Author:Jozzy

Title: Crazy Love

Summary: This is just a look at the different relationships on Rosewell right now.

Spoilers: Before the New York thing

Disclaimer: I don't own anything. I'm not going to make any money off this so please don't sue me

A/N: The bold text are thoughts

Crazy Love

It wasn't that I was really mad. She didn't know it wasn't Michael. But then why did she kiss him. Okay, Liz says that he kissed her. So is Michael attracted to her? Now Michael is mad at me. All because I had breakfast with a guy. True this guy is like rich, but he's just a guy.

A guy that compliments me

A guy that chases me instead of me chasing him.

A guy that thinks he was abducted by aliens.

Why is my life so complicated?

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Maria looked around the diner. She had been working for five hours and was waiting for Liz so they could go take her brake. Her eyes settled on Michael. It was one of those rare occasions where he actually showed up to work. Lately he had been skipping to have meetings with Isabel and Max. Michael's eyes caught the blond's and hardened. He turned back to his stove. Maria sighed.

"What's wrong?" Liz stepped over to Maria, seeing the sad look cross her best friend's face.

"Liz, what is the only thing that's wrong with me lately?"

Liz nodded knowing exactly what Marie meant. She and Max had been having problems too. Ever since...

"Come on Marie let's go. We can go visit Brody if you want."

"Liz, despite what everyone thinks, I'm just friends with Brody."

Liz sighed; sometimes she wished that Maria did have a thing for Brody. It would get her mind off Michael. Liz hated that Michael could always make Maria cry. She hated that a lot of the time she hadn't even noticed Maria's pain because she was so wrapped up in Max.

Maria knew that Liz was feeling guilty again by the frown of concentration on her friend's face. Maria also knew why Liz was feeling guilty. When Liz had returned to Rosewell this summer she had been devastated by how bad thing between Maria and Michael were going. The way her friend pined over the rebel, and his indifference. Liz had felt responsible for letting Maria sink so far.

Maria rolled her eyes, "Come on Liz, let's get out of here."

Maria would do anything to keep the pity from coming into Liz's eyes again. Every time anything went wrong with Michael Liz would have a flashback to her indiscretion towards Maria last year. She would get this look, ' Maria has been in pain so long and its all my fault. I should have been here for her. Instead I was pining over Max. I'm a terrible friend.' Somehow everything turned out to be about Liz.

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Finding something to do in a town the size of Roswell was not easy. Really the Crashdown was the only place for kids their age to hang out. So Maria and Liz wound up driving out to the desert. Going up to a familiar cliff over looking a small ravine they brought out a couple of blankets to lie on while they watched the sun go down.

True their friendship had been stretched over the last year. Mainly it had revolved around making Liz feel better about her on again off again relationship with Max. For a while Maria had begun to deeply resent the girl she had practically grown up with. But things were getting better. After the break from Roswell Liz had come back seemingly okay with the whole I'm not with Max thing. In fact she was actually adamant that they not be together.

"Look Maria I know this entire uber-Michael things hurt you, but you have to know that I didn't want it. I know that Michael is yours and I don't want any part of him. That kiss just happened.

I didn't expect or ask for it."

Maria sighed, " I know you didn't Liz. I'm just a little jealous it has nothing to do with you really. It's just that Michael would never kiss me like that. Out in public where everyone could see. Hell he won't kiss me period. He's so mad about this Brody thing. Dammit we're not even dating anymore! It's not my fault! I can go out with any guy I want!"

Frustrated, Maria leaped off the blanket and began to pace. Anger rolled off her in waves. Whenever she thought about Michael her emotions became unbalanced one moment she would be pining over him and the next she was a raving lunatic about the unfairness of their relationship.

"Who does he think he is! I am my own person. I make the decisions! And if I decide that I want to date Brody then I'll date Brody."

Standing Liz pulled in front of Maria. She may not have been that great a friend last year, but now she could make up for it. This time she would be there for Maria.

"I know M but you know he's just like this because he's jealous. He wants what's best for the both of you. And in his mind that's not being together."

Maria growled, "Well he's an idiot. How can this be better? I go to sleep crying almost every night. It can't be any easier for him. Look at him with Brody. He just about dies when another guy even looks at me. Why can't Michael just wake up and smell the coffee? I just want to love him. Is that so much to ask?"

Tears were now streaming down the young woman's face. Maria turned from the ravine, making her way back to the car. It was too hard! Living every day with this pain. Part of her wished that she could just turn off these feelings for Michael, as he seemed to turn off his own. The other part, the truthful part, knew that she would never stop loving him. Not really. She could hide her feelings like Liz and Max seemed to be doing, but they would still be there when she woke up in the morning. Remembering how it felt to hold him in her arms that one night they spent together, when Michael had left his foster father.

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Maria left over half an hour ago. She and Liz just walked out. I hate when she does that. I hate a lot of the things that Maria does. No that wrong. I hate how the things she does make me feel. Like right now I feel guilty for making her leave and really miss her too. Me, Michael Geran feeling guilty. God, I can't remember a time before Maria that I ever felt guilty about anything. And I wasn't exactly Mr. Morality back then. I'm not now either but that's a different can of worms.

Where the hell did she go? Probably to go visit that orange haired freak. Man I want to just smash him in the face. The way he looks at her. The way she looks at him. She never looks at me that way anymore. The only thing I see when I look at Maria these days is this infinite sadness. A sadness that I know I'm responsible for, which makes me want to reach out and comfort her. So I don't look at her that much anymore, at least not in the eyes. That's okay there's plenty more of Maria to see.

That's another problem. I think about her constantly now. She has invaded my dreams and she just won't go away. I see her whenever I close my eyes. That frightens me more than any of the visions of my home planet ever did. I haven't been this afraid to close my eyes since those episodes with Isabel.

My life is too fucking complicated.

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