Prologue
The paper's
headlines blared- 'Pony Express Riders Foil Bank Robbery in Ft Laramie'
Teaspoon
clucked like a tired mother hen, "For once in my life I wish the papers
wouldn't glorify my boys." He stared out across the yard at the men walking
towards him, "'s as if they don't have enough to worry about... these newsmen
make them seem larger than life."
Rachel laughed
softly behind him.... " Sometimes I think they are larger than life, Teaspoon."
She leaned her head on his shoulder, "Trouble is, 'boys' like ours attract
a lot of attention. Good -and- Bad."
Teaspoon
grasped her around her shoulder and nodded, "Yep. There's no denying that."
The Riders
gathered in front of Teaspoon, some squintin' into the sun. "What's the
news?" ask Buck.
Teaspoon
handed the paper to Noah, "Robbers tried to knock over the bank in Ft Laramie,
" his mouth turned up in a wry smile, "and Lou and Cody walked right into
the middle of it." He held up a hand before the questions flew, " Settle
down..."
When it
was quiet he continued, "Cody got winged in the side by a lucky shot, but
Lou is still as God made her."
Noah looked
up from the paper, "Just be thankful Kid's on a run or he'd already be
half way to Laramie... riding Katy into the dust."
Teaspoon's
warm chuckle followed, " Dare say you're right son. Jimmy?"
James Butler
Hickok looked up at the Marshal.
"Cody might
need some motherin' on the trip back to Sweet Water, you think you can
spare some time to help Lou?"
Jimmy nodded,
"You don't need to ask twice." Jimmy headed back to the bunkhouse to grab
his pack.
Chapter
One
Riders and
horses, townsfolk and society... they all bustled through the streets,
kickin' up dust and makin' a huge racket.
Lou walked
through the streets enjoying the sights. Sometimes it's nice to just watch
the world go by.
Then, out
of the corner of her eye, she saw ... "Who?" Lou stood in the middle of
the street blinkin' in the bright sunlight. The light glinted sharply off
the studs on his black hat and her eyes grew wide in surprise.
"Hickok!"
She called, "what are you doin' out here?"
A single
gesture and his hat tipped back from his face to reveal a satisfied grin,
"I heard some of my friends were in town, shootin' up the place. What's
the matter Lou, don't want the rest of us to be in on the fun?"
'Not that
we asked for it!" She had to suppress the feminine giggle she could feel
building inside.
He came
up beside her and Lou turned to walk with him. Townsfolk that heard her
call his last name were quick to back out of their way as they passed.
Quietly
they continued their talk.
"No, really
Jimmy, are you here to keep an eye on me for Kid?"
His gazed
turned to acknowledge a man who tipped his hat, and when he turned back
to his companion his grin was gone.
She saw
the truth in his solemn eyes.
Lou's shoulders
relaxed as a soft smile returned to her lips. "I should have known better
Jimmy - I can count on you to back me up." The spring had returned to her
stride as she walked beside him.
Chapter
Two
Cody rested
comfortably in the middle of the four poster bed - he stretched out under
the lacy sheets and almost laughed out loud as the soft cushions beneath
his head seemed to smell like roses!
Miss Mina
was so 'beholden' to him for rushing to her rescue during the robbery that
she insisted that he recover under her tender caresses.
Since the
morning he had had breakfast (bacon, sausage, eggs, biscuits, pancakes,
oatmeal and several glasses of fresh milk), a mid-morning platter of cold
sweet fruit and a luncheon that could easily have been mistaken for one
of Rachel's feasts. Then he slept.
Mina rubbed
his shoulders and back with her soft hands and whispered sweet words to
sooth his spirits.
Cody swore
he was in heaven...
Chapter
Three
Lou &
Jimmy were shown a sleeping Cody, a sated smile on his face, just seconds
before they were nearly shoved out the door by an over zealous Miss Mina.
They walked
back towards the hotel, all the while 'bemoaning' their friend's sorry
condition.
Lou kept
up with her friend's long strides, "At this rate, I don't think Cody will
want to get better-"
Jimmy agreed,
"did you see that mountain of dishes on the sideboard? I bet he ate everything
in the house!" He cleared his throat, "I'd love to see what she'll find
for his dinner-"
Lou punched
Jimmy's shoulder before stopping abruptly in the street to look back at
the brothel. "If he spends much more time in her care it'll be a
miracle if his horse can carry him. He'll need a horse just for his stomach."
She grimaced at the thought.
Jimmy chuckled
under his breath, "Yep, that would surely be a sight to see." They came
up on a Saloon- "You hungry Lou?" Lou nodded and they walked up the stairs
together.
