Family Connections

Chapters 41-60

by catgirl63

 

 

 

 

Disclaimer: The characters and situations of the TV program "Big Valley" are the creations of Four Star/Republic Pictures and have been used without permission.  No copyright infringement is intended by the author.  The ideas expressed in this story are copyrighted to the author.

 

 

 

 

Chapter 41

 

Heath remembered stumbling outside from a house.  The light of the falling sun blinded him and he walked around the building shading his eyes with his hand.  His legs wouldn’t work correctly, they had a mind of their own, not obeying his wishes. 

 

‘Croker’s loose.  I gotta find him.’ 

 

His gut was saying his thoughts were wrong, his head messed up from the blows to the floor by Croker.  The face of the man he fought with flashed before him. 

 

‘No, that’s not Croker.’

 

Confusion jumbled any other cohesive thoughts he tried to bring forward in his mind.  He couldn’t bring the memory of what happened to his right side into his head or the name of the man he fought with.

 

Pulling himself forward, he used the walls of the buildings to keep himself upright.  Twice, he had to vomit from the queasiness in his stomach. Putting one foot in front of another, he stumbled and met with the ground rising up towards him.

 

The next thing he could remember was waking up tied to a horse, night had fallen all around him, his eyes were unable to focus on any landmarks before they succumbed to the pain and closed. 

 

The dragging of his body off the horse and into the cabin woke him from his darkness.

Heath lay on the floor, eyes closed striving for control from when he had been unceremoniously dropped, his body speaking to him in waves of pain.  His thoughts confused, the ringing in his ears making his head want to explode. 

 

As he fought for control, faces flashed in his mind.  He tried to remember the swirling faces as he lay on the floor, his arms tied behind him. 

 

Dark hair, blonde hair, silver hair, strawberry blonde hair, blue eyes, gray eyes, brown eyes, green eyes – different physical attributes, but all people he felt a connection with, a bond of some sorts.

 

The tanned face of a man with piercing hazel eyes, dark hair and a wide grin stood out above all the rest which flashed before him.  He knew that face.  He could feel deep inside him, a sense of completeness, a sense of camaraderie with this man.  Searching his mind, the name which belonged to owner of the face was elusive, hidden on the fringes of his memories.

 

Heath allowed the comforting darkness to retake him and enfold him in it’s lack of awareness, closing his mind and body down, taking away questions he couldn’t answer, confusion he couldn’t clear up.

 

The lack of Hiriam and Duke’s return to the ranch caused deep concern to it’s residents.  Organizing the men, Jarrod climbed the stairs to let Nick know he was taking some of the men into town with him.  His gut telling him something was wrong, his mind hoping he was overreacting.

 

Entering the room, Jarrod saw Nick’s fingers were shaking as he tried to button his shirt.

 

“Nick, get back in bed.” snapped Jarrod, his order not heard by his concentrating brother.

 

“Nick.” pleaded Jarrod, his breath caught in his throat by the torture in the hazel eyes.

 

“He’s gone Jarrod.” growled Nick shifting his gaze downward.  “I gotta find him!”

 

Hands pushed away his shaking fingers from the buttons.  Nick looked up, the anger flaring in his hazel eyes was doused by Jarrod’s slight smile, “Here let me help you.  You know, it’s been a long time since I had to dress you, Nick.”

 

Nick smiled gratefully, his eyes welling with emotion, “Thanks, Jarrod.”

 

Squeezing the black vested shoulder, Jarrod teased, “Let’s go find your other half, Nick.”

 

 

Chapter 42

 

Returning empty-handed from a search of the entire town, Fred was greeted in his office by Nick and Jarrod Barkley.  Their crew of men waited outside the sheriff’s office, Scotty and Joe’s guilt over the missing boss, darkening the scowls on their faces.

 

“What do you mean he’s confused?” growled Nick, not liking any of the news he’d heard so far. 

 

“It happens sometimes when a person suffers a concussion.  He can’t bring his thoughts in order and in, some cases, people have been known to suffer retrograde amnesia.  That’s not remembering anything prior to the head injury.” explained Howard quietly, handing Nick a glass of headache powder.  “I’m assuming since Heath didn’t ask who Fred and I were, he’s just confused.  His thoughts and memories are out of order.  They’re in there but locked up.”

 

Frowning, Jarrod stated, “Or he saw Fred’s sheriff’s badge which sparked the memory of Luke Croker and he didn’t feel threatened by your presence cause you were with the sheriff.”

 

“Perhaps, Jarrod.  We won’t know for sure until we find him.” sighed Howard.

 

Nick held his pained head in his hands and looked up, “What has Barrett said?”

 

“Nothing.” stated Fred.  “He’s not talking.”

 

“Not talking, huh?” repeated Nick rising and opening the inner door, ignoring the sheriff.

 

Standing in front of the cell, Nick stared at the former hand, his hazel eyes burning into the other man.  “Where are they, Barrett?”

 

Walking over, Barrett sneered, “I got nothing to say to you.”

 

Holding the bars with his leathered hands, Nick shrugged, “Fine, then you can answer to the circuit judge about two counts of murder.”

 

“What are you talking about!  I didn’t murder anyone!” snapped Barrett, sweat making his forehead shiny.  “Are you crazy or something?”

 

Nick saw the uneasiness in the brown eyes and smiled, “Hiriam and Heath Thomson are missing.  You’re the only other person who was at the Miller house, Barrett.  Think on that!”

 

Jarrod schooled his features to prevent his smile at Nick’s words from breaking through, admiration flared in his blue eyes.  He could see Barrett weighing the options in his mind carefully.  Up to now, all he’d done was assault Heath and nothing else.

 

Jarrod snorted, “Come on, Nick.  Let’s talk to Phil Archer about the charges.”

 

Barrett’s face paled and he felt his stomach rise up at the thought of murder charges.  “I didn’t do anything!  You can’t do that!”

 

Low for only Barrett’s ears to hear, Nick replied, “I can do what I want - I’m Nick Barkley.  If I say it’s to be, you’ll hang, Barrett.  Course, I might let the boys get a hold of you first.  You know how they feel about Heath.”

 

“You need a body to prove murder!” stammered Barrett, a surge of hope rising within him at the thought.  He almost jumped out of his skin from the scream piercing the outer office.

 

“Sheriff!  Sheriff!” exclaimed a frantic Melinda Rankin.  “Timmy found a body in the woods.”

 

Fred hurried to the outer office to speak with the boy and mother.   Nick and Jarrod turned their heads back to stare at the former hand, their eyes cold and accusing.

 

“It wasn’t me!” pleaded Barrett, his eyes wide in his perspiring face.  “You gotta believe me!  I didn’t kill anyone!”

 

“Com’n Jarrod.  Time to talk to Phil.” stated Nick turning and walking away.

 

“WAIT!  WAIT!  The north line shack!  That’s where they planned to take them!” shouted Barrett.  “I know they have the old man.  I was supposed to take care of bringing your brother.  I don’t know where he is, maybe they got him.  I don’t know!”

 

“Who?” grilled Jarrod.

 

“That Pierson woman and a man named Benton.” stammered Barrett, fear of hanging by the courts or the Barkley crew running through him.  “I didn’t murder anyone.  I’m sure they’re still alive.”

 

Grabbing Barrett through the bars, Nick yanked the man towards him, “For your sake, they better be or I’ll rip you apart myself with my bare hands.”

 

Nick and Jarrod mounted and lead the men out of town towards the far outlying cabin while Fred and Billy had the grisly task of searching the body uncovered from the shallow grave, found by Timmy as he walking home from playing in the woods with a friend and his dog.

 

Pulling out the wallet, Fred walked away from the smell and read the name out loud with a lit match.  The gasp from Melinda Rankin turned his attention to her.

 

“That’s the name of the attorney who came with Hiriam from Virginia.” explained Melinda, relieved it wasn’t either Heath or Hiriam.  “He was supposed to have left town because his mother was sick.”

 

“Two missing family members and a dead attorney.” said Fred with a shake of his head.  “Billy, you take care of the body.  I gotta catch up with Nick and Jarrod.”

 

 

Chapter 43

 

Hiriam sat in a chair at the table.  His eyes not leaving the blonde across the room laying on the floor whose eyes had not left the two captors.  The sapphire eyes were slightly closed to diminish the penetration of light into the pupils, hoping to lessen the daggers of pain the light caused.

 

His head pounding, Heath struggled to keep the man and woman in sight.  His tied hands behind him striving to reach the knife hanging in the sling between his shoulder blades, the hilt a mere inches away.  Waking from his unconscious state brought along with it confusion and anger at the position he and the older man were in.

 

The familiar brown eyes reflected relief and concern when he saw them upon his own opening.  He thought he’d seen a look of love also, but his mind couldn’t fathom the reason for such an emotion from the man.

 

Benton seeing Heath was awake grabbed Hiriam and set him in a chair at the table.  The chocolate eyed woman placed a paper and pen on the table in front of Hiriam.

 

Leaning over the table, Benton sneered, “Write it or he dies.”

 

Hiriam placed his hands on the table, “No, Benton.”

 

“I’m warning you old man.  I’ll cut him from ear to ear.” threatened Benton, kneeling by Heath and tilting his chin up with the sharp blade of his knife.  “Or would you prefer a slow death for your grandson.  A quick slash of his stomach, deep enough to let his insides spill out a little and then he’ll slowly bleed to death.  Or perhaps he could die a death of a thousand cuts?”

 

Heath frowned at the word ‘grandson’, his mind not registering how this Benton thought he was the man’s grandson.  Hiriam’s face paled at the possible damage the knife could infect with minimal effort. 

 

Blake took the knife from Heath’s chin and deftly sliced his bruised cheek open, blood seeped from the wound, down the strong face and unto his shirt.   Flinching from the cut, Heath clenched his jaw tightly against the pain, his eyes burning with fury. 

 

Benton laughed and walked back to the table.  Heath’s fingers grasped the tip of the knife handle and he shifted slightly to adjust his arms.  “Mister, you made a big mistake, I got no grandfather.  You have the wrong man.”

 

Benton and Sheila turned to look at the blonde man on the floor, their eyes puzzled by the former marshal’s statement.  Hiriam’s brown eyes worried over Heath’s words, the sincerity of truth in his voice rang out clear to him. 

 

The memory of a shipmate with a concussion suffering memory loss thrust itself forward in his thoughts and grabbed at his heart.  Heath sported a bandage wrapped around his head.  ‘He doesn’t remember!’ shouted the older man’s mind.

 

Blake smiled, “Nice try, Thomson.  For a minute, I almost believed you.”

 

The black eyes lightened with amusement, then turned to confusion when Heath stated firmly, “I don’t lie.  That man is not my grandfather.  Threatening me to get whatever it is you want will not accomplish anything.”

 

Heath looked into the brown eyes of the older man and smiled, “Don’t do what they want, I’m a dead man anyways.”

 

“Yes, I believe we both are, Heath.” replied Hiriam quietly, admiration of his grandson’s bravado in the face of certain death reflected in his brown eyes. 

 

Sheila headed to the window and glanced out into the darkness. 

 

“Blake, what if Barrett talked?  The law could be on the way here now.” whispered Sheila in her partner’s ear.  “We should get out of here.”

 

“Dammit, Sheila.  We have to finish this – we’ve come too far.” shouted Blake angrily. 

 

“If you leave Heath here, alive, I’ll go with you.” offered Hiriam, the only recourse he could see to save his grandson from the evil he brought with him from Virginia.

 

“What are you doing?” yelled Heath in a stunned voice.  “They’re not gonna let either of us live, no matter what!  Listen to me!”

 

“SHUT UP!” screamed Sheila. 

 

Turning back to Hiriam, she smiled, “You sign the will first, then we’ll leave.”

 

Shaking his head, Hiriam stated, “No.  We leave and I’ll sign whatever you want when we get to the Nevada border past Strawberry.”

 

‘Strawberry’ resonated throughout Heath’s mind, a myriad of flashes assaulted him, his eyes closed briefly to stem the kaleidoscope of memories.  Hiriam watched the closing of the blue eyes after hearing the word, Strawberry and saw the slight tilt of Heath’s head. 

 

“You’d best decide before his brothers, Nick and Jarrod Barkley, show up.” insisted Hiriam loudly, glancing over quickly to his grandson to catch his reaction to the names.

 

Heath’s face tensed as the throbbing in his head increased, the faces flashing quickly in his mind, taking his breath away.  His hands pulled out the knife and he moved the blade down in between his fingers.  The faces flashed, voices filled his head, echoing throughout, deafening everything else.

 

The pain in his head overriding everything and he could feel his weakened body threatening to give into the darkness again.  Opening his eyes, he struggled to keep himself awake amidst the turmoil his mind was creating.

 

Glancing upward, his pained blue eyes gazed into the brown orbs and pleaded for forgiveness before he felt himself lose the struggle.

 

 

Chapter 44

 

The darkness is a comforting blackness which surrounds a person like a blanket.  The darkness of night frees a person’s soul, relaxing it as one stands hidden from the eyes of the world, the moon and stars above responsible for making one feel inconsequential among the vastness of the sky. 

 

The darkness of night is a world all of it’s own, it has it’s own sounds, it’s own odors, it’s own life.  It covers the land for only a short period of time each day and, yet, is capable of making a strong impression in that period of time.  It can be a time of peaceful slumber or the time of unwanted nightmares.

 

To the determined group of men headed through the darkness of the night towards a destination – it was a time of fear.   Fear of the unknown when they reached their goal.  Fear of the condition the missing men would be in, if in fact they were at the destination at all.  The group fought with their minds, fighting to stay positive and away from dark, terrifying thoughts which threatened to swallow them as they rode.

