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August 29 - Stevens is happy. I start a new page for Fall '04 semester and I leave you with pictures from the poconos.

Ian needs to count to 3 before taking pictures.

We're such girls.

WTF?

Julie next to a.... thing.

Boobage.

Dre and a can of beef with juices. Ha.

Can we say Maxim's accidental porn?

I forgot to mention: I was buying milk at home and the guy in the store was like, "you pretty, discount for you, instead of $2.39 I give you milk for $1.89" in an Indian accent. Yea! Saved 50 cents cuz I'm pretty. I was amused.

August 28 - First night back was awesome. Me and Julie got to climb through guys' windows, and it's so much better here now than during the summer, everyone walking around, whee. And last night was cool too. I decided to try to break the Piskies curse. Err... the only two times I went to Piskies without Julie I left crying and the guys I was with at the time broke up with me the next day, BOTH times. So I was never too comfortable at Piskies, but I went yesterday and it wasn't bad at all! so I'm hoping third time's a charm and Ted's not breaking up with me today/tomorrow. But yea, after Piskies last night I went with Lubin and Dre and Kwame(?) to pick up chicks in Davis. Twas so funny, worse than me and Julie trying to find guys to bother for the night. Well I'm off to have some breakfast, since it's 3pm already =)

August 26 - Well the Poconos were fun. First two days were awesome because we got to sit around and not have to do anything or be anywhere or answer to anyone. Then it was awesome because Mel, Noah, Ian and Dre all got there. Swimming in lake at night rocks, and hottubs are well... lets just say they can get interesting when there's alkihol. That's all I'm saying for now. Details might come out at some point. Pictures coming soon.

Found couch outside TX today, realized we can rearrange my room to fit couch, so now it's awesome. I hope my roommate won't mind. Me and Julie = strong, could've moved the Tech furniture without Lubin, but thanks for helping anyway!! Oh, and Ian, thanks sooo much for driving us home =)

Really nervous about classes. I just gotta keep in mind that no matter how bad I think I'm doing in every class, my GPA just goes up with every semester anyway. Are boyfriends supposed to call you if you don't see them for 2 weeks and they refuse to see you during the time? Yea... Don't know why he hasn't called, but I hope everything's alright between us. YAY Ed tomorrow! Me Ted and Andrew have all missed him this summer. Climbing into people's windows in Tech is fun. It scares them. Whee.

Should I keep this journal or make a livejournal account for all to read? I'd like comments, but I also want my journal to be part of a site, since people for some reason like looking through my crap. I was also thinking I should keep this journal but just limit it to things that happen, and make another page for those paragraph long rants/'deep thoughts'/realizations about life I have once in a while, because I know that if you people see a long paragraph you don't read the whole thing, but if you click on it especially to read my newest thoughts then you'll actually bother reading it. So I don't know, tell me what to do. So if you got to the end of this entry let me know.

August 20 - I don't know why, but I'm really nervous about this semester. Like, a knot in my stomach and pukey feeling and having to pee everytime I think about it nervous. I shouldn't be, because I have 3 days off, which means I have 3 days to do HW and study (I can't do that as well on days I have classes, too tired). But I'm overloading, and I have to work, and finish the research which will probably take the rest of the semester, and have time for Julie and people, and this year I actually have a roommate (oh how I'll miss Shayna) so it'll be harder to have time alone with Ted, and I just don't like having anyone in the room when I'm chilling between classes or getting ready for class or for bed, so it'll be a little more stressful.

So I finally earned money, and my parents had to borrow $2000 from me. Lovely. I don't need it now, but still it woulda been cooler if it was all in my bank account.

Alright, what the hell is it with the private, blank and anonymous guestbook entries??? Damn you people.

So I beat javanoid. All 12 levels. It just takes you back to level 1, but they call it level 13. And it just keeps going. Bastards. Time to find a hobby and maybe some friends.

August 19 - omgomg I have the cutest sweater. It's got pink stripes and a hood and a kangaroo pocket, but it's not a hoodie, it's a sweater and it can be see-through and I love it! So sick of being at home. Can't wait to go back to Stevens tomorrow.

Was cleaning out crap from my closet today and came across the Nick box... I looked through it and I threw it out! Everything! Didn't even have to think about it! Not that there was much in there - a wifebeater, a movie ticket stub, and pictures he drew from that game we played when I was sick (from a 9 month relationship), but still, I'm proud of myself. Took a little over two years, but yay. And I was thinking that no matter how badly I get hurt in any relationship, nothing's going to be worse than being called used trash and then knowing that he's on his way to Boston to fuck his ex. I hope nothing worse will ever happen to me.

August 18 - I hate it when people from whimit IM me and are like "your hot! and guess what, i'm jewish to" or like "hey you live neare mee." It's like... err great we have something in common, now please go away. And then I barely answer or say something like "wonderful" they say I'm stuck up and they don't want to meet me anyway. Of course they don't. Fuckers.

Am I supposed to miss the boy? I don't yet, but I can see myself starting to in like, a week. Especially with all these Brooklyn retards IMing me. It's like they know I'm at home and IM me this week instead of when I'm in school. Ugh. But yay, I haven't had any lesbian/orgy dreams, and no dreams of him breaking up with me either! Waking up alone still sucks though.

omgomg I'm so addicted to peanut butter. It's good with apples and bananas and sun-shaped pancakes and english muffins and just about anything! Must go to that peanut butter place in the city! Must also consider switching to low-fat peanut butter... cuz.. yea.

