in the arm, and the third time I tried to resist and he got me in my ribs, awfully close to me boob... In the process I ended up scratching him and ripping lots of layers of skin off, but still, wtf was that all for?

November 12, 2001 I ate chicken bread! Yumm...

UGHHHH... Is my mom right? She can't be right... It's so frustrating. He's like, almost perfect except for THAT. But I can't expect him to be perfect, so I shouldn't care, right? But THAT is very important, so I can't just ignore it. But I can't try to change anything, because thats not right either, plus it would be kind of impossible. UGH UGH UGH

November 11, 2001 EWW I'm gonna be 17 in one month! eww... Kate broke a knife... it was actually the cheez that broke the knife, but lets make Kate feel strong and manly. And yes, I have a penis!

SONG OF THE DAY!!!

November 10, 2001 Nick's hair is crunchy! Tee hee.

This girl was e-mailing this guy, and she wanted to write "I'm pooped, I'll tell you about it tomorrow," but instead she wrote "I pooped, I'll tell you about it tomorrow." Tee hee hee hee

November 9, 2001 My hair's crunchy! Tee hee.
November 8, 2001 Happy again... Weird how depressing music can make me happy
November 7, 2001 There's soap in the bathroom?!?... lolz... I'm so happy I scare myself. I feel all ditsy

LATER SAME DAY... Now I feel all poopey... ew! i'm such a girl! I have, like, mood swings, or something. UGH. I feel like crap. I'm gonna go take a bubble bath and cry or something.

November 6, 2001 HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABANTY!!!! Tee hee, I saw a cat fish... It was soo cool, it had a cat's furry head, but the tail was a fish.

KATE WAS REALLY BORED

November 5, 2001 I was walking after school, and I saw a pile of dry leaves. So I decided to walk through the pile. All of a sudden an old bummy looking man about 20 feet in front of me stops, turns around, and yells at me for making so much noise. He tells me he was meditating, and that he can separate his mind from his body. So I told him that if he kept meditating, he'd walk right in the middle of a street and get run over. Then he started explaining to me that while his mind is wherever it goes while he meditates, his body is being protected by an angel. He also told me that every person has a good and a bad angel. Thank god we reached my block and I said I had to go. He said, "Take care. Pray for your mother and your father. Jesus loves you. God gives you ice cream." (??????)

I failed a government test.

November 4, 2001 Ehhh... our gathering was kind of crappy... but still cool. Kitigate's itigin litigove... hee hee
November 3, 2001 I got a 1350 on the SAT's!!!!!!!!!! 730 in math (97%ile) and 620 in verbal (83%ile)!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG me freaking out!
November 1, 2001 UGH... (Not very exciting for the first day, I know)