15/12/02

5:45am

Yesterday I was reading something to my friend from the Bible

and that is when the MURDERER GOT HIS IDEA...

let me put you into the picture:

"...Your Majesty, I wish that the dream and its explanation applied to your enemies and not to you. The tree, so tall that it reached the sky, could be seen by everyone in the world. Its leaves were beautiful, and it had enought fruit on it to feed the whole world. Wild animals rested under it, and birds made their nests in its branches.

"Your majuesty, you are the tree, tall and strong. You have grown so great that you reach the sky, and your power extends over the whole world. While Your Majesty was watching, an angel came down from heaven and said "Cut the treee down and destroy it, but leave the stump in the ground. Wrap a band on iron and bronze around it, and leave it there in the ground with the grass. let the dew fall on this man, and let him live there with the animals for seven years."

"This, then, is what it means, Your majesty, and this is what the Supreme God has declared will happen to you. You will be driven away from human society and will live with wild animals. For seven years you will eat grass like a cow and sleep in the open air, where the dew will fall on you.

Then you will

ADMIT THAT THE SUPREME GOD CONTROLLS ALL HUMAN KINGDSOMS AND THAT HE CAN GIVE THEM TO ANYONE HE CHOOSES.

The angel ordered thje stump to be left in the ground. this means that you will become king again when you

ACKNOWLEDGE THAT GOD RULES THE WORLD.

So then your majesty, follow my advice.

STOP SINNING, DO WHAT IT RIGHT, AND BE MERCIFUL TO THE POOR. THEN YOU WILL CONTINUE TO BE PROSPEROUS."

...
...Daniel`s words came true immediately, Nebuchadnezzar was driven out of human society and ate grass like a cow. The dew fell on his body, and his hair grew as long as eagles` feathers and his nails as long as bird`s claws.

"When the seven years had passed,

said the king "I looked up at the sky, and my sanity returned. I praised the supreme God and gave honour and glory to the one who liver for ever.

I praised...

...//Daniel 4, 22-37

I was mentioning to my friend that that could have applied to me and to her that for 7 years we suffered so much.

THAT tree seemed to represent what we wered 7 years ago, and how we were reduced to nothing.

What the Greek didn`t understand is who was Belteshazzar as opposite as who I am and my friend is.

HE WAS A KING WORSHIPPING WOODEN STATUES...

HE WAS A KING THAT WOULD FORCE HIS SUBJEST TO WORSHIP WOODEN AND GOLD STATUES AND to deny the SUPREME BEING, OUR CREATOR.

That is the difference between me and the king. I never worshipped a statue and I never forced anyone to worship a statue made of gold or wood or whatever.

DILL,

what I was saying to my friend that God punishes each and everyone of us, because he wants us perfect.

The dream has something in common with me, in the sense that I was quite wealthy before you all started your campaign in sieging my properties and my employment, and spending my money (telephone????).

And it also did resemble my life in the sense that I was to an end of it all. The seven years are nearly elapsed.

YES GREEK STUPID.

I was to be blamed and God did punish me.

For you see, (used to say semino)

Until 1996 I thought of God as being

an abstract idea imposed by my mother...

an idea that needed to be followed

with the Sunday mass ... and the prayer in front of a statue.

I NEVER WORSHIPPED STATUES,... BUT I DON`T THINK I REALLY BELIEVED IN THE WORDS THAT WERE COMING FROM MY MOUTH DURING PRAYERS. IN OTHER WORDS I WAS LIVING MY RELIGIOUS IN A VERY SUPERFICIAL WAY.

That was my sin...

I was not acknowledge that

HE IS THE SUPREME BEING AND THAT HE HOLD MY LIFE IN MY HANDS.

I was telling my friend, My awakening, Lucifer,

My awakening of the REALITY OF LIFE.

IN MY DEEPEST SORROW which was brought about by all of you and not God

(although he allowed it to happen)

IN MY DEEPEST SORROW I realised, Lucifer, that

GOD IS NOT A PUPPET THAT WE PULL BY THE STRINGS.

that

GOD IS REAL

that

a real man was born in a manger

that

a real man died on a cross

only and just

to tells us all HOW MUCH HE LOVES US.

As I said, Nebuchadnezzar`s dream resembles something of what has happened to me, but IT IS NOT ME.

I DON`T HAVE A SINNIFULL LIFE BEHIND ME.

I OBSERVED MY COMMANDAMENTS EVEN THOUGH I DIDN`T REALLY UNDERSTAND THE TRUE MEANING BEHIND THEM.

I observed them because there is a human law which imposed us to observe them and because my mum imposed them on me.

But now in the last seven years I have learned that what I was doing was right... and that religion stopped being a legend ... and that prayer is actually speaking to GOD HIMSELF.

so STUPID, that is what I was saying to my friend... I was acknowledging the fact that I have learned a lot...

and certainly not that I WAS GUILTY AND THEREFORE THAT I COULD UNDERSTAND IF YOUR ROBBED ME FROM MY MONEY, SOUL, AND FREEDOM.

HOW ARE YOU SISTER IN LAW DEAR...

HOW ARE YOUR STUDIES GOING?

DID YOU BECOME A DOCTOR YET?

AND HOW IS YOUR DAUGHTER IN LAW WHO IS SUPPOSED TO GET HER EDUCATION OVER A BOY THAT BARELY REACHED THE AGE OF 20

WHEN HE WAS PRESCRIBED TO BE MARRIED?
HOW ARE YOU LIQUIDATOR WHO THINKS THAT YOU CAN ENTER MY FAMILY`S LIFE IN SUCH A THOUNDEROUS MANNER?

HOW ARE YOU PRIESTS WHO CAN PRESCRIBE A WOMAN TO BE MARRIED TO A DIVORCEE?

HOW ARE YOU LORD JESUS CHRIST?