Part 10
“Hey Slayer” Spike greets upon seeing Buffy.
“hey B. Spike’s been telling me about the times you guys fought” Faith remarks
“Oh so your hearing the fictionalized version” Buffy grins. Spike growls in response
“Uh he..llo Spike. Faith its good that your here” Giles stammers nervously
“Relax mates” Spike chuckles looking at the nervous Scooby Gang, “I won’t hurt you’ he remarks grinning. He grins slyly at Buffy, ‘At least while the Slayer is still pregnant I won’t” Buffy rolls her eyes in mock disgust.
“Funny Spike” she chuckles, “So what did you do all day?” Buffy inquires
Spike shrugs and leans against the checkout counter, “Slept, read, watched the telly, and Faith stopped by and hung out”
“B you never told me that Spike was fun” Faith chastises the other Slayer
Xander laughs, “Faith we never saw the fun side of Spike...when he was trying to kill US” Xander spat out in anger
Spike growls at Xander his face morphing into his vampire face. “Shutup Scrappy”
Giles speaks sharply to Xander, “Xander don’t taunt Spike”
“Why?” Xander demands, “Deadboy Jr. has tried to kill us time and time again and now we’re supposed to trust him?”
“Xander’ Buffy snaps, ‘Spike is here to help us. I trust him Xander. I know you don’t but you trust me”
“Xander I won’t kill you. I promise on my unlife and Drusilla’s” Spike remarks
Hearing Spike swear on Drusilla’s unlife Willow stutters, “Xander he swore on Drusilla’s head. Spike would never make a promise like that on Drusilla’s unlife unless he meant it”
Xander thinks it over and begrudgingly agrees, “All right but if he tries to take a bite out of me I get to say I told you so”
“Buffy I think it is time for you to head home.” Giles suggests glancing at his watch. “Faith why don’t you do a quick patrol. Oz can you take everyone home?” Giles asks. Faith nods and heads out. Oz agrees and the others gather their things.
“Buffy call me” Willow calls as she follows the others out the door
“Buffy go home and get some rest” Giles orders, “Spike try not to get into any trouble” Giles asks. Buffy nods and grabs her back pack.
“See you tomorrow” Buffy calls as she and Spike head out the library. “Man it has been one long day” Buffy yawns as they walk out to Spike’s DeSoto. Getting into the car she sighs, “And I’m still not done with my homework”
Starting the car Spike asks, “What do you have to do, ducks?”
As the car barrels out of the school parking lot Buffy answers, “I have to read Edgar Allan Poe’s ‘The Tell Tale Heart’ and write a brief paper on the stories theme. I also have to read about the 1920s and Industrializational differences of England and the US. I hate writing papers I wish I didn’t have to do the history reading. I mean come on I wasn’t even alive then do I care about the differences in industry between England and the US?” It then dawns on her, “Spike?” she asks slyly
“What pet?” he answers warily
“You’ve been around a long time. You know about life in the 1920s plus your English” Buffy says hopefully
“No way Slayer. I am not going to do homework. I didn’t do it when I was mortal and I’m not going to do it now” Spike protests firmly as they pull into the driveway beside Joyces car.
“Please Spike” Buffy begs as they head into the house
“No way Slayer. I may have agreed to protect you but I never agreed to do your homework” Spike retorts.
“Whats going on?” asks Joyce as the two enter the kitchen
“Mom Spike won’t help me with my homework” Buffy whines putting her bag down she sits at the counter.
“And Spike why don’t you want to help Buffy with her homework?” Joyce inquires
Spike scowls, “Because Mum she’s the bloody Slayer she can do it herself.’ seeing the pleading look on Buffy’s face Spike sighs, “All right Slayer I’ll help you with your bloody homework” Spike agrees throwing his hands up in the air. The two once enemies head into the family room and sit on the couch. “Lets start with history” Spike says opening the history book. He proceeds to tell Buffy about what life was like in the 20s for the next hour. Buffy then asks questions and summarize what Spike had told her. “OK now the English” Spike announces, “Have you read the book?” he asks
Buffy looks away sheepishly. “Um yeah”
“Slayer” Spike growls warningly his eyes flashing
“All right’ admits Buffy, ‘I haven’t finished it. I have a chapter and a half left”
Groaning Spike picks up the book, “Bloody hell’ he groans, ‘It’ll be faster if I read it out loud to you” Spike says opening the book he begins to read. Spike finishes reading the chapter and a half in thirty minutes. Putting the book down he says, “All right Slayer do you....” he trails off when he realizes that the Slayer had fallen asleep next to him. He hears Joyces footsteps entering the room.
