Missing You

By
Lee

As she entered the school she knew today would suck. Hearts adorned ever surface a testament to the lovers holiday. A holiday she had no one to share with this year. She opened her locker hoping to find one of Angel's notes. The notes that had been mysteriously appearing in her locker since he had left. When she found no such note dejectedly she headed for home room than on to her first class. Ms. Calendar's computer class.

Jenny and Willow were discussing their plans for the evening. Willow telling her all about the surprise Oz had planed and Jenny tell Willow about the dinner reservations she had overheard Giles making. When they spotted Buffy entering the room they stopped talking as to not make her feel bad. They knew she had been down all week, every time some one had brought up Valentines Day she found some reason to leave the room.

Giles was happy that she was spending more time patrolling, he had not yet caught onto the reason. Buffy had the vampire population of Sunnydale and the surrounding area running for cover. The Slayer was alone on Valentines Day and she used the vampires and anyone else careless enough to cross her path as a outlet for her anger and frustration.

Buffy noticed the conversation end as she walked into the room. "You don't have to stop talking on my account. Some people have a life, unlike those of us who are the chosen one. Let me guess Giles and Oz are taking you two out tonight."

"Yes," both answered.

"Well it's good to know not everyone's life sucks. Me, I have a date with the undead population of Sunnydale. Who could ask for anything more? A dark night, plenty of guys wanting to get close to me, and a pointy stake. What girl wouldn't want to be me tonight."

"Oh Buffy." Willow's heart was breaking for her best friend. If anyone deserved a perfect evening it was Buffy. Every night she risked her life for people who didn't know and probably didn't care if she survived another night. She hugged her friend wanting to make it all right. "I bet you got one of those notes that have been showing up in your locker. I mean it's so romantic Angel wrote all those before he left so you could have a part of him here with you. Did this one have poetry like that one two weeks ago?"

"There was no note Will. I probably got all the notes I'm going to get. He didn't have that much time before he left so I'm guessing whoever was putting them in my locker ran out." Buffy sighed and took her seat as the rest of the class started to file into the room. Buffy took out her book and started her assignment, then suddenly bolted from the room.

Willow receiving a nod from Jenny followed Buffy into the girls bathroom. Upon entering she heard the unmistakable sounds Buffy retching. "Buffy." Willow called. "Are you okay? Do you need to see the nurse or go lay down in Giles office."

Going to the sink Buffy washed her mouth out. "No I'm fine. I've been so stressed about Angel being away it's taking a toll on me. I've been trying to keep my mind off him so I've been patrolling a lot more. I just need some rest and I'll be fine."

"Are you sure? I've noticed you haven't been feeling well it could be that flu that's going around, a lot of the school has been out with it.

"I don't know maybe. Let's get back, this is the only class I have where the teacher doesn't think I'm a juvenile delinquent. It's nice having one teacher who doesn't expect me to fail."

"They don't think that."

"Sure they do Will."

"Not all of them."

"Most of them."

"Yeah, well if they knew the truth..."

Buffy cut her off before she could finish. "Yeah, but they never will, so what's the point. Let's go."

Harmony sheared a malicious look with her friends and then turned to Buffy. "So Buffy what are you doing tonight. Oh wait let me guess, can't find a date." Buffy was fuming, she heard the snickers of Harmony's cohorts. "What happened to that hot guy, Angel wasn't that his name? He probably got in your pants and dumped you. You were headed home with him. You know I bet that's what happened."

Buffy was so mad and hurt, it took everything in her not to cry.

Willow had seen and heard everything she would put Harmony in her place. Walking up to Buffy she took the seat next to her. "You know, it's tuff that Angel had to go out of town on.... business now. Would you like to go out with us or is going to call you tonight?"

Buffy caught on to Willow's plain. "No you guy's go I'll wait for his call alone." Buffy shot a grateful glance to her friend.

Halfway through class there was a knock on the door. The student closest to the door opened it and spoke with the person on the other side, pointing towards Buffy and Willow. A man walked up to Buffy with a dozen red roses. Leaning close he asked, "Buffy O'Brien?"

Stunned anyone would know to call her that she hesitated. "Yes. How do you know?"

"I'm a old friend of Angel's." At her look he added. "No, not that old." He handed her the flowers.

"Oh, thank you."

"There's a letter, it was nice to meet you." The mysterious man left.

Buffy found the letter then noticed the whole class was staring at her. Her teacher giving her a irate look. "Sorry I didn't know he was going to do that."

