Forgiveness and Defense


February--the month when holidays begin again after a holiday of their own during January. January isn't much of a month for anything but repair after the break; the winter sets in during that month, the wrap-up of Christmas lights leaving the promise of warmth behind until Spring. But February recognizes the pagan need for celebration.

Tensions in caring relationships can crop up. With me, there was always the worry of Valentine's Day--would people be threatened by me if I wished them love and happiness? Was there too much awkwardness in my behavior, or too much warmth, towards those for whom I felt secret affections? And what about that feeling of lonliness when you realize that everyone has these fears, and those prevent the shy from enjoying the scent of roses come the 14th?

I have set up my defenses, after gaining forgiveness for myself and for others. While I want to be wary of the future, alienation threatens if I make my distance too large. Time to tiptoe through the situation, tenderly, gently, as through a field of frozen flowers...


Issue 6:
Intro
Eye Heart Ewe
Toy Skunk Haiku
Qwotez
Fictive Autobiography
The Color of My Aura
Whom We Worship
A Tactile Communication
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