I don’t want to go to bed tonight,
I hurt for too many sleepless nights.
I fear this loneliness so much, because I know that somewhere, you’re delighted from her touch. I’ve lost my way so many times, in these sheets, so far away. But when I woke up, it was always the same, you were gone. I cannot take it anymore. Somewhere in my mind, I see you, I see her, even if I don’t know her face, I can imagine her eyes, full of passion, full of this love I know so well, for it shone in my own eyes long before it did in hers. I will never forget you, nor will I forgive you. You hurt me. You made me cry, you made me suffer. You’re so far away now, I can’t even reach for you in my dreams anymore. But you still control my heart, my soul, my mind and my body. I know you will never come back. I know you have already forgotten me. But nothing could ever change my feelings. Nothing could ever make me realize that you were no good for me. I hate myself for this, but I love you so much. I don’t even have any picture, any letter, I don’t have anything from you to hang on to. So I hang on to my memories. Because I know they will never let me down. I can’t believe I became so weak…you made me weak, and you became stronger.
Tell me, please tell me… why do I hurt when you don’t?
Posted on Jan 16, 2001, 2:16 PM
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