Private Emotions
Part Two
By Ayoe Lang
ayoe.lang@get2net.dk

Rated 17 - Sexual Issues.

"ER" and all its characters belong to Warner Bros. No infringement of their copyright is intended. This story was written for the enjoyment of "ER" fans everywhere, and may be downloaded for your own pleasure. However this story may not be used, distributed or archived without the permission of the author.

I would like to thank Cathy my editor for giving me time in her busy life and her own writing.

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I was woken by a noise coming from the living room. I got up and put on my robe and then went to see what was going on. It was only the mail but it usually came around noon, not one in the morning. It was a package. I opened it and found a cd inside with a small note. It said *You know where to find me*. I put the cd on and listened to the song...

Every endless night has a dawning day
Every darkest sky has a shining ray
and it shines on you baby can't you see
You're the only one who can shine for me

It's a private emotion that fills you tonight
And a silence falls between us
As the shadows steal the light
And wherever you may find it
Wherever it may lead
Let your private emotion come to me

Come to me

When your soul is tired and your heart is weak
Do you think of love as a one way street
Well it runs both ways, open up your eyes
Can't you see me here, how can you deny

It's a private emotion that fills you tonight
And a silence falls between us
As the shadows steal the light
Wherever it may lead
Let your private emotion come to me

Come to me

Every endless night has a dawning day
Every darkest sky has a shining ray
It takes a lot to laugh as your tears go by
But you can find me here till your tears run dry

It's a private emotion that fills you tonight
And a silence falls between us
As the shadows steal the light
Wherever it may lead
Let your private emotion come to me

The song was called "Private Emotions" and I was speechless. This were exactly my feelings and what I was looking for. He had read my heart. My eyes filled with tears and this time I couldn't hold them back. I sat down on the sofa. I had to see him...I grabbed my coat and keys and ran to the lake. To his boat. To his heart.

The door was open but I gave it a small knock. "Luka?!" He came out from a room in the back. He gave me that look I had been dreaming about all night. The he quickly came towards me and put his arms around me, hugging me. He rocked me gently from side to side as my tears ran like the rain. I cried and cried. Then he kissed me. A long passionate kiss. I sobbed and stared into his eyes. "How could you...how did you??"

He put a finger over my lips. The he kissed me again. His eyes told that he knew everything. "I was there once, too."

"You said so, but I never thought..."

"That it was actually true and I could understand you? There's always someone out there who has been through what you have. For some strange reason we met. Do you believe in destiny?"

I didn't. I never had. But now I wasn't so sure. I had been with so many people in my life. Most of them men, and never once had there been one who could understand half of my feelings and fears. And now, when I had given up hope for good, he suddenly came out of a clear sky. I shivered. My body started to shake so bad that I had trouble standing and I started to cry
even harder. He sat with me on the sofa and held me for almost an hour without saying anything. He kissed me from time to time. I finally got a little control again and the tears started to dry.

He took my head in his hands and stared into my eyes. "We are one," he whispered.

Then he kissed me. I was so afraid that he was just as excellent in knowing peoples inside, and he was only trying to get me into bed with him. Right now I didn't really care. I needed his compassion, his love. He stood up and took my hand leading my into his bedroom. Then he gave me a long kiss. He started to undress me, his hands were so soft and gentle that I was hardly able to breathe. He left me in my underwear and pulled back the sheets and sat me on the bed. He lifted my legs up and pulled the covers back over me. Then he took off his clothes and got into bed beside me. He reached for me and I snuggled against his body. I felt more safe than I had for years. He stoked my back and neck and gave me small kisses on the forehead.



The next thing I knew, it was morning. I had fallen asleep in Luka's arms and for the first time in years I had slept through the night. I was used to waking up at least one time every night with my head filled with sadness and would not be able to go back to sleep before at least two hours had passed. But not tonight.

Luka wasn't in the bed, but I could hear noise from the other room. He popped his head through the door after a few minutes and entered the room with a tray full of food.

"I thought you might be hungry. It's almost noon o'clock." I was surprised. Not only had I slept through the night but also half the day was gone! He put the tray on my lap and sat beside me on the edge of the bed. I was starving. I hadn't been eating much lately, with all the new stuff going on. "What are you grinning at?" I asked him with my mouth full of toast.

"A very beautiful woman."

I could feel my face blushing.

"Now you look even more beautiful!" he laughed.

When I was finished he went to the kitchen with the tray and returned staying still in the doorway staring at me right until I said, "You're staring again!!"

He giggled and went around the bed crawling in beside me. He kissed my shoulder and gently pulled down the strap on my bra. He continued his path of kisses up my neck and stopped by my ear, gently sucking my earlobe into his mouth. I could hear his breath getting faster and so was mine. His hand glided down my shoulder. I knew where it was going and I closed my eyes. He barely touched my breast. Only a very soft stroke over my hardened nipple and I trembled. I could feel the warmth of his breath moving in front of me. His lips met mine and I parted my lips, wanting to taste him so bad.

While our kiss got deeper and he continued to stoke my nipples and messaging my breasts, I wrapped my arms around him, wanting more. So much more. I never desired anyone so much as I desired Luka at that very moment. He gently pushed me back on the bed. His hands were all over me and I was breathing so fast that I felt dizzy. He moved his hand up and down my thigh while our kiss got more and more demanding. I spread my legs, inviting him to touch me. I wanted to feel his hand so bad and I made a small moan while he continued to circle around my longing. He moved his head under the covers sucking my nipples. When he finally found the center between my legs I moaned even louder. I could hear a small giggle under the covers and I smiled myself.