 

Topping a small hill, the group reined in their mounts, all eyes seeing the light beckoning them from the windows of the Barkley line shack.  It was a spot of yellow in the blackness on the horizon.  The moon on this night was only a sliver of itself, not allowing for much light to fall on the earth from it’s royal position in the sky.

 

“Duke and Joe, stay here with the horses.” ordered Nick climbing down and taking off the jingling spurs from his boots.  “We should be able to get close before they know we’re here.”

 

The others followed the lead of the man in the clothes which matched the darkness, the man searching for the other half of his soul.  Slowly, the group crept closer to the cabin which encased the yellow light, spreading out and surrounding the shack of wood.  Peering in the one window of the building, Scotty motioned with a sideways shake of his head.  Leaning over, he whispered into Nick’s ear, “I don’t see anyone from the window.”

 

Nodding, Nick stood to the side and turned the knob on the door.  Pushing it open, the door fell open.  Peering around the door frame, Nick’s quick glance showed an empty room and his heart fell to his feet.  Stepping through the door, a strong arm wrapped itself around his neck, cutting off his supply of air and his gun was taken out of his right hand. 

 

“Move and I’ll blow your head off.” were the words growled low in his ear causing Nick’s stomach to twist viciously.  Dr. Merar was right – Heath’s head injury was confusing him. 

 

Jarrod entered the small cabin and froze at the sight of Heath holding a gun to his big brother’s head.  Heath’s eyes were narrowed, watching Jarrod intently, his hand holding the gun shook slightly.  Jarrod’s quick glance took in the pallor and blood on his face, the pained eyes. 

 

“HEATH!” urged Jarrod, his hands in the air.  “Don’t shoot, Heath!  It’s Nick and Jarrod.”

 

Jarrod’s words rang out into the darkness.  Fred ran to the door and called in, “Marshal Thomson!  It’s Sheriff Maden from Stockton.  I’m coming in, don’t shoot.”

 

Putting his gun in it’s holster, Fred walked in and nodded, “Marshal, you can let him go.  He’s not one of them.”

 

“Okay, sheriff.  Sorry about that, sir.” apologized Heath.

 

The pistol lowered and Nick gulped in air when his throat was released.  Waving off Jarrod’s concerns, Nick turned, grabbed the gun from the lowered hand and growled angrily,  “Boy, you’re lucky you’re hurt or I’d spank you with this pistol, Mr. Cantankerous!”

 

Nick’s angry glare turned to concern when Heath flinched and leaned against the wall.  His hands holding his head, fighting the pain the memory flashes were causing, he slid to the floor when his legs gave out.

 

Nick and Jarrod dropped to kneel in front of their brother, his moan of pain tearing into them.  Reaching over, Nick grabbed the strong arms, his voice frantic with concern.

 

“Heath!  What is it?  Heath?”

 

The blonde head slowly raised and the eyes blinked rapidly, his breaths were coming in gasps.  Tentatively, his hand reached upwards towards the tanned cheek and Heath tilted his head slightly. 

 

“I know you somehow, don’t I?” whispered Heath, his eyes pained and confused. 

 

“Yes, you know all of us.” confirmed Jarrod softly.  “Heath, where’s Hiriam?”

 

Closing his eyes, Heath grimaced, “I’m not sure.”

 

“Take your time, Heath.” replied Nick softly squeezing the strong shoulder, frowning at the shaky hand which wiped the blood off the cut cheek.  “Who cut you, boy?”

 

“Benton.” whispered Heath, his eyes looking into the hazel ones reflected a moment of clarity.  “Nevada. That’s where they took him. Nevada.”

 

“When did they leave Heath?” asked Jarrod.  “Do you remember?”

 

Trying to organize his thoughts, Heath squeezed his forehead against the pain.  “Not long, I’m not sure.  Sorry, it’s not clear.”

 

“That’s okay, Heath.  We’ll find him.” smiled Nick. 

 

Looking up, Heath’s eyes stared at the sight of the man leaning over the owner of the hazel eyes.  Jarrod glanced toward where Heath was staring, his eyes taking in Nick kneeling and Scotty leaning over the back of him. 

 

The picture to Jarrod was reminiscent of the day the hand, Scotty, had brought the injured Nick in front of him on his horse, albeit, minus the horse and the blood on Nick’s head. 

 

“They’ll kill him.  Grandfather, he’ll be dead.” 

 

Gasping for air, Heath struggled to stand, pushing away the hands of the men in front of him, his efforts only earning him a fall into the cushiony darkness.

 

 

Chapter 45

 

Benton knelt by the former marshal, lifting his head and grinning at the unconscious man.  Taking out his knife, he relished in the apprehension showing in the brown eyes staring at him and his prey.  Slowly he slid the blade of the knife softly across Heath’s neck while Sheila laughed at the action.

 

“Please if you leave Heath here, I will sign whatever you want.” restated Hiriam, his voice pleading, worried eyes resting on his unconscious grandson’s form.  His only thought now was to keep the young man safe and get him out of the hands of these two vile people.

 

Sheila looked over at Benton who nodded and released his hold on the blonde hair, “Okay, but you better not try anything, old man.  Let’s go.”

 

Benton pulled Hiriam to his feet and tied his hands behind him while Sheila held a pistol pointed at him to prevent any sudden movements.  Walking him outside, Benton put the older man in the saddle. 

 

Sheila stood back from the men, the gun steady in her small hand.  When Benton walked back, he stopped near her, Hiriam watching every movement, afraid they would go back into the cabin and kill his unaware grandson.

 

“If he’s alive, he could positively identify us.  Then the will’s no good.” whispered Sheila.  “We have to finish him off.”

 

“When we get to that deserted farmhouse Barrett showed me, I’ll sneak back and finish him off.  We need to keep him thinking his grandson’s still alive.” advised Benton. “As long as he thinks he is, he’ll sign the will.”

 

Nodding, Sheila handed him the gun and smiled, “You think of everything.”

 

“I try.” smirked Benton helping Sheila up behind the older man.  “You two will have to ride together til we can get another horse.”

 

“Dammit, do you have to torture me, too?   Couldn’t you just kill me now?” requested Hiriam, his voice dripping with disgust.

 

Handing the reins over, Blake chuckled at Sheila’s angry cursing at the statement, enjoying the moment of sarcasm from the former sailor.  “Now, that’s not a nice thing to say, Mr. Thomson.”

 

Climbing on his horse, he lead the way to the deserted farmhouse ten miles away, grateful to his jailed partner’s foresight to point out the hiding place two days before.

Within the hour, Hiriam Thomson’s last living relative would be taken care of with the old man being none the wiser.

 

 

Chapter 46

 

Heath slumped over and was caught by Nick’s hands.  Laying him gently on the floor, Nick looked over at Jarrod.

 

“We gotta get him out of here.” stated Nick wiping the cut on the bruised cheek, taking advantage of his still brother to examine his wounds.

 

Fred knelt beside the brothers, “I’ll take the men and start on their trail.  They can’t be that far ahead.”

 

Nodding, Jarrod agreed, “I’ll come with you Fred.  Nick, can you get Heath to Stockton?”

 

“Yeah, I’ll get him to Dr. Merar.”

 

Putting a hand on Nick’s shoulder, Jarrod looked into the hazel eyes, “Nick, you sure you can make it?  You have a head injury yourself, remember.”

 

Nick winked, “I promise not to pass out til our little brother is safe in Stockton.”

 

Jarrod stared intently into the hazel eyes, scrutinizing his other brother until he received a deep growl, “I’m okay, Jarrod.  Just a headache, is all.  You just make sure you bring Hiriam back.”

 

“I will, Nick.” promised Jarrod motioning to Scotty. 

 

Between the two of them, they brought Heath outside and lifted him onto Nick’s saddle.  Mounting, Nick wrapped his arms around the unconscious man and pulled him back against him. 

 

Looking down at Jarrod, Nick warned, “Be careful, Jarrod.”

 

Squeezing the black jeaned leg, Jarrod nodded, “I will, Nick.  When you get to Stockton, why don’t you wire Jack Larkin.  He may be able to send some marshals from Nevada to intercept them.”

 

Nick grinned, “Good thinking, Jarrod.  I’ll wake Mr. Foster up after Heath is settled in.”

 

Jarrod watched his departing brothers before climbing on Jingo and heading out with Fred and the rest of the men. 

 

Nick held on tightly to his unconscious brother, the blonde head resting against his shoulder, his forehead against his jaw.  Nick’s own head was pounding from the day’s activities, but he couldn’t imagine how Heath was functioning with the confusion shrouding his mind.

 

The pain in the ocean colored eyes had torn at his heart but not as much as knowing Heath wasn’t sure who he or Jarrod was.  He’d been wiped from his little brother’s memory as easily as one would wipe a chalk board in school. 

 

Blinking the tears away which welled up in his eyes, Nick sighed and placed a kiss on the blonde’s forehead, his voice cracked with emotion. 

 

“Heath, I’m not giving up on you remembering me and our family. You were gone from us for twenty four years and you’re not going again!  Not if I have anything to say about it.”

 

“You came to Stockton as a member of the United States Marshal Service.  You drug Luke Croker here for murdering our Father.  I don’t think I ever told you about the first time I knew you were my brother.  It was when Jarrod thanked you after you pulled Croker into the office and you pushed your hat up.”

 

Heath shifted slightly in his arms and Nick held his breath, hoping to hear the drawl of his name from his brother’s lips.  Heath mumbled slightly but didn’t waken.  Sighing, Nick continued his walk through his memories.

 

“Well, when you pushed your hat up, we were both shocked at Father’s eyes looking back at us.  That was the day you entered our lives, the day everything changed for the better in my life, our lives.  I can’t imagine you not by my side everyday, little brother.  I won’t imagine it.”

 

“We love you, Heath.  I promise I’ll do whatever I can to help you remember us.  We’d be lost without you.  Not only us, but what about Melinda and the kids.  Man, don’t make me tell them you don’t remember, Heath.  I don’t think I’m strong enough to look into her eyes and say it.”

 

Tears spilled out onto the tanned cheeks of the chiseled face, honed by the wind and elements, the strong profile of the man breaking down at the prospect of losing one who walked by his side, fought with him, laughed with him and returned love given to him tenfold.

 

After securing Hiriam Thomson, Benton departed the farmhouse by the back door and left the man under Sheila’s watchful eyes.  He watched the large group of riders pass him in the dark of the night.  Waiting for several minutes, he rode back to the line shack. 

 

Seeing the empty room, he frowned and then realized the former marshal was more than likely on his way back to Stockton.  He was in no condition to ride and would’ve needed assistance to make it back to the doctor.

 

The first light of the day was only a couple hours away, time was of the essence now.  Climbing upon his horse, he urged the tired animal to a gallop riding as the crow flies back to Stockton.

 

 

Chapter 47

 

A sucker - they say there’s one born every minute or so Hiriam had heard.  Laying on the filthy floor in a bedroom of the farmhouse, smelling of rotting wood, mold and rodents – he knew he could be categorized as one of those suckers. He’d been suckered in by his loyal secretary, his eyes not seeing the real evil beneath the surface of beauty.   How could someone you took in from the cruel world turn on you because of money?  Greed was such a disgusting trait for a person to possess. 

 

Now, his grandson and he were destined to be killed.  Shaking his head, he worked at the ropes which bound his hands behind him, his legs tied together at the ankles.  Hiriam was under no elusions – Benton and Sheila could not afford to leave Heath alive. 

 

The will he’d be forced to sign would be no good with the former marshal alive to dispute it’s validity.  He hoped his deal with the two had given Heath’s brothers or even a complete stranger time to find him and take the boy to Stockton.  It had been a desperate attempt and the only way he could think to leave Heath behind and alive.

 

The ropes cut into his wrists the more he struggled with them.  Sighing, he lay his head on the floor and tried to ignore the pain in his arms and shoulders.  Being trussed up like a thanksgiving turkey was frustrating.  The brown eyes stared at the wall, showing a flicker of defeat. 

 

Hope seeped out of him at his inability to free himself from his bonds.  If he wanted to live, he had to get free and away from his captors.  The further away from Stockton they rode, the less likely his chances of survival. 

 

God, how he wanted to spend the rest of his life being a grandfather to Heath.  He missed out on the lives of his own children as they grew and came to adulthood.  He didn’t want to miss out on seeing Heath married and with children of his own in the future.  A great grandfather – what a wonderful title that would be to live up to and hear being spoken by little voices.

 

A smile graced the exhausted face, his thoughts of Heath sending a surge of adrenaline through him.  Taking a deep breath, he tried to free his wrists again, the blonde man’s face firmly in his mind as he ignored the pain of the ropes biting into his skin, cutting his skin by the slight wetness he felt trickling down his fingers.

 

Working the ropes, his body shifted slightly and his brown eyes widened with delight.  Moving his knees up, he rolled over and knelt on them.  Clenching his jaw, he tried to make his way closer to the wall.  His sixty year old knees protesting each small shuffle as he made his way towards the wall and the squared large nail which stood out from the boards.

 

The nail jutted out approximately fifteen inches from the floor.  He felt his heart pounding wildly when he reached the spot he had worked for, the sweat beading up on his forehead from the exertion.  Leaning against the wall, he felt for the nail and found it after several tries.  Lifting his wrists, he ran the rope across the nail in a seesawing motion, thankful the piece of metal was holding firm in the wall.

 

He didn’t know how much time passed before he felt the rope give slightly.  He was so focused on his efforts, he’d lost track of everything else.  The slight loosening of the bonds surged him forward with an abundance of energy.  Repeating his movement, he moaned quietly with pleasure when he was able to slip his right hand free of the bonds. 