August 17 - ACHOO! Allergies are killing me. Was playing javanoid today, was ALMOST done with level 12 with two lives left (that means I was gonna beat the game, for the first time ever!!) and then IE crashed. aleskjfhskjdfhskjdhksj/ Soo pissed off. Time to watch dating shows. WOO HOO!

There are soo many movies coming out soon (has there always been this many, or am I just not used to watching tv??) but I don't want to see any of them. Meh.

August 16 - Home. Watched a couple of episodes of Full House. That show was awesome. I love Bob Saget. I don't know why everyone dislikes him, but I love his voice and I think he's quite good looking.

Saw the movie "Kids" last night. That's gotta be the second most disturbing movie ever, after "Requiem for a Dream."

Bush should've had a son that was gay. And a daughter that was in need of an abortion.

August 15 - Went to Dunkin Donuts today. Had my usual sourdough bagel with veggie cream cheese and an iced coffee with milk and a little bit of sugar. But like, today it was soo amazing. Maybe it's because I haven't had that in 2 weeks, or because I was alone so I could focus on how good it was instead of focusing on talking to people, or maybe because it was yucky outside and it was all heavenly inside with my bagel and coffee, but man, it was soo good. The bagel was all soft with a crispy edge, and there was a lot of cream cheese so the bagel kept 'pooping' it out, so I got to lick off the extra cream cheese. And the coffee... it was probably the best iced coffee I've ever had. Not only was the amount of sugar and milk just perfect, but there was something different about it. Maybe it was because I had it with my oh so delicious bagel, don't know, but it was awesome. I want it to be summer all year so I can drink iced coffee all year round. I think I can eat sourdough bagels every day without getting sick of them, if it wasn't bad for me. Dunkin Donuts makes Kate happy.

Whee! Random fireworks! Happy August 15 everyone!

Moved into Tech. It's a lot smaller and there's a lot less closet space than in CPA, but I like it more. Feels more dormy and cozy. Yes, I like dormy.

"I can't believe that PETA has gotten so pathetic that they go door to door now, but I just answered a knock to find two little twerps, high school age, asking me to sign a "letter of intent" that I wouldn't eat turkey this Thanksgiving.

After I refused, they asked for a donation instead. So I went to the freezer and dug out an old steak and gave it to them.

I could hear them freaking out for a good five minutes after I slammed the door in their appalled faces."
From lowbrow, where else?

August 14 - Heh.

Ted's friend John said I was a cutie and that he approves of me. Hee hee. That made my day. That, and some random person looking at my site left me a private entry in my guestbook saying I was very pretty. I was thinking how it's cool to finally grow out of all the teenage stupidities and to not go through months of thinking you're not pretty and stuff. I still have days where I don't like my face, or I feel like a big fat blob of fat walking and jiggling around, but now I know that it's just for a day that I feel like that and in reality I'm pretty. I think I think too highly of myself, but it's OK because I don't get all stuck up, and it's better than constantly thinking you're ugly, right? Whee. *hugs myself*

August 12 - Google Fight!!!

Red mushrooms

A cool tree

My step-brother, brother and me

Spikey tree

Reflection of sunset in lake

Guaranteed Overnight Delivery

BUTTZVILLE!!!

August 11 - Long entry, sorry. Skim through it.

Camping was nice. Not as awesome as it usually is, but it was nice getting away from computers and phones and people and stuff for 4 days. What could've made it better, you ask? Well we went to the middle of nowhere in PA, and I prefer mountains, makes hiking a whole lot more exciting. Don't like just walking through the woods. I like hiking up mountains and such and looking at waterfalls and there was none of that. Also, the campground was too large and busy, and our campsite wasn't very cozy. Also, one of our tents broke when we got there, so we had to devise a way to tie it to a tree. Also would've been better if my brother wasn't a whiny little bitch. Would've been better if the 'lake' by our campground was a real lake instead of a dam - water was too cold to go swimming, although we stopped by another lake on tuesday for a quick swim on our way home. Also got rained on on tuesday when packing up, so that was yucky. But not bad overall. Have a couple of cute pictures, will post tomorrowish.

