I Try

I cannot believe he had to break up with me to return to his family. That's not fair. His family gets to have him back now and I have to be the one to say the love between us is over. That's not fair. I deserve him more than his family does and he deserves me more than his family a lot, too. His evil grandmother made him rejoin the family. He had been attracted to me the most and Helena had to trick him on breaking up with me because of a family reunion.

I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together babe
But we're not
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feelin'

I wonder why I'm still thinking of him after he threw me away. Does he still love me or has he moved onto a reunion with his family already? Maybe he should apologize to me and he'll say that he'll be sorry about the things he did to me. I will come to him as I will say when I cry, "Nikolas, I'm sorry about the way on why do you have make a decision like that? I'm sorry. I still love you so much. Please take me back and regret coming back to your family." Then I woke up that I had a nightmare and my eyes burst into tears.

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

He hurt and broke my heart and my feelings on how it hurts a lot for me to break up with the prince I fell in love with. He might still come after me. But he doesn't care about his family. He cares about me. I know that he still loves me and I hope he always still does. He means a lot to me, and I mean a lot to him. I'd die so much for Nikolas. Coming back to his family is supposed to be how it is. I'm feeling too weak to resist, but I couldn't be strong. I already just started to cry.

I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love

My love for Nikolas has been trapped inside me. It's not fair I don't love him anymore. All he does think about me and I think about him. Ever since I blackmailed Emily, I couldn't leave my mind for him. He would not want to also. I'm trying to remember the good times we shared a lot together.

And I may seem all right and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
Just a front, hey
I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
And I'll try to keep my cool, but I'm feelin'

I was trying to make him understand on how the way he treated me bad that night. It was everything that I'm not a princess anymore. Now my life is going to be without my prince. I'll try to get him to make my sadness to go away and make my happiness come back if he might regret coming back to his family after giving up on me. Our love is always very important to each other. When you care about someone you love before you just throw your love away, and the other person couldn't take the chance of taking your lover back, and that's what he needs.

I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

I think about what he said to me, "You just don't fit into my world." Maybe he might be angry if he got so mad at me for what he had to yell at me for. I just couldn't listen to him yelling at me. Maybe he's still the one for me. Maybe I might go to sleep and dream about the night we broke up and I walked away.

Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy, I need your touch
Your love, kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
Deny

I know that when I go to sleep I will think of him and dream of him. I just don't care at all. I always have the most and cheerful dreams. I'm not Gia Campbell though. I'm always Gia Cassadine so Nikolas and I would like to have our own kids with a mixture of Greek and Scottish. I wanted to be Gia Cassadine so bad. But not without my prince.

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you
(but I'm dreaming of you babe)
And I'll keep my cool, but I'm feelin'

I hope that someday of being Gia Cassadine comes true. I hope Helena would take a ride out of Port Charles and she will leave me and my Nikolas alone. In my dreams where she would not hurt me, nor hurt him, nor hurt our families. That's the way it will work. I mean why did Helena force him to return to his family anyway?

I try to say goodbye and I choke (yeah)
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near aahh)
Goodbye and I choke (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I try to walk away and I stumble (hey, hey, hey)
Though I try to hide it, it's clear (say it Lord)
My world crumbles when you are not here

Now I'll go to sleep and dream my happy dreams. As I drift away I know that I'll never stop loving my prince Nikolas no matter what happens. He'll always be apart of me. He's touched my life in so many ways that It be impossible to forget him. Maybe tomorrow I'll tell him how I feel. Tomorrow it will all be better. Yeah tomorrow.

Goodbye and I choke (I'm choking)
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
(when you are not near, yeah, yeah yeah)
Yeah, yeah...

Song Credit: I Try by Macy Gray