Title:
Ritual Part 2
Email: tirel@pcnuthut.com
Author:
Velvet Crypt
Disclaimer: Joss is God. I own nothing.
Spoilers:
Summary: Spike and Xander discover the up side of the
ritual.
Spike felt
the wall coming down before he saw it. The magic ran across his back like
spider legs. One second the wall was there. The next it was not. And he looked
across the expanse of the room to wide eyes and wary expressions.
“Hello,
children.” He smirked. No response. ~Well, what the hell?~ “Did you miss us?”
Ah, Red and Tara were blushing furiously. Buffy covered her face with her
hands. Giles pulled off his glasses to wipe them. Spike’s smirk faded. “What?”
he demanded. Willow desperately didn’t make eye contact.
“Umm…the
errr, wall…didn’t work quite…right.” She choked out. Spike’s eyes narrowed.
“Not quite
right?” he repeated.
“Errr, I
guess on your side…it was a wall. On our, umm, side…it, err, umm, …wasn’t.” She
finished in defeat.
“So what
you’re saying is that you saw everything.” He stated tonelessly.
“W-we
heard everything t-too.” Tara added, looking away.
“Bloody
hell.” He groaned and smacked his head against the wall in irritation, then
fixed each of them with a deadly gaze. “I don’t want to hear one word out of
any of you, understand? Xander doesn’t need to know you saw…or heard anything.
Just shut the hell up about it.” Vigorous nods all around.
“Shu’ the
h’ll up ‘bout wha’, Wil?” Xan’s sleepy voice murmured as Xander turned on his
side and nuzzled Spike’s chest. Spike looked down and caught the warm gaze of
his mate. He couldn’t stop the smile that came across his face. With a sleepy
smile in return, Xander began rubbing small circles on Spike’s stomach.
“Hi, Wil,”
he breathed.
“Hi, Xan.
The wall is down.” Spike warned, wanting to give his nummy all the time he
needed to adjust to having just shagged and mated a vampire. A vampire that all
of his friends hated.
Xander
tilted his head to eye the others but didn’t stop rubbing. “Hi, guys.” He
called and lay his head back down on Spike’s chest.
“H-Hi,
Xander,” Willow stuttered. Spike rolled his eyes. ~Oh, well done witch. Why
don’t you just say, ‘Hey Xander, I just watched you shag an undead bloke into
the ground and then let him steal half of your soul’.~
“Are you
feeling all right, Xander?” Giles asked, wiping his glasses. Xander stretched
against his lover like a cat. He smiled and nodded.
“Doing great,
G-man. Never better.” He rolled onto his back, but didn’t move away from Spike.
“I spose you’re wondering what this is about,” he began. A flurry of activity
greeted his comment.
“N-no! Not
wondering,” Willow grasped Tara’s hand and they both turned away to inspect the
door.
“Not at
all, Xander.” Giles began digging through his pockets.
“Don’t
wanna know.” Buffy just turned bright red. She continued to stare at them,
though. Xander furrowed his brow.
“What’s
going on?” he demanded. No response. “Spike, what the hell is going on?” Spike
sighed and scooted Xander forward a bit so that he could stand. He reached a
hand down and helped Xander up.
“You
people are bloody terrible at this, you know.” He glared at them.
“Bloody
terrible at what, Wil?” Xander stepped up to him. “What aren’t you telling me?
What are you trying to-“ He stopped as the world exploded into color. Swaying,
he felt strong arms surround him and hold him upright.
“Xander?”
Spike shook him slightly. “What the fuck is going on? Your eyes just changed
color.” The others began to gather around, worry evident on their faces.
Xander
blinked and slowly dropped his gaze to Spike. “Did you know you have a
sparkling white light shooting from your chest?” He asked absently. Spike
looked down, and seeing nothing, brought his eyes back to his mate.
“I don’t
see anything, luv.”
“Oh, damn.
Too bad, there are lots of other pretty lines of light coming from you too. Red
ones blue ones, green ones.” Xander still sounded dazed. “But the white
one…it’s right there. It’s pouring from your chest…and into me.” He reached out
to touch something in between their bodies.
As soon as
his hand passed through the lines of crystalline light, his head rocked back.
He felt worried, scared, guilty, angry, frustrated…and then his hand found the
white light. He stared from his hand to Spike’s face in awe.
“You love
me.” He whispered. Spike tensed.
“What are
you going on about, whelp?” He tried to sound angry. Xander only shook his
head.
“No, I can
feel it. It’s in the light. You love me.” He smiled and tears began to fall. “I
never knew. But it’s all here. It’s warm, and safe and welcoming.” He laughed,
throwing his head back and closing his eyes to drink in the feeling. “Everyone
should be loved like this.”