“She asleep?” Joyce asks
Spike nods, “She fell asleep as I was reading’ Spike answers, ‘Mum do you want me to take her up to her room?” Spike asks
“Sure Spike.’ Joyce says. As Spike picks Buffy up Joyce continues, ‘Spike thanks for helping us out here. I know its hard for you...I mean you two are enemies and stuff.”
Spike shrugs, “Its OK. I kinda like the Slayer she has guts. She’s annoying but she has guts” Spike remarks as he carries Buffy up to her room. Putting her on the bed he leaves Joyce to take care of Buffy and returns downstairs. Seeing the book, ‘The Tell Tale Heart’ Spike realizes that Buffy hadn’t yet written her paper. Sighing Spike decides to write the paper for her. “I must be really bored to be doing this” For the next hour Spike writes Buffy’s paper on the theme of ‘The Tell Tale Heart’ grumbling as he does. When he is done Joyce joins him in the living room.
“Spike why are you writing Bufy’s paper?” she asks sitting down
Spike shrugs, “Don’t know Mum. I guess I am bloody bored.”
Shaking her head Joyce replies, “Spike you are a big softy”
“Am not” he denies hotly. Seeing the look of disbelief on Joyce’s face he sighs, “All right, I am. Just don’t tell anyone”
Chuckling Joyce promises to keep the vampire’s secret. “Spike I forgot to tell Buffy before she went to sleep, but I am leaving town tomorrow. I’m going to an art auction in San Diego, I’ll be gone for two nights.”
Spike nods in acknowledgement, “Sure Mum. I’ll watch the Slayer. I’ll try and keep her out of trouble”
“Good. I want both of you to get along I don’t want to come home to find the house ashes.’ she turns around and heads towards the stairs. Stopping she remembers to that she needed to tell Spike something else. “Also Spike I need a favor” Joyce asks
“What Mum?” Spike asks
“Tomorrow evening at 6 Buffy has a doctors appointment. Normally Mr. Giles or I would go with her. Mr. Giles has a meeting at school. I was wondering if you could go with her” Joyce requests
Spike groans inaudibly, “Sure Mum. I’ll take the Slayer to her appointment.”
“She hates going to the doctor Spike. You have my permission to force her to go. She’ll say anything to get out of having to go. Don’t believe her though.”
“OK Mum. Where is the doc’s office?” Spike asks
“She’s a friend of Mr. Giles who knows about Buffy being the Slayer. Her office is on Pine and 5th”
“I’ll get her there’ Spike promises, ‘We might be late because the sun will barely be down but she’ll be there”
“Thank you Spike. I really appreciate it” Joyce remarks starting up the stairs
Staring after the Slayer’s mother Spike groans in disbelief at what just happened. “I need a smoke,’ he groans. Getting up he heads to the back yard for a smoke. As he lights up his cell phone rings. Pressing the talk button he growls, “Hello Peaches”
“So Spike how did it go?” Angel inquires on the other end
“Fine’ Spike answers taking a drag, ‘The Slayer went to school. I watched the telly. Picked the Slayer up after school and helped her with her homework. She’s asleep now”
“You two spent time together without killing each other?” Angel asks in disbelief
“Yeah Peaches. Both of us are still alive’ Spike snaps, ‘After this weekend who knows if we will be alive” Spike groans
Hearing that Angel demands, “what do you mean?”
Spike takes a drag before answering, “The Slayer’s Mum is going away for a few days. She asked me to babysit the Slayer”
Stunned Angel asks, “Joyce? Joyce is leaving you to watch Buffy?!” Angel growls
Chuckling at the sound of his sire growling in anger Spike remarks, “Don’t worry Peaches. The Slayer will be fine. I won’t let anything happen to her or the midgets. After all they are my brother and sister” he laughs
“You better take care of them Spike. Otherwise I will stake you” Angel growls warningly
“I will take care of them’ Spike promises. ‘You know Poof you might think of calling the Slayer tomorrow night” Spike suggests, ‘She wants to hear from you mate. She misses you”
“I miss her too’ Angel remarks his voice sad. ‘Maybe I will call her. Look Spike I’ll talk with you later” Angel says hanging up.