Her Mrs. Archer's look softened. "It's not like this hasn't happened before. Although I must say those are the most beautiful roses I've ever seen. Well go ahead and read the note."

Buffy was happy her teacher was not going to make a scene. She opened the letter and started to read:

Buffy had never gotten anything so beautiful in her whole life. No one had ever done anything like this for her before. She was enraptured. As class ended Mrs. Archer called for Buffy to stay.

"I'm sorry, I had no idea Angel would do that."

"Well he should have waited until you saw him tonight, but I can understand that he may have to show all the other boys you were taken. Boys can be like that sometimes."

"He can be a little possessive when other guys look at me but he's real protective of me. He's a little old fashioned too, he's always trying to keep me safe. It's kinda sweet." Buffy didn't want her teacher to think Angel was some kind of stalker.

"That's nice but tell him to wait until after school next time."

"I will, but he's out of town right now I'll tell him when he calls. Oh he told me to apologize for disrupting your class."

"He actually said that?" Not many boys would worry over what the teacher thought unless they were in that class.

"Yeah, Angel's real thoughtful of other peoples feelings. He knows this is my hardest class so he sent the flowers to brighten my day.

"Angel? I don't recognize the name, dose he go to this school?"

"No, he's older."

"Is he in college?"

"No, he works." It was all Buffy could think to tell her teacher. She surely couldn't tell her the truth. No he's a two hundred forty three year old vampire, but that's okay because I'm the slayer.

"Not too much older I hope. He doesn't try to push you into anything dose he." At Buffy's look the teacher continued. "He doesn't try to push you into sex or do things you aren't comfortable with.

"No he'd never do anything like that. When I said he was old fashioned I meant like seventeen hundreds old fashion." Buffy giggled, eighteenth century yep that's my Angel. "He would never think of having sex before we were married." Buffy looked thoughtful for a moment. "Okay maybe he'd think about it but he wouldn't do it."

Mrs. Archer was impressed, if what Buffy said was true she had found the perfect guy. "Well if you ever need someone to talk to let me know. I realize there are times when you need an adult to talk to who won't judge you."

"Okay, are you sure your a teacher? I mean your being nice and all, most teachers don't care."

"Well put it down as me being new. I've only been teaching a short time and I haven't gotten jaded yet."

"All right, well I've got to go see you tomorrow."

"Will's your babbling again. Everything is fine, she was totally cool. She said to tell Angel to wait till he after school next time. She also said he probably wanted to show the other guys I was off limits." Buffy pushed open the doors to the library and sat her flowers on the table. "Giles." She called. "Giles are you in here?"

Her watcher appeared at the top of the stairs. "Buffy Willow I'm sorry I didn't hear you come in. I've been putting away some new books that I received yesterday. They really are quite fascinating there is one Oz may want to read, it has quite a bit about werewolf's."

"That's great Giles but we're in a hurry. Can I leave my flowers on your desk? I don't want to carry them around all day. Well I do but I can't."

"There beautiful Buffy. May I ask where you got them?"

A huge smile lit up her face. "Angel sent them. It was so great, I was sitting in history feeling totally bummed when this guy walks in and hands me these great roses. The whole class was watching. He wrote me this letter that came with the flowers, I need to be home tonight. He's going to call me at 9. I'll patrol after I promise, gotta go bye." With that Buffy rushed out the door leaving Willow and Giles alone.
*
When the last bell of the day rang Buffy headed to the library to retrieve her roses. When she arrived the gang was waiting for her. "Hi guys." She greeted her friends.

"Wow that's a big change from this morning. What gave you such a happy? Finally forget about Dead Boy and find a live boyfriend?"

"Xander!" the group yelled.

"What?" Xander asked. Was he the only one who saw a problem with the slayer dating a vampire.

Buffy ran into Giles office followed by Willow.

Cordelia slapped Xander on the arm. "Your an idiot. Buffy is happy after a month and you screw it up for her. God get a clue, she loves Angel and there's nothing you can say to her to change her mind." Cordelia went to check on Buffy.

Oz not being a member of the group for long was unsure of what to do. He did not like the way Xander had treated Buffy. "That was harsh man. You hurt her and that's not cool."

Now it was Giles turn. "I'm going to tell you something that is not common knowledge. Buffy and Angel are fated to be together, The Powers That Be have decreed it. So get used to it. Why don't you go home and think about the way you treated Buffy."

Xander left the library very unhappy.

Cordelia entered Giles office to find Buffy recovering from Xander's callous remarks. "Fix your make-up before you go out you look like a raccoon."