Spike had
given up on ‘angry’ and moved onto panicked. “The boy has obviously lost his
mind.” He waved a hand weakly at Xander.
Xander
opened his eyes and smirked. Glancing over at the others, he was again
astonished to see lines of light extending from them as well. Some lines
extended out through the walls, but most reached out to connect to another in
the room. All colors, all levels of brightness. He gaped at their beauty.
Looking down, he saw the lights connecting him to the others as well.
He
narrowed his gaze and traced the other white lights from body to body. The next
brightest was linked between Willow and Tara. Moving up to them he carefully
reached out a hand and slid it into the beam. He jerked as he felt the same
kind of love pouring between the two women. Laughing, he tried another line;
this time leading between himself and Willow. Still white, but smaller.
Love
poured through again. This time, however, it didn’t have the same connotations.
He didn’t know how he knew; only that he did. It was the love of a sister for
her brother. He tested Tara’s link to him. The love of a good friend. Placing a
kiss on each of their brows, he moved on to Giles and Buffy. In Buffy, he felt
the love of an older sibling for her beloved younger brothers and sisters. He
felt a strong love of a daughter in her link to Giles. With a frown, he saw
that a white light extended to Spike.
Curious,
he dipped his hand into it. Then he laughed. “What the hell? Buffy, if you love
him like an annoying older brother, why do you keep trying to kill him?”
Buffy
blanched and shot a guilty look at Spike. “I think Spike’s right. You have gone
kinda wacko.”
Giles
gently gripped Xander’s chin. He tilted the boy’s head right and left. “Are you
reading our minds?” He asked pointedly.
Xander
shook his head. “No, I told you. There are a million of these lines of lights.
They run from person to person. I think white is love. I’m not sure about the
others yet.” He shrugged. “I can tell how you’re feeling by the colors, I
think. But the real emotion comes through when I dip my hand into the stream.”
Giles
hmphed and continued to stare at Xander, so Xander went back to Spike. He
pinned him against a wall and rested his forehead on Spike’s.
“I can
feel it, Wil.” He whispered. “I can feel it and it warms me like nothing ever
has before.” He gently brushed a kiss over the vamps lips. “I wish I could show
you how I feel in return.” He looked lost in thought for a moment. “Maybe I
can.” He linked fingers with Spike and drew their clasped hands directly into
the stream of white. Opening his mind, his heart, his soul…he poured it through
the link.
Spike
whimpered and his legs dropped out from under him. Now it was Xander’s turn to
hold him up. He stared into his lover’s face and watched his eyes turn from icy
blue to chocolaty brown. Just as he was about to ask Spike what was going on,
the white light between them pulsed and flared out along the white lines
connecting Spike to the others.
Xander
watched in amazement as, simultaneously, the girls and Giles jerked from an
unseen force. They kept their feet, but they were obviously thrown for a loop.
He held Spike against him as the light dimmed again. Willow and Tara slowly
blinked and then turned to each other. With duplicate smiles, they embraced.
Giles pulled his glasses off again and began to frantically wipe them down.
“What the
fuck was that?” Buffy breathed. “How? How can you feel that way?” She peered at
Spike as though he were a fascinating specimen. “How can a vampire with no soul
love like that?” Spike buried his head into Xander’s chest.
“I think I
missed something, here.” Xander said, confused.
Giles
replaced his glasses. “Yes, well…you don’t appear to be the only one who’s
received a gift, Xander.” He began circling the entwined men. “You seem to be
able to see emotions. To dwell in them, as it were, should you touch one of
these ‘strands of light’. I think Spike may be able to project emotion. Either
that, or I am very much in love with you and live only to devise new ways to
make you happy and proud to be mine.”
Spike
groaned into Xander’s shirt. Giles continued to circle them. Xander looked at
the girls with a huge sappy smile on his face.
“So,
Spike-“
The door
was thrown open. Standing in the doorway was their large balding torturer. Only
he looked like the tortured. His clothing was wrinkled, his hair unkept, tears
streamed from his eyes and his face was drawn up in a rictus of pain.
“What have
you done?” He shrieked. “Undo it! Take it back! Make it stop!”
Buffy
didn’t hesitate. She launched herself at him. She sent a spinning kick to his
head and then booted him into the room to lay flat on his face in the pile of
ritual supplies. He didn’t even try to get up. Buffy looked in confusion from
him to the scoobies.
He
scrounged in the bags for a moment and then rose to his knees. Still weeping,
he now began to laugh as well. He held up the ritual knife used to mark Giles.
“No more! I will not endure this any longer.” Before Buffy could kick the knife
away, he placed the blade at his throat and dug it in deeply, running it from
ear to ear. Moments later, he lay dead in a pool of his own blood.