 

Rubbing his wrists to restart the circulation in his hands, he untied the ropes on his ankles and tentatively stood.  His legs were wobbly, his back and shoulders sang with pain, his knees hurt like hell from kneeling the whole time – it was well worth it.

 

Walking to the window at the end of the room, he grabbed the frame and lifted.  The frame wouldn’t budge from it’s track.  Taking a deep breath and letting it out slowly, he tried again.  This time he bent at the knees and pushed upwards with legs and arms.  A creaking sound echoed through the room when the window moved upwards a few inches, the night air filtering into the small room.  Hiriam welcomed the clean burst of air, it’s odor filling his senses and taking away the smell of his temporary prison.

 

Sheila sat at the table drinking a cup of coffee, waiting impatiently for Blake to return.  A faint sound caught her ears from the bedroom where Hiriam was bound.  Stepping over to the door, she put her head against the door and listened.  The noise sounded again from inside.  Reaching down, she turned the key in the lock and slowly opened the door.

 

Entering the room, she saw the ropes on the floor and the opened window.  Hearing a noise, she jumped to the side.  Hiriam’s hands missed grabbing Sheila when she jumped to the side.  He saw her hand turn the gun and he grabbed a hold of her wrists.

 

“Drop it!” demanded Hiriam tightening his hold on her wrists and she cried out in pain from the pressure.

 

Stepping on his instep viciously, Hiriam howled from her booted foot’s action.  Biting his hand, she brought her knee up into his groin and felt his legs buckle.  Hiriam’s vision blurred from the blow and his mind took a moment to register her hands turning the gun towards him. 

 

Quickly turning her hand away from him, he jumped when the pistol discharged and her eyes widened with fear before she slumped to the floor, blood spreading across her shirt, her lifeless brown eyes staring up at the ceiling.

 

Staggering over to sit on the only chair in the room, Hiriam gasped from his pained body and stared at the dead woman.  Realizing Benton hadn’t entered the room, Hiriam took the pistol out of her limp hand and rushed outside to the horse.  There was only one place Benton would have gone to and left Sheila behind.

 

Mounting, he turned the animal towards the line shack and encouraged the horse to run at top speed with a kick.  Rounding a corner, Hiriam pulled up sharply, preventing a near collision with the mounted men who appeared suddenly in front of him.

 

Jarrod shouted, “Hiriam!”

 

“Jarrod, we gotta get back to the line shack.  Benton’s gonna kill Heath!” exclaimed Hiriam.

 

“Heath’s on his way to Stockton with Nick.” stated Jarrod.  “What about Sheila Pierson?”

 

“She’s dead.” informed Hiriam.

 

Fred nodded, “Let’s ride hard boys, I don’t like the thought of this Benton running around with Nick trying to get Heath back to doc’s place.”

 

The quiet night air was broken and filled with the sound of galloping hooves, the men pushing their horses on, the fate of two relatives, two friends, two brothers lingering in their minds.

 

 

Chapter 48

 

The air around the two riders on the single horse was quiet save for the plodding of the hooves.  Nick's voice was almost hoarse from the nonstop talking in Heath’s ear, taking advantage of the ride to help his unaware brother sort through the memories clouding his mind, laying out his life since Nick had come to call him brother.  His throat strained from the emotions he strived to keep controlled as he held his brother in front of him. 

 

His arm across Heath’s stomach felt his muscles tightening before the sickness welled up from within the blonde.  Stopping Coco, he leaned Heath to the left and tried to offer comfort as the retching changed to dry heaves.

 

Moaning, Heath felt his face being wiped and strong arms holding him.  He fought to open his eyes, the strength coming from deep within him.

 

“Nick?”  the painful word barely reached the older man’s ears.

 

“I’m right here, little brother.” assured Nick, choking back a sob of happiness at his whispered name. “I got ya’.”

 

Heath’s head rolled against the strong shoulder, his words mumbled, his voice weak.  “Knife…back.”

 

“What?” exclaimed Nick anxiety grabbing his heart at the idea he’d missed the damage.  “You were stabbed in the back?”

 

“Take..out..sling.” groaned Heath, the shaft of the knife digging into his back.  “Hurts.”

 

Nick reached under Heath’s vest and pulled the knife out of it’s home, thrusting it into Heath’s right boot and smiled at the small sigh of relief which escaped from the blonde. 

 

“Don’t scare me like that, Heath.” growled Nick, reaching over to cup his brother’s cheek. 

 

“Tired.” groaned the smaller man.  “Head...hurts.”

 

“I know it hurts, boy.  We’re almost to town.” soothed Nick softly before asking.  “Heath, do you remember me as your, uh, brother.  The good looking one?”

 

“Old..one...twit..brain.” whispered Heath before he passed out and sank back.

 

Chuckling, Nick wrapped his arms around his brother, hugging him and planting a kiss on the warm forehead while his tears of gratitude fell.  Nudging Coco forward, he headed towards the light flickering from the town. 

 

Stopping in front of Dr. Merar’s, Nick dismounted carefully and slid Heath down into his arms.  Carrying him up the stairs, he kicked the door open and entered, calling loudly for the family physician.

 

Howard jumped up from where he’d fallen asleep on the waiting room couch.  His eyes opening wide at the man in Nick’s arms.  “Heath!”

 

Howard held the door to a room open, Nick passed him and laid his unconscious brother on the bed as directed.  “He woke a little while ago and then passed out again.  He remembers me!”

 

Howard smiled widely at the joy in Nick’s face, the tracks of the man’s tears clear for him to see.  “That’s good, Nick.  That’s real good. Can you turn up the lamp, I want to examine him.”

 

Nick turned up the flame and stood on the other side of the bed, his hand holding Heath’s left one.  His grip firm on the limp hand, not wanting to lose physical contact with his little brother.

 

Howard felt Heath’s forehead and shook his head.  Opening his shirt, he undid the bandage, his eyes unable to see any redness circling around the stitched wounds due to the deep bruising from the encounter with Barrett.  Skillfully his hands felt the lump on the back of Heath’s head, rewrapping the bandage.  Taking a suave out of his bag, he put it on the chafing and carefully wrapped a bandage around each wrist.

 

“Other than the cut on his cheek, the chafing and a slight fever, he’s about the same.” stated Howard.  “What about Hiriam, Nick?”

 

Shaking his head, Nick gruffed, “He wasn’t at the line shack when we got there.  Heath said they were taking him to Nevada.  Jarrod, Fred and the men went after him.”

 

Nodding, Howard smiled, “You look beat Nick.  How about you get some rest?  You can sleep in that bed over there.”

 

Wiping a hand across his face, Nick looked up, “I have to wake Mr. Foster and send a wire to Jack Larkin first.  Then I’ll come back and get some rest.”

 

“Okay, Nick.  Let me get you a glass of headache powder before you go.” suggested Howard turning before any protest could be made.  “Be right back.”

 

Nick ran his fingers down his brother’s uncut cheek and leaned over.  “Heath, you’re at doc’s office.  I’ll be back after I send a wire, little brother.”

 

Howard handed a glass to the brother some would characterize as loud and hell-bent as he strode through life seemingly as he owned the world, but Dr. Merar and a few others had seen the gentleness, soft like a butterfly’s wing coming out in the man by means of caring, deep emotion and hands gentle as a summer breeze when those held in his large heart were hurt or threatened.

 

Nick drank the glass of concoction and squeezed Heath’s hand one last time, his eyes burning while he ran them over his brother once again, almost afraid to leave him, wondering if Heath’s moment of clarity would turn back into cloudiness.

 

“I’ll watch over him for you, Nick.  Go send your wire.” assured Howard softly, his words receiving a nod from the now uncharacteristic quiet man who hesitated for just a moment before leaving the room.

 

 

Chapter 49

 

Blake Benton arrived in Stockton in time to see Nick Barkley enter the physician’s office with Heath Thomson in his arms.  Benton walked around the building in the shadow of the late night, his eyes seeing the raised flame in a back window.  Stepping up to the window, he peered in from the side, unable to see the injured man.  His eyes caught sight of the other two men and the tan panted legs lying on the bed.

 

He couldn’t get a shot from the window, he’d have to find another way.  Heading back to the front of the building, he pondered his choices while he watched from across the street.  The choice was made for him when Nick Barkley left the office and headed down the street towards town on his horse.  Waiting until he couldn’t see the back of Nick, Benton walked across the street and quietly entered the building. 

 

“Go west, young man” were the words heard by the younger version of Howard Merar some years before on the east coast of the United States.  These four simple words spoken by a New Yorker were the catapult which started the man and his new bride, Helen, on a trip across the great country.  The trip ended in California where he resided today.

 

The younger Dr. Howard Merar, recently graduated from the Harvard Medical School, heard the words and obeyed the urging of his wanderlust spirit deep within him.  He grew up on the streets of Boston, worked his way through school and graduated with honors.  He had made himself into what he was today with tenacity and hard work.

 

In his time, he’d seen his share of violence in the world around him.  He’d held a weapon in his hands throughout his travels, but never found the need to use one or the desire.  With everything he’d seen, he, himself, had never been a victim of any act of violence nor partook in any such act against another human being. 

 

Perhaps as he grew into adulthood, it had to do with the fact he was a physician.  Often times, he was the only physician in an area and scarcity of his profession dictated he was considered more valuable than gold.  Gold couldn’t set your bones, take out a bullet or operate to save your life.  He and his wife lived a rather peaceful life in a land settled and built by violence.

 

These thoughts quickly ran through his mind after he felt a pistol shoved into his ribs and a deep low voice whispered, “Don’t turn around.”

 

Obeying, Howard, glad his wife was staying with the concerned Melinda Rankin, asked, “What do you want from me?”

 

“Your patient, Heath Thomson.” smirked Benton.

 

Anger surged within Howard at the threat and he stated, “He’s not here.”

 

Jabbing the gun viciously into the ribs again, Benton growled, “I saw his brother carry him in.  Now move!”

 

“He’s unconscious.  He can’t do anything to you.” informed Howard, finding he was wishing for the first time in his life he was a man of violence.

 

“He doesn’t need to be awake for what I’m gonna do.” stated Benton coldly.  “If you don’t move, I’ll blow a hole right through you.”

 

Howard hesitantly moved down the hallway, assessing in his mind how long Nick had been gone, realizing he wouldn’t return in time.  The telegraph operator, Mr. Foster, lived on the other side of town past the telegraph office.  Getting there, waking the man up, going to the telegraph office and sending a wire – too much to accomplish in the short time Nick’d been gone.

 

Howard’s steps felt as if they were made on leaden legs, his feet feeling as if they were giant boulders.  His mouth was dry and his back was ramrod straight in anticipation of a bullet’s path into his body.

 

Howard entered the room where Heath lay unaware and turning quickly towards the unknown man, he never saw the fist which connected with his jaw.  The physician’s body turned over a chair as he fell and landed on the floor. 

 

The clanging of the chair meeting the hardwood floor reached Heath’s ears.  Moaning softly, he turned his head and slowly opened his eyes.  Blake looked up from his kneeled position beside the unconscious physician.  The opening of the blue eyes greeted him and he stood up. 

 

Reaching the side of the bed in two steps, Blake saw the startled eyes as awareness flooded into them.  Holding his knife to the blonde’s throat, Blake smiled, “You first, then  your grandfather.”

 

The color in the sapphire eyes seemed to change as Blake stared into them.  A shiver quivered his spine from the coldness in them.  The sound of a groan from the floor distracted Benton and his arm was pulled away, his wrist twisted, the hold on the knife lost from the quick movement.

 

Grabbing the strong wrist, Heath twisted and heard the knife fall onto the floor.  His lack of power not enough to break the thick wrist.  Frantic, he swung a fist before rolling off the bed, away from his attacker and onto the floor. 

 

Benton jumped over the bed and felt the blade cut across his biceps from Heath’s quick slash.  Ignoring the pain, he grabbed the injured blonde and tossed him.  Meeting the unforgiving wall, Heath fell to the floor and lay still. 

 

Taking out his gun, Benton pointed and squeezed the trigger.  The air whooshed out of his lungs from the force of the blow to his back and he was pushed headlong into the wall. 

 

Stunned, Benton was disarmed and turned.  His body came to know the full rage and strong protectiveness by the bull of the Barkley family.    Nick’s leathered hands made short work of the man, sending him into oblivion. 

 

His burst of expelled energy left Nick gasping for air.  Falling to his knees, he turned his little brother onto his back.

 

“Heath?  Heath!” called Nick tapping the blonde’s cheek.  “Com’on, boy!  Talk to me!”

 

Heath heard the voice calling him and tried to respond.  His eyes shifted beneath his lids but he couldn’t find the strength to open them and moaned softly.  Nick watched while Heath struggled to heed his wish.  Leaning over, he placed his ear by the moving lips and strained to hear the whisper while his hand was weakly squeezed.

 

“Get..him..Nick?”

 

Squeezing the tan shoulder, Nick stated, “Got him, Heath.”

 

“Thanks.” whispered Heath, his hand falling limp and he relaxed in the safe haven of his brother’s presence.

 

Picking Heath up, Nick laid him back on the bed as Jarrod, Hiriam and Fred entered the room.  Fred and Hiriam helped a waking Howard to his feet.  Pointing to the beaten man lying on the floor, Nick gruffed, “I believe that’s Benton.”

 

Hiriam verified the man’s identity and Fred handcuffed him.  Nick brushed his hand through the blonde hair and whispered, “Too close, little brother.  Way too close.”

 

Jarrod wrapped his arms around his shaking brother and hugged him tightly.  Nick welcomed the strength from Pappy, his emotions reeling at how close it’d been, not sure what had made him return suddenly to the physician’s home. 