Today was the last day of Technogenesis work for me. Yay. I left around 11 am b/c I got my timecard signed and because Lunan is a shithead and because of him I wouldn't have gotten anything done today anyway. Ugh, I can't stand that kid. I didn't like him when he first came in to work, just not my type of person. Does all these little things that annoy me. But after actually trying to work with him, I can't stand him. First off, he always uses big words and uses a lot of words to say something simple. Example: instead of "we don't have results yet but we're working on it" he would say "well you see we have been attempting to analyze the data from the CD spectra (there was NO reason to repeat that cuz thats what the professor asked about) but we seem to be having a bit of a difficulty utilizing the software. we will keep trying to get the structure by using the software." Oy. Just stfu. Or like, if we're all sitting there discussing how to do the next step and I say something like "alright what concentrations are we using for the scan?" he'll answer with "well we need to calculate the concentrations of the samples we'll be using for the scan before we can do anything else." Yea, no shit, I just fucking said that, stop repeating it just because you don't have anything else to say. And when I spent like, 2 weeks working with the stupid HPLC machine I got annoyed and asked why him and Abdel don't even run the experiments, and he was like "well when Ninad explained how to use it it was just so confusing, all the clicking, that I didn't get it." Yea, but I did so wtf why am I the only one working. I still don't think he knows how to use anything. I left him detailed instructions for what to do the two days I'm camping (Open tube A pour into container B, turn this on, turn that to that) and the people I work with (the ones I like) told me he read the note, put it down, and left. WTF, who does that. What a fucking dick. He probably didn't even know what ultrafiltration is. If he knew anything that was going on in our project he should've known what to do without my instructions, but even if he didn't "ultrafiltrate solution A" should've been enough, but no, he doesn't even know what to do with detailed instructions. I want to slap him. Ugh. I hope he doesn't come back to work in september.

Overall I'm very happy with this whole research experience. The whole point of it for me was to not live in Brooklyn and to get paid. And I did learn how to use a lot of equipment and such, and this is actual real experience for my resume, and if I actually finish it during the year it'll be awesome. Yea it could've been a lot better. When we got to the lab in June there was nothing there, not even beakers, so half the time was wasted just waiting for stuff. So I understand why everyone in the lab was pissed off and said it was a waste of time and they're never doing it again, but whatever, I got what I wanted. Plus I got to work with awesome people - Chris, Komal, Corina and Ciara. Chris is friggin awesome, I thought he might be when I had orgo lab with him, but now that I actually got to work with him I know that for sure. It's because of him that I started reading the news (a little) and I sometimes check the word of the day. Hey, I learned a few new words this summer: flummery, hypnagogic, lebation (sounds dirty hehe), ludic, treacly, and teetotaler. So yea, I'm satisfied with my summer.

August 5 - Robots are our friends... SOMETIMES THEY SLICE HUMAN FLESH.

August 4 - Oh man, exploding dog 3 days in a row. That's like, as good as multiple orgasms. Better, even. I really like today's. Almost all of them made me go 'aww' which really doesn't take much but still. I had an awesome day at lab today, got to write a paper (shut up, I enjoyed it) and got to torturize Chris about his lesbian love from Florida. It's great now that we all have nothing to do so we all sit around babbling about random stuff watching music and e-mailing each other music. I cleaned my room, swept and everything! But I've been feeling all dizzy and weak the whole day, don't know what the hell is wrong with me, and it got worse around like, 6 pm today. Then I got 2 of my fingers stuck in a pulley thing at the bowling alley and that just made everything a whole lot better, yay. I hate when people talk to me like I'm retarded. So I don't know a lot of stuff, but that's not my fault. But I can figure out normal every day things such as telling my mentee (not you Andrew, you've been replaced! jk!! <3's for Andrew) when I'm on campus. I might say dumb things quite often, but I'm not retarded, really. Ehh, so maybe I deserved it today, but I noticed that I've been getting that a lot this summer, most of the time for absolutely no reason, and today I just got sick of it.

But... speaking of mentees... I e-mailed my new set of metees yesterday and 2 wrote back already, whee. One girl wants me to give her a tour of the campus so I'll be doing that sometime next week. Whee. I don't know why that makes me happy. Probably because one of my mentees was awesome from last year, so I'm hoping there'll be more awesome mentees. Whee.

August 2 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TED!

Grr there was a birthday exploding dog on his birthday and he doesn't even like exploding dog. I'm so jealous.

August 1 - Went to the beach today. Sooo nice. Swimming is awesome. I'm thinking I should start going to the pool at Stevens. But of course I'll never get around to it. Does anyone want to be my swimming buddy? YAY I do get to go camping this summer!!! Will take next monday off and go for the weekend. WOO HOO. My mommy rocks.

Watched Mask of Zorro on friday. Guys in capes/cloaks are HOT. In movies made about that time period you always see a man and a woman walk by each other, glance into each other's eyes and immediately fall in love and want to get married. Did that actually happen ever? Because that's so much easier than dating and all that crap. Or do you need really nice eyes for that to happen? Eh. 6 days and 2 hours of work left, WOO HOO!

Forgot to mention: I slept 14 hours last night. I feel sooo good today.

July 31 - Whee home. My house is now all decorated with Japanese dolls and signs and pictures and pottery and bamboo stick things and a whole lot of stuff. My mom showed me pictures, Japan is soo beautiful. And you know what else?? They have Cheburashka stuff there! That's so awesome because I remember the book and the movie from when I was a kid. And all the Cheburashka stuff and characters and labeled in russian, which is just kinda weird. But yes, awesome. And the food looks amazing in Japan. My mom showed me pictures of them in restaurants and even in the pictures it all looked soo good. Speaking of food, we just had a bbq and whoa I think I gained back all of the 8 pounds I lost this summer. Yes, I lost 8 pounds so far this summer. It's not a lot, but it's nice knowing that I did it without depriving myself of cookies and pudding and chocolate and yummies. Bleh don't want to start eating at Pierce again and gain it all back. So anyway, I just had: mushrooms, eggplant, pumpkin, corn, peppers, baked potatoes, mussels, shrimp and my dad makes the most amazing steak. I think you can measure manliness by how they make their meat and how good it tastes. Err that's not supposed to be dirty at all. And did you know if you put mussels on a grill the open up when they're cooked? It's so friggin cool. Yes. So now I go make myself some yummy iced tea with milk (like, real tea but with ice, not the gross iced tea from iced tea mix) and chill out. Oh, I forgot to write about how friggin' cute my baby cousin is. She's so cute. And yay she still loves me and jumps on me the second she sees me. She didn't let go of me the whole time she was here. Kinda annoying, but cute to have a little person petting you and dragging you around and telling you you're pretty and wonderful and your hair is nice and that she misses me and blah blah. Whee. Cutest kid ever. OK, I go now. Laterz.