No one
moved. Even when the gun toting men in camo stepped into the room, no one
moved. They took a brief look around the room, and then began to file out. As
the last one left, he turned back to the gang.
“I don’t
know who you are. I don’t know why he wanted you. He paid up. Now he’s dead.
We’ll be on our way. If you’re interested, he kept a study on the floor above
you. Heard him chanting and saw smoke creeping out from under the door. Maybe
you’ll find some answers.” He nodded shortly. “Have a nice day.”
The
scoobies still didn’t move. “What the hell just happened?” Buffy asked, staring
at the corpse in front of her.
“I have no
bloody idea, Buffy. But I rather think the answers may be in that room.” Giles
replied absently and began to move toward the door. As one, the others
followed, stepping over the body of their captor.
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“I think I
found it!” Willow exclaimed. After hours of searching through mystical tomes
and scrolls she was exhausted. Not to mention that their captor had terrible
taste in incense. Whatever he’d been burning had given her a headache that was
settling right behind her eyes. She held the book up in triumph and scooted
over to allow Giles and Tara to each take a spot on the couch next to her.
“It says
here, that there is a ritual designed to rid one of unclean emotions.” She
began, talking to the boys who were curled up in a love seat together and
Buffy, in the chair across from them, as Giles and Tara quickly scanned the
paragraph over her shoulders. “Through this ritual, the caster uses a vessel to
pour from himself, each unwanted emotion. Each emotion has it’s own separate
ritual designed to bind that emotion to that particular vessel. Oh,
look…there’s a list.”
She winced
a bit, but continued reading. “The vessel partaking the ritual of Punishment
shall endure everlasting pain. The vessel chosen as the Marking shall dwell in
everlasting fear. The vessel of the Transfer shall ever be consumed by guilt.
The vessel filled with the Sight shall ever see futility. The vessel that is
Claimed shall exist in eternal submission. The vessel of Violation shall endure
eternal degradation.”
She looked
up. “But I think we’re okay.” Raised eyebrows met her comment.
“Of course
we are, Red.” Spike said snarkily. “I personally am looking forward to my future
of degradation. It’ll have all the comforts of home.”
“Wil,”
Xander admonished, tapping him on the nose with a gentle finger. “Let her
finish.” Spike sighed, but snuggled down against his lover’s side anyway.
“Ummm,
well…it seems to be that when the vessels take these curses on during the
correct ritual, the caster loses them forever.” She furrowed her brow. “I think
this guy was really unhappy. He was so determined never to feel the icky
emotions again, that he tried to never feel anything but the good emotions. I
don’t think he really thought about that. You cant’ enjoy the good emotions
unless you have the bad to show you the difference.”
“Are you
feeling sorry for this asshole, Wills?” Buffy sighed.
“I guess a
little bit,” she blushed. “But, the rituals didn’t work out. They backfired.
And when they did, he became consumed with only the emotions he’d been
trying to get rid of. He couldn’t feel any of the good things at all
anymore. I think it drove him a little insane.”
“And so he
killed himself to get away from them.” Xander said quietly. Willow nodded. “So
what went wrong with the spell?”
Willow
blushed. “Actually, you and Spike went wrong.” She tried to look everywhere but
at her childhood friend. Tara took pity on her.
“I think I
see where Willow is going with this,” she said softly. “The rules of the ritual
were very specific. The individual rituals had to be performed under the rules
of the emotion. Such as, Giles had to have been marked knowing that it could
lead to his death or at very least put him under the control of an evil power.”
Giles nodded, a thoughtful look on his face.
“Buffy had
to be beaten, knowing that she was so strong, it would take what seemed to be
an eternity to go down, especially since Spike kept having to stop due to his
chip going off. Willow knew that she was taking something very special from me.
She knew that for the rest of her life, she’d feel guilty for that. I knew that
I would spend the rest of my life seeing visions and knowing there was probably
nothing I could do to stop them.”
“But, you
two didn’t follow the rules.” Tara continued. “Spike expected you
to…r-rape…him, Xander.” She stumbled over the words now unable to meet their
eyes. “But you didn’t. You chose to make it…pleasurable for both of you. He
wasn’t violated. He was…loved.” She smiled and chanced a glance at the boys.
They were staring into each other’s eyes.
“And
Spike, you were expected to claim Xander as a minion; make him your slave. But
you didn’t. You gave him a choice, and then you made him your equal.” She
shrugged. “By breaking the rules, you broke the ritual.”
“So, where
does that leave the rest of us?” Buffy asked.
Giles
opened his shirt and looked down at his chest. His bare, unmarked chest. Eyes
wide, Tara muttered the words to a simple spell and a tiny ball of light
appeared in front of her. Gleefully, the witches threw their arms around each
other.