They were
lucky the Saloon was still empty for the most part. The heavy drinkers
and gamblers would arrive later in the evening.
Jimmy told
Lou to order for them and he went to find them a table.
Lou was
enjoying herself quite a bit - conversation with Jimmy was easy and full
of fun. They traded stories about the past week, including the fit Rachel
had when she discovered a raccoon holed up in one of the cupboards... eattin'
up everything in sight.
Lou nearly
spit out a mouthful of sarsparilla when Jimmy imitated Rachel's shrieks
of anger.
"Shoo! Shoo,
you dirty beast!"
Coughing
to cover her laughter she couldn't get over the squeaky voice he used.
Jimmy pounded her on her back until she choked out, "enough - enough. I'm
okay." Her eyes were shiny with tears and red-rimmed but full of laughter.
"Jimmy," she gasped" you sure know how to tell a tale."
She took
off her glasses to wipe at her eyes. "Just do me a favor next time," she
caught his eye, "let me swallow first."
Jimmy nodded
as he set his bottle down on the table. "You better go wash off your face,
you're covered in dust."
"Guess so,"
Lou crammed her glasses back onto her face and stood up, pushing her chair
back with her legs.
The heavy
wooden chair bumped into a man carrying a full glass of scotch.
"Dammit
to HELL!!" he hollered as the richly colored liquor dripped off his hand
and into his shirt cuff.
"Hell George,"
another man called, "it's even on your new boots."
The man
leaned back on his heels and saw dark blotches staining his leather boots.
His gaze rose to meet the startled eyes of the 'boy' who was stammering
out an apology.
She had
to choke back a nervous laugh, "Gee Mister.... I'm real sor-" Lou was cut
short as the glass the man was holding splintered into a shower of glass
at her feet. Instantly her mood sobered, "I'll buy you another."
"What if
I don't want another! I'm not in a drinkin' mood no more!"
Lou could
feel her heart pounding as the man advanced toward her, his eyes glassy
and piercing... his hand rose to strike her and she ducked to the side
as his momentum carried him into the table.
Jimmy lifted
their bottles out of the way as the table groaned and buckled under the
man's weight.
'George'
pushed himself back up from the table and came at her again.
Lou grabbed
a heavy metal tray from the passing bartender and brought it down on the
man's red sweaty brow.
He grunted
and hit the floor, his eyelids lowering to half-mast.... unseeing.
Lou made
sure she could see the steady rise and fall of his chest before she looked
up at the bartender's shocked face and sheepishly handed him back the tray.
"Hey, I offered to buy him another drink.." she turned back to the table,
"I'm not lookin' to fight..."
A slow moment
later - everyone turned back to what they were doing and Lou bent to pick
up her chair that now lay on the floor.
She sat
down with a sigh and realized with a laugh that Jimmy was still sittin'
at the table, calmly finishing off his sandwich.
"Hickok?"
she asked.
"Yeah Lou?"
"You just
sat there?"
"Uh-huh,"
he nodded and pushed her bottle back in front of her. "I knew you could
handle it on your own." Jimmy wiped his mouth and tossed the napkin on
the table.
Lou took
her bottle in one hand and sat back in her chair - a smile spreading wordlessly
across her lips. "I did it."
Chapter
Four
Lou and
Jimmy spoke with the Doctor just moments after he examined the 'deathly
ill' Cody who was still nesting in Miss Mina's guilded cage.
"Well now,"
chuckled the aging doctor.. I don't know who was in more pain... the 'lady'
or the young gentleman." He was putting his instruments back in his bag,
one by one. "Everytime I touched him she would whimper and ring her hands."
"So...."
Jimmy hedged.
"He's fine
to ride, but he seems to like the care he's receiving here. I told him
to stay abed another day or so... and then ride on home."
Lou nodded
and shook the Doctor's hand, " Thank you, sir."
The man
nodded at Jimmy and left through the back door... it doesn't look good
for a doctor to be seen coming out of a brothel.
The ride
back to the Waystation had the two in high spirits, they enjoyed the fresh
air and lighthearted conversation.
Several
times Jimmy would gaze at Lou as she told him a story of her childhood
or make some comment about the scenery. He tried to remember everything
about these moments as if they were precious memories. To him they were,
it was so rare to find himself alone with Lou. No Rachel (who watched them
all so carefully), no Teaspoon (who acts like a mother hen), no riders
(acting like a flock of overprotective brothers) and especially.... no
Kid.