 

Jarrod released him and Hiriam held the taller man by the shoulders, his eyes full of unshed tears.  “Thank you, Nick.  Thank you.”

 

Nodding, Nick looked at Hiriam with confusion, “Where’d you come from?”

 

Hiriam smiled,  “Time for explanations later.  Now, I think we could all use some peace and quiet.”

 

 

Chapter 50

 

Jarrod and Nick stood watch over their sleeping brother until their mother and sister arrived.  Howard, sporting a bruised jaw, updated his anxious friend on her son’s condition.

 

Howard warned the family Heath’s confusion may not be thoroughly cleared up yet.  His concussion would still affect him for one to two weeks with headaches, dizziness, nausea and black outs.  Heath was sleeping deeply, his body giving in and working to heal itself.

 

Hiriam was at the hotel, the older man’s pained body demanded healing sleep.  The news of Ted Folcom’s murder, saddening and infuriating the older man.  He was angry at himself for not seeing what was in front of his eyes, angry at the demon that had driven Sheila Pierson to murder and kidnapping.

 

Blake Benton was a resident of the Stockton jail with his former partner, Barrett.  Hiriam informed Fred where Sheila Pierson’s body could be found and the sheriff planned to bring it back to town tomorrow.  Before heading home, Fred handed the puzzled Jarrod two lists of names. 

 

“When Heath wakes up, tell him he was right about how to find out who shot you, Nick.” smiled Fred tipping his hat and heading out the door.

 

Jarrod and Nick read the lists, their eyes widening at the name of Blake Benton on the list from the war department, five lines down from their brother’s name.

 

“Heath must’ve requested this information when he rode back to town with Fred after you were shot.” stated Jarrod putting the papers in his pocket.

 

Looking at the sleeping man on the bed, Nick growled, “Stubborn and cantankerous.   Jarrod, have you ever known anyone to be so stubborn?”

 

Victoria and Audra snickered while Jarrod choked back his laughter and placed a consoling arm over Nick’s shoulders, “Well, now that you mention it brother Nick – I can think of only one other person.”

 

Glancing into the twinkling blue eyes, Nick gruffed, “Don’t say it, Jarrod!  Let’s go to the hotel.”

 

“That’s a good idea, Nick.  After we escort Mother and Audra to the hotel, I’ll let Melinda know about Heath.” smiled Jarrod offering his arms to his Mother and sister. 

 

Nick lingered by the bedside after the others left the room.  Reaching over, he pulled the blanket up further on Heath’s chest and studied the bruised face, relaxed in sleep and gently squeezed his hand before placing it back on the blanket. 

 

Victoria watched from the doorway, her gray eyes filled with wonder at the deep gentleness in her masculine son.  Walking over, she took his face in her hands and kissed the tears on his cheeks.

 

“Nick, Heath loves you just as deeply.” assured Victoria softly.  “You need to sleep, Nick.  Heath will be needing your strength as he heals.”

 

Nodding, Nick hugged her gently and then allowed his Mother to lead him from the room to the hotel.

 

Two days later, Melinda sat by the bedside, her cheek resting on her fist, elbow on the arm of the chair.  Her green eyes reflected exhaustion, signs from her lack of sleep the past two days.    After Jarrod arrived at her home to let Melinda know of Heath’s safety, Helen Merar graciously offered her assistance with the children, enabling the young woman to await the blonde’s return to consciousness.  The Barkley family had gone to the train station to await the arrival of the youngest son, Eugene. 

 

Heath’s head moved slightly, drawing Melinda’s attention and moving her to the edge of her seat.  The pain in his head was lessened and Heath slowly opened his eyes to look around the room.  He felt as though he’d slept for weeks, the ringing in his ears was gone and his thoughts were clear.

 

His sapphire eyes gazed into the green eyes intently, his heart thundered inside his chest, “Hi, there.”

 

Remembering Dr. Merar’s words about gauging Heath’s level of clarity when he woke, Melinda smiled back, “Hi.  Do you remember how you got here?”

 

Heath’s confusion at her words showed in his eyes, “You mean Stockton?”

 

“No, the doctor’s office.” frowned Melinda.  “Dr. Merar wanted me to ask you that when you woke up.”

 

“Yes, I remember.” sighed Heath pushing himself into a sitting position with Melinda rushing over to assist, placing pillows behind his back and head. 

 

“Thanks.”  Taking a hold of her small hand, Heath whispered, “There is something I don’t remember too clearly, Melinda.”

 

Sitting on the bed, she squeezed his hand, “What’s that Heath?”

 

“I can’t seem to remember what it feels like when you’re near.” replied Heath seriously.

 

Blushing, Melinda smiled, “Is that right?”

 

Releasing her hand, Heath held her arms and pulled her closer.  “Nothing yet.”

 

Melinda giggled while the process was repeated until her lips were a hair’s breath away from his.  Her stomach fluttered wildly and her green eyes sparkled. 

 

“I missed you terribly, Mel.” whispered Heath, his lips leaving a tender kiss on both cheeks.

 

Her breath caught in her throat from the electric touch of his lips and her voice quivered, “And I missed you, Heath.  You need to rest now.”

 

Shaking his head slightly, he grimaced from the movement.  Closing his eyes briefly to stem the bout of dizziness, he reopened them and his blue eyes burned into the green ones.  The emotion in his words caused tears to spring into her eyes.

 

“I didn’t remember Nick or Jarrod.  Grandfather.  The kids.  You!  It was strange, the memories were there but they weren’t.  All because of someone’s greed, you could have been lost to me forever, Melinda.  God, just the thought of it terrifies me.  What if I’d been confused forever?  What if I..”

 

“Shhhh.  Please don’t do this to yourself.  Everything’s okay now, Heath. Shhh.” assured Melinda, stopping his panicked words with her fingers on his lips. 

 

Heath wrapped her in his arms and held on tightly, his body trembling while his whole being burst with emotion.

 

“I love you, Mel.” whispered Heath, thankful for the chance to say the words to the woman who'd stolen his heart.

 

Tears spilled onto her cheeks and she tightened her hold, her whisper filling his heart, “I love you, too.”

 

Heath placed a gentle kiss on her lips.  Pulling her closer, he savored the sweetness of her as it deepened.  Breaking off the kiss, his eyes filled with tears.

 

“Mel, I love the kids, too.”

 

“I know, Heath.” smiled Melinda caressing his cheek softly.  “You need to rest and get well if we’re going to have another picnic anytime soon.”

 

“Our last picnic was a lot of fun.” sighed Heath brushing a stray strand of hair behind her ear.  “Have I told you lately how beautiful you are?”

 

Melinda smiled, “You tell me every time I look into your eyes, Heath.”

 

Heath’s face turned crimson.  “I didn’t know I was that transparent.”

 

Laughing, Melinda squeezed his hand, “How about a bowl of broth?”

 

The look of displeasure on the blonde’s face at the thought of broth for breakfast caused Melinda to giggle as she stood up and winked.  “I’ll be right back.”

 

 

Chapter 51

 

Eugene jumped down from the platform of the passenger car, his bag in his hand.  His eyes swept the boardwalk of the train depot and his blue eyes lit up with happiness.  Waving, he greeted his family with hugs and kisses.

 

“Where’s Heath?” inquired Eugene not seeing the blonde anywhere. 

 

“He’s at Dr. Merar’s.” sighed Nick leading the family to the surrey.

 

“Why?  Is he alright?” exclaimed Gene.

 

Entwining her arm into his, Victoria smiled, “He’ll be fine, Gene.  We can stop and see him on the way to the ranch.  It’s a long story.”

 

Nodding, Gene patted her hand, “Okay, Mother, tell me later.  How is the planning for the big gala?”

 

Nick rolled his eyes and Jarrod chuckled while Audra glared at her two older brothers, “It is not a gala, Eugene.  Just a birthday party.”

 

Smirking, Gene winked to Nick, “Really?  Your birthday is not a gala.  I could’ve sworn I saw a notice in the San Francisco Chronicle which stated the guest list included governors and senators.  They said maybe even the President is coming.”

 

The men laughed and Victoria shook her head when Audra swatted her brother on the arm.  Her shining blue eyes took away the look of anger she was striving for.  “Eugene Barkley, you are as bad as your other brothers!”

 

Gene bowed slightly, “That’s a mighty fine compliment, little sister.  Thank you, Audra.”

 

Sighing loudly with exasperation, Audra accepted Jarrod’s hand into the surrey while Gene helped his Mother.  Nick mounted Coco and lead the way down the street, stopping in front of the physician’s office.

 

At the sound of approaching footsteps, Heath tore his eyes from Melinda’s and smiled widely, “Eugene!  Good to see ya!”

 

Tipping his hat to Melinda, Gene shook Heath’s hand and ran a quick eye over his blonde brother.  “Heath, you look a little worse for wear.  Every time I see you, you’re flat on your back.”

 

Frowning at the laughter from the others, Heath drawled, “Gee, I’m happy to see you, too, college boy.”

 

Chuckling, Gene smiled, “What happened?  Have you been sampling Audra’s cooking again?”

 

Heath held onto his side and moaned, trying to keep his laughter from escaping, “That’s not nice, little brother.  Ouch!”

 

The others smiled when Audra agreed, “Heath’s right.  That is not a nice thing to say, Gene.  I’m sorry I have to invite you just cause you’re related.”

 

Heath winked at Gene and drawled, “Boy howdy, it was funny though, Gene.”

 

Holding out a hand to his advancing sister, Heath pleaded, “I’m injured already Audra.  Go after one of your other brothers!”

 

Her other brothers chuckled and Victoria squeezed Melinda’s hand, green and gray eyes lit up with amusement at the shenanigans from the siblings.  “Now, I do believe you boys have tortured your poor sister enough for one day.  Wouldn’t you agree?”

 

Grinning, the four men exclaimed in unison, “Yes, Mother.”

 

Laying his head back onto the pillow, Heath listened to his shadow.  Melinda tried to keep her attention focused on the plans for Audra’s upcoming party, however, her eyes kept straying to where Heath was listening to Nick.  

 

Nick sat on the side of the bed talking quietly to his blonde brother, glancing every once in a while over to the family, laying out his plans for the ranch until Heath returned.  Glancing upwards, he smiled at the bruised face relaxed once again in sleep.

 

Nick felt a small hand on his shoulder and looked up into Melinda’s green eyes.  Smiling, she whispered, “Sorry, Nick.  Dr. Merar gave him some laudanum before you got here.”

 

Nick smirked, “Bet he didn’t like that too much, huh?”

 

Chuckling softly, she shook her head.  “Not much.”

 

Standing, Nick tousled the blonde hair and smiled, “I gotta get back to work.  Keep an eye on him for me, okay?”

 

Melinda smiled widely, her green eyes flowing with emotion, “That would be my pleasure, Nick.  I’ll take good care of him.”

 

Nick gathered the family members and chased them out of the room.  Stopping at the door, he smiled at the sight of Melinda sitting on the bed and placing a kiss on his sleeping brother’s lips.

 

‘Yep, he’s a goner.  Won’t be long til he’s not a bachelor anymore.’ thought Nick, a smile spread across his tanned face and he left his sleeping brother with his barber. 

 

 

Chapter 52

 

Dressed and looking out the window, Heath was ready to leave, his mind deep in thought.  His week stay with the family physician at it’s end.  Smiling at the sight of the healing man, Howard cleared his throat, startling Heath back to the present.

 

“Morning, doc.” drawled Heath.  “Looks like a beautiful day outside.”

 

Howard grinned, “I bet if it was raining and hailing outside, you’d still think it was beautiful out.”

 

Laughing, Heath shook the man’s hand, “Nothing personal, Dr. Merar, but I do believe you are correct!”

 

Joining Heath in laughter, Howard walked the blonde to the kitchen where his wife was making breakfast.  Sitting at the table with the Merar’s, Heath enjoyed his last meal with the happy couple. 

 

“Mrs. Merar, I’ll sure miss your cooking.” stated Heath.  “Course, if I stay here much longer, I’ll need new clothes for my expanding waistline.”

 

Helen Merar shook her finger at the blonde, “I don’t want to see you except for social reasons, young man.”

 

Shocked, Heath winked, “Mrs. Merar, you’re married!”

 

Helen laughed when Howard sputtered coffee from Heath’s teasing words and received a firm pat on the back, “Sorry bout that, doc.”

 

Catching his breath, Howard took a deep breath, “I’ll have you know, young man, my wife prefers dark hair.  Right, dear?”

 

Helen shrugged, “I don’t believe I’ve ever stated a preference, Howard.”

 

Heath sipped his coffee and winked at the eye rolling physician.  “Will I see you at Audra’s birthday party on Friday night?”

 

“Yes, we’ll be there.” confirmed Howard, eyes narrowing when Heath chuckled.

 

“Planning on dancing?” inquired Heath pushing his empty plate away.

 

“Why?” asked Howard suspiciously.

 

Patting her husband’s arm, Helen smiled, “We love to dance, Heath.”

 

“Really? That’s nice to know.” drawled Heath.

 

“With each other!” stated Howard firmly winking at his wife, his dark eyes filled with laughter.  “We prefer to dance only with each other, right dear?”

 

“I don’t believe I’ve ever stated that preference before either, Howard.” sighed Helen dramatically.  “Since you have all the answers, dear, I will just say goodbye to our  guest.”

 

Standing, Heath pulled out Helen’s chair and smiled shyly when she planted a gentle kiss on his cheek.  Taking his hands, she sighed, “Howard and I will miss you, Heath.  You’re a welcome addition in our house anytime.”

