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Author: Skylar
Disclaimer: Joss and company own everything- unfortunately
Summary: Right after "Forgiving", Angel goes on a rampage
Spoilers: Pretty much everything in both series.
Note1: "Kim" belongs to Eminem, though I've really, really reworked it.
Rating: Strong R for violence and language. Warning- definite harsh angst.
Distribution: Want it- take it. Just let me know where it's going.
Feedback: As always, greatly appreciated (especially on this one).
AN: Okay- this one really needs explaining- it's a vast departure from my usual fluff, and I still don't know just where it came from. I know it's a confusing read, but bear with me- after a second read, it starts to make sense. I haven't been able to shake the image of Angel screaming at and shaking Wesley in the hospital, promising to kill him. Ever since that, I've been working on this idea that came to me while going through my CDs and popping in Eminem. I don't know how many people have this CD or have heard about the song "Kim", but in it, Eminem goes on a killing spree, ending with his wife's murder. I've been playing around with the lyrics for awhile, trying to convey all of the pain and suffering Angel's gone through over the years. This is written in the style of "Once More, With Feeling", so just pretend that Joss decided to do a second musical involving A:ts. This was all written in one night, and it's probably really awful, but I just thought I'd throw it out- see what kind of reaction I get. I know it's hard enough to picture Angel actually singing *good*, let alone rapping, but use your imagination. If you can get a hold of the CD, it really helps to play it while reading this. It's kinda sung/rapped/screamed with a sorrowful/gothic/dramatic beat.
[ANGEL- softly talking to Connor's empty crib in the Hyperion]
Aww look at daddy's baby boy
That's daddy baby
Little sleepy head
(Begins singing/rapping)
Yesterday I changed your diaper
Wiped you and powdered you.
How did you get so big?
Can't believe it, how you grew
Connor, you were so precious
Daddy was so proud of you
[Camera pans around to show Fred and Gunn laid out on the floor, but only knocked unconscious. Wes and Cordelia are tied up on a couch and Wesley is trying to get out of his restraints. Angel holds him at bay with handgun as his singing is accompanied by a severe hatred and contempt in his voice.]
Sit down Wes!
You move again I'll beat the shit out of you!
Don't tell me to calm down!
You don't know what I'm about to do!
[Angel turns to angrily face Cordelia, shoving the gun in her face.]
Quit crying Cord, why're you making me shout at you?
How could you?
Just leave here without a clue?
Awww, what's the matter Cordy?
Am I too loud for you?!
Too bad bitch, you're gonna finally hear me out this time!
At first, I'm like all right-
I think I'm in love with her? That's fine!
But how could I think you'd fill *her* place, am I out of my mind?!
Your whining, your Saint-Act, your whole life isn't worth my time!
How could I have even let you get in?
Look at me!
Look at your 'Angel' now!
[CORDELIA]
No!
[ANGEL]
I said look at me!
I'm not so hot now, am I?
Just a shell!
[CORDELIA]
Why are you doing this?
[ANGEL]
Shut the fuck up!
[CORDELIA- sobbing as she desperately pleads with him]
You're not well! You'd never really want to do this!
[ANGEL]
You think I give a fuck!
Come on- we're going for a ride, bitch!
[CORDELIA]
No!
[ANGEL]
Sit up front!
[CORDELIA]
We can't just leave Fred and Gunn here- what if they wake up?
[ANGEL]
This won't take long
Just one more thing to do
Before it's all done!
(Grabs a heavy stake in one hand, placing the gun into his pocket)
So long, you all did me so wrong
I don't wanna go on
Living in this world much longer
So long, you all did me so wrong
I don't wanna go on
Living in this world much longer
[Angel, along with Cordelia and Wes tied up in the back of his car, speeds off to Sunnydale. Creeping into the familiar house, he catches Spike lurking about downstairs. After finally disposing of him, Angel manages to tie up Buffy, tossing her into the car along with them as he speeds off out of Sunnydale.]
[ANGEL]
You really hurt me Buff!
You really did a number on me!