He moved
up so that he rode side by side with her, everything but the moment was
pushed aside in his mind.
Chapter
Five
"Riders
Comin'" Buck called as he stood up from the steps of the Bunkhouse.
Ike came
out of the Bunkhouse, hat in hand & half-heartedly signed.
"Lou and
Jimmy are home."
Hearing
Buck's last comment, Rachel came to the door wiping her hand on her apron
and smiled a greeting at the two riders reigning their horses to a stop.
Lou slid
down off Lightning and took the steps two at a time- a warm hug for Buck
and Ike. She beamed a smile at Rachel.
Jimmy wordlessly
took Lou's horse and his and walked them to the stable.
By the time
he washed up and entered the bunkhouse Lou and the other riders had started
dinner. Lou was rapidly motioning with her hands as she told them the story
of their encounter with 'George' at the Saloon in Ft. Laramie.
Rachel sat
across from Lou and listened to the story with a happy heart- this was
a different Lou than the young girl who had been sleepwalking through the
last few weeks.
Others noticed
it too - Noah honestly found the story funny and sat smiling and laughing
with Buck and Ike.
Jimmy took
a plate and helped himself to the salad and chicken on the sideboard. He
sat next to Ike, who signed.
Jimmy nodded
as he buttered a roll, "Yep, it was a sight to see-"
"And what
were you doing while he attacked her?" Jimmy ignored a furious Kid, who
until now had remained all too quiet.
Lou froze
mid-word and Jimmy dropped the roll back onto his plate, knocking his fork
off the edge. "Now Kid-"
"What Jimmy?"
the young man pushed his plate away from him, "What 'good' reason did you
have for sitting back doin' NOTHING!"
Jimmy leaned
forward across the table and seethed through his teeth, "because she didn't
need no help-"
"What do
you know about it?" Kid's hands were clenching the edge of the table, "
We need to look out for each other Jimmy, we're family. Don't forget that!"
Jimmy tore
a piece of meat from the chicken and popped it in his mouth, trying hard
to maintain his calm demeanor, "I didn't forget anything. Lou is
family, she can take care of herself." He nodded in her direction, "and
like a family," he paused to look at all the faces around the table, "we
all have to grow up sometime."
Kid pushed
his chair back and stalked out the door.
Rachel chided
Jimmy with a look as she picked up Kid's plate.
Lou stared
down at her food, her appetite and good humor gone. Buck, Ike and Noah
cleaned up their own plates... each trying to give Lou some room as they
filed past the table.
When they
were alone, Lou looked up at Jimmy who was thoroughly involved in eating
his meal.
She picked
up her own chicken and shrugged her shoulders, "I still think it's a good
story." A little spark returned to her voice.
Jimmy wiped
at his mouth and nodded, "a damn good one Lou-"
Lou smiled
and finished her meal with Jimmy in companionable silence.
Chapter
Six
Jimmy had
an afternoon run the next day and headed to the stable early to saddle
up. He was absorbed in securing his pack, but he still heard the unsteady
foot fall behind him. He knew it was Kid- no one else had cause to hang
back. He thought he'd let Kid make the first move.
"Jimmy,"
he stilled, his hands on the cinch, "Jimmy, I wanna talk to you."
Jimmy turned
around and looked at his friend, "I'm listenin'."
Kid shuffled
his feet in the dirt, losing some of his nerve-
Jimmy clicked
his tongue, impatient for Kid to 'spit it out', "Kid, I've got a run_"
"Dammit
Jimmy!" Kid through his hands up in frustration, "Just when I think everything
is fine with me and Lou, you-" Kid paused, unsure of the next word, "you-"
"I what,
KIIIDD?" he drew out the word, making it sound like an insult.
"You try
to change her." There, Kid felt relieved, he had finally said it.
"Change
her?" Jimmy could have laughed, "You think I'm trying to change her-"
Kid's bravado
faltered, he looked away from Jimmy's dark eyes.
"For all
your talk of southern manners, you sure can act like a horse's ass sometimes!"
Jimmy shook
his head and turned to mount his horse, "Rider Coming!" called Rachel from
the porch. Picking up the reins, Jimmy stared down at the shaken Kid, "You
say you love her, but you want her to fit the image you think is right."
He paused before he headed out into the courtyard, "The thing is Kid, maybe
its time you find out what she is really like. Stop fighting the person
she is becoming, and learn to accept it - or 'dang it', you'll lose
her."
Jimmy rode
out into the sun and reached out to the incoming rider - his gloved
hand gripped the mochila with ease and goaded his mount into a gallop.
