Beauty And The Beast
Jean narrowed her eyes and concentrated on pouring the orange juice
into her glass. Frustrated, she wiped the sweat from her brow and
concentrated even harder. The professor had urged her to practice her
telekinesis as often as possible. Finally she sighed and grabbed the
half-full cup. "Good enough," she mumbled as she gulped the contents
and made a face. Ugh, she thought, why did Storm always have to buy
the kind with pulp? Jean set down the glass and closed her eyes for a
moment, just enjoying the silence in the house. She loved to wake up
early on Sunday mornings. She'd go running in the woods for a while,
and sit down to a nice quiet breakfast. She smiled and kicked off her
running shoes.
A soft noise interrupted the silence. Jean listened carefully and
followed the noise into the rec. room. It sounded like the TV. Evan
had been up late watching Saturday night live, he had probably just
left the TV on by accident. She thought briefly of trying to turn off
the TV telekinetically, but decided to do it by hand. She rubbed her
temples as she walked into the rec. room, using her powers this often
was very tiring. She had blacked out the other day in the middle of a
danger room session. Jean bit her bottom lip as she recalled the look
of concern on Wolverine's face when she had opened her eyes. He had
offered her a hand up and she took it reluctantly. The one thing she
hated most about her powers was the fact that using them too
frequently, or straining herself inevitably ended with her fainting or
blacking out. She sighed as she walked over to the TV and reached for
the button. She straightened and turned around, sensing that there was
somebody behind her. And there was Kurt, sitting on the couch, a white
down comforter wrapped around himself.
"Good morning, Kurt," Jean said with mild surprise. If there was
anybody she wasn't expecting to see up this early it was Kurt. Kurt
was famous for sleeping until lunchtime on the weekend.
"Gutenmorgen, Jean," Kurt replied with a small blush.
Jean smiled; Kurt was so adorable when he blushed. His blue fur
tinged with the red on his cheeks. She plopped down on the couch
beside him and pulled her legs up. She loved the fact that, around the
house, he never used his image inducer. Kurt had come a long way.
"Whatcha watching?" Jean asked as she glanced at the TV. It looked
like a cartoon. Jean suddenly realized what it was.
"Schönheit und das Tier," Kurt responded quietly.
"Huh?"
"Beauty and the Beast," he replied. "But I can stop the tape, if you
want, if you want to watch something else," Kurt added hastily.
Sometimes being around Jean made him nervous. He could never quite get
the right words out. She was so beautiful, so nice, and so perfect.
Everything about her, her smile, her laugh it made his heart leap into
his throat. But he knew he didn't feel for Jean the way he felt for
Kitty. Kitty, Kurt thought with a small sigh.
"That's ok, Kurt. This is a great movie, one of my favorites."
Kurt smiled in relief. He was glad Jean didn't think he was some kind
of dork for watching Disney cartoons.
They both sat in nervous silence, watching the movie.
Jean shifted on the couch, settling in a little more. Kurt could feel
his heart racing. He suddenly felt very uncomfortable sitting so close
to her. He instinctively reached for his wrist, to activate the image
inducer, but changed his mind. He still remembered the way Jean and
Scott had first reacted when the saw him. It was the way everybody
reacted. He felt a small ache in his chest as he looked away from the
TV. I am a beast, he thought to himself.
Jean shifted her gaze from the TV screen to the fuzzy blue elf beside
her. He was radiating sadness, confusion and self-hatred. Jean sucked
in a quick breath as she wondered whether or nor she should say
something. That was another drawback of her mutation. She couldn't
help but sense extreme changes in the mood of those around her. It
wasn't something she could control, and she knew it made some people
uncomfortable. Most of the time she never said anything, but she
sensed that Kurt needed to talk to somebody.
"Kurt?" She asked softly, waiting for the boy to turn and face her.
"Are you ok?"
"Ja," was Kurt's immediate response.
Jean gave him a doubtful look.
Kurt turned his attention back at the screen as Belle looked upon the
Beast for the first time. Kurt hunched his shoulders and curled up,
taking up less space and inching further away from Jean.
Jean glanced at the screen and then back at Kurt. Her heart broke as
she realized what he had been thinking. "Kurt," Jean said in a strong
voice. "Kurt," she repeated when he refused to look at her. "Kurt,
look at me," Jean's voice softened.