“Bloody fool’ Spike mutters at his phone as he hangs up. Spike stabs out his cigarette then glances at the house and sees that the lights are all out. Going back inside he writes the Summers women a quick note and grabs the house keys. Closing the backdoor he locks it and walks down the street. Heading towards the cemetary to see if he can find any action he comes across Faith fighting a fledgling. Spike watches the dark haired Slayer fight. When she finishes he applauds enthusiastically. “Brava Slayer”
Faith turns around and grins at the blond vampire saucily. “So Spike hows it going?”
Spike shrugs, “The Slayer and her Mum are in bed and I felt like getting in a fight so I thought I’d look for one”
“Wanna fight me?” Faith asks
“Sorry can’t. I promised the Slayer I wouldn’t hurt anyone’ he replies disgustedly. ‘But she never said I can’t kill any vampires” he grins. The unlikely partners head off in search of vampires.
Part 11
Sighing Buffy stands up, ‘Yeah Spike I am. Do I have to go?” she whines grabbing her backpack
Giles exits his office. “Buffy we’ve been through this. You have to go to Doctor Jones.”
“I know’ Buffy whines, ‘but I don’t wanna” she grumps
“Your Mum said that I have permission to forcefully drag you. And I will” Spike growls threateningly.
“Fine’ Buffy grumbles walking out the library doors.
“Spike? Thank you for taking her” Giles says to the British vampire. Spike nods in acknowledgement and follows Buffy out to his car. Getting into the car Spike starts the car and peals out of the parking lot.
“Spike slow down’ Buffy grimaces, ‘If you get us killed I am so going to kill you” she growls
Spike slows the car down as he reaches the doctors office. “See Slayer I got you here alive” he says smugly as he turns the car off. “Have fun” Spike smirks as Buffy gets out of the car.
She glares at the vampire and starts to close the car door. She stops and asks quietly, “Spike?”
“What pet?” he demands impatiently
Twisting her ring nervously Buffy shyly asks, “Will you come with me? I really hate going to the doctors and you could keep my mind off it” Sighing Spike hesitantly agrees and gets out of the car. He follows Buffy up to the office door. “Remember Spike be good” Buffy orders
“Scouts honor Slayer” Spike smirks
“Somehow I doubt you where ever a scout,’ she frowns thoughtfully, ‘Then again I don’t think the scouts were around when you were a kid.’ She looks at Spike puzzeled, ‘Were they?”
“Not that I recall pet. Then again I was poor.” Spike remarks opening the door for Buffy. Spike closes the door shut as he follows Buffy inside. Spike sits on the couch as Buffy checks in. Moments later she sits beside him and fidgets. “Calm down Slayer” Spike smirks, ‘Why are you so nervous?”
“I hate going to the doctors. I know I should be glad that I have one but they make me nervous. Before now it was because I hated the exam. Now’ she frowns, ‘Now, I worry that everytime I come in the doctor is going to tell me that something is wrong with one of the babies. It scares me Spike” she admits
Thinking it over Spike decides to offer the Slayer some calming news. “Slayer I can tell you that nothing is wrong with the babies”
“How do you know?” Buffy asks suspiciously
Spike points to his ear, “I hear their heart beats”
“oh,’ Buffy nods, ‘Thank you Spike” the two sit there silently, ‘Hey Spike will you come in with me?” Buffy requests
Spike looks at the Slayer surprised, “Are you sure Slayer?”
Buffy looks at Spike her eyes wide with hope, “Please Spike’ she begs, ‘Besides Spike you are their brother, in a way. And I guess in a way having you there would be like having a second set of eyes when she does the sonogram.”
Spike sighs, “All right Slayer. If it makes you feel better I’ll come in” The nurse then calls Buffy’s name. Spike follows Buffy into the exam room. Spike sits down and picks up a magazine. “The last time I was with a doctor and not eating him was over two hundred years ago” he muses
“And I take it that its changed a lot since you were alive” Buffy remarks sitting up on the exam table
“Your right pet. Things have changed alot since I was alive” Spike agrees. He then hears footsteps coming towards the door. “Doctors coming” he remarks. A second later the door opens and in walks the doctor.
“Hello Buffy.’ the doctor greets, ‘How are you doing today?” she asks
“Fine Dr. Jones.’ gesturing to Spike she introduces, ‘Dr. Jones this is Spike. Spike this is Dr. Jones”
“Spike?” Dr. Jones asks amused
“Its a nickname’ Buffy explains, ‘His real name is William”
“Bloody Hell Slayer” Spike grumbles
“So Spike knows you the Slayer?”