Never knew me cheating on you would come back to haunt me
But all I wanted was to lose my soul- ditch the pain!
But that was impossible
I can never have what we had that night again!
That's fucked up!
[BUFFY- sobbing]
I love you!
[ANGEL]
Oh God- my brain is racing!
[BUFFY]
I love you!
[ANGEL]
What are you doing?
(Looks over to the blaring radio)
Change the station- I hate this song!
Does this look like a big joke?
There's a bleach-blonde demon lyin' dead with a slit throat
In your living room...ha-ha!
What- you think I'm kiddin' you?
You loved him didn't you?
[BUFFY]
No!
[ANGEL]
Bullshit you bitch, don't fucking lie to me!
What the fuck's this guy's problem on the side of me?
(Yelling at car driving by)
Fuck you asshole, yeah bite me!
(Turning his attentions back to Wesley)
Wes...WES!!
Why did you lie to me?
You think I'm worthless, don't you?!
[WESLEY]
It's not that!
[ANGEL]
No- you all think I'm worthless!
[BUFFY]
Angel...(trying to lean over closer to him)
[ANGEL]
Get the fuck away from me! Don't touch me!
I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!
I SWEAR TO GOD I HATE YOU!
OH MY GOD, I LOVE YOU!
(turns around to face Wesley)
How the fuck could you do this to me?
How the fuck could you do this to me?!
So long, you all did me so wrong
I don't wanna go on
Living in this world much longer
So long, you all did me so wrong
I don't wanna go on
Living in this world much longer
[Angel has pulled the car alongside an abandoned backroad- the gun rests in one of his shaking hands, the stake in his other, as he leads each of the three out of the car]
[ANGEL]
Come on get out!
[CORDELIA]
I can't- I'm scared!
[ANGEL]
I said get out bitch!
[CORDELIA]
Let go of my hair! Please don't do this, Angel.
Please- I trust you.
Look- we can all just go back and talk-
[ANGEL]
Fuck you!
(Turns to face Wesley- pointing gun) You did this to me!
(Turns to Cordelia- pointing gun) You did it!
(Turns to Buffy- pointing gun) It's your fault!
Oh my God- I'm crackin' up
Get a grip, Angel!
Hey- (faces Wesley) remember the time we went to Lorne's party?
And you were like so drunk that you threw up all over Archie
That was funny wasn't it?
[WESLEY]
Yes...
[ANGEL- pressing the barrel of the gun against Wesley's temple]
That was funny wasn't it?!
[WESLEY]
Yes!!
[ANGEL- begins explaining to everyone, but mostly directed towards Wesley, how he's going to make their murders look like they did it themselves.]
See it all makes sense, doesn't it?
You and Cordelia have a fight
One of you tries to grab a knife
And during the struggle you accidentally gets your Adam's apple sliced
And while this is goin' on
Buffy just woke up and you just walk in
You panic and she gets her throat cut
So now they're both dead and you slash your own throat
So now it's double homicide and suicide with no note
I should have known better when you started to act weird
We could've...HEY! (Wesley begins trying to make a run for it)
Where you going? Get back here! (Angel begins chasing after him)
You can't run from me, Wes!
It's just us, nobody else!
You're only making this harder on yourself
(Finally catches up with him)
Ha! Ha! Got'cha!
[WESLEY]
Ahhhhh!!!
[ANGEL]
Ha! Go ahead- yell!
Here- I'll scream with you!
(Tilts his head back, screaming up to the sky)
AHHH! SOMEBODY HELP!
Don't you get it, Wes, no one can hear you!
Now shut the fuck up and get what's comin to you!!
[Picture goes to black as only two gunshots are heard, along with the familiar 'pfffttt' that accompanies a vamp dusting]
[Opening of "Double or Nothing". A still grief-stricken Gunn and Fred have just gotten off the phone with Willow, who has delivered another bit of bad news, informing them of Buffy's suicide two days after Angel's, Cordelia's, and Wesley's deaths.
"I wonder if they'll try bringing her back *this* time..."
"Maybe they've learned their lesson..."
THE END
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