 

“Thank you, Mrs. Merar.” grinned Heath.  Leaning down and whispering loudly, Heath asked, “Save some dances for me, okay?”

 

Howard stood up and pulled Heath by the arm, “Come on, Heath.  Time for you to go back to work.”

 

Laughing, Helen waved to the departing man.  Howard’s angry countenance of a jealous husband not reaching his eyes or being able to stop the laughter which threatened to erupt inside of him.

 

Nick entered the office in time to see Howard shoving Heath’s hat into his hands.  “Bout time you got here, Nick!”

 

Nick stood looking perplexed at the aggravated tone from the physician.  “What’s the matter?”

 

Heath winked, his blue eyes gleaming with mischief when Howard growled, “Your brother is trying to steal my wife.  Time for him to go!”

 

“We can’t have that, now can we?” exclaimed Nick.  “I’d be happy to take him off your hands, doc.  Com’on Heath, we got a ranch to run!”

 

Grinning, Heath shook the hand of the physician enthusiastically, “Thanks again, Dr. Merar!  See ya’ Friday!”

 

Following Nick’s path out the door, Heath’s laughter rang out at the departing call, “Her dance card’s full up Heath!  Remember that come Friday!”

 

Stepping outside on the boardwalk, Heath stopped at the sight of the surrey tied to the hitching rail.  “Where’s Charger?”

 

“Mother said take the surrey.”  smirked Nick, putting his arm across the broad shoulders.  “So, I took the surrey.”

 

“Do you do everything Mother tells you, Nick?” sighed Heath with a quick grin.  

 

“A wise man would little brother.” stated Nick clapping the blonde on the back.  “Do you need help in, Mr. Cantankerous?”

 

Rolling his eyes, Heath mumbled, “Twit brain!”

 

Climbing into the surrey, Nick grabbed the reins and looked over at the blonde.  “You know, Heath, Mother didn’t say how fast we could go.”

 

“Well, Nick.  What are ya’ waiting for?” drawled Heath with a smile.

 

With a loud yell and a snap of the reins, the surrey lurched forward leaving the town in a cloud of dust.  Slowing the horse after a bit, Nick shook his head at the sight of Heath reclining back in the seat, hat over his eyes and his boots propped up on the metal frame.

 

“How’s Melinda?” asked Nick.

 

“Fine, I guess.”

 

Frowning at the response, Nick shrugged and inquired, “What did Timmy say about staying at the ranch for the weekend?”

 

“I didn’t ask Timmy.”

 

Stopping the surrey, Nick looked over and demanded, “What do you mean you didn’t ask him?  You were supposed to!  We talked about this four days ago.”

 

Heath pushed his hat up and glanced into the tan face, “I didn’t see Timmy this week.  I asked Melinda not to bring the kids over to Dr. Merar’s.”

 

“WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?” shouted Nick. 

 

Sitting up on the seat, Heath sighed, “I got my reasons, Nick.  Let’s leave it at that, okay?”

 

“No, it’s not okay!  That kid thinks you’re a hero.  Hell, he’s probably sitting at home wondering why you don’t want to see him.” growled Nick angrily.  “Why would you do that to him?”

 

“IT’S NOT YOUR CONCERN, NICK!” yelled Heath jumping down from the surrey, his stride furious as he walked away.

 

Nick’s anger wouldn’t be calmed and he pulled the surrey to the side of the road.  He quickly caught up to his brother and yanked him around by the arm.

 

“I thought you loved those kids.  How can you treat them like this?” grilled Nick, catching a quick look of anguish in the depths of his little brother’s eyes.

 

“Nick, I don’t want to discuss this right now.” informed Heath pulling his arm out of the iron grip.

 

Holding onto the strong shoulders, hazel eyes bored into the sapphire eyes.  Nick’s voice was strong and filled with concern, “Heath, you can tell me anything.  Don’t you know that?  I’m your brother, that’s what I’m here for.”

 

Nick watched the sapphire eyes lower and Heath shook his head slightly.  “I know, Nick.”

 

“Then what’s happened?  Did you and Melinda have a fight?” inquired Nick, his voice soothing and curious.

 

Shuffling his feet, Heath swallowed the lump in his throat and cleared his throat.  “I shouldn’t have done it, Nick.”

 

“Done what?” puzzled Nick, his breath catching at the emotion in the sapphire eyes.

 

“I broke my own rule and now I don’t think I can handle it.” was the tortured response.

 

“Heath, you’re scaring me.  Just tell me.” urged Nick with a slight shake of the tormented man he had by the shoulders. 

 

Heath stood in his place, his gut twisting in anguish, his mind twirling constantly.  Nick saw the torment and he steeled his heart for whatever could cause such a look.

 

“I love them, Nick.  I do but it wouldn’t be fair to Mel.”

 

“Heath, if you love them, I don’t understand what the problem is.” replied Nick holding Heath by the back of the neck.  “What wouldn’t be fair?”

 

Tears sprang into the sapphire eyes and his voice trembled, “I can’t get it out of my mind, Nick.  It just keeps tormenting me.  I have so many enemies from my past.  I can’t take the chance.  If we married and had kids of our own, they could end up fatherless.  I know what that’s like and I can’t do it.  I just can’t, Nick.”

 

Pulling the blonde into his arms, Nick’s hazel eyes reflected understanding.  Patting the strong back, Nick sighed, “Did you talk to Melinda about this?”

 

“No.” mumbled Heath.  “I tried, Nick.  Every time I look in her eyes, I just can’t get the words out.  The last thing I’d ever want to do is hurt her, but I did anyway.”

 

Looking into the sapphire eyes, Nick stated, “You love her, she loves you.  It’s that simple, little brother.  I can understand why you’re scared but you can’t live your life this way.  You two are so happy together.   I don’t understand why you’re thinking this way now after all these months.”

 

“I guess Gene’s comment about every time he sees me I’m flat on my back started it.” admitted Heath hesitantly, not seeing the steely look in the hazel eyes.  “He’s right, you know.  In the time you’ve known me, how many times have I been hurt?  Almost killed?”

 

“Gene’s an idiot!   He’s not very smart for a college boy!” growled Nick furiously.  “I can’t believe you, Heath!  Are you gonna leave and live like a hermit?  That’s what you have to do, if you don’t want to leave the kids fatherless.  What about the rest of the family?  You could leave us brotherless or Mother without a son!  What about your grandfather?”

 

Heath unconsciously took a step backwards at the face darkened in fury, the words of anger shaking him to the very core. 

 

“You’re going to let a wonderful woman walk away cause of things you have no control over?  You’d hurt her and the kids like that?” accused Nick, his voice loaded with disdain. 

 

“I knew you were stubborn but this I can’t believe!  Nobody lives forever, Heath!” shouted Nick before stalking back to the surrey, leaving his brother staring at him and standing on the side of the road.

 

 

Chapter 53

 

Heath stared while the surrey drove off, his groan of pain not coming from any physical source.  The torment within him had found another innocent bystander to hurt.

 

Nick’s tone of voice and the anger on his face lingered in the air on the wide open road. Pulling his hat further down on his head, he started walking down the road towards the ranch.

 

The sun was shining, the birds were singing but to Heath’s ears all he heard was the disgust in Nick’s shouted words.  Nick, his brother, whom he’d grown close to – almost as if they’d spent their whole life by each other’s side.  The tone in his words cut as sharp as a knife and were twice as painful.  Physical pain could be handled with laudanum, however, for his inner pain there was no modern medicine.

 

The sound of a horse shifted his eyes upward.  The surrey drew wide of him and was expertly turned in a tight circle by the driver.  Stopping by his little brother, Nick stared straight ahead waiting until he felt Heath climb in.

 

Heath boarded the small surrey, glancing at the profile of his still furious brother before they started forward.  Not a word was spoken the remainder of the journey home, the words wouldn’t come to Heath.  Words he sought wanting to dispel the anger he felt radiating off the taller man.

 

Stopping at the house, Heath climbed out and entered through the oak door.  The rest of the family greeted him warmly, he accepted their wishes before excusing himself and heading upstairs to the haven of his room.  His face reflected his inner turmoil, he couldn’t keep it out of his eyes.

 

Nick entered the house and the family immediately grilled him with questions for the reason of the blonde’s retreat into his room.  Deciding the foyer was not the best place to hold this discussion, he pointed to the study.  Closing the door behind the family, he looked at the expectant, questioning faces.

 

“Ask college boy!” growled Nick pointing an index finger at the youngest son.  “IT’S ALL HIS DAMN FAULT!”

 

“Nicholas, your language.” admonished Victoria firmly.

 

Gene looked at his older brother as if he had horns growing out the side of his head, his words were choked when they came out, “Me?  What did I do?”

 

“WHAT DID YOU DO?” repeated Nick.  “You opened your mouth before thinking, college boy!”

 

“Nick, what are you talking about?” demanded Jarrod, pulling Gene behind him and out of the line of fire from the hazel eyes.

 

Pacing to the french doors, Nick sighed deeply and ran his hands through his dark mane.  The rest of the family stared at the dark clothed man, the wait for further explanation seeming to be an eternity.

 

“Nick?” urged Jarrod quietly. 

 

Nodding, Nick turned and wrapped his arms across his chest.  “Heath thinks he made a mistake in courting a woman with kids.  He broke one of his marshal rules and now doesn’t think he can handle it.”

 

Jarrod nodded his understanding while the rest of the family looked at each other curiously.  Only Nick and Heath had been privy to some information in Heath’s past, information he trusted to his brothers one afternoon while fishing.  ‘His marshal rules and his past life’ had been the items for discussion that day.  The Wednesday afternoon the three brothers played hooky from work was the afternoon Jarrod had been fully drawn into Heath’s circle of trusted people.  The circle of people Nick already resided in.

 

“Why is he having second thoughts about Melinda now?” asked Victoria quietly.  “Everyone can see how much they love each other.”

 

The hazel eyes turned accusingly to the bewildered youngest male.  “Because every time Gene sees Heath – he’s flat on his back.”

 

Eugene’s eyes lit up with understanding, “I was only kidding, Nick.  He couldn’t have taken that seriously.”

 

“You may have been Gene, but those words started his mind thinking!  He lay in a bed for a whole week and guess what he thought about.  How many times he’d almost been killed since we’ve known him.  That’s all and now he’s, well, Heath’s scared to death that if he marries and has children.” paused Nick rubbing his hands over his face.

 

“What, Nick?” whispered Audra stunned by the words of her brother.

 

Looking over into his blonde sister’s eyes, Nick remembered the first time Heath and Audra had seen each other.  The shocked look in the matching sets of eyes, the matching hair color had stolen the breath out of the two blondes.

 

“Sis, because of his enemies in his past, he’s terrified he’ll wind up leaving the kids fatherless.  His exact words were  ‘If we married and had kids of our own, they could end up fatherless.  I know what that’s like and I can’t do it.  I just can’t, Nick’.”

 

“Nick, I’d never knowingly hurt Heath like that.  You gotta believe me!” stammered Gene, his face showing his guilt.  “What about Melinda?  Has he spoken with her?”

 

“No, he said he couldn’t get the words out.” stated Nick.

 

Jarrod nodded, “Perhaps she doesn’t know, Nick.  Once we get Heath to see he’s panicking for nothing, everything will be fine.”

 

Nick snapped, “He already told her he didn’t want her to bring the kids over to Dr. Merar’s.   He loves them and he’d not see them unless there was a reason.”

 

Jarrod’s groan could be heard throughout the room and Victoria shook her head. 

 

Her words quiet and sad, “Melinda’s a smart woman.  She’ll know something is not right by his not wanting to see the children.  Heath knew they came as a package and how important her children are to Melinda.  She knows how much he loves them.  He won’t have to put it into words, she’ll know.  She won’t know why, but she’ll know.”

 

“Being without a father because of death compared to Heath’s circumstances of birth not knowing who his father is, uh, are two different things.” stated Jarrod hesitantly, his eyes seeking the gray eyes of his mother, who nodded slightly in encouragement.

 

“In Heath’s mind, all he must see is the possibility of a family being left without a male figure to take care of their needs, financially and emotionally.  I think we somehow have to get him to see this, otherwise, I don’t think he will ever get past it.  It will always torment him and prevent him from finding happiness.  As to how we accomplish that, I’m not sure.”

 

The air in the study hung heavy with sadness and guilt, eyes were on the verge of unshed tears amid thoughtful, concerned faces.  Nick briefly squeezed the shoulder of Gene as he headed out of the study.  Stopping in the foyer, his eyes glanced up the stairs and he hesitated a moment before ascending the grand staircase.

 

Stopping outside the bedroom door, Nick took a deep breath and knocked.

 

“Come in.” was heard from inside the room.

 

Nick stood in the open doorway and cleared his throat, “Heath, I’m sorry for what I said earlier.  I don’t have the right to question what you do with your life.  You’re my brother.  I just want you to be happy.”

 

From his position in front of the window which overlooked the corrals, Heath nodded, “I know, Nick.”

 

“You up to working?”

 

Turning slowly, Heath smiled slightly, “Sure.  Physical work sounds good right now.”

 

Nick stopped Heath with a hand on his arm, “Nothing too strenuous, okay?”

 

Nodding, Heath sighed and drew the taller man into a quick hug before exiting the room. 

Nick followed his brother down the stairs and outside to the corral.  The men excitedly greeted their returning boss, his grin at their welcome, a former shadow of itself.

 

 

Chapter 54

 

Three days later, Hiriam stopped the rented buggy in front of the Barkley mansion and climbed down.  Silas directed the older Thomson to the barn.  Hiriam’s ears picked up the raised voices between the two brothers, some of the ranch crew quickly left the barn making themselves scarce. 