“Um yes. Spike is kind of a friend of the family.” Buffy lies
“Well its nice to meet you Spike.’ Turning her attention back to Buffy the doctor says, ‘You ready for the sonogram?”
“Yes. I have waited all day’ Buffy remarks lifting up her shirt to expose her belly
Spike looks up from the magazine and chuckles, “Slayer your huge"
Buffy growls at Spike, “Shut up”
“Well you are” he smirks. He watches as the doctor puts the gel on Buffy’s abdomen.
“OK’ the doctor says picking up the wand. ‘OK. Here you go’ she says pointing at the screen, ‘There are the twins”
“Hey Spike check this out” Buffy says excitedly. Spike moves to Buffy’s side and sees the screen image. “Cool huh?”
“There is your son,’ Dr. Jones points to an image. ‘He looks well. And there is your little girl.’ she points to the other form. ‘she seems well. Both of them seem healthy I see nothing to worry about.”
Buffy looks questioningly at Spike. He shakes his head in response. “So doc everything is all right?” Buffy asks
“Yes Buffy. Your pregnancy is going as scheduled. Now we have to discuss one other issue”
“What?” Buffy asks chewing on her lip nervously
“Buffy its nothing to really worry about. I am talking about when you go into labor. I worry that when you go into labor that you will crush your coaches hand”
“Giles mentioned that possiblility. He is also worried about it. But
the problem is who? I mean their father isn’t able to. With everyone else I’d
end up crushing their hands”
“And why not their father? You haven’t mentioned much about him” the doctor probes.
Buffy twists her ring nervously, “We broke up. He has somethings to deal with and so he won’t be around” she sniffs
Spike adds grumpily, “He’s a bloody wanker”
“Spike” Buffy growls warningly
“Okay then. We will have to find someway to get around it” Dr. Jones remarks, ‘Buffy I will see you next week. Spike it was nice to meet you” she says leaving the exam room.
Spike and Buffy are left alone in the room. “Slayer the doc doesn’t know about Angel?”
“No Spike’ Buffy answers getting off the table. ‘Giles, Mom and I thought it would be for the best if she didn’t know”
“Why pet?”
“She still has ties to the Council. The Council knows about Angel but they don’t know that he’s their father. We told them the father disappeared and is presumed dead”
“Not that far off are they” Spike chuckles, “You ready to head home?”
Buffy nods, “I need to make next weeks appointment” The head out to the reception area and Buffy makes her next appointment. “Lets get going. I have homework to do and I want to take a nice long hot shower” the two head out to the car and return to the Summers house. Pulling into the driveway Spike and Buffy get out of the car.
As he walks up to the front door Spike becomes alert to the sound of growling. Turning he sees Buffy right behind him also alert to vampires nearby. He growls out, ‘Slayer go inside”
Buffy protests, “But Spike”
“Now” Spike growls pushing Buffy towards the stairs. After he hears Buffy enter the house he turns around to face five vampires. “Hello mates” he greets
“Spike what are you doing here?” demands one of the vampires
“Nothing mates. Now I suggest you leave” he growls
“Why Spike? So you can make friends with the Slayer” another asks rushing Spike. Spike flips the vampire and throws him. Buffy opens the front door and stands in the doorway with her crossbow.
“Hey Fang Gang hows the game” she says letting one of the arrows fly nailing one of the vampires in the heart.
“I told you to stay inside” Spike growls staking a vampire. Buffy and Spike finish off the three vampires. “Damn it Slayer. I told you to stay inside” Spike growls as he stalks towards the Slayer.
Buffy goes back into the house. “Spike I had to”
“You had to?’ he yells, ‘Damn it Slayer I had it under control. You shouldn’t have come out. You could have gotten yourself hurt”
“I’m sorry Spike.” Buffy apologizes again
“Next time when I tell you to do something then do it.”
“God Spike chill” Buffy retorts, ‘I’m fine we’re fine. I’m going to go take a shower” Buffy says walking up the stairs, “Get the phone if it rings” she calls. Buffy goes into the bathroom and turns on the shower. Looking into the mirror she grimaces at her image. “Man I look terrible” she strokes her belly gently. Buffy gets into the shower and stands under the water thinking.
Chapter 12/?