"Thanks Cordy. I'm going home I want a shower and nap before I talk to Angel." Buffy said as she fixed her make-up.

"Want us to walk with you part way?"

"How about I drive it will be quicker and I DON'T walk." Cordelia said haughtily.

"Sure why not? Just let me grab my flowers." Buffy picked up the roses and the three girls left.

"I thought Giles bought those for Mrs. Calendar, there yours?"

"Yep, there mine, Angel sent them since we couldn't be together tonight. He's going to call at 9 and I don't want to miss it. Why do you get the great boyfriends and I get...." Cordelia stopped before she gave something away.

They said good-by and Willow stopped to talk to Oz. A minute later she joined the girls at the door. "Let's go. I'll call Oz from your house."

"You guys don't have to do this, you have plans for tonight. You don't have to hang out with me because I'm alone tonight."

"Oh good I was hopping you would say that." At Willow's look she added. "I'll still drive you home. Let's try not to be seen by anyone, okay." At their looks. "What I have a reputation to protect."

As they reached the parking lot they ran into Harmony. "So Buffy trying to look not so pathetic since that hot guy dumped you. I bet you sent yourself the flowers."

Cordelia came to Buffy's defense once again, much to everyone's surprise. "Harmony you are such a moron. Angel is away on business and he sent the flowers. Your just pissed because he wouldn't give you the time of day. I saw you coming onto him at the Bronze and him ignoring you. Come on Buffy lets get your roses home before they wilt. Besides you don't want to miss Angel's call."

"Should I tell her Will?"

"Please, I almost slipped twice this week."

"All right why don't you guys come in?" Buffy led them to the door then produced a key and let them in.

Cordelia couldn't contain her curiosity any longer. "Would you please tell me what we're doing here. Oh my God you and your mom got evicted and now you live in this little apartment. Maybe I can talk Daddy into giving you a job at his company that way you won't starve."

"Cordy we haven't been evicted. This isn't mom's place it's Angel's."

"Good, I thought it was too dark for your mom's taste. She likes all those pastels I thought she had lost it. I was going to lend you my decorator to help her out of her depression.

"Wait a minute you said take you home why are we here? Did you get kicked out or something?"
*
Ten minutes later Cordelia sat stunned. "Let me see that ring again. Well at least he could have had the good taste to buy gold or ever better platinum." She sighed. "Well he is a vampire."

"Hey the rings have been in his family for hundreds of years."

"What he couldn't have bought new, he gave you a used ring."

"Cordelia their antiques, a family tradition."

"Well since their antiques I guess that's not too bad."

"Thanks for the ride I'm gonna do my homework, catch a shower, nap and wait for mo fear to call."

"Who ?" Cordelia asked.

"Oh sorry my husband."

"What language is that?" Willow asked.

"Gaelic, Angel taught me a few words. He calls me mo bean or mavourneen my wife or my darling. It's kinda cool we can call each other by those names and no one will know. I can call Angel my husband in front of my mom and she'd never know. Cool huh?"

"That's neat I'll have to remember that."

"Come on Willow we need to go now that Buffy has heard from Angel we don't have to spend anymore time trying to cheer her up. We can go get ready for our dates. Tell Angel we said hi." With that Cordelia grabbed Willow by the hand and pulled her out the door.

Buffy woke from her dream crying she had had the dream where Angel had lost his soul again. This time it did not stop with her sending him to hell. This time she had seen all of her life without him and she hated it. Without him she would die young just like all the other slayers. She had seen herself killed and then dismembered by a group of demons. They had sent each of her friends a piece of her body. Angel opened his and then walked into the sun. She was unsure why she was having these dreams now. Angel's soul was permanent, they were together, why now?

The phone was ringing but it took her a few moments for it register in her brain.

"Hello."

"Buffy?"

"Angel?"

"Oh Buffy I can't believe I finally got through. I've been trying for an hour. I miss you."

"I miss you too Angel. I was so down today before I got your flowers, I can't believe you sent them to me in class. You should have seen the look on everyone's face when the flowers arrived. Even Cordy was impressed."

"I'm glad you liked them, I just wish I could have been there to give them to you in person. I haven't stopped thinking about you since I left."

"I miss you so much Angel, I hate not having you here. When are you going to come back? Are you done hiding the Judge yet?"

"Not yet Baby, I still have three pieces left to go. I gotta tell you I have been going to some pretty remote places. I don't think there is any way he can be resurrected again. He is one demon we won't have to worry about again."