On the
other side of the room, Xander and Spike looked warily at each other. As one,
they each tilted their heads to expose their necks. Xander saw the imprint of
his teeth still fresh on Spike’s neck and he smiled. Spike saw two nearly
healed puncture marks in Xander’s throat and he smiled back.
“I guess
the ritual only took away the bad stuff.” Spike whispered. Xander leaned
forward and brushed his lips across his mate’s. Buffy hid a smile.
“Now all
we have to do is figure out what happened to Xander and Spike.” Willow beamed.
“It seems
that they are connected through the mating claim in some way heretofore unknown
to us and the antithesis of the magic has caused a peculiar mirrored effect in
them both.” Giles pondered.
Buffy’s
eyes glazed. “In English Giles.”
“Oh,
yes…hmmm, sorry. When the ritual backlashed, Spike and Xander were caught in it
because they broke it. And because they were bonded through the claiming, it
seems that they share the power the backlash created. I think Xander can see
and feel emotions, and Spike can project them.” He declared.
“That’s so
cool!” Buffy exclaimed. “Let’s try them out!”
Giles
sighed. “Not exactly the reaction I was hoping for, but I suppose that she is
right. We do need to know what these new powers can do. Can you see the lines,
Xander?”
“No, he’s
turned off.” Spike replied. “When he’s looking at the pretty lights his eyes
turn blue.”
Xander
grinned. “It’s only fair. When you’re sending out shock waves, yours turn
brown.”
“Hmmmm,
fascinating. Yet another link.” Giles perked up again. “So, can you…err, turn
on?”
Xander
shut his eyes and shuddered. When he opened them again, they were blue
glaciers. “Got it.”
“Excellent.
Now, I want you to watch the, err…lines, while Spike tries to send various
emotions across.” Giles commanded.
“So, who’s gonna be our guinea pig?” Spike asked.
Buffy
practically bounced. “Ooooooh, me! Me!”
With
matching grins, the boys turned to face her.
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“This
bloody well sucks.” Spike complained. “Why can’t I send scary things?”
For the
last 30 minutes, Xander had been dipping into emotion streams, learning what
each color meant. After each discovery, he would ask Spike to try to send
something of that emotion down the light. SO far, they’d found Spike could only
send emotions that were the opposites of those imposed by the ritual.
“I can’t
bloody well believe this. I have this really amazing opportunity to be evil
again, and all I can send are fluffy bunny feelings.” Spike snarled in disgust.
Buffy
tried really hard not to giggle, but Spike caught her anyway.
“Oh, I’m
so glad that you are amused by this, Slayer.” He growled and threw himself back
onto the love seat.
“So, what
are the emotions we’ve come up with so far?” Giles interrupted.
“Um, looks
like…joy, love, comfort, hope, strength, and various themes on the same.”
Willow catalogued, then got an evil grin. “Oh, hey, we haven’t tried out
pleasure yet.”
Giles looked confused. “We have joy.”
“No, no,
no.” She shook her head. “Pleasure. That thing caused by joy and love.”
She wiggled her eyebrows at Spike, who began an evil grin of his own.
“You’re
absolutely right, Red,” He said sweetly. “Hang on a mo, will ya? Got to get in
the mood.”
He turned
to Xander and, grinning wickedly, took possession of the boy’s lips. Nibbling
on Xander’s lower lip, he swung a leg over Xander’s lap and nestled down,
pressing his crotch against Xander’s. He was immediately rewarded by a low moan
and the capture of his own tongue. They dueled passionately for a moment with
each other, and then Spike forced himself away.
Xander
muttered in protest and Spike kissed him on the nose. “Later, luv.” He
whispered. Turning around, he found the witches watching him with grins, Giles
wiping his glasses again, and Buffy staring with her mouth slightly open.
Narrowing
his gaze, he bundled all of his need and desire into one tiny ball and rammed
it down the link into the Slayer. Buffy got wide eyed and her hand shot down to
the vee of her legs. Then her eyes glazed over and she dropped to her knees
with a keening wail. She curled down,
resting her head on the floor as she continued to whimper and small shudders
could be seen making their way across her back.
Willow
gaped at Spike and then ran to Buffy’s side. Putting her arm around her best
friend, she leaned over to whisper. “Buffy, I’m sorry. I didn’t know it would
hurt.” Buffy gave one final shudder and laughed weakly.
“Hurt? No.
Not at all.” She sat up carefully and grinned at Spike. “I think I’m jealous.”
Spike
preened and Willow looked confused. Buffy leaned over to whisper in her ear.
“Spike
just made me come harder than I’ve ever come in my life. And he did it with a
fucking thought.” She grinned again, and Willow giggled.
“That
good?”
Buffy
shuddered again and her eyes rolled up briefly. “I’m so jealous.”
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