"-and I'll be waiting," he said to himself and he headed off to the next
stop.
Chapter
Seven
Lou finished
her chores and wiped her forehead with the back of her hand. She waved
to Noah and Cody as they rode back in from Town, supplies loaded in the
back of the wagon. They called out to her as they neared. "Hey Lou!" called
Cody.
"Lou," Noah
tipped his hat. "You done?"
"Yep, chores
all finished!"
"After we
put the supplies up, you want to swim with us? The water looks damn good
today."
A broad
smile spread over her dust streaked features, "Sure, sounds good."
"Lou!" Lou's
eyes closed as she heard Kid's voice, "Hey Lou, hold up!"
Lou clapped
her hand on the side of the wagon, "Better go on without me."
Cody shrugged
his shoulders and turned the horses toward the house.
"Kid?" she
looked at him, square in the eye, and he found his steps unsure.
"Ah, Lou?
You got a minute?"
"Actually?
No, there's a ride in a hour (I think Buck will trade me)... can you let
me clean up first and I'll meet you in the barn."
Chapter
Eight
About a
half an hour later Lou was fresh from her shower and dressed for her ride.
Jimmy wasn't due back until tomorrow, and Lou had a feeling that she was
going to need to talk to him.
She saddled
Lightning and then walked him into the open area of the yard. Everything
was finished when she heard the door open, "You have a minute?"
He sounded
so unsure, Lou had to shake her head in amazement. This was a different
man than the Kid she knew and lo- she stopped herself. Her feelings for
the last few weeks had caused her no shortage of grief. She knew she needed
some time to sort stuff out, and Kid wasn't giving her a lot of room.
"Lou?" she
brought her gaze up to meet his.
"Yeah Kid,
I'm ready."
He moved
a bit closer but still stayed back about an arm's length... "I ah..." he
laughed under his breath, " heck, this is hard."
"Jimmy and
I were talkin'" Lou took in a deep breath, "and uh, he said..."
Lou looked
around the barn... this was was not turning out well, "and..." she prompted,
her foot tapping out a beat on the hay strewn floor.
"and I was
wondering...." Then Kid lay it out on the table, "Why have the two of you
been spendin' so much time together? Is there something I should know?"
"It's really
simple," she started... and for once, the words seemed to fall into place,
"I like who I am when I'm with him."
Kid hung
his head and clasped his hands in his lap, "and you don't like who you
are with me?" he asked, almost as a joke.
Lou felt
ashamed, but she had to admit, "No, I don't. Not lately."
Kid stared
at her like she had grown a third eye, "What's changed between us?"
"Us? Just
that fact that I want to like me." She could see she wasn't quite reaching
him. "We call you 'the KID', but the way you treat me - that's what
I feel like!"
"Lou," he
scoffed gently, "You're almost a grown woman."
"When I'm
with you, I don't feel like a woman at all," she shook her head. "Heck,
most times I don't feel like a person either."
"Lou," he
reached out to touch her shoulder, "How can you say that? Together _"
"We're not
together - you order and I'm expected to obey - heel, stay - sitting around,
totally useless." She shook off his hand and stood - laying her hat on
her head. "Kid, you treat Katy with more common respect that you offer
me."
"Rider Coming!"
called Buck from the yard.
Lou mounted
Lightning, her back ramrod straight and without a backward glance she rode
forward, arm outstretched like she had done hundreds of times before. The
mochila came into her hand and she was off, the wind warm across her face.
Two long
strides and she smiled. She felt free, reborn. She began to respect herself.
Chapter
Nine
Kid stood
there in the barn, his mouth slightly open. He replayed their conversation
in his mind... again and again... the words still seemed to make no sense.
Jimmy Hickok
made her feel like a woman, a real woman! She had all but come out and
said it. What happened? What had he missed? How long had things been growing
between them? Kid couldn't fathom it... had she and Jimmy? Nah- Lou would
never, not his Lou....
Ike walked
into the barn as Kid stood there wrapped in his own world. Ike was concerned
about his friend and stood before him signing questions that Kid didn't
see.
Taking matters
into his own hands, Ike took a bucket full of water and dowsed Kid with
it. The Kid came around in a second, his arms waved as he spit out the
water that he had almost swallowed. "IKE! What the -?"
Ike shook
Kid looking him dead in the eye.
Kid shook
his head..."It's awful Ike, I don't know what to do." He sucked in a breath
as he tried to find the words, "It seems like everywhere I turn, my world
is falling apart! I don't understand what Lou is going through... she won't
talk to me and what's worse... She's spending all her free time with Jimmy!"