 

Walking over, Hiriam leaned against the frame of the large door.  Heath stood hands clenched to the side and Nick was leaning forward, almost nose to nose with the blonde.

 

“When you can pick up a saddle without wincing in pain and ripping out your stitches, Heath, then you can ride out with us!” growled Nick angrily.  “Until then, you work around the ranch.”

 

“I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself.” stated Heath firmly yanking the blanket out of his brother’s hand.  “I did it for a lot of years before I came here.”

 

“YOU WANT TO RIP OUT YOUR STITCHES AGAIN!  BE MY GUEST!” shouted Nick stepping away and turning back suddenly.  “You’re a fool Heath if you think beating yourself down is gonna take away the pain in your heart.  You’re the only one who can do that!”

 

Walking past, Nick nodded to Hiriam and left the barn.   Shaking his head, Heath turned and put the blanket on Charger, his words mumbled, the tone angry.  Putting a hand on the horn of the saddle laying on the ground, he lifted and dropped it back down, wincing and grabbing his right side.   Grabbing the blanket off the horse, he threw it against the wall and cursed wildly. 

 

Charger shied away nervously from his angry owner.  Heath leaned his head against a post before taking a deep breath and stepping closer to calm the bay stallion.  Leading the horse back into it’s stall, he said a few more quiet words to the large animal while rubbing his nose.

 

Hiriam picked up the saddle from the ground, placing it back on the rail of the stall and put the thrown blanket away.  He put an hand on his grandson’s shoulder, surprised when the blonde grabbed him and held on tightly.

 

“Hi, grandfather.” whispered Heath. 

 

Patting his back, Hiriam returned the greeting.  Putting an arm over Heath’s shoulders, Hiriam walked him out of the barn.  At the corral, Duke nudged Nick, turning the hazel eyes to the sight of the two leaving the barn and walking away from the ranch buildings. 

 

Nick’s eyes reflected hope at the sight of Hiriam’s arm over his little brother’s shoulders.  The blonde man had been nearly impossible to live or work with over the past three days.

 

Duke saw the look in Nick’s eyes and knew his probably reflected the same look of hope.  Bunkhouse gossip decreed the uncharacteristic foul mood of the blonde boss had to do with a certain young lady in his life.  All the crew knew to be true was what they could see with their own eyes.  Whatever it was, it was eating the man up inside and they were all powerless to put a stop to it.  Heath firmly rebuffed any offers of help or understanding from those close to him.

 

Heath allowed his grandfather to lead him away from the ranch down to the stream where they had spent a previous afternoon talking together.  Hiriam sat him down under a tree and looked into the blue eyes.

 

“Heath, what is going on?” asked Hiriam quietly.  “I saw Melinda yesterday and she looked like she hadn’t slept in days.”

 

Anguish flew into the blonde’s eyes and he sighed, “I didn’t mean to hurt her, grandfather.  Some things just can’t be what you may want them to be, is all.”

 

Hiriam nodded in agreement, “Well, you know how women are.  They always want more than a person’s willing to give.”

 

Heath’s head shot up and he snapped, “She’s not like that!  Don’t talk about her that way!”

 

“I know Heath.  I just wanted to see what your reaction would be.  Now, tell me what’s going on with you and Melinda.” replied Hiriam with a smile.

 

The angry look in the blue eyes faded and a slight grin turned up a corner of his mouth.  “Melinda’s a wonderful woman, but I can’t take the chance of endangering her or the kids cause of my past.  I have too many enemies to sleep soundly.”

 

“I see.  You’re afraid someone you arrested will come after you and find Melinda instead.  Benton and Sheila were not people from your past, but still you could have been killed and left them alone.” stated Hiriam with a deep sigh.  “I can understand why you must feel that way.”

 

“You’re the only one.” smirked Heath leaning his head against the tree.  “The family doesn’t understand it at all.”

 

Waiting until Heath rolled his cigarette, Hiriam smiled, “I said I understand Heath.  I didn’t say I agree with you.”

 

Staring intently into the brown eyes, Heath waited for the older man to continue. 

 

“Regret is a horrible thing to live with Heath.  Take it from me, I’ve had lots of experience with it.  Don’t live your life based on fear.  Grab at happiness with both hands and hold on with all the strength you have.”

 

The sapphire eyes lowered and a thoughtful look took over Heath’s face.  Hiriam reached over and squeezed his arm, his voice low and full of love.

 

“Your grandmother, Leanne, was a ray of sunshine.  When I first saw her, I thought she was an angel.  Her eyes sparkled, her smile could light up the blackest of nights, her laughter was absolutely contagious.  She was so full of life and happiness.  I swear the world around us brightened each time she stepped out the door of our home.  Everyday, she shared with others her love and compassion.”

 

Heath saw the brown eyes fill with tears and squeezed his grandfather’s hand.  Hiriam smiled slightly, happy for the support to continue his walk down memory lane.

 

“I always felt as though I should have died in her place.  She was taken from this world too early and given a place high in the heavens where she could watch over everyone on this earth.  If there’s one thought I want to leave with you to think on it would be this Heath.”

 

Staring into the sapphire eyes, Hiriam stated firmly.  “Love with a woman who compliments your heart and soul is the greatest love a man could ever receive.”

 

“It took me a long time to realize that if I never had the chance to receive love from a special person like your grandmother, I would’ve been the lesser man for it.   If I hadn’t taken the chance to grab at that moment of happiness, I would have regretted it for the rest of my life.  Don’t give up a chance to have love, not everyone finds it in their lifetime. Don’t put off til tomorrow what you can do today.  No one lives forever and you should live your life as if it were your last day on earth.”

 

“I bet if you ask your Mother, she’d say she’s happy to have had the love of your Father for the amount of time she did.” suggested Hiriam seeing a question form in the sapphire eyes.

 

“Has it ever bothered you I call her Mother?” asked Heath quietly.

 

Hiriam admitted, “At first, it did.  But the more time I spent with your family, I realized, Victoria is as much your Mother as Leah surely was.  It is a rare woman who’d love unconditionally as she does.  You are blessed to have the love of two mothers in your lifetime, Heath.”

 

Heath sighed, “Yes, I am.  Are you leaving grandfather?”

 

“Yes, but I will be back.” stated Hiriam.  “I have decided to sell my business and move out here.  Unfortunately, not all of the details can be handled by telegrams.”

 

“I’m glad, grandfather.  I like having you near.” smiled Heath.  “When will you be leaving?”

 

“Tomorrow.  I have to be back by the end of next month for Benton’s trial.” stated Hiriam.  “Would you like to travel with me?”

 

Shaking his head, Heath replied, “Thanks but I’d rather stay here, grandfather.”

 

“Heath, promise me you’ll think about what I’ve said today.  Only you can decide if you’re able to get past your inner demons and grab at your chance of happiness.”

 

Pulling the blonde to his feet, Hiriam held onto his shoulders, “Melinda’s a wonderful woman.  If you give yourself the chance, you’ll find an abundance of happiness and joy with her.”

 

Nodding, Heath put his arm over the older man’s shoulders and they walked back to the ranch house.  After spending the morning together, Heath stood watching from the front steps as he drove the rented buggy back to Stockton. 

 

Mrs. Beatrice Collins watched her young worker rip out a seam for the fourth time.  Her wise old eyes were in quiet contemplation of the beautiful young woman she’d come to hold dear to her heart.

 

Melinda was an excellent seamstress, her work the best she’d ever seen.  Hiring the young lady had been the best thing she’d ever done.  She was an asset to her business, gaining Mrs. Collins many returning customers by her dedication and finished product.

 

For several days now, something had been bothering the normally conscientious young woman, her mind was obviously not on her work.  Melinda had to take her work home to complete it by the deadline given to their customers.

 

“Melinda, is everything okay?” inquired Beatrice.

 

Looking up, Melinda gave her employer a small smile, “I’m sorry, Mrs. Collins.  I’m having a small problem, but I’ll have the dress completed in time.”

 

Reaching over, Beatrice patted the small hands and smiled, “I’m not worried about the dress, dear.  I’m worried about you.  Are the children okay?”

 

“They’re fine.  Thank you for asking.” assured Melinda, any further conversation ceased by the ringing bell in the forward area of the shop announcing an arrival of a customer.  Beatrice heaved herself out of the chair making her way to the front of the store.

 

Melinda shook her head to clear her thoughts of Heath.  She’d gone over the time spent with him, unable to come up with the reason for him pulling away.  He hadn’t said anything, she’d seen it in his eyes and recognized it in his actions over the past week. 

 

She knew he loved her, but why would be pull away.  Questions running through her mind kept her from sleeping.  ‘Was it her?’  ‘Was it the children?’  ‘Was she asking too much from him when she declared her love for him?’  ‘Had she lost him forever?’

 

At a call from Mrs. Collins, Melinda put the dress she was working on to the side and walked to the front area of the store.  Stopping at the counter, her hands gripped the edge of the wooden shelf, supporting her shaking knees.

 

“Mother!” exclaimed Melinda, her green eyes wide in her pale face.

 

 

Chapter 55

 

The memories flew across Melinda’s mind while her eyes stared into the face of her Mother.  Years of stringent rules, perfect manners, perfect behavior and stymied dreams came rushing back like the water in a flash flood.  

 

She felt an odd constriction in her chest, her stomach burned and she stepped back from the counter.  The woman before her lived with the man, who when she was a child with one look, could send a chill down her spine.  She’d lived in fear of her father, hungering for the love he withheld.  Fear of not performing in school well enough, fear of not being the perfect daughter, fear of being a blight in his perfect styled professional life.

 

He used fear to control his family.  He didn’t need a physical weapon of metal, such as iron or steel, he used mental weapons faster and quicker.  The damage inflicted by mental weapons went deep into a person and couldn’t be seen by the naked eye.

 

Children no matter how old they get still look to their parents for approval or disapproval.  Melinda finally stopped looking to them and taken a giant step towards breaking out of her prison when Mike Rankin smiled at her.  Her husband, though not formally educated, had taken the girl from the cocoon and freed a delicate butterfly. 

 

He never understood how a man could treat his family as her father did.  The treatment endured during Melinda’s childhood she vowed would never be the same for her children.

 

“What do you want?” asked Melinda, her voice shaking uncontrollably, matching the movements of her hands.

 

Grace Fields’ green eyes welled with tears at the sight of her beautiful daughter, torn from her life by her husband’s decree.  Her voice trembled and tears spilled out onto her cheeks.

 

“Mellie, I’ve missed you so much and I love you.” whispered Grace.

 

Grace felt her feet moving and went around the counter.  Standing in front of her shocked daughter, she held a shaky hand to the soft skin and cried openly while she pulled the stunned girl into her arms.

 

“Does Father know you’re here?” asked Melinda stepping out of her mother’s hold and looking around nervously.

 

Wiping her eyes, Grace shook her head negatively.  Taking a hold of her daughter’s hand, she closed her eyes briefly and then looked into her girl’s eyes, “Your Father had a heart attack, Melinda.  He passed away three weeks ago.”

 

Melinda’s hand flew to her mouth, the gasp heard throughout the room.  “Mother, I didn’t know.”

 

Grace caressed her daughter’s cheek, “I could have sent a wire but I wanted to tell you  in person.   I’m sorry I wasn’t here sooner, but it took me two weeks after his death to realize he couldn’t tell me what to do anymore, how to live or who to love. It’s ironic, even in death he controlled me for two weeks afterwards.”

 

Grasping her daughter’s hands in hers, the emerald eyes were pleading.  “Melinda, I want to be part of your life, please forgive me for not being strong enough to go against your Father in the past.   I love you.  I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me and give me another chance.”

 

Melinda heard the words and saw the pleading in the green eyes.  Her emotions already in turmoil were sent spiraling out of control from the news of her Father’s death and her Mother’s sudden appearance, her mind strived to sort through the information it was bombarded with.  The room started spinning and the sound of waves crashed in her ears. 

 

Victoria entered the doorway of the dress shop and saw Melinda fall to the floor when she fainted.   Rushing over, she stared at the woman holding Melinda’s hand and knew instantly who she was.

 

“I’ll get Dr. Merar.” informed Victoria to Mrs. Collins before rushing out the door.

 

Scotty sat in the surrey and jumped up as the matriarch of the family rushed out the door.  “Melinda’s fainted, Scotty.  Get Dr. Merar!”

 

“Yes, Mrs. Barkley!” shouted Scotty running down the street and bursting into the doctor’s office.

 

The sound of a galloping horse brought Heath away from the corral where Duke was working with a newly broken horse.  Billy Peterson brought his horse to a stop in front of the former marshal.

 

“Heath, Mrs. Rankin was taken to Dr. Merar’s.  She..” stated Billy, his eyes widening when he was pulled quickly from the saddle of his horse.  Laying on the ground, he lifted his head and stared at the man galloping away on his horse.

 

Duke rushed over and helped the young deputy to his feet.  “You okay, Billy?”

 

“He stole my horse again!” groaned Billy knocking the dust off his clothes.

 

“No, he just borrowed your horse, Billy.”  smirked Duke with a slight shake of his head.  “What’s the matter with Mrs. Rankin?  Is she okay?”

 

Gesturing to the cloud of dust settling over the ranch yard, Billy stated, “Scotty said she  fainted and asked that I come out to tell Heath, but he didn’t give me a chance to explain!  I didn’t even see his hands move before I felt the ground on my backside!”

 

Chuckling and clapping the irritated young deputy on the back, Duke grinned widely, “Com’on I’ll get you a horse to ride back to town on.”

 

 

Chapter 56

 

Howard jumped at the sound of the slamming door and running feet.  Heath flew into the room, his face panic stricken and he grabbed the physician by the shoulders.

