Pairing: BJD

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Brian motioned to Desire to come and sit by him on the bed. She complied. “Brian, I can go. This was special but you need to be with your boy.”

“Desire, he will sleep for a while. We can talk. Besides, this brought back so many memories for me and I am sure it did for you, too. You surprised me you know. Those toys are unique like you. Did you make them?”

“Yes, I did.” Brian leaned over toward her and gave her a kiss. Dee, if you didn’t have a pussy, you know things would have been different for us when we met.”

“Yes, it could have been good, but you are gay and I am… well, I am a woman and that will never change. Brian, can I ask you something?”

“Why ask if you can, you always do. Go ahead. I will be as honest as always.”

“Brian, why did you allow me to intrude with you and your boy? You haven’t played with women in forever.”

“Well, I really don’t know. It just seemed right at the time and Justin has been wanting to have a glimpse of my past. It just worked. How better to explain our relationship than first hand. He needs to have a heterosexual experience with someone like you, anyway. He took his best friend’s virginity in high school. She wanted him to be her first. It didn’t go too well. She freaked out and they didn’t talk for a bit. I want him to know what it is like for the other side. He is insecure in many things, some about me, some because of the accident, but he is secure in his sexuality, probably, even more than I was at his age. I still have insecurities, especially because of our age difference and because I love him so much, more than life itself, but fear I am not good for him. Or that he will leave me someday. That would be worse than not ever loving. “Yes, I love him.”

“Brian, how did you fall in love? You never wanted it. You despised it. You weren’t sure what it even was.”

“Justin is so sure of himself, he spotted me, he stalked me, he wormed his way in through the cracks in my walls that he slowly chiseled. The funny thing is that I was ripe for it at the time. I wanted something new, a challenge in my life. I didn’t plan on love. I was bored out of my mind. Sex didn’t even do it anymore. As pain management, it was lacking. Suddenly, this boy put a spark into it again, revived it, and me. Everyday, it is like fireworks with us, exciting and exhilarating, and never ever the same. It is amazing. I feel like a child with eyes suddenly open, everything new and alive, textures all different and invigorating, and colors fresh and vibrant. I can’t imagine living without him. Life had become various shades of gray. I don’t want to live that way again. Why can I still share my feelings with you?”

Laughing, Dee smiled and said. “Because I understand you and we have no secrets. Look, you gave yourself so completely to me. In front of your boy and without shame. We can still read each other and know what each needs to do like tonight. I knew what you wanted me to do with Justin without words. Will he be able to follow you as well? Somehow, I think probably even better. Brian, he may be young but I think he is your equal. You are so in love with him. How you took him as he got ill and you didn’t care about anything but making it easier for him, I saw the turmoil and pain you were feeling for him. It hurts you when he is hurting. Brian, I don’t want to come between you too, but I don’t want to lose you either.”

“Desire, never will you lose me. Our friendship will always be intact. We hadn’t seen each other in a while, yet it feels like yesterday. And now, you will also have Justin’s friendship. I hope Justin doesn’t have second thoughts about tonight or see me differently, but I finally let myself show my vulnerability and that means a lot to him. Maybe, now I can share more of my past with him because he has seen a part of it. I hope I can learn to stay open for him. Do you have a lover, a steady one either male or female?”

“I had a few, but I could not keep them. I held back and they couldn’t handle that. Also, my toys and my need to be the dominant doesn’t always work to my advantage. If it can happen for you, maybe, I still have a chance.”

“You’re beautiful and you are special. It will come. Just a warning, don’t fight it or try to push it away, once it shows up. I tried to push Justin away. Luckily, he never gave up on us. Not completely. He knew what he wanted and he held on and he waited me out. Thank God. Ahh! He is waking up. I can hear the change in his breathing. You ready for round two?”

Giggling, Desire replied. “Sure, what’s next?”

“You are.”

Stretching,“Brian, what’s up? I am hungry.” Opening his eyes, getting his bearings, “Oh, hi. What are you doing here? Oh, right. We are on a ship.”

“Justin, wipe the sleep out. Welcome back to the living. Ready for round two. This time, it is Desire’s turn.”

“You realize that is pussy, you are talking about here. Brian, are you mad?”

“No, but you should have a better experience with a woman than you did with Daphne and Desire doesn’t come with weirdness. She won’t get emotional about it.”

“I am right here, guys.”

“I haven’t forgotten,” Brian quipped as he leans over and kissed her, tonguing her.

“Justin, it will be fun. Let’s see, what toys could we use.”

“Brian, I am not doing cunnilingus. No way!”

“You don’t have to but you will enjoy this, I promise. Justin, this was part of my life once. I am letting you in. You wanted a glimpse of my past, now you are reliving it. Please, don’t shut me down. I may never open up again,…if you do.” Giving Justin a pleading look, Justin melted, feeling suddenly how vulnerable Brian felt. He felt it too. A secret between them that he knew would never be revealed among the Pittsburgh crowd. He felt warmed and he felt closer to Brian than he ever had at that moment. His blue eyes changed, Brian watching, saw the recognition dawn upon Justin and sighed in relief. He understood. Justin understood. No more words were needed. Bending down, cupping Justin’s chin in his hand, Brian kissed Justin with a passion he hadn’t known he could feel. He put his whole essence into that kiss. They both felt its power. Maybe, this vulnerability thing is good for something. G-d, I feel so free. Justin’s delectable dick shot up at attention, as they kissed, not letting go.