"I'm glad, now enough shop talk, how are you?"

"I'm fine, how about you?"

"Couldn't be better."

"Than why were you crying?"

"How did you know I was crying?"

"I can hear it in your voice."

"Oh. I had a dream that upset me. I woke-up crying."

"What kind of dream?"

"The one were you lost your soul. Only this time I saw what the rest of my life would have been like. And I gotta tell you I did not like it one bit. My mom made you leave me and you went to LA. I meet this nice collage boy and went out with till he sleep with me and dumped me. Then I meet another nice collage boy who turned out to be a government agent hunting demons. He dumped me when he found out about you. I almost lived long enough to finish collage but some demons killed me and sent a piece to all my friends. When you got yours you killed yourself. I am so glad that we are not going to have that future. If I lost you I would die, I can't live without you."

"Oh Baby I'm so sorry I can't be there to hold you and make it better. I want nothing more than to take you in my arms and love you. You are my world, my sunlight, my life. Without you I am nothing. I still can't figure out what you see in me but I thank the Powers That Be that you love me, and that we are together."

"Angel that is the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me."

"It's the truth. Without you I am no one."

"Don't say that, never say that. You are kind and genteel and have a wonderful soul. Please don't say things like that."

"Buffy if you knew everything about me you would not say that."

"Please Angel, for me. Please don't say those kinda things. I know more about you than you think. Let's not talk about this anymore right now. Tell me about all the places you've been and the people you've meet."

"Only if you tell me about everything that is happening there."

And she did, leaving out the little jibes from Xander.

He spent the next ten minutes telling her everything he had seen and done. "I hate to say this but I have to go soon. I have to get to my next destination before dawn. I will be home as soon as I can. I count the minutes until we are together once more, my Love."

"I love the way you talk to me it is so romantic, I love you."

"I love you too, Mo Bean. Remember that always."

"I will meet you in our dreams, Mo Fear.

With that they hung-up the phone. Buffy started to cry, she missed him so much. After a good ten minute cry she went to the bathroom and washed her face. Looking in small mirror she had brought over she fixed her make-up and got ready for her patrol.

The vampires that were out looking for an easy dinner of young lovers, were in for a rude surprise. A slayer without a date on Valentines day was a force to be reckoned with. Buffy tore thru them like a hurricane. She was swift and deadly. Soon there were no vamps to be found anywhere so she went to Willy's maybe he knew where she could find some action.
*
Buffy arrived home, Willy's had been a bust. He had informed her that the word was out 'if you value your skin stay away from the slayer.' The local vamps were ready to track down Angel and bring him home so she would leave them alone. They were getting desperate. With all this running through her head Buffy crawled into bed and waited to meet Angel in her dreams.

"Angel what are you doing here? I thought you were going to be gone at least another month." She threw herself into his arms kissing his lips "I've missed you so much."

"I've missed you too Baby, I can't wait until I get home but for now we'll have to settle for our dreams." He pulled her closer devouring her mouth with his own.

"Our dreams? What are you talking about?" Her brow furrowed in puzzlement.

"The bond, it's all part of our bond. I told you we would be able to sense each others feelings and that there were other advantages of our bond. This is one of those advantages, when we sleep we will be able to meet in our dreams."

"But this feels real, like we're really together. I like this, if I can't have the real you this is the next best thing." She kissed him again. "Angel how real is this?"

"As real as you want it. Why?" He smirked as he smelt her sent of arousal.

"I just wanted to know... to know if we could... Uh... You know." She was nervous, Angel always made the first move. True he may have taken his que from her but he was the one who brought it up.

"You want to make love?" Angel knew that was what she wanted.

"Yes I do. I know you told me not to be shy with you but it's still kinda new and you've been gone a whole month." She kissed his lips then kissed his neck licking it with her tongue. She felt him shiver and smiled, she did that to him. She made him feel all the things that made him quaver, just like he did to her.

"I've missed you Baby, want me to show you how much?" He ran his hands down her back pasted her waist to caress her bottom.

"Oh yeah, show me. Then I can show you how much I miss you." Buffy started to unbutton his shirt. When it was undone she pulled it out of his pants and slid her warm hands under it caressing first his chest then his back. She felt him shiver in response to her actions. Buffy kissed back up his neck to his lips letting her tongue slip into his mouth. Her small hot tongue explored the cool moist cavern running her tongue over his teeth earning her a aroused growl as his face shifted. Her tongue ran over his elongated fangs drawing blood as she nicked it. He sucked at it like a baby nursing from his mother.