Oh, I forgot. They have this amazing candy in Japan that powders and crumbles and melts in your mouth. It's so fucking good. It's for like, tea ceremonies or something. Yumm.

July 29 - Somehow I think that if it was another girl it'd be different. But it's not a big deal.

There's a mouse running around in the bowling alley. Ack.

July 26 - Boy am I glad I went to work today (err the bowling alley). Full of German guys. As in like, from Germany. With accents. And big feet. Yea, they all have big feet for some reason. Ran out of 11+ shoes for guys, and the girls all needed 7-8 in guy sizes. Ha. But yea, they're all blonde and talking to each other and whee. Yum. I'm wearing my pink outfit. It's so cute. I love me. And everything seems to be OK again, thank god.

Oh no I suck in bed. Poor Ted.

July 25 - Nice weekend. Sophie B. Hawkins = awesomeness. I'm tired. Ian rocks.

July 23 - YAY mommy back from Japan. And Julie here for the weekend. Finally someone [female] to talk to. Really good timing for Julie, too, because like, ehh. Can't live too long without her. My mom too, but I can't talk to her about more personal stuff, with her it's just job/people/roommates/that kind of stuff, which is good because the job part bores Julie, so Julie gets to listen to stuff going on in my brain. Poor Julie. YAY 2 weeks and 2 days of work left.

Random Stuff You Should Answer: (STOLEN FROM DRE)

1. Are you happy with your name? No. Can't do anything cool with it, plus I get called Yeka. People have told me my worst quality is my name, which really isn't too bad =)
2. What grade did you like best? 8th and 11th. College rocks too, but 8th grade was all kinds of craziness with Julie, and 11th grade I had my whole gang with Danny and Abanty and people.
3. Which celebrity do you HATE? I find Snoop Dogg repulsive. Don't really know/care though.
4. Whats your favorite big word? Supercalifragilisticexpialadocious.
5. Whats your favorite curseword? Shithead, fuckhead.
6. When did you first learn about sex? ~6-7 years old. My mommy showed me a book written for kids and it was all like "when a man and a woman really love each other..." And there were pictures about puberty and such.
7. Were you scared? Oh yea. My first question was "but mommy doesn't it hurt if the man has to lay on the woman? Men are bigger."
8. How many concerts have you been to? Not many.
9. Whats your drug of choice? Alkihol.
10. If you were an animal which would you be? Dunno. Never liked this question. Meow.
11. Whats your favorite shape? I like abstract shapes that look balanced.
12. Admit it - what do you like that everyone would make fun of you if they knew about (which they will)? Harry Potter? But everyone knows that. Hanson? Spice Girls?
13. What superpower would you have? Read people's minds. But I have to be able to turn it on and off.

Pick:
1. Superman or Batman: Not a big superhero person. But Spiderman once waved at me and Julie in Canada and that made us giddy.
2. Pool or ocean: Waves are fun, but I hate the stuff living there, so I say pool <-- I stole Dre's answer.
3. Major or minor: Minor... I think...
4. Beer or Liquor: NOT beer.
5. Sushi or steak: Sushi.
6. Mexico or Canada: Never been to Mexico. Canada has hottt guys though.
7. Salt or Sugar: Sugar, although if I prefer salty snacks over sweet snacks. But salt by itself is disgusting.
8. Black or White: Black
9. Cookie or Cake: Cookies are more of a happy food. But cake can be sooo much better. With fruity stuff on top.
10. Introvert or Extrovert: Dictionary says: introvert: Directed more toward inward reflection and understanding than toward people and things outside of self. Slow to expose reactions, feelings and thoughts to others. So I guess introvert
11. Pen or Pencil: Pencil for math. Pen for everything else.
12. Numbers or Letters: Numbers. So many cool tricks and things.
13. Sex or drugs: SEXXX

July 22 - I wonder what the punishment is if you get caught stealing from the C-store.

July 21 - Oh man. Don't know how I got so drunk off of that, but that's the drunkest I've ever been. Worse than my birthday. That's bad. And today's bad. Dizzy and pukey and hurtie all day. Didn't go back to work after lunch break. Ow. Grr. If I knew it was gonna be that bad I wouldn't have drank. Watched Cannibal Women and the Avocado Jungle of Death last night. Ha. I like the title.

Thought this was cute:
LIFE... is all about ass:
You're either covering it,
laughing it off,
kissing it,
busting it,
or trying to get a piece of it.