Desire watched in awe at the depth of their feelings, the electricity was shooting everywhere and she felt her nipples harden, her body tingle, her clit tense screaming for release. G-d, she couldn’t believe how much love she was witnessing. This wasn’t fucking between them. Oh, a fuck once in a while, she was sure, but it was just to release tension so they could show their love afterwards. Of all the people in the world to fall in love so deeply, she would have bet her life that it would never have been Brian hit with Cupid’s arrow. But then again, someone who had never allowed emotion, once it was released, would want to feel it to the max. She really felt like she didn’t belong. What they had was private. She was just a fringe benefit tonight. She was being blessed with witnessing this. She hadn’t realized it, but tears were flowing freely. Totally, lost in her thoughts, she didn’t realize they had stopped kissing.

Brian and Justin noticed the tears, whispering to each other, Brian tells Justin, “She is as lost as I was before you.” Justin smiles his wide smile and his eyes become mischievously twinklely. “We can change that.” They both laugh and in unison, jump up and push Desire down on the bed. Startled, she blinks, “What the…” Suddenly, her world changes again. As if they were one, they started worshipping Desire’s body, starting with her earlobes, sucking, nibbling, licking, she moans. Desire’s emotions constantly switching from joy, sadness, to lust, longing, and need. Slowly, they move to her eyelids, kissing them like feathers touching and then kissing each other. Justin kisses her mouth, lips sucking on them with fervor, her lips respond. Brian ties her hands and feet as he does and then blindfolds her. “Desire, trust us. I want you just to feel the scintillating sensations stirring within you. Just feel the fervor, fever, and flowing energy that my eager, energetic, excited boy is giving you. Let others show you how loved you can feel. That’s it. Relax.”

They move down her neck to her nipples, nibbling, nipping, pulling, sucking, licking. Brian tries to get as much of it into his mouth as he can but he can’t get it all in. “Desire, they have grown beautifully large. Double D maybe.”

“Brian, triple D is more like it. More to love.”

“They are beautiful babies, Dee.” Brian says with true affection. Hearing his voice and tone, she purrs, knowing how appreciative and more he really is. Justin, works it well. Both loving her in the same ways they would show each other. She feels overwhelmed and tears start flowing, wetting the blindfold and streaming down as well. Both men understand and Brian looks down and Justin moves to her toes, as does Brian. Licking and loving the toes, Dee squirms ticklish. They laugh. Brian mouths to Justin to tit fuck. Justin moves up and places his cock between the two orbs and places Dee’s hands on her boobs. Understanding she rubs her babies up and down his shaft as he also moves his cock. The sensation is intoxicating, something overwhelming and Brian smiles. He knows how that will feel. Rubbing his cock against her armpit, he moans as does Justin. Justin looks at him and Brian sees that he is close to exploding. He nods and then kisses Justin which sends him over the edge exploding down her boobs and onto her chest and stomach, some reaching up to her neck, opening her mouth, Dee gets a taste from one of the streams. She savors, swells it around her mouth, and sighs. Justin moves up and kisses Dee, swapping some and then sharing it with Brian.

“Brian, that was unbelievable. Now, I understand.” Justin starts kissing Brian. “Guys, I am still here. Guys. Hellooooooooo!” They look at her, confused. “My turn. Remember?”

“Oops. Sorry, Dee. We got carried away a little.”

“A little!”

Using his hand, Brian starts fingering Dee, first two fingers in her pussy, slowly, methodically, then three, four, and then a fist. “Harder, harder, I need it deeper. Play with the clit. Brian, now. Pleeeeeeeassssssssssse.”

“No, Dee, not yet.” Brian nods toward the bowl of condoms and signals for two. As Justin reaches for the lube from habit, Brian shakes his head no. Brian takes a condom and clothes himself. Justin follows, with a questioning look. Brian mouths words to Justin, “Enter. I will follow.”

Justin slips into Dee and slowly thrusts in and out. But it isn’t tight, not something with which he is willing to get comfortable. Dee tries to arch and thrust in rhythm with him but a hand pushes her down toward the sheets. She complies. Brian pushes into her treasure as well, the two moving in unison together. Groaning, Dee sees lights behind her eyes. Brian changes the pace and he pulls back as Justin thrusts in, now they are moving opposite each other, the sensation stimulating, sensual stirrings slurring into oblivion. Dee starts screaming as she cums. Brian signals Justin to pull out and he does even though, he hasn’t come off. Turning Dee to the side, Brian taps her butt and Justin prepares her with his fingers wet from the lubrication already on his dick, her own. Pushing his pulsating pecker into her pucker, she groaned, relaxed and pushed onto him. As the two men pumped her, she climaxed several times and then Brian signaled to Justin to push faster and harder so they could get off. Justin leaned forward and they kissed again. This time, not wanting to end it, but also wanting to suddenly be alone together, unspoken they worked to climax at the same time. Brian able to hold out longer waited for his signal from his lover. He didn’t wait long. After a few more thrusts, the sounds and look was telling, Brian drove himself close to the edge as well and they came together inside Dee, collapsing beside her, catching their breath. Brian untied Dee and both rid themselves of their sheaths. “Dee, you okay. They weren’t too tight?”

“I’m okay. That was fanfuckingtastic.”

Slowly, they regained their normal breathing and Dee made her excuses to go back to her own room. She had had a wonderful experience with these two gay lovers and she didn’t want to overstay her welcome. They didn’t stop her. An unspoken communication between the three was understood. This would not happen again. They made plans to see the concert on the third night together. As the door closed behind her, she could imagine what they were gonna do. Probably each other or cuddle. She presumed they would have to remove the experience of pussy from their minds, but they certainly knew how to get me off. It was pure heaven. I am still flying. Going to her room, she went inside and allowed herself this one time to cry. So many emotions overwhelming her, she cried till she fell asleep.

What they were really doing first was talking, about the experience, about what it meant to each other, what it meant to Dee, what it meant to their relationship. As they fell asleep later that night, Brian’s last thought was about Dee. I hope she doesn’t cry too long. At least, we gave her something of our love, of ourselves to hold onto for a while.

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