Kurt reluctantly turned his head and looked at her. His yellow eyes
met her blue-green ones.
"Kurt, you are not a beast," Jean scooted a bit closer to him.
Kurt gave a ragged sigh and tried to turn away again.
"Kurt, look at me," Jean pleaded with him.
He looked at her again. He was touched by the look of concern on her
face. A strand of red hair drifted down the side of her face.
Instinctively, Kurt reached out to brush the hair away. As he lifted
his blue hand, however, he stopped himself. He shouldn't be allowed to
touch her, he thought. She was so beautiful and he was so…ugly.
Jean reached for his hand as he pulled it back. "Stop it Kurt. You
are not a beast, you are not ugly."
Kurt looked down at his hand. His blue, two fingered, freak hand. She
held it in her own graceful hand.
Jean sensed his thoughts and responded, "Kurt, there are a lot of
people here who love you, not for what you look like, but for who you
are," Jean smiled as she added, "Although I think blue looks very cute
on you."
Kurt blushed again, causing Jean to giggle. "Th-thank you," he
stuttered, looking down at their hands.
"Please, Kurt, talk to me. Tell me what you are thinking."
"Don't you know?" Kurt asked, trying to force a smile.
Jean shook her head and smiled.
"It's just that, that, well…" he paused not sure if he should
continue. He looked once more at Jean's kind face. "You are so
beautiful and I…I am ugly. I'm a beast, I'm a monster." A small tear
slipped down the side of his face.
"Oh, Kurt," Jean breathed as she reached out and held him in a fierce
embrace.
At her sudden touch, Kurt broke down and held her tightly. He buried
his face in her shoulder and cried. He thought of his childhood and
all the times people had called him names. They had screamed in fear
and horror, fled at the sight of him, cursed him, threw things, called
him the devil, they had tried to kill him.
Jean continued to hug him tightly. Her eyes glossed over with tears
as she listened to his strangled sobs. She could sense that he needed
to be touched, needed to be held. Kurt had never had a loving family
as she had.
After a few minutes, Kurt pulled slowly away. He brushed some tears
from his face and sniffled a little bit. "Danke, Belle," Kurt said
with a small smile.
"Kurt, I know you never really had any family," Kurt stiffened a bit
at the comment, but Jean continued, "but I want you to know that
everybody here is family. We all love you, Kurt. It may sound cheesy,
but it's true," Jean added with a small laugh.
"Ja, so does that make you my ältere Schwester?"
Jean just stared at him. "Older sister?" she guessed.
Kurt nodded shyly.
Jean grinned and put an arm around Kurt's waist, pulling him closer
to her. She rested her head on his shoulder, "Yeah, yeah it does."
Kurt's body felt weightless with happiness. He had found a home, a
place where he could be himself without fear. People who loved him, no
matter what. Even Jean. Beautiful, perfect, incredible Jean.
"Then I will be your little kid brother," Kurt said with a small
smile.
Jean sighed in contentment.
They both went back to watching the movie. Kurt concentrated on
watching the Beast. Not such a bad guy, he thought with a grin. Kurt
watched as, onscreen, Gaston talked about Belle. Beautiful, perfect,
the best, and his to own. Kurt noticed that Jean's body momentarily
tightened. Her soft red hair brushed against his cheek. Kurt furrowed
his brow and began to think. He thought about Belle, he thought about
Jean. People treated him differently because of what he looked like.
They judged him by appearance; they never stopped to look at what kind
of person he was inside. He wondered if people did the same thing to
Jean. He had noticed the way that boys at school looked at her. He had
even heard, much to his embarrassment, some of the things they said
about her. They talked about her body; they divided it up into parts,
praising each individually. He blushed again as he remembered a
specific conversation he had overheard in the locker room. But they
never talked about how smart she was, or how nice. They never talked
about how good she was at playing poker, or how fast she could run.
They didn't care about what kind of music she liked or what her
favorite movie was.
Kurt sighed. Maybe being the Beauty wasn't as easy as it looked.
"Jean?"
"Hmm?"
"I just want you to know, that I love you too. Not for what you look
like, but for who you are."
"Thanks, Kurt," she said quietly as a tear made it's way down her cheek.
Kurt smiled and rested his fuzzy cheek against her soft red hair.
"Ja, sure thing, sis."