July 20 - Haha. Morons. July 19 - Yesterday was a very nice lazy sunday afternoon. Too bad you can't have those all year round.

I hate feeling helpless, inferior, angry, hurt, upset, or anything else that makes me want to crawl into a little ball and cry. Don't worry, I'm not any of those things, I was just thinking of how much it sucks to feel like that. Hmm...

July 17 - Thank god for bleachers in the middle of the night =)

The Devil's Dictionary

July 16 - Israeli company developing see-through-wall imaging system

July 15 - What time is it?

July 14 - Handing out bowling shoes to the step kids reminded me of wrking at Coney Island. Made me a little sick to my stomach. Oh well. I love Andrew and Ted. They make me happy.

My favorite ones are in bold: =)

Mommy, Mommy! Why do I have to hop everywhere?
Shut up or I'll chop off your other leg!
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Mommy, Mommy! Grandma's got a bruise.
Shut up and eat around it!
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Mommy, Mommy! What happened to all your scabs?
Shut up and eat your cornflakes!
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Mommy, Mommy! What's in those CARE packages they send to Africa?
Shut up and get back in the box!
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Mommy, Mommy! The teacher says I look like a monkey!
Shut up and comb your face!
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Mommy, Mommy! Are you sure this is the way to make ginger bread men?
Shut up and get back in the oven.
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Mommy, Mommy! What's for dinner?
Shut up and get back in the oven!
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Mommy, Mommy! What do you want with that ax....
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Mommy, Mommy! Billy won't let go of my ear.
Billy, let go of Susie's ear.
Billy! Let go of her ear!
All right Billy, give me her ear.
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Mommy, Mommy! I hate daddy's guts.
Well, just leave them on the side of the plate.
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Mommy, Mommy! Why is daddy so pale?
Shut up and keep digging.
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Mommy, Mommy! I don't like grandpa.
Well, just push him aside and eat your beans.
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Mommy, Mommy! Grandpa's going out!
Well throw some more gasoline on him then.
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Mommy, Mommy! I don't want to go to Australia.
Shut up and keep swimming.
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Mommy, Mommy! Why are we pushing the car off the cliff?
Shut up or you'll wake your father.
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Mommy, Mommy! I keep running in circles.
Shut up or I'll nail your other foot to the floor.
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Mommy, Mommy! Why's everybody running?
Shut up and reload

July 13 - YAY it looks like I get housing till fall. Yay no home for me. I like people who know how to be happy for others and can show it.

July 12 - Update, ya'll say? I guess I should, to make sure you guys don't forget about me or find someone else's babble to read. Err. Nothing to say. Oh yea! Julie! Lots of Julie this past weekend, yay. And the other chick was cool. I realized that it's a lot of fun hanging out with just girls, doing girly things and talking about girly things without having to worry about what you say in front of your guy friends. It just has to be with the right girls, and it's kinda hard to come across the right girls. I have fruity smelling undies! And uhh... I died on saturday. And Ted is the bestest boyfriend ever. Hmm, what else? We actually do stuff at work now because our peptide finally arrived on friday. Whee! HPLC and ultrafiltration and CD spectroscopy and whee. OK I shush now.

Mmm... cherries and chocolate whipped cream and salami in bed. Hott.

July 7 - Was amused by this. And this.

July 6 - I was just thinking that I'm glad I'm not in high school now, because I'd get so sick of all the Bush/Kerry war/no war discussions, and they're unavoidable in HS, while in college it only gets mentioned if you're taking a Middle East/poli sci class, but even then, it's not an every day topic of discussion. I don't know why I don't understand any of it, it's not like I'm stupider than everyone else. I think it's maybe the fact that I refuse to discuss and argue about something without really knowing what's going on or knowing what should be done, and that's why I just stay quiet during all those discussions. I guess it's kinda the same thing as me not being able to say a word unless I know how it's spelled, or me not pronouncing foreign words other than in spanish because I don't know exactly to spell it and/or how pronunciation of letters in other languages works. That's kinda related, right? Or am I nuts?

July 5 - Last night was nice. Of course I passed out at 12 because I'm a friggin loser, but it was nice up until then. Ian makes the best burgers. And fireworks are always nice too. They had smiley faces and hearts and saturns and kitties with whiskers fireworks!! But I like the regular ones the best.

I don't get Nick. But I also don't care, so yay.

July 3 - Article on what Bill Cosby said

Soo... much... food... at home... Yum. But it's OK, I lost 7 pounds in the last month, so yay I can eat well by myself. Now I'm kinda maybe regretting not living in CPA. Went to the beach today. Water was brrr. And I usually don't mind cold water. Heard a mother yelling at her kids: "Get yo' stoopid ass outta da water" and "don't make me choke the shit outta ya'll." Umm. Yea, great example for the kids.

June 30 - Is it bad that I like Avril Lavigne? I think she's dumb because he keeps calling herself a writer and her lyrics are ehh... but I like chick rock, so yay for Avril Lavigne. *hangs head in shame*

A turkey. That's hott. =)

June 29 - Long entry day. Sorry.

Rich makes me happy and giddy. Don't know why, but he's awesome and talking to him is awesome. And I don't know if we're friends or what, but whee he's always there to help me make fun of retards on meetspot and to point out the ugly people to me.

