15/11/02
3.34am
In my dream I saw myself and my mother being locked up in a room, and my mother said
"where are we? Call them..."
My mother still thinks that I can open doors, or order people to open doors...
but the tragedy here is that
my brothers the one in Italy and the married one here think as well that the sky is blue and that the moon is white...
I heard the Greek stalker still singing with the guitar in his hands...
"...she refused to have a grand marriage, now she will have to be a whore..."
and he added "...I have been trying to tell you that this would happen..." - o ... you are a saviour, aren`t you?
That is what my dreams are all about...
the Demon tempts (re: Jesus in the desert being tempted by the Demon three times - tell me Lucifer, did Jesus accept the temptetions?)
as I was saying the demon tempts, in other words, I have very lucid nightmares in which the demon tell me that is better that I marry him, that it is better that I become his queen, that I would wear his Kiley Minogue dress, ... rather than perish...
yes, the demon tempts and GOD ALLOWS ME TO HEAR AND SEE ALL THIS...
to try me out because He thinks I am going to betray him.
But while He is a bit afraid that I am going to betray him,
You are instead eating your guts out of JEALOUSY...
as il Papa Giovanni VVIII was saying
"Non voglio la gloria di questo mondo, ne aspetto un`altra migliore lassu`."
GO AWAY SATAN.
YOU CAN DESTROY THE BODY AND THE GOODIES OF THIS WORLD... BUT YOU
CANNOT DESTROY MY SOUL.
Yes Jezebel, or yelling Jesus, or yelling and crazy Giovanni Battista, or crazy Giovanna of Arc...
you are quite right there is someone at the windows yelling at the moment...
it could be any of the above...
CHOOSE WHOM EVER YOU LIKE...
CONTRO IL MALE BISOGNA GRIDARE.
"... if you stop them from speaking, THE STONES THEMSELVES WILL START TO YELL..."
I am in a state of disbelief at the moment...
I can hardly look at myself in the mirror and say
"HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME?..." "How could people, people of Sydney, who claim to be free going, jovial, fire fighters, women of the east fighters, ... how could they take me as a target and kill me slowly alongside with my mother... in a pot of boiling oil?"
"How could they allow a Stalker to win in such a fragrant way...?"
I have no idea what to say to my mother when this will happen...
I am only praying that she would die before she finds out that her two sons which she practically adores, did this to her.
Namely, killing her daughter and herself...
WOMEN OF SYDNEY IS IT WORTH TO BE A MOTHER????????
AND MAGISTRATES AND POLICE AREN`T YOU ASHAMED OF WHAT IS HAPPENING IN SYDNEY OR DO YOU STILL THINK THAT THE WOMEN OF THE EASTERN ARE HAVING IT TOUGH OUT THERE...
today Westpac bank told me
"... we do not want to substitute security... your unit at Balmoral suits us to the tooth and WE WANT TO KEEP IT...
IN OTHER WORDS... all the things that they said about me, namely BEFORE... THAT i yell at them at their employees, when I never even called them,
IT WAS NOT AT ALL TRUE, BUT THEY WERE INVENTING STORIES SO THAT THEY COULD JUSTIFY THE IDEA THAT THEY WANT ME TO BE DRIVEN TO BANKRUPTCY AND THEREFORE KEEP MY UNIT FOR THEMSELVES...
WITH A SIP OF SHAMPAGNE FROM AN INDIAN LAWYER WHO FORGOT TO PAY ME $1350.00 AND AN INDIAN PSYCHIATRIC WHO ONLY GLANCED AT MY FACE AND SAID "YOU ARE MENTALLY ILL" BUT HE MEANT TO SAY "I WANT YOUR UNIT, AND THAT IS THAT. DO YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT?"
used to say jasmine the polish 18year old who wanted to shoot me in my face in order to be inspired to write a poem.
ARE YOU STILL SINGING?
ONCE upon a time there was a man who came to my house, he said "I don`t know what to do, my wife doesn`t want me anymore..."
that man after two weeks shot himself in front of the Crucifix in the grounds of a certain church.
