Author: G. Hotchkiss Title: Falling in Place Chapter: 1 Disclaimer: The characters mention in the story don’t belong to me but to NBC and Passions. I’m borrowing them for the purpose of this story and I really am not trying to claim them. The salty sea air felt good on Kay’s face as one tear after the other rolled down her cheek. It was a Saturday afternoon and Kay had decided to walk on the beach before going home. A summer storm hovered in the distance, promising relief from the August heat. The restless waves eased Kay’s broken heart. Her thoughts automatically wondered towards Miguel and the mess her life had become as she sat alone on the beach. It had started to fall apart when Kay told Miguel how she truly felt about him. She, Miguel, and the rest of Harmony High, had ended up at a huge party after graduation. Someone had spiked the punch, and Kay drank more than her share. Kay only vaguely remembered telling him how she felt, but the next morning was crystal clear… ~ Kay was sitting in the kitchen holding her head in her hands when Miguel came in and sat down. “Kay-“ Miguel was cut short when Kay winced. “Not now Miguel, my head is going to explode.” Kay murmured. “It’s about last night..” “Look, I didn’t know it was spiked so lay off okay… Where were you when I had this conversation with my dad.” Kay mumbled. “Never thought I’d be so glad to see her smiling face in the morning…” “What? You lost me” Miguel said with a confused look on his face. “Hmmm?” “Whose face were you glad to see Kay” Miguel asked “Charity’s. Did you know she was a morning person?” Kay asked looking so miserable and disgusted at the same time that Miguel smiled. “Morning people should be shot. Or at least ordered to stay away from people who aren’t.” “Okay… But why were you glad to see her.” Miguel asked gently. “She explained that I didn’t get drunk on purpose. That she had a glass as well before what’s her name told her it was spiked.” “How much did you drink Kay?” Miguel asked. “Enough to feel like hell this morning. Why?” “Because I wanted to know if you really meant what you said last night, or if you were just drunk.” Miguel said as he stared out the window. At first Kay had no idea what Miguel was talking about, but then fuzzy memories began to float to the surface. “Miguel, I barely remember last night so if you could tell me what I did, it would help a lot.” Kay clamped her eyes shut and prayed it was a bad dream. “You dedicated a song ‘to the one guy you ever loved’.” Miguel swallowed hard. “Me.” A single tear rolled down Kay’s cheek. She didn’t know what was worse, the pain in her head, or the pain in her heart. The memory of his reaction the night before was clear enough now. He had chosen Charity. “Kay?” Miguel asked after a long pause. “Just go Miguel.” Kay whispered. “I know you love her, and talking about it won’t change things.” “Kay I just-“ “Go Miguel. It’s been too long since you’ve acted like you were my friend, so don’t start now.” They sat in silence for a moment before Miguel got up to leave. There was still so much to say, but there were no words to say it. As he reached for the door he looked over his shoulder at Kay. With her eyes tightly shut, he could tell Kay was barely holding back her tears. She had never looked so lonely, or so beautiful. “Good-bye Kay” He said, and then he closed the door behind him. “Good-bye” Kay whispered as her heart shattered, and her tears began to flow. ~ The gentle sea breeze toyed with the few strands of hair that had come loose from the French braid in Kay’s hair. As she brushed them back in a vain attempt to tame them, she noticed that she wasn’t alone on the beach. A moment later she recognized Theresa and the misery written all over her face. “They say misery loves company.” Kay called to her. Theresa’s head jerked up in surprise, and then a faint smile played on her lips.” Want to see if they’re right?” “Sure” Theresa replied before taking a seat next to Kay. Theresa was wearing cutoff jean shorts and a baggy black tee-shirt splattered with various colors of paint. Even dressed so casually she was beautiful. “You look about as happy with the world as I am.” Kay commented as she gazed at the ocean. She was still wearing her wine colored tee-shirt and jean shorts she had put on for work that morning. “How happy would that be?” “Let’s see. I spilled at least three drinks today at the Book Café because I kept staring at the guy of my dreams. This wouldn’t have so bad on it’s own, but he happens to be in love with someone else –and she was there.” Kay swallowed hard and felt the stab of pain that always accompanied thoughts of Miguel. “Miguel?” “He tell you what happened?” Kay asked. “No, I guessed it was him. Does he know how you feel?” “Yeah, doesn’t change a thing though.” “If we are going to trade sad stories I must warn you that I can top that.” The challenge in Theresa’s voice made Kay smile. “Oh really?” Kay asked with a side glance at Theresa. “Uh huh. You see, I thought I was going to get a brake from the drama my life has turned into by helping Sheridan paint the mural at the Youth Center. We’ve been working on it from 8 in the morning to three in the afternoon all this week. Wednesday Ethan decided to pitch in. We got into a dual with our paint brushes and paint got everywhere-“ “Sounds fun.” “It was.” Theresa replied softly. “Go on.” Kay urged, glad to be distracted from her own problems for a while. “Sheridan had left the room just before the dual started, and somehow we ended up in each other’s arms. I’ve loved him for so long that I finally got sick of him not knowing, and I kissed him.” “What did he do?” “He kissed me back.” The bittersweet smile on Theresa’s face make Kay’s stomach knot up. “And” “And he told me that we shouldn’t have done that. He made it painfully clear that he didn’t want a relationship with me. Now, or ever.” Kay winced. The pain in Theresa’s voice was familiar. Kay knew all to well how the throat constricts, the chests tightens, and the eyes burn because you are fighting back tears. They sat in silence for a moment, each lost in their own thoughts. “Why is it that we never consider that scenario when we day dream?” Kay asked in all honesty. “Because those are called nightmares.” Theresa replied. “I was told it’s called a ‘realistic scenario’ for an entire year.” Kay countered. “By someone who has never felt this way I’ll bet.” “My sister.” “My mom, and my best-friend told me that daily.” Theresa smiled at the similarities. “It never really stopped me from hoping though. Not even when I was helping him plan his wedding to Gwen.” The wedding that, to Theresa’s delight, had never happened. Gwen’s mom had made sure of that for reasons never revealed. “Bet I can top your story.” Kay said with a bitter smile. “Try me.” Theresa dared. “We found out yesterday,” Kay took a deep breath. “that Ethan’s my brother.” - It’s just the beginning but I hope you like it. Send comments to g_hotchkiss@hotmail.com