A prayer thing hanging in our lab for some reason:
Lovely Lady dressed in blue -
Teach me how to pray!
God was just your little boy, Tell me what to say!

Did you lift him up, somtimes,
Gently, on your knee?
Did you sing to Him the way
Mother does to me?

Did you hold his hand at night?
Did you ever try
Telling stories of the world?
O! And did He cry!

Do you really think He cares
If I tell Him things -
Little things that happen? And
Do the Angel's wings

Make a noise? And can He hear
Me if I speak low?
Does he understand me now?
Tell me - for you know?

Lovely lady dressed in blue -
Teach me how to pray!
God was just your littel Boy,
And you know the way.

Hahaha. Reminds me of sweetie101's poetry. Only Julie will get that. But yea, how dumb. Wow. I should write poetry.

What else.... work is blah. It's weird how absolutely nothing is going on in my life, but I'm never bored, and I'm always happy. And Ted's the best =)

I LOVE that cell phone commercial where the old lady is all like "hells yea" and "yo" and then there's a bunch of old people and they're at a party "getting all kinds of nasty." Hee hee hee.

I keep listening to Brand New - Sic Transit Glora over and over. The song gives me the chills.

Keep the noise low
(She doesn't wanna blow it)
Shaking head to toe
While your left hand does "the show me around"
Quickens your heartbeat
It beats me straight into the ground.

You don't recover from a night like this
A victim still lying in bed, completely motionless
A hand moves in the dark to a zipper
Hear a boy bracing tight against sheets barely whisper, "This is so messed up."

Upon arrival the guests had all stared
Dripping wet and clearly depressed,
He'd headed straight for the stairs
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
Unprepared for a life full of lies and failing relationships

He keeps his hands low
He doesn't wanna blow it
He's wet from head to toe and
His eyes give her the up and the down
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up
But the body on the bed beckons forward
And he starts growing up

She hits the lights
This doesn't seem quite fair
Despite everything he learned from his friends
He doesn't feel so prepared
She's breathing quiet and smooth,
He's gasping for air
"This is the first and last time," he says.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides
He's holding back from telling her
exactly what it really feels like

He is a lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast and all he wanted was to hold her
Nothing that he touches her is really having an effect
He whispers that he loves her,
But she's probably only looking for...
So much more than he could ever give:
A life free of lies and a meaningful relationship.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides
He waits for it to end
And for the aching in his guts to subside.

Up the stairs: the station where
the act becomes the art of growing up.

The fever, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe
You weren't too hard to sell.
Die young and save yourself.
The tickle, the taste of...
It used to be the reason I breathed
But now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

June 27 - Whee fireworks! That made my day. Fireworks are my favorite thing in the world. Wheeness. Hmm, this weekend was nice and all, but I'm not spending another summer weekend inside. Waste of a summer.

Grr. Ugh.

June 25 - Mmm... Shrek 2... Frolf?

June 24 - Work's not bad. Once you do stuff time actually passes. I want ____ ____. It's been over a week since ____ ____ and I want it. But NOOO, the world doesn't want Kate to have ____ ____. skdjfkasdhlkj

June 22 - I can't stand him. Every time he says anything I feel like ripping his head off. skdghjkasdhglkjdfgkadlfja;lkdjlkasd/.

If you got a couple of hours to kill... Get this guy laid
If you got a few minutes to kill... Get this guy to walk straight.

June 20 - Nothing new or interesting is happening. So you don't have to read this entry. Joolie left, but thank god she has a phone b/c 9 weeks without Joolie = hell. My throat's really sore. I'm listening to Britney Spears now. 2 people have really pissed me off lately. Not mentioning who because they read this, or someone they know reads this. Yea. Weather's nice. Was reading outside and tanning today. It's funny how 2 summers ago I didn't go to the beach because I was embarassed to be in a bathing suit and now I can lay out on the lawn in the middle of campus alone in a bathing suit. Friday was the first day where we actually worked the whole time, like we were supposed to and took an hour lunch break like we were supposed to. Sooo tiring. I don't know how people work for real jobs for 40 years. Sucks. But I love summer. And I like Ted. Oh, and friday I woke up rashless! Don't know why or how, because it was all red on thursday night, but now it's all gone YAY.

June 16 - So the rash on the left side of my chest is drying up and going away, but it spread to the right part of my chest and the area below my neck. Ouchies. But at least now I know that it just takes a week to go away and I'll be fine. My stomach is also itching a lot, but it's not spreading anywhere else. So yay. I'll only mention it once more when it's all healed, so you don't have to suffer through reading this. Sorry.

June 15 - Let me bitch a little. I hate people. I hate dumb people and I hate politically correct people and I hate annoying people. I hate people who think I'm so horrible for saying that ghetto people who follow you around asking you to have sex with your friend should be killed. I also hate people who tell me I'm mean for making fun of a girl who dropped out of beauty school because it was oh so hard and it was hard so she dropped out (thank you Julie). Speaking of Julie, me and her should be allowed to do a little world-cleansing. I'd be a much happier person. Uggghhhhh. BUT! The rash on my chest is getting better!! WOO HOO!

Now that's disappointing. =\

Ian bowled a 255!!!!