 

“Where is she?  Is she okay?” demanded Heath, his blue eyes wide with fright.

 

The startled physician’s mind took a moment to get over the unexpected arrival of his harried visitor, his thoughts gathered themselves quickly as he realized who Heath was asking after. 

 

“She’s fine, Heath.” assured Howard patiently.  “Melinda just fainted.  She’s at home.”

 

The diagnosis worked it’s way into the cavities of the blonde’s brain, he slowly nodded and released his firm grip on the family physician.  Victoria watched from the doorway as the fear released itself from her son’s body leaving him quivering. 

 

Heath patted Howard on the shoulder and sank into the nearest chair, his legs unable to hold his body weight.  Leaning forward with his elbows on his knees, Heath held his head in his hands.

 

Victoria motioned for Howard to leave, waiting until her old friend left the room and closed the door.  Walking over, she knelt in front of Heath and pulled his hands away from his face.

 

The tortured look in the blue eyes swimming with tears stirred concern and anger within her.  Concern over the deep emotion Heath held for Melinda, emotion he was fighting and causing his future happiness to be in danger.  Anger for the stubbornness in the man who seemed to always put others before himself.   The fear created in him from a life he should never have had to live.

 

Pulling his head to her shoulder, she wrapped her arms around him and rubbed his back.  Heath couldn’t control the tears which left his eyes or the trembling of his body.  The wild ride into town had his mind running with all sorts of horrors as to what he would find when he arrived.   The thought of Melinda hurt caused him physical pain as much as emotional.

 

“Heath, why don’t you take the chance?” whispered Victoria after the tears subsided.

 

Staring into the ocean eyes, she stated quietly. “You can’t run from it, sweetheart and it’s tearing you apart.”

 

Heath sighed and mumbled, “I’ve never been so afraid in my life, Mother.  I kept thinking she’d die without knowing or worse thinking I don’t love her.”

 

Holding his face in her hands, she wiped his tears off his cheeks with her thumbs.  Her gray eyes fraught with love.

 

“Don’t fight it, Heath.  Can’t you see, you were meant to be together?  When you’re apart, it’s as if you are both missing something.  When you’re together, you’re whole.”

 

Closing his eyes, Heath took a shaky deep breath and nodded, “I’m sorry for taking it  out on you and the rest of the family.  I know I’ve been a bit disagreeable lately.”

 

Chuckling, Victoria smiled into the blue eyes, “For a while I thought I had two Nicks as my sons instead of one.”

 

Smirking, Heath kissed the top of her silver hair and pulled her into another embrace, “Thank you, Mother.”

 

Breaking the hug, Victoria held out her hand and smiled, “I’m guessing there’s a very special young woman who would benefit very much from a visit right now.”

 

Taking hold of her hand, Heath stood up and held it as they walked outside into the sunshine.  Stopping suddenly on the boardwalk, Heath groaned out loud.

 

“Billy’s gonna be mad at me!”

 

Puzzled, Victoria asked, “Why would he be mad?”

 

Shaking his head, Heath pointed to the mare tied to the hitching rail, “I stole his horse again!”

 

Laughing, Victoria smiled and pushed Heath in the direction of Melinda’s house, “I’ll ask Billy not to press charges against you.”

 

Kissing her cheek, Heath whispered, “Thank you, Mother.”

 

Giving the diminutive woman one last hug, Heath headed towards the small white house.  Standing at the gate of the fence which surrounded the property, Heath slowly stepped through the opening, walked up the small flower bordered pathway and climbed the two steps of the porch.

 

Taking off his hat, he ran his fingers through his blonde locks and brushed the dust off his clothes.  Reaching up, he knocked and stood hat in hand until the door opened.

 

Grace Fields opened the door and looked at the man before her.  “May I help you?”

 

Heath stared into the emerald eyes, his blue eyes questioning and he cleared his throat, “Is Melinda home, ma’am?”

 

Grace nodded hesitantly, “Yes, however she is resting right now.  I’m her mother, Grace Fields.”

 

“Heath Thomson, ma’am.” stated Heath offering a hand in greeting.  “Mrs. Fields, is Melinda okay?”

 

“Yes, she’s fine.  Just tired.” smiled Grace.  “Perhaps you’d like to come back another time Mr. Thomson when Melinda is feeling better.”

 

Heath shifted his feet slightly and turned at the shouted greeting.  “Mr. Heath!  Mr. Heath!”

 

Kneeling, he grinned, “Timmy, how’s my deputy?”

 

Timmy wrapped his arms around the strong neck and shook his head, “Mr. Heath, I’s sorry but I can’t be a deputy.  Don’t be mad.”

 

Heath titled his head slightly and looked into the brown eyes, “I’m not mad, Timmy.  If you’re not gonna be a deputy, what are you gonna do?”

 

“A rancher.” stated Timmy firmly.  “Like you and Mr. Nick.”

 

Chuckling, Heath grinned, “Sounds good to me.”

 

Helen Merar smiled and set Megan down on the ground, the young toddler’s feet took off running and she was encased in a strong armed hug.  Her small face placing a kiss on the tanned face.  “Mr. Heaf.”

 

Heath chuckled at her imitation of Timmy’s words and rubbed her nose with his eliciting a giggle out of the little girl. 

 

“Afternoon, Mrs. Merar.” stated Heath standing with Megan in his arms.  “Did you meet Mrs. Fields?”

 

“Yes, I did.” said Helen.  “I just brought the children home from the Collins’ for Melinda, Heath.  I really have to get back to help Howard.”

 

Waving goodbye, Heath set Megan down on the porch and tousled Timmy’s hair.  The kids stared up at the unknown woman in the doorway. 

 

“Hi, Timmy and Megan.  I’m your grandmother.” stated Grace softly. “I came all the way from Sacramento to see you.”

 

Timmy shook the hand she held out and looked up, his face scrunched with confusion, “How come you didn’t come before, grandma?  Sacramento’s not that far.”

 

Grace turned crimson, “I’m here now, Timmy.”

 

Satisfied for the moment, Timmy turned back towards his hero.  “Mr. Heath, are you spending the day with us?”

 

“No, Timmy.  Your mommy is resting.” sighed Heath.  “I’ll come back when she’s awake, okay?”

 

“Mr. Heath, we haven’t seen you forever.” pouted Timmy pulling on his hand.  “Mommy will want to see you, too.”

 

“Yes, mommy would.”

 

The soft spoken words floated out the door and snapping his head up, Heath’s eyes took in the pale complexion of the woman he loved, enhanced by the white blouse she was wearing.

 

“Mother, would you take Timmy and Megan inside for me?” asked Melinda. 

 

Grace took the hands of the children and nodded, “Nice to meet you, Mr. Thomson.”

 

“Likewise, ma’am.” mumbled Heath, his blue eyes only seeing the woman before him, his hand absently patted Timmy on the back when he was lead away.

 

When the door closed behind the departing three, Heath held out his hand and his breath caught in his throat when Melinda stood looking at it, her body not moving, her eyes deep in thought. 

 

 

Chapter 57

 

The world stopped spinning on its axis, the sun stopped shining, the wind stopped blowing and all forms of life were held in a suspended moment of time.  Nothing moved, nothing breathed and no sound could be heard while the green eyes stayed deep in thought.

 

Heath felt the ground beneath him begin to crumble, his heart started to crack as the time crept by second after second.  Slowly, tentatively, a small hand reached out towards his.  A surge of electric current rushed up both arms when their palms touched lightly and Heath wound his fingers around her hand.

 

“Mel.” whispered Heath, his eyes showering her with love.  Leading her down the porch, he sat her on the steps and knelt down in front of her.

 

Taking both of her hands in his, Heath gazed into her green, pained eyes and stated softly, “I’m sorry, Mel for hurting you.  It’s the last thing in the world I vowed to myself I would do, but I ending up doing it anyway.”

 

“Why, Heath?” queried Melinda, her eyes beseeching the answer she needed from the blonde who held her dreams. “Is it me?  The children?  Why?”

 

“It wasn’t cause of you or the children.  It was me.” stated Heath, her eyes showing confusion at his statement. 

 

“I was doing it to protect you and the children from people in my past.  When I was a marshal, I never dreamed of ever settling down and raising a family.  I was afraid if I married as a marshal, I’d leave my wife a widow and my children fatherless.” sighed Heath pausing to gather his thoughts.

 

“Heath, you’re not a marshal anymore.  I knew you were pulling away for some reason, but I’m more upset you didn’t tell me why or even give me a chance by explaining it.” stated Melinda, her eyes filling with tears.  “You didn’t trust me enough to take the chance with you.”

 

“No, honey.” urged Heath holding her face in his hands.  “I didn’t trust myself to be able to live without the fear.  I thought I could be the big tough man and go on without you.  But I can’t Mel, when it comes to you, I’m a weak man.  Not weak in a bad way, but in a way I’d never thought would be possible or I’d ever welcome.”

 

Wiping her tears from her cheeks, Heath picked up her hand and placed a kiss on her palm.  His voice cracked with bottled emotion, “Mel, I love you so much.  I can’t bear the thought of anything happening to you because of me.  Or the children.  You have become such a large part of my heart, I’m lost without you.”

 

“Oh, Heath.” whispered Melinda unable to stop the tears from spilling out again.

Pulling her into his arms, Heath placed a kiss on her strawberry blonde hair, “I’ve missed you and when I heard you’d been taken to Dr. Merar’s…”

 

Unable to finish his words, Heath tightened his hold on her and Melinda could feel a quiver run through the strong blonde.   Her arms were encircled around his waist and she ran her hands up his muscular back.

 

Tilting her head up, Heath sought the delicate lips and the lingering, gentle kiss left them both desiring more.  Looking into the glazed green eyes, he whispered, “Please forgive me, Mel for not being strong enough to push my fear aside and grab at happiness with both hands.”

 

“I love you, Heath.  There’s nothing to forgive.” whispered Melinda, then winked.  “Just don’t do it ever again.”

 

Chuckling, Heath smiled widely, “Yes, ma’am.”

 

Putting a stray wisp of hair behind her ear, Heath’s eyes turned to concern.  “Are you okay, Melinda?  Why’d you faint and what’s your mother doing here?”

 

Putting her fingers on his lips, Mel’s green eyes sparkled with love.  “If you stay and have dinner, I’ll answer your questions.”

 

“Blackmail is against the law, I’ll have you know.” teased Heath staring into her eyes.

 

“Really?” inquired Melinda with a small smile, “What’s the punishment for that?”

 

Sapphire eyes light up with anticipation and he slowly lowered his head, stopping just before the touch of their lips.  “Ah, it’s punishment of the sweetest kind.” 

 

Melinda’s hand reached behind his neck and pulled him closer.  The world was spinning wildly on it’s axis, the sun was bursting in the sky with glowing light, the wind blew a gentle breeze across their warmed bodies and life around them burst into a flurry of motion as love was rejoined.  The pathway lay clear before them, the future bright with possibility.

 

 

Chapter 58

 

Looking out the window, Grace spied on the two adults on the front steps.  Even in Sacramento anything concerning the wealthy Barkley family was news and made the society columns.  When she met Heath Thomson, she hadn’t realized he was the other son.  The one born out of wedlock, a product of an act of sin and impropriety. 

 

That knowledge was provided by an overly excited eight year old Timmy who explained all about Mr. Heath and Mr. Nick at the Barkley ranch.  He told about their last visit and how Mr. Heath’s brother, Mr. Nick took him and Megan out riding.

 

Pulling on her hand, he stated, “Grandma, wanna see my marshal’s badge?”

 

Grace drew her eyes downward and smiled, “Sure, Timmy.  Did you make it out of paper?”

 

Shaking his head, Timmy lead her to his room.  Megan followed dragging her cloth doll behind her.  Timmy took out a wooden box from his drawer, his small fingers reached inside and placed the heavy metal badge in his grandma’s hand.

 

“See, it looks just like Mr. Heath’s when he was a marshal.” explained Timmy.  “It’s shaped like a star and you use this thing in the back to pin it to your shirt.”

 

“Did Mr. Heath give this to you?”

 

Nodding, Timmy put the prized possession back in the box.  “Sure after he got better from his bullet wound.”

 

“His bullet wound?  You mean he was shot?” queried Grace.

 

“In the side.  I saw ‘em when they brung him in.”  stated Timmy putting his box away.  “He looked awful.  He was real sick.  I cut my hand on some metal trying to make a badge.  Then, Mr. Nick said maybe Mr. Heath’d give me a real badge and he did!”

 

“That must have been scary for you, Timmy.”

 

Shrugging, Timmy sat on the bed by his grandmother.  “Nah!   When I saw Mr. Heath thrown out the hotel window that was real scary.  He was in the street all bloody and crumpled up.  People were running around and screaming.”

 

Staring at the child, Grace frowned, “When did that happen?”

 

Thinking, Timmy replied, “When he was a marshal.  I don’t know who did it.  All’s I know is another marshal was killed at the jail that day.  I heard the sheriff say it was a aversion.”

 

Taking a lace cloth out of her pocket, Grace dabbed at her face.  “Oh my.”

 

“I was gonna be a marshal, but now I’m not.  I didn’t like that dead body I saw in the woods.  It was disgusting!” shivered Timmy.

 

“What dead body?” asked Grace, her eyes wide with shock.

 

“Some lawyer.  I think Mr. Heath knew him.” stated Timmy.

 

“Oh.  Mr. Heath’s a rancher now, isn’t he?”

 

“Yep, with Mr. Nick.  They have a huge house.  It has a hundred rooms in it!” exclaimed Timmy.  “I got lost in it.  Mr. Thomson said he got lost too.”