Downstairs Spike goes into the kitchen and takes a blood pack out of the the fridge. Heading into the living room he turns on the tv. After watching TV for thirty minutes the phone rings. ‘Hello?” he answers.
“Spike is Buffy there?” Angel asks
“Just a sec Peaches. She’s upstairs.’ Spike remarks. Spike heads upstairs. Hearing the showers off he goes to Buffy’s door. ‘Hey Slayer’ he knocks, ‘phone.’ Not getting an answer thinking she’s mad at him he calls, ‘Slayer I’m sorry for yelling at you earlier.’ not getting an answer he tries again. ‘Fine Slayer Peaches is on the phone.’ he calls with a grin. Buffy opens the door and sees Spike holding the phone.
“Spike?” she holds her hand out for the phone. Spike holds the phone out of her reach. “Give me the phone Spike” she yells impatiently
“Not until you say please” Spike taunts
“Spike you Billy Idol wanna be give me the phone now” Buffy yells kicking Spike in the shin. Spike swears angrily dropping his grasp on the phone.
“Damn it Slayer that hurt” Spike whines as Buffy slams her bedroom door shut in his face.
Leaning wearily against the closed she grips the phone tightly. “Angel?” she says tentatively stroking her abdomen thoughtfully
“Hi Buff.’ Angel greets, ‘How are you?” he asks
Walking to her bed and leaning against the headboard Buffy answers, ‘I miss you Angel” she says tearfully
“I miss you too’ Angel reciprocates. ‘how are the babies?” he asks hesitantly
Smiling tenderly at the mention of the babies she answers, “Great. We had a doctors appointment this evening. The doctor said their great. I’m great. She’s a little worried about the me in labor thing and crushing someones hand”
“well Buffy she has a point. You could crush someone’s hand without realizing it.”
“I know’ she sighs
“Buffy whats wrong?” Angel asks concerned
Chewing her lip she answers tentatively, “Angel I wish you were here.”
“I wish I was too” he agrees. ‘How is everything at school?”
Buffy pouts, “The troll Snyder keeps after me about school. Everytime I see him he grunts his disapproval or makes some sort of remark about teenagers. The other students react the same way that they did before. Giles and everyone are being totally overprotective. Spike and Faith are the only two so far to not boss me around” she complains
“Buffy Giles and everyone just cares alot about you and the twins. Spike and Faith just don’t seem to be the type to worry”
“I know. Spike’s mad at me right now” she complains
“Why? Spike rarely gets mad unless its warranted” Angel waits for an answer. “Buffy” he demands
Sighing she reluctantly answers, “He’s mad because I um didn’t listen when he told me to do something”
“Well what was the situation?” Angel asks
“After we got home we had visitors. He ordered me inside and I didn’t stay in”
“Buffy’ Angel says angrily, ‘You should have listened to him. You could have gotten hurt or even killed!”
“I know Angel. Its just something told me that I had to help him. It was like I had no choice some other force drove me to help him” she explains
Thinking over her words Angel replies, “I know what you mean’ he pauses, ‘Buffy I have something I need to tell you’ Angel begins, ‘Last week I had a dream that you were attacked. In the dream whoever attacked you left you alive but’ he pauses, ‘they killed the babies” he finishes
Gasping fearfully Buffy strokes her abdomen. “Angel?!” she cries
Hearing her cry Angel feels his heart tear. “After the dream someone or something told me that you and the twins needed Spike to watch over you”
Stunned momentarily Buffy demands, “Damn it Angel you should have told me before!”
“I couldn’t Buffy. I knew if I did you’d protest” Angel replies
“You’re right Angel I would have protested. Not because Spike came here but because you didn’t. Angel you sent Spike instead of coming here yourself!”
“Buffy you know I can’t” Angel protests
“Angel I know your worried that being with us will cause you to lose your soul. God I worry about that everyday that when the twins are born’ she rubs her belly, ‘I’ll lose you again. Angel I don’t want to lose you the thought of losing you terrifies me. They need you Angel. I need you.” she whimpers
“You won’t lose me Buffy. I promise.”
“Can you hold on?’ Buffy asks
“Sure” Angel listens as Buffy’s bed shifts
“OK I’m back’ she says, ‘My back hurts” she complains
“I’m sorry baby” Angel says sympathetically
“Angel’ she begins, ‘I want you to be there with me when they’re born. Please?”
“Buffy I don’t know” Angel sighs
“Please Angel at least think about it.’ Buffy begs, ‘Angel I really want you to be there...I need you to be there.”