She was driving him crazy with need, her hot body pressed against his. As she unbutton his shirt he again thanked the Powers That Be she was his. Her hot little tongue slipped into his mouth caressing his mouth and teeth. Running over one of the most sensitive spots on his body. As her tongue teased him he could hold off his change no longer. As his fangs extended he felt one slice her tongue. When her blood hit his tongue it started a fire that could not be extinguished. It burned him to his very soul, and only she could soothe him. In truth the fire had started with their first kiss every time they were together it burned out of control. He growled as he sucked at her tongue. He pulled her shirt over her head throwing it to the floor. His hands found her breast caressing them through her bra. He ran one finger along the edge eliciting a moan from her. His finger dipped down to brush her nipple as it hardened he gave the same treatment to it's twin. She moaned again as he took first one then the other breast into his mouth. Once her bra was soaked with his saliva he reached behind her and unhooked it. When he had disposed of the offending garment he attacked he breast with his mouth for the second time that night. As he licked and sucked his way from one side of her chest to the other. His hands were far from idle, the made quick work of her pants and underwear. She was soon naked and his hands move to her center. "Spread your legs Baby." He pushed her thighs apart. He dropped to his knees and rubbed his face against her stomach. As he trailed kisses down to her blonde curls he mumbled, "So sweet. You smell so sweet." His kisses teased her all the way to her outer lips. He ran his tongue along her slit slowly from top to bottom. When he reached the bottom he wiggled his tongue into her and licked his way back up. He smiled as he heard her moan. "Do you like that Baby?"

Buffy was in heaven. She didn't know how much longer she could remain standing, Angel was doing such wonderful things to her. "Yes, I love what you do to me."

"Mmm, how about this?" He parted her outer lips and licked and sucked at her clit. He then pushed a finger into her pumping it in and out afew times, then added another.

"Oh yes, that feels so good. Don't stop, please don't stop." Buffy 's legs were shaking.

"Like that do you?" At her nod he added a second finger, then a third. All the time his tongue was busy teasing her little bud.

"Angel please."

"Please what Baby?"

"Please make love to me."

"I thought that was what I was doing."

"I need you inside of me, please." She needed him inside of her so badly. She was trembling on the edge, her hips started to thrust against his face.

"Does my Baby want something?" He asked with a smile. He pulled his fingers out of her.

"Yes, oh yes. I need to... I need to..."

"Need to what? Come on Baby tell me what you need."

"To come. Please I need to come." She thrust her hips forward into his face.

He drove his tongue back into her along with his fingers. He felt her shatter and then collapse into his arms. "Did you like that Baby?"

"Yes." She said with a contented look on her face.

Angel carried her over to the bed and stood her next to it. He pulled her into a kiss as his hands roamed his body. He turned her around and molded his back to hers, his mouth fastening to her neck. He licked and sucked at the smooth column of her neck. He moved his hands down her neck, her arms then to cup her breast. His fingers pinched and rolled her nipples. Buffy pressed back into his body, his erection pressing into her back. When she wiggled Angel lost the last of his control. He pushed her face down onto the bed. Angel quickly pulled her to her knees and thrust into her. His hands once again found her breast he caressed them as he pumped into her. "Oh Baby you feel so good."

"Oh Angel. Harder, faster." She moaned.

Angel was only to happy to comply. He sped up pumping into her with a strength that would have killed an ordinary mortal. Buffy met his every thrust matching it with her own strength and speed. Soon he felt her body tense in preparation for her orgasm. When her body started to contract around him it was all he needed to push him over the edge. With a shout he buried his fangs in her neck and came, her body milking every last ounce of seed from his.

Buffy felt herself start to come and shouted Angels name at the same time he shouted hers. Buffy could feel his fangs enter her body and that magnified her climax. When Angel pulled out of her he continued to nurse his mark on her neck. "Oh God I've missed this. I've missed being with you having you hold me. Just lying in your arms I feel so safe, like nothing in the world could ever hurt me."

"I know what you mean, I've been dreaming of this since I left. I can't wait until I come home to you." He kissed her again. "I have to leave soon."

"No, you just got here." Buffy held him tighter.

"I know but you are going to wake up soon and when you do our connection will be broken. I will come to you again, when we are both asleep. Never forget I love you and am thinking of you. I'll see you soon my love." Angel started to fade away.

"I love you and can't wait till you come home to me." When he had faded from sight Buffy woke up. Remembering her dream she climbed from the bed and headed for the shower, it was going to be a great day.