I guess God must have told him,
"Shoot yourself in front of me, so that they can come and clean up the mess that they have created. You are now a zombie, you are useless for life..."
that man was driven to crazyness by his own family, and church and surroundings, I still can hear his words in my ears "my wife doesn`t want me anylonger..."
but I still can hear the words of his mother when she was alife
"Remember, that my son is much younger than you. You may be making a mistake..."
She wasn`t making a mistake.
She wanted that man so that she could come to Australia, bring her whole family
and then study and better herself at the expense of daddy dear... And once she achieved her education
and reached her goal there was no reason of living peacefully with him.
HOW ARE YOU SISTER IN LAW DEAR...
HOW ARE YOUR STUDIES GOING?
DID YOU BECOME A DOCTOR YET?
AND HOW IS YOUR DAUGHTER IN LAW WHO IS SUPPOSED TO GET HER EDUCATION OVER A BOY THAT BARELY REACHED THE AGE OF 20
WHEN HE WAS PRESCRIBED TO BE MARRIED?
HOW ARE YOU LIQUIDATOR WHO THINKS THAT YOU CAN ENTER MY FAMILY`S LIFE IN SUCH A THOUNDEROUS MANNER?
HOW ARE YOU PRIESTS WHO CAN PRESCRIBE A WOMAN TO BE MARRIED TO A DIVORCEE?
HOW ARE YOU LORD JESUS CHRIST?
voglio ubbriacarmi di te vino inebriante
voglio camminare ad occhi chiusi
luce che estasia
voglio cantare d`amore
cuore che trepida
ED ORA CHE TI HO LODATO
MI VUOI PROTEGGERE????????????????????????????????????????????????? ???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
Something old, something new...!!
He was good!!!!
It must have been me!!
Un mondo pieno di ladri !!
...don`t go around grinning...the devil first entices then kills...it is better to be on the side of GOD.!!
you should read this...is so peacefull...however it could reveal itself as an EARTHQUAKE...do as you please
In my dream I saw the string
nylon and finely compact.
The Greek has decided
to call it quits
and get me stretched.
They have tried it once
by his order
It failed because
there was still a bit of order
All is collapsed now
The "DELITTO PERFETTO"
has to be activated
or the Liquidator will loose his face
and that will be highly unappreciated.
When will it be?
Will it be a lebanese
or an indian
to do the deed?
A stooge will be sent
to perform your action.
Stamp your feet, and
break the floor,
I am unmoved, I am still, I am DEAD.
But as dead as I may be
I walk, I talk,
I sing, I love
to haunt you
and your FOLLOWERS
greek junk with the face
soiled of dung...
THE STRING WAS IN THE HAND AND BEING MEASURED BY THE GREEK STOOGE, BUT WHO GETS TO BE SO LUCKY IN PUTTING IT AROUND MY NECK?
"We do not want her dead, otherwise all she have will go to her cousins in Argentina, we have to make sure that she doesn`t kill herself... we have to place her with a good ITALIAN FAMILY and we have to model her up... her brain we mean... to like... SEX AND BE A SEX ADDICT... this is the only way we can walk scott free... and with our face clean..., we`ve go to do this..."
for the liquidator... I came to you for work...
for the police... I came to you for justice...
for the principal... I came to you so that you could teach your clients to understand that that is a school not a pub...
to my brother... I came to you because my mother told me that my brother will always be there for me... sorry I made a mistake... I didn`t realise that when a brother marries then the wife takes over and the sister becomes the intruder... who need ask permission to talk to her own flesh and blood.
In my dream I heard someone say:
DEPARTMENT OF SCHOOL EDUCATION, I LOVE YOU... DO YOU LOVE ME TOO...
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO GO ANYWHERE I WANT AND STILL TO DEMAND TO BE TREATED WITH RESPECT ... that is for the stalker...
I have the right to go anywhere, TO ASK FOR JOBS, to work, to look after my things...PSYCHIATRISTS STOP KILLING... YOU HAVEN`T GRASPED WHAT BEING A DOCTOR IS... GO AND LEARN. AND LEAVE THE GOOD HEALTH PEOPLE ALONE.