June 14 - So I haven't updated about my rash lately: My face is all better now, my back is almost healed, my arm is getting there, and the stuff on my legs kinda appears and disappears randomly. My stomach is still itchy once in a while with the bumps still there. The huge rash on my chest isn't going away yet, and it's still red and itchy. It might be getting better, but I'm not sure yet. We'll see.

Wheee lots of peppermint patties! Happy day. And flowers, and a bath stopped thing. Heh heh.

June 13 - Friday night: Theta Xi's hot tub with champagne and raspberries and people. Awesomeness. Saturday: Hung out with Julie, Mel, and her friend. Saturday night: After Ian drove Julie to Brooklyn and back (Ian's fucking awesome!) Becca made awesome margaritas. Whee alkihol. Too bad I always pass out at 3. I'm such a loser. But awesome weekend overall.

I like Ted. There, I mentioned his name for the first time. Whee.

June 10 - An update for those of you who check every day even though they can't admit to it =)~

Nothing new. The spots all over me might've started to get better, but last night I ended up scratching the ___ out of myself in my sleep, so now it's back to the redness and burning and itching and bumpiness. So my boobies were covered in hickey-like spots from bras and clothing and such, but after last night I have dark purple hickey-like scratches all over them. Gross isn't it? But seriously, I don't know wtf it is and I don't want to go to doctor, but it's so frustrating it makes me want to cry. I want to wear cute shirts dammit.

I really shouldn't be allowed to think. I need to be kept busy to stop this whole thinking nonsense.

Julie's right, I was the one who said that it's supposed to be like that. But is it? Why the hell do people do it then? AHHH. Thinking bad.

Jackie's brownies are amazing. I want to marry her.

NEW PICS:
The top ones are from sunday. More to come (battery died)

Dog with a pirate HOODIE!!! YARRR!

Anyone surprised I took that picture? Didn't think so.

June 8 - Lotsa free iced coffeee. Whoa. Rash on face almost healed, back is starting to heal, arm is still bad but it's getting better. But... new bump things all over my chest and stomach and back and thighs. People say it's bed bugs? Don't know. But it itches like hell. Why does the world hate me??

Saw Ozma, Starlight Run, and Rooney on sunday. For free =) And they gave out lotsa chocolate milk there =) Liked Ozma a lot. Starlight Run was cute, but too emo. Rooney was ehh. Nothing special about them. But Ozma = whoaness.

Work is still blah, but there's a new kid working with us, so it's a bit more fun. Was bored at work so was looking through a NYC guide book, and found:
Kate's Joint - too bad it's all vegan
Masturbakers - HINT HINT!
the address to the french fry place (yay!)
Tom's Diner (Suzanne Vegas's song) does exist, and it's in Brooklyn, with a note by her in there, so must go sometime
and some kind of peanut butter place

June 5 - Whoaness. Spent the WHOLE day at TX. Did nothing. But wow it's awesome there. Just sitting on the stairs or on some random couch is awesome and no one gives you dirty looks for being there. Whee. I love Dre. Awesome backrub. Whee.

June 4 - Lets see... still don't know what's going on at work, my rash is still there. It spread a little more, but I went to doctor today and they didn't know what it was but gave me drugs anyway. So I should be fine. Julie's coming this weekend, yay.

June 1 - First day of work. Haha, typed firsday at first. Ehh, makes sense either way. So yea, not quite sure what happened at work, they gave us scary protocols and scary biology stuff to read. Ack. Anyway, my face isn't getting better, and now it spread to my arm and hand and shoulder and stomach. Eeek?? Gonna try to make an appointment to the doctor tomorrow, eek. I don't know how to go to the doctor by myself. Hmph. But I cooked myself chicken and microwaved potatoes and it was yummy and YAY I can survive without mommy and a meal plan.

May 31 - YAY. All moved in. Almost. Just don't look under my bed. Grrrrr. Woke up with a huge rash thing on my face and neck. It's all red and ugly and there's no way to hide it. Grrr. Everyone said it's allergies. And there's some of it on my back and on my boobie and on my lower back. Gross gross. I'm disgusting.

May 30 - I have the cutest shoes and the cutest bag and whee! My face hurts cuz I can't stop grinning. Hee hee.

May 29 - I love Stevens. Another awesome night. I love those guys. This summer is gonna rock. Can't wait till monday.

Holy shit, ___ is so fucking yummy. Wow. I'm a happy bunny. No sleep during the last 3 nights, but it's so worth it. I haven't been this happy since the first 2 weeks of the spring semester. Except it only gets better from here this time, while last time I was this happy it could only get worse and it did. Wheeeeeeeeeeeee!

ResLife are suck fucking bastards (you don't have to read this, I'm just venting). Before the semester was over I went to them and asked if I would be able to keep my hayden room until June 1 since I don't start work till then. They said no way, I'd have to be here on May 22 (or whenever) to move everything. So because I didn't want to have to come here that day I decided to move out and move back in right before work started. So after I move out, they put a note on my door (yes, because I would see the note in hayden after I moved out) saying that I can't get into my summer dorm till June 1 (isn't that what I was asking for originally???). So they give me a temp tech room so I can get my stuff over here before June 1. Yesterday I just happened to be at Stevens and I asked for my tech key and they said my CPA room is ready (HOW many times will they change their minds??). So yay, I have my CPA key. Then yesterday I got an e-mail saying that I HAVE to pick up my CPA key this weekend (what if I wasn't planning on being there this weekend and was planning to move in June 1 like they wanted me to???) AND that I have to hand in my hayden key and move out by June 1 (hello, I moved out already). WTF??? Anyway... Over 10,000 hits! I win!

