Letting Go ~ Part 1

Rating:PG

Title:Alternative season 3 finale

Author:Macrina

Joey watched from aboad "True Love" as Capeside faded away, wondering if she had done the right thing, actually she knew she did the rigth thing, but why did it feel so wrong? Dawsons words echoed in her mind "I can sit here and tell you, you're making a collasal mistake and that all roads lead back to me", was that true she thought?, it's not to late to jump off this boat and swim back to Capesidwe or rather then that to Dawson, she said to herself as Pacey emerged from below thr deck, "What was that Potter?" he asked her. Sheilding her face from the sun, she looked up to him and replied "Nothing Pacey.....I was just Thinking". "You were thinking about him Joey, weren't you?" he accused her. "Pacey don't start please, if you must know, yes I was thinking about Dawson, how can I not after all that has happened, He was my best friend Pacey, and I care, You can't expect me to jet off with you for the whole summer and not think about him, can you? If it makes you feel any better Pacey, I'm here with you, not there with him". He looked and her and smiled to himself, yes, yes she is here with me so that ahs got to account for somthing.

Dawson sat on the doak, tears streaming down his face as he watched "True Love" sail off into the sun. "Goodbye Joey" he said to himself, "I love you". longing for her to be saying those three words back to him and not to Pacey. He annalyzed the situation over and over in his head as he sat there long after "True Love" was out of sight. What did I do wrong? What did I do to make the onlt person I love in this world turn to my best friend? over and over he repeated it, tears still flowing freely, "I've lost her" he whispered "and this time is for real. Hearing footsteps in the grass behind him he turned around, it was Jen "Need a friend Dawson" she asked bending down next to him. He smiled through his tears and that was all Jen wanted to see a little smile. She sat down next to him, removing her shoes and dipping her feet in the water, they sat in silence for what seemed like forever, she looked over to Dawson, she could see how empty he was, with out Joey he was lost alone and scared. Dawson finally said somthing to break the silence "Look at me Jen" he laughed "Sitting here crying like a baby, it's pathetic, but I hurt, I hurt so damn much, I sotimes wonder if the pain will ever dispearse from my lonly, broken body" She looked over at him, grabbed his hand and held it "It will Dawson, it will everything is still so fresh and embedded in that head of yours, It will take time and I will always be here with you till its all gone... I never told you this Dawson, but I love you, I love you liek a best friend and it hurts me to see you heart ache like this, I wish I could just bag it up for you, but I can't, so I am here for you, dont hesitate to call if you need somone to talk to" he smiled briefly and replied "Thanks Jen it means a lot to me to have you as a friend". Hand in hand they sat there as the sun set and darkness engulfed them.

"Andie?" Jack yelled "where are you? enough of this mopeing around we still have three months to have fun and there you are.....moping around." He looked down at her laying on her bed, thinking about Pacey and as hurt as she was by what he did, she was angry for what he did to Dawson. Jack sat down next to his sister, Andie sat up "I'm sorry Jack, I just can't stop thinking about this whole mess, what it has done to everyones friendships." "I know Andie buts it's summer, can we at least stop for one day and have some sort of fun?" he asked her "I mean we can call up Jen and Dawson, we can all go to the beach, the movies, maybe even take some sort of educational road trip." "Educational Jack" she asked "It's summer and I thinky ou right lets have some fun she smield, Jack laughed, "Now thats like my perky, happy go lucky little sister!". Together they planned some fun activities that both they and Jen and Dawson would enjoy and called them up, They too agreed it sounded like fun for what already seemed like a dreary summer. They planned to go to the beach the next day, Andie couldn't wait.

Joey woke up wondering where she was, and remembering she had done it, she had actually gone with Pacey! She looked over to the next bunk and watched as Pacey slept peacefully, a smile streched across his face, a sudden chill ran up Joeys spine, she remembered all the times she had watched Dawson sleep, before she climbed out of his window to had home. I'm suppose to be having fun, am I not? she asked herself. Then why do I keep thinking about Dawson? "Hey gorgeous" she jumped not realizing Pacey had awoken. "Hey!" she smiled "here we are. me you and the sea." "Yep!! just you and me and the great blue sea!" he replied. Maybe I can let Dawson go for the summer she thought, this is my time, Pacey is my France, as Dawson referred to the excursion as, and I will have fun! She walked over to Pacey, leaned down, and kissed him. "We are going to have one hell of a summer, aren't we Pace?" she asked "We sure are Potter" he said kissing her back.
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