He began messaging my so sensitive and longing area and I trembled. He slid a finger into me. I sighed and felt Luka move his head lower and lower until it reached it's expected destination. I was surrounded by a darkness leaving only my senses in the light. His finger was toying with me and so was his tongue. I could feel my muscles tighten and was soon reaching my climax. Then he stopped and moved his head kissing my thighs while keeping his finger inside me.

"Luka, please don't stop!!!" I begged. My body stated to relax and he suddenly started to lick me again. I made a small scream and I swear I was surrounded by an eternity of darkness filled with multi-colored stars. In the distance I heard a voice repeatedly saying "Oh my God, Oh God!!!" and it took me a while before I realized it was my own voice. My body cramped up and my back lifted from the sheet. I reached for Luka's head, gripping his hair. I felt a enormous force slamming me back onto the bed and an extremely loud "YES, LUKA!!!!" came out of my mouth. My body jumped and twitched like I was possessed and it was like every sound in the Universe disappeared.

I heard Luka's voice but I couldn't make out what he was saying. He moved his head in front of mine and kept speaking. I noticed a worried look in his eyes. "Jennifer!?!"

I swallowed. "Uhmmm, yes?"

"Are you okay, I asked?"

I smiled, "I'm more than okay."

His face lightened into a smile. "You had me worried when you didn't answer."

"Well, Luka. I don't think I was even capable of breathing there for a moment."

"So, I DID have a reason to worry," he laughed.

I laughed too. Never in my life had I felt anything so intense.

He was laying half on top of me caressing my face. "You are so beautiful."

Many men had told me that. But for some reason it meant so much more this time. It was like Luka didn't talk about my looks. The way he looked at me - into my eyes - into my heart. He was talking about my inside. For many years I had played on my looks. That had been a huge mistake. While looking for someone to love me for who I were, I had only shown them what they wanted to see. Luka saw me.

"So are you." I said. And I wasn't talking about looks either. I snuggled up against him and we lay there a while only caressing each other without one single word interrupting out happiness.

"Do you want to go somewhere?" Luka finally asked.

I looked into his hazel eyes: "I can't think of any place than here I'd rather be right now."

He lowered his head and kissed me. As he backed away from the kiss I pulled his head back and kissed him again. I opened my mouth and felt the warmth of his tongue. I placed his hand on my breast. Now it was his turn to feel pleasure. I moved on top of him and pushed him down on the bed. Our kiss was filled with desire and I felt him grow hard beneath me. I slowly
caressed his cock while kissing his neck. He moaned when I moved my tongue over his chest ending the trail by his nipple. Licking it hard I went to it's twin, giving it the same treatment. I watched Luka close his eyes, his head bent back. Then my tongue went downwards. I kissed his stomach and circled my tongue around his bellybutton. I gently spread his legs and
moved between them. I kissed his knee and made a path of kisses across his groin but, without touching his thrusting cock. I slowly licked his testicles and Luka moaned stroking my hair. I smiled and went over to the other knee, torturing him with the same slow treatment.

"Uzeti mene, JA potreba te!!" Luka whispered. I looked at him, not knowing what he was saying. His eyes were almost black from desire and passion. "Please!" he moaned. I took a deep breath, smelling him, and then took one of his testicles in my mouth. Luka mumbled something I couldn't make out at all. I slowly licked his whole length and took him in my mouth all the way to the root. His body trembled and he moaned even louder. I slowly started sucking him and his breathing got quicker and quicker as I increased my tempo. I wanted to taste him so much. But, what I wanted more was to feel him inside me.

Luka stopped my head. "We need a condom, please. Get a condom." He pointed to the top drawer and I got up and found one. I quickly got back between his legs and got the condom on him. He grabbed me and pulled me on top of him. Our lips met in a long craving kiss. Then he was inside me. I closed my eyes. God, he felt so good. While the pace increased he played with my nipples and had his hands all over my body. The room was filled with the sound of lovemaking and everything else disappeared. The only thing was Luka inside me. Then I came. I felt a shiver going through my body so strong that I forgot to breath and just then I felt Luka's warmth filling me inside. I was seeing spots and there was a ringing in my ears. I collapsed on top of him.

Neither one of us was able to move. We just lay there trying to catch our breaths again. I could hear Luka's heartbeat slowing down.

"That was...."

"Amazing!!!!" I said.

We laughed. "Intense," he said. We laughed again. I slid down beside him and he took my hand and gave it a gentle kiss as he looked deep into my eyes. I felt a tickle in my stomach and for the first time in my life saw myself together with a man in the future. I saw Luka and I strolling down the beach hand in hand. I wanted him in my life. I had always wanted men OUT of my life. This time it was different. Very different.

I didn't realize I was crying until Luka wiped a tear away. "Was that tear for me?" he asked.

I nodded. "Luka. For the first time in my life I feel like...."

He stopped me with a kiss. "The most important thing is...." he kissed me again and looked at me with eyes filled with love. "That you feel."

For such a long time I had kept to myself. Never allowing anyone getting close, though that was all I ever wanted. I had never allowed anyone to love me, not being able to love them back. Then I had met this man, this wonderful man, who had removed all those fears within a few days. His eyes had given me more understanding than words ever could have. I hadn't been able to hide from that look.

I snuggled against his body. He had brought out emotions I had refused to feel for so many years. Emotions of love and passion. Emotions of desire and friendship. Emotions so forgotten but so needed. He had brought them to life. He had known. And now they would be in me forever. Those.....private emotions.

The End!!!!

Translation:
Uzeti mene, JA potreba te --- I need you, take me

Ayoe
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