Ike stood
still, watching his friend pace the length of the barn. After a moment
the Kid looked up, "Well?" he asked.
Ike raised
his hands slowly and began to sign, he paused, phrasing his gestures carefully,
His peace said, Ike left the barn.
Chapter
10
Late that
afternoon Jimmy Hickok rode into the waystation exhausted.. the ride was
hard, but nothing special. What weighed hard on his mind and body was the
thought of facing Kid again.
Riding over
the dusty roads Jimmy had ample time to come to a decision. It was time
to stop avoiding the issue.
He entered
the bunkhouse and found Kid sitting at the table. In a moment Kid was on
his feet and the two men faced each other in the middle of the room.
From where
they stood at the fence Noah and Cody watched Hickok enter the bunkhouse,
"Time?"
Noah looked
at his watch, "I give them 5 minutes before a chair comes through the door."
"Three."
They shook hands and turned back to watch Buck school one of the horses.
Lou rode
up and Jesse took her horse. Lou thanked him... all she wanted to do was
grab some clean clothes and- she stopped outside the bunkhouse door.
"You've
got some nerve askin' me that Kid!"
She let
go of the door knob and stood there, held captive by her heart.
"Well, I
had t' know if the two of you had..."
"You shouldn't
have to ask... you know Lou-"
"That's
the thing," Kid argued, "I don't think I do." Jimmy backed off a step and
leaned against one of the bunks, Kid continued, "I don't know how, but
I missed it. I had this vision of Lou and me. How our lives would be...
and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get her to see it."
"Now I realize
that I was the problem... I spend so much time shielding her from the world
I had blinded myself to the truth." He looked over to the bunk where she
slept everynight, where her dresses were hidden in her trunk. "She became
a woman in spite of me."
Kid became
silent for a moment, lost in his own thoughts. There was a fire in Lou's
eye, one he knew deep down inside, he couldn't match. He saw it when she
took the hand off at the station, when she guarded a friend's back in a
fight, and when she rode hellbent to be there for her family.
"I spent
so much time tryin' to 'refine' her that I missed seeing the fine woman
she already was." He looked back at his friend, "but you saw it."
Jimmy kept his mouth shut... so far Kid was doin' a fine job of whippin'
himself... "I guess I am the mule-headed one of the bunch, huh, Jimmy?"
"If you
say so."
"Just tell
me one thing," Jimmy nodded, "What does she mean to you Jimmy? What can
you offer her?"
Jimmy laid
his hat on his bed, "Nothing, ... except my life." Kid looked up as Jimmy's
tone shocked him... this came straight from his heart. "You know how I
feel about the future Kid. I always have someone doggin' me where ever
I go. I can't do much to change that, but what I can tell you is that no
matter what, I will do everything I can to keep her safe, but I want her
right be my side for whatever time I got on this earth."
"And when
things get bad..." Kid questioned?
" Doesn't
matter - rich or poor, thin or flush all I need is her."
Kid stood
there for a minute... thinking on what Jimmy had said... and walked to
the door.
On the other
side of the door, Lou felt like a feather could knock her over. She couldn't
see him, but Jimmy's voice had her entranced.
She once
more moved to the door, but it opened before she could touch the knob.
Kid stepped out and stopped when he saw her.
He opened
his mouth to speak but stopped when he saw the look in her eyes... he knew
she had heard them... how much? He didn't know, but he knew it had been
enough.
"Lou," he
paused and looked away from her sweet brown eyes, "I think you should talk
to Jimmy..."
"I know
Kid," she leaned forward and kissed his cheek tenderly, her eyes closed.
She never saw the tear in his eye before she turned and walked in the bunkhouse.
Jimmy stilled
when he heard Kid's steps stop so abruptly on the porch... he knew she
had been there. He didn't look up at the door... he didn't move ... he
didn't breathe.
"Jimmy?"
His heart pounded when he heard her voice, "Jimmy, I ..."
He started
to turn away, but stopped himself.. he was going to face her, now.
She was
just a few inches away and looking straight into his face. "I never knew..."
He tried
to straighten up, to put some distance between them. She had other ideas...
she grabbed the collar of his shirt. "Jimmy Hickok, the only thing I want
in this life is to be right by your side.... today, tomorrow, however long
God grants us." Jimmy leaned into her embrace as their lips met in a kiss.
Like the kiss they shared that night by the fire, this kiss was filled
with all the longing and passion within them. It promised many more of
the same and as they clung to each other, they realized what they had found
together - love... and complete acceptance.
No, not
an end...a new beginning
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