Lost

It was such a tradgedy, he was really a good

doctor,"said Romano as the rest of the staff cried

"Carter!"sobbed Abby, she had just found out the news about her friend,"I...I think I loved him"

*Earlier that day*

Carter walked into the ER late as usual, ever since the stabbing he was not as punctual as he usually was, maybe it was because he just didn't care anymore? After Lucy died Carter blamed himself and did not care what anybody thought or said for that matter he knew that it was his fault that lucy died and if only he had been in that room instead of her, he would be dead and everyone would be happy.

Everynight he woke up dripping in a cold sweat from the nightmares he had of the stabbing. He could see Lucy there lying in a pool of her blood all he wanted to do was scream for help but he had no voice, he wanted to get up and save her but he had no strength. He just lie there helpless.

He would always blame himself, he needed to be punished for what he did to Lucy, she did not deserve to die at such a young age. She had so much promise,and he...all he did was screw up and he knew that everyone hated him for that.

"Hi John,"said Abby.

He barely heard her,he was so lost in his thoughts.

"Is something wrong?"she asked with concern.

"No,Abby nothings wrong,"he said with no emotion. He could see the false front that she put up, she  pretended like she cared but deep down,he knew that she felt pitty for him *poor poor john*.There was nothing more that Carter hated than pitty.

Carter hated himself he hated him for everything he did, and everything he did wrong. He had to end the pain. He was not aware of himself walking up the stairs to the roof. He slowly approached the ledge and looked down. It all looked so unreal, it looked almost like heaven, a sort of bliss that he never knew existen untill now.

He saw Lucy down there.

"Lucy!" he called,"Lucy Im so sorry I let you down,

she didn't respond.

"Im coming down Lucy!"he yelled, he jumped over the ledge and suddenly she was gone, he hit reality he saw all of the cars bustling about, he didn't want to die. But it was too late.

END