 

“Mr. Heath got lost in his own house?”

 

Laughing, Timmy shook his head, “No, grandma!  Mr. Heath’s grandfather.  He’s Mr. Thomson.  He stayed at the ranch too.”

 

“He lives there?”

 

“No.  He got shot too.  He was there to cuperate.” said Timmy before jumping off the bed to take a book out of Megan’s hand.  “Megan, you can’t read yet.  Play with your doll.”

 

Grace closed her eyes and felt sick to her stomach.  ‘Out of the mouth of babes’ she thought.  Fanning herself, she found herself wondering why Melinda was subjecting Timmy to such violent people.  Especially one who was not of the ideal upbringing for a woman or children to be around.

 

Timmy looked up, his brown eyes concerned, “You okay, grandma?  You look sick.”

 

Grace nodded, “I do feel a little sick.”

 

Running out the door, Timmy shouted to his mother, “Mama, Grandma’s sick!”

 

Melinda heard the shouts and rushed into the house.  Heath stood in the living room while Melinda followed Timmy into his bedroom.   Melinda returned to the room and walked over to Heath.

 

“Do you want me to get Dr. Merar for your mother?”  asked Heath.

 

Shaking her head, Melinda sighed.  “No, she thinks it was just the long trip and not having enough to eat.”

 

“I’d best go.  Your mother should rest.” suggested Heath caressing her cheek.  “We have lots of time to talk later.”

 

Melinda nodded, “I suppose you’re right.”

 

Leaning over, Heath brushed a kiss across her lips, “You’re coming to Audra’s birthday party, right?”

 

Melinda squeezed his hand, “I am now.”

 

Grinning, Heath opened the door.  “How about if I pick you and everyone up at four that day to take you to the ranch?”

 

“I’d like that, Heath.  Thank you.” smiled Melinda.  “I’ll see you in a couple days.”

 

Placing one last kiss on her lips, Heath whispered, “Give the kids a hug for me.”

 

Closing the door behind him, Heath’s smile was wide and happy.  Walking down the street, his smile faded slightly at the stance of an angry deputy and dark haired brother waiting on the boardwalk by Dr. Merar’s.

 

“Hi boys!” said Heath stopping in front of the pair.  “Sorry about earlier, Billy.  Guess I was a little worried and not thinking too clearly.”

 

Nodding, Billy grinned, “At least Matilda isn’t lame this time.”

 

“Matilda!” choked Nick.  “You named your horse Matilda?”

 

Turning crimson, Billy snapped, “My grandmother named her!  Ain’t nothin’ wrong with that name!”

 

Heath shook his head and Nick watched the deputy climb onto the mare, “You gotta admit it’s kinda funny, Billy!”

 

Rolling his eyes, Billy smirked and nudged the mare forward, “It’s about the same as naming a horse Coco.”

 

“Hey!” shouted Nick to the retreating chuckling deputy, “Coco’s a good name!”

 

Heath laughed and his steps towards the Barkley horse were stopped by a firm grasp on his arm. 

 

Nick poked his finger into the blonde’s shoulder, “You want to know what really chaps my ass?”

 

Moving to the side caused Nick’s finger to miss his shoulder and Heath replied with a smirk.  “No, but you’ll tell me anyway.”

 

Scowling, Nick threw an arm across his brother’s shoulders, “Cantankerous and stubborn little brothers!  Little brothers whose skull must be as thick as a board.  Little brothers who pretend they can’t work, then gallop all the way into town on someone else’s horse.  A horse they stole!”

 

“Is that what’s Gene done now?” inquired Heath, his blue filled with amusement.

 

“Smart ass.” growled Nick and then staring into the blue eyes, asked, “Melinda?”

 

“She had a fainting spell.  She’s fine, Nick.” said Heath walking over to the horse standing by Coco.

 

Placing a firm hand on Heath’s shoulder, Nick turned the younger man and shook his head, “Wait right there!  Fine as in ‘fine, I guess’ like the other day.  Or fine as in ‘we’re courting again, fine’?”

 

“Fine as in I’m a lucky man whose in love with a wonderful woman!” grinned Heath receiving a hearty slap on the back from his big brother.

 

Heath climbed into the saddle and glared at Nick on Coco.  “Nick, you want to know what chaps my ass about big brothers?”

 

Nick groaned, “Okay, what?”

 

“Absolutely nothing!” winked Heath before he urged the horse into a cantor in the direction of the ranch.  Smiling broadly, Nick caught up quickly to his brother’s side.

 

 

Chapter 59

 

Melinda tucked the children into bed, kissing their foreheads gently.  Timmy was excited about the upcoming trip to the Barkley ranch, even if he had to wear his Sunday clothes.  All evening his favorite topic of conversation was Mr. Heath and Mr. Nick.

 

Finally getting the excited boy to sleep, Melinda closed the door behind her.  Leaning against it, she sighed deeply.  Pushing away from the door, she straightened her shoulders and walked into the small living room.

 

Grace was sitting on the sofa sipping tea.  Melinda sat in the chair across from her mother, her green eyes staring at the healthy woman.

 

“Why did you pretend to be sick, Mother?”

 

The unexpected question startled Grace. “Whatever do you mean, Mellie?”

 

“I am not blind, mother.  As soon as Heath left miraculously you were cured.” snapped Melinda angrily.

 

Putting her cup and saucer on the side table, Grace sighed, “I was feeling nauseous, Mellie and I don’t appreciate your tone of voice.”

 

Taking a deep breath to calm herself, Melinda sat back in her chair, “Mother, let me put it to you another way then.   Why did you pretend to be sick like Timmy pretends so he doesn’t have to go to school?”

 

Grace brushed an imaginary piece of lint off her skirt, her voice nervous.  “Really, Mellie, I cannot believe you think I would do such a thing.  I think you are imaging it.”

 

“I don’t believe I am, Mother.” stated Melinda quietly.  “I will not have you making judgments on my life here in Stockton.”

 

“Since you brought up Stockton, Mellie.” paused Grace.  “I think you should consider moving back to Sacramento.  The city will have more to offer the children as they grow and our house has more room than I need.  It would be perfect for all of us.”

 

“Mother, thank you for the offer, however, the children and I are happy here.” smiled Melinda.  “I would never consider moving.”

 

Disappointment shown in the emerald eyes and Grace asked quietly, “Timmy told me about Mr. Thomson’s violent past.  The children shouldn’t be subjected to all that and Melinda are you aware, well, of his parents’ sin?”

 

“So that’s it.” snapped Melinda.  “You are judging Heath and you don’t know him.  All you  can see is how it will look to the other snobs around you.  I see nothing has changed after all!”

 

“I am not judging, Melinda.” replied Grace rubbing her pinkie and thumb of her left hand together. 

 

Melinda caught the nervous gesture which brought her back in her mind to her childhood.  A gesture which caused Melinda’s stomach to curdle when she entered the room and noticed it.  More times than not, her father would be demanding she improve herself, her acquaintances or her life.  His words made her feel lower than a snake’s belly, her mother sat in the room prim and proper. 

 

No movement except the nervous gesture of the fingers on her left hand.  No words said to the head of the household to stop the emotional wounds he inflicted.  No hugs or kisses from her mother after he left the room – only a vacant look before she followed his footsteps leaving her daughter behind, craving and yearning for love.

 

Shaking her head and forcing herself back to the present, Melinda looked over at her mother.

 

“Heath Thomson was a marshal when he came to Stockton.  Marshals have a dangerous job and get injured, Mother.  I love Heath Thomson.  He’s a wonderful man with a kind and gentle spirit.  When he came into our lives, we were blessed.”

 

“Melinda, I’m sure you think that.  He is very handsome and rich.” stammered Grace.  “Those are two nice qualities to have in a potential husband.”

 

“Quite frankly, Mother.  His financial matters are not your concern.” informed Melinda.  “I could care less if he were rich or not.  It doesn’t matter to me.”

 

“Melinda, I don’t want to fight with you.” smiled Grace nervously.  “Let’s talk about something else and we can discuss Sacramento later.”

 

“No, Mother.  I will not talk about anything else.  You need to understand I am not a little girl anymore.  This is my home, these are my children and this is my life.  If you cannot accept how things are, go back to Sacramento.” stated Melinda firmly, leaving her shocked Mother sitting on the sofa.

 

 

Chapter 60

 

The Barkley mansion was decorated with flowers and streamers.  The birthday cake sat on a table in the corner of a room, presents lined a table next to it.  The guests would be arriving in a short time and Victoria breezed through the mansion ensuring all was set. 

 

Audra was upstairs changing when Heath arrived with the first guests.  Silas showed Mrs. Fields to an upstairs room where she could change into her gown.  Heath stopped Melinda from following and lead her outside with the children.  Walking towards the barn, Timmy greeted Nick who was leading out two horses.

 

“Mr. Nick, what ya’ doing?” asked Timmy.

 

Kneeling, Nick grinned, “Well, Coco and Sport here need some exercise.  You and Megan want to help?”

 

Timmy’s brown eyes grew wide as saucers and he looked up at his mother, “Can we mama?  Please?”

 

“Nick, both of them?  Are you sure?” hesitated Melinda.

 

“Sure, it won’t be any problem.  I’ll have a lead rope attached to my saddlehorn.  It’ll be fine, Sport’s real gentle.  Don’t worry.” informed Nick.

 

“Please, mama?” pleaded Timmy pulling on her hand.

 

Receiving a nod from Heath, Melinda smiled, “Okay, but you have to be back in time to get ready for the party.”

 

“Alright!” shouted Timmy. 

 

Heath helped the youngster into the saddle, adjusted the stirrups to his height and gave him some last minute pointers.  Megan sat on the saddle in front of Nick, his arm holding her in place.  Waving goodbye, the riders headed out at a walk.

 

Duke lead Charger out to the marshal boss, thanking the foreman, Heath mounted.  Leaning down, he offered his hand and Melinda smiled with a question in her eyes.  Sitting sideways in front of him, she wrapped her arms around his waist and whispered in his ear. 

 

“Heath, where are we going?”

 

“Wherever we want, darlin’.” replied Heath squeezing her hand and nudging Charger into a cantor, in the opposite direction of Nick and the children.

 

Reaching a small stream, Heath jumped down and reached up to help Melinda down.  Holding her in his arms, he smiled into her eyes.  “I’ve missed you, Mel.”

 

“I missed you too.” whispered Melinda standing on her tiptoes and brushing her lips against his.  Heath moaned and pulled her closer, their desires building between them.

 

Holding her hand, he grabbed his saddlebags and lead her beneath a large old tree.  Spreading out a blanket, she smiled when he helped her down.  Green eyes watched while Heath took out a bottle of wine, two glasses, bread and some cheese.

 

“What’s all this?” asked Melinda while Heath opened the wine and nibbled on a piece of cheese he handed her.

 

Handing her a glass, Heath grinned, “Compliments of big brother Nick.  He thought we should spend some quiet time together before the festivities tonight.  He said I was a grouchy old bear from not having seen you.”

 

“Well, I have to remember to thank Nick properly.” teased Melinda.

 

“Properly?” growled Heath leaning closer to her.  “What do you mean by properly?”

 

“Why, Heath.  Nick has done us a great favor, I think a small kiss of appreciation wouldn’t be too much.” said Melinda seriously.

 

Heath flashed a grin, “This is the perfect spot for our quiet time, don’t you think?”

 

Looking around, Melinda’s green eyes filled with appreciation.  “It is perfect.  So beautiful, quiet and private.”

 

Taking a sip of wine, Heath tilted his head, “What kind of kiss will Nick get?”

 

Putting her glass on the ground, Melinda moved over in front of the blonde.  Reaching out, she pulled his face towards hers and kissed his cheek at the last second.  Giggling, her green eyes filled with laughter, her hand covered her mouth trying to stop her laughter.

 

Chuckling, Heath put his glass down and smiled evilly.  “No, I think this is more of a kiss of appreciation.”

 

Pulling her closer, his lips placed a trail of kisses down her soft neck, his hand entwined in her hair.  Melinda’s breath grew heavy from the tingling on her skin.  Heath’s eyes glittered like blue ice and he kissed the corners of her mouth. 

 

Pulling them over onto their sides, he caressed her cheek and stared lovingly into her fiery eyes before claiming her lips.  Holding onto his vest, Melinda pulled him closer to her and urged his kiss to continue.  The responsiveness between them heightened their awareness of each other, the need of longing and desire was threatening to erupt.

 

Stopping his kiss, Heath ran his hands over her arm and smiled, “Melinda, will you marry me?”

 

Surprise and shock flew into the green eyes which welled with tears.  “Yes, Heath. Oh yes.”

 

Wrapping his arms around her, Heath held on tightly and tilted her head back.  “I love you so much, Melinda.”

 

“I love you, Heath.” cried Melinda when he slipped the solitaire on her finger. 

 

Kissing the diamond, he released her hand and cupped her cheek.  Smiling with happiness, he pulled her over onto him and their kisses deepened along with their hunger.  Gasping for air and control, Melinda lay by his side, her left hand on his chest. 

 

“Heath, are you sure?  You’ll have an instant family.”  whispered Melinda.

 

Kissing her forehead, Heath smiled, “When you marry me, you’ll marry into the whole family.  You’ll have more brothers than you’ll know what to do with or can shake a stick at."

 

Laughing, Melinda’s tears of joy ran down her cheeks.  “I’m a lucky person to have found you, Heath.”

 

“No, honey.  I’m the luckiest man in the world to be able to share my life with a wonderful woman like you.” stated Heath leaning on his elbow and gazing into her eyes. Gentle kisses on the tracks of her tears ended with one last lingering kiss on her soft lips. 

 

 

 

Continued…