“I want to be there Buffy. I really do. I want to be with you now and when the twins are born. I want to be there and hold your hand. God Buffy I want to be there so bad. Every morning when I fall asleep I imagine you holding them after they are born. But then I remember when you told me you were pregnant and how guilty I felt for almost killing you and them.”
“It wasn’t your fault’ Buffy insists, ‘I never blamed you for any of it. Did I ever tell you what my first thought was when I found out I was pregnant?”
“No you didn’t”
“I was glad and hopeful that I would get you back. I kept seeing you holding our baby Angel in every dream. The only time I ever resented or even hated the fact I was pregnant was the day you left us. Then I realized you were trying to do what was best for all of us. But I hate that Angel. I hate the fact that because you wanted to do what was best for us you left. In my mind I also wondered if you would have left if I wasn’t pregnant. Later I realized that it didn’t matter worrying like that because sooner or later something would have happened and I would have lost you anyway. At least this way I still have a part of you."
“I want to be with you so bad Buffy.’ Angel sighs mournfully, “I want to be with them too” The two are momentarily silent
Buffy lays on her bed feeling the movements of the twins. “Speaking of them.’ she begins, ‘Angel they need names. We can’t keep refering to the babies as them or the twins.”
“Well what do you want to name them?” Angel inquires
“No way buster. You are going to help name them. There is no way you are getting out of it” Buffy states firmly
“I didn’t say I want to get out of it.” Angel protests. “Its just I haven’t really been able to think about naming them. Have you thought of any names?”
“I thought of ones I like but so far I haven’t come up with any high up names.’ She giggles
“What?”
Giggling Buffy answers, “I was just thinking of what Xander suggested”
Groaning Angel remarks, ‘I bet his suggestion was to name the boy son of Deadboy and the girl Vampgirl.”
“Angel’ Buffy says disapprovingly, ‘You know Xander wouldn’t say that. You two might not get along but Xander has been behaving.”
“He better behave around the twins” Angel growls
Rolling her eyes in annoyance Buffy continues, ‘Anyway Xander suggested we name them Alexander and Alexandra” she giggles
“No way. We are not naming them after the guy who refers to me as Deadboy” Angel growls
“Angel calm down’ Buffy soothes. She gasps in surprise as the twins both kick her in the side.
“Buffy you OK?” Angel asks worriedly when he hears her gasp
Chuckling she replies, “I’m fine Angel. They just kicked me hard’ rubbing her side she groans jokingly, ‘One day I could end up with a broken rib because they kick hard. Angel?’ she asks
“Yeah?”
“Where are you?” she asks curiously
On the other end Angel stands up and walks to the window and gazes out at the lights of LA. “If your asking if I’m in Sunnydale I’m not Buff.”
“Are you still in California?” she inquires
Grinning at the question Angel answers, “Of course. I didn’t want to be too far from you. I had thought about going back to New York...but I couldn’t”
“Couldn’t?” she questions softly
“No. I didn’t want to be that far from you.”
“Angel are you ever going to see us?” Buffy asks seriously
Sighing Angel twists his ring thoughtfully, “I will Buffy. I promise. I want to meet them and hold them and you”
“I wish you were here now with me.’ she rubs her midsection affectionately, ‘Feeling them move Angel is amazing.”
“I wish I was Buff. But I’m not. I’m sorry that I’m not there.”
“I know and its all because you thought you were doing the best for us.’ she remarks bitterly, ‘But is it really for the best Angel? I mean for the rest of their lives they are going to resent the fact that you left. When they are older they are probably going to end up blaming themselves for you not being here”
“Buffy thats not fair’ Angel protests, ‘You know its for the best that I left Sunnydale. Its not like I’m abandoning them Buffy”
“Yes but Angel they will feel like you have. You won’t be there for them everyday Angel”
Rubbing his forehead Angel in agitation he protests, “I won’t be there everyday Buffy but I will be there when you need me or when they need me. You know that I’m always going to be there for you”
Sniffling Buffy curls up on her bed, “But you aren’t Angel. You aren’t here now. And I need you. They need you. I try not to think of the future, I think of now. Right now when we need you the most you aren’t here” she sobs
“Buffy don’t cry” Angel soothes, “I’m sorry Buffy” he apologizes
“Don’t be sorry Angel. I don’t want you to be. I just want you here” Buffy chokes up and then hangs up. Curling up tighter she sobs out her pain