May 27 - The most uneventful yet awesome day. Wink. THERE WAS NO SUNRISE! And it's all Bloomberg's fault! Grrrr. But whee, you could kinda unofficially call that a real date! Whoa. Whee. Then went to see Shrek 2 with Julie. AWESOME movie. Wow. I want a little donkey dragon! (watch the credits) Whee. Awesome movie, awesome soundtrack. All the silly suspence stuff actually makes you gasp like a little kid in a fairy tale. Whee. Best day ever.

May 26 - Bloomberg and the MTA have managed to make living in NYC feel like living in fucking prison. Not only are you not allowed to go into a park if you don't have a kid with you, swipe a metrocard for someone, walk around at night without at least $20 in your pocket, or put your bag down on the subway on an empty seat near you in an EMPTY train, but the MTA trying to make it illegal to take pictures on NYC subways. WTF!!! Photography is ART, there are exhibits of pictures of NYC subways in museums. How the hell are our grandchildren supposed to learn about what NYC looked like 50 years ago if you're not allowed to take pictures of the subway??? And MAYBE I can understand not being allowed to take pictures of things such as the figurines on the L-train (haha fuckers, I got pictures) because that can be looked at as a museum of some sort and you can't take pictures in museum (you can, though, as long as there's no flash) but if you can't take a picture of a bunch of your friends while waiting for a train, that's just ridiculous. What a stupid fucking way to make money.

May 25 - Had ANOTHER dream about Mike. Also very x-rated. Really friggin weird. Why would I dream about him? Ehh.

May 24 - sooo.... boredd.... sakjhkashfaksjhflakjkhdafsg

OMG I had the best cookies ever. AMAZING. Holy shit wow. You know how people say things are better than sex? Well this was actually better than sex. Better than sex + cuddling afterwards. Just amazing. Wow. Soo good. Lakota Bakery in Boston. If you're ever in Boston, go try the cookies. Holy fucking wow.

Had a non-pg-rated dream about Mike. Ha. And it was good. But I don't want Mike. I want ___.

May 23 - How ridiculous is it that according to all these diets fruits are bad for you because they have sugar in them? And how ridiculous is it that skinny little 12 yrs olds who are so bony and have absolutely no meat on them only eat chicken ceasar (sp?) salad because they're watching carbs? Yea it's true, America is fat, but I don't think people should get all psychotic with the stupid diets. Then again I probably shouldn't talk because I should be on all those diets, but still it's pissing me off.

May 21 - OK, why is EVERYONE asking me how my boy/boy toy/boyfriend/boy search is doing/going? There's no boy, boy toy, boyfriend, or boy search! I don't know where everyone gets that from!!

Remember the Crimson Room? Well here's the next one... Heh, good luck.

Accidentally let the door go into a nun's face today. I'm soo going to hell. Kinda awesome though, never saw a real life nun before. Who knew they went to starbucks. Saw midgets before, but never nuns. Saw a midget today. Did you know they had asian midgets? Yeaa... a nun and a midget in one day. My life's complete.

May 20 - NinjaPirate.com The second best page in the universe...

UCB Theater is pretty fucking cool. Not as good as Boston, but still pretty awesome. And free (or really cheap). And it's not the same comics you see everywhere, so new material is always good. There was a guy who turned everything into pirate talk! So yea, new place. Woo hoo. But walking through the village at night is disgusting. People who follow you around and ask you to have sex with your friend while they watch should be shot. Of course, they don't even ask in proper english. So yea, yucky. If only Julie had a shotgun and was allowed to make NYC a better place...

Plays/shows/theaters/comedy clubs in NY I love all that stuff. If anyone wants to go to any of the listed performances, let me know.

Gavin Rossdale is so fucking hot. Mmm mmm...

May 18 - Is that possible?!?

Gilmore Girls. Man, the way Dean looked at Rory right before they did it... I miss that. Haven't had that since Nick. Damn, that's over 3 years. Ew. I need to get some.

Random Excuse Generator. Old, but soo amusing.

May 17 - Handball rocks. Getting kicked off steps for reading doesn't. My stepbrother (the older one, who's living with us for now) cooks yummy foodies. Mmm. Hee hee. I'm sitting here dressed like a pirate. Why? I don't know. Hee hee. YARRR. And my stepbro just handed me a knife and a bottle of rum. Whee! Happy pirate.

Hate me =) OK, so it's not as great as Andrew and Jackie, but still, pretty goddamn good.

OMFG. Simon from 7th Heaven got HOTTT. Whoa... the show got even dumber though. But Simon = hubba hubba.

May 16 - Home is nice. Summer is nice. Julie's house in PA is NICE. Need boyfriends . ASAP. Ones with cars. (plural because one for me one for Julie, not because I need more than one) Taking applications now. Had another dream about ___. I want ___.

Julie's book bit me in the ass. And it hurts. =(