TORTURA 13
13/6/02
Before I went to sleep I said
"Will you always be there? Or will you get tired of me.
You can`t possibly stay with me all the time. I am a pain. I am in continues trouble."
14/6/02
In the morning I woke up with the words
"Will you give me your life for ever…will love me as I have loved you…"
15/6/02
As I woke up I opened the Bible and read:
‘You do not want sacrifices and offerings;
you do not ask for animals burnt whole on the altar
or for sacrifices to take away sins.
Instead, you have given me ears to hear you, and
so I answered, "Here I am;
Your instructions for me are in the book of the Law.
How I love to do your will, my God!
I keep your teaching in my heart."
In the assembly of all your people, Lord,
I told the good news that you save us.
You know that I will never stop telling it.
I have always spoken of your faithfulness and help.
In the assembly of all your people I have not been silent
About the loyalty and
constant love.
He hated the sight of anyone who placed eyes on me.
He overcrowded me with his presence.
I said ‘no’ because he asked my brother and all my friends instead of me.
"I` ll kill myself if you don`t marry me".
I said "I am sorry
this is the way it is going to be".
He is alive and well with wife and children
have to want me".
What??? I apologise… You said what??? "I`ll talk to your brother…"
"You will have to give me a child, for that is what a
woman likes. Lullaby to children and pasta on the table
and dirty dishes to wash, if not today tomorrow will do.
Or I…
What is your brother`s mobile no.??
Or I
Will send you bankrupt.
Or I
Will declare you a SLUT.
... Pretty difficult... but handleable…
(I like to invent words, Miss English head Teacher… stop reproaching me)
And then
The unhandleable one…
You searched for me all your life
In every corner of the world you looked wistfully.
And then one day you raised your eyes and saw me there,
just beside you.
As I always have been
with torch and all
in every corner of the world you have been.
My silence entices your attention earnestly
My roar makes you laugh and look high up in the sky
My tears make you sad
And my wounds make you angered
My blood makes you run outside and yell to the world ‘Enemyship’.
And no earlier stalkers will hinder my sight of you.
I am the stalker that walks hand in hand with you..."
Tortura 14
Tortura 12
Cronaca Nera a cura di Tina Barbalace
A book to read: Wrestling the Devil by Tina Barbalace
…//Psalm 40, 6-11
16/6/02
Once upon a time I had a stalker no.1
He was so jealous. He followed me everywhere
The he asked my brother to marry me
He said
In time, I found out he didn`t kill himself.
All beautiful and shining...
The once upon a time gone, arrived the now and here stalker no. 2
He said "You and I have to get married. Nobody wants me. You will
"Good one. I heard that before."
I opened my eyes and there He was Stalker no. 3.
"No FBI will stop me.
My humbleness makes you wait in disbelief
No FBI will stop me.
I am the shield that catches the arrows thrown at you
Just a moment, I`ll have the last word
"You are my Jesus and I love you."
I guess my question was answered...
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