Nick's Little Girl

Chapters 31-34

by Barkley Lady

 

 

 

 

Disclaimer: The characters and situations of the TV program "Big Valley" are the creations of Four Star/Republic Pictures and have been used without permission.  No copyright infringement is intended by the author.  The ideas expressed in this story are copyrighted to the author.

 

 

 

 

Chapter thirty-one

 

Nick drove the buggy slowly into Stockton feeling very proud. For the first time he was going to Stockton with his wife next to him, the last time, when they went to San Francisco, didn’t count as they got married just before the train left the town. Now and then he gleamed at the woman sitting next to him and now and then he reached out to touch her. Theodore was standing between his legs holding the reins to the horse under Nick’s watchful eyes. The boy did such a good job that Nick relaxed and started to think about what they had to do in town. There was the visit to the judge with Jarrod for the adoption of the boy, then Theodore was having his last check with Doctor Merar, well at least for now. Nick was certain that this boy and Emily would follow in his footsteps and be regular customers at the clinic. For a moment he had to think a little harder to remember before it hit him that they were also going to have a look at the house that the elderly ladies wanted to turn into a school, a girls school, teaching the art of how to be good housewives. He had had a hard time keeping a straight face when he heard that idea for the first time but now it started to make sense. Pity they couldn’t have come earlier to Stockton so that he could have seen to it that his sister had gone there and spared her brothers stomachs. He still smiled at the idea. He had a small problem with seeing his Mother involved in such a thing but she sure was. Well, as long as Megan stayed out of it he was happy. She had enough on her hands already with the Coffee shop and two children and not to forget a loving husband.

 

 

 

As they got nearer town Theo looked up at the man behind him. He couldn’t believe that Mr Barkley wanted to be his father. He had known about him all his life, well as long as he could remember anyway and always had admired the dark cowboy. When Nick had spent the night in town Theo had always seen to it that his horse had gotten the best care. He had watched him stand up for those who were weaker and poorer, care for animals, treat the ladies nicely. Nick Barkley was everything he would never be and yet here he was going to be his pa. He then turned his head to the pretty woman sitting beside them. She was the best ma he could think of. He couldn’t understand why Emily didn’t see that. She was, yes, she was the prettiest lady in the whole valley too. He knew that what ever happened in life she would be there for him. Last night when it was time for bed and his family, his new family, had gathered in his bedroom he had gone so scared that it would just be a dream and when he woke up it would be all over and tears had started to fall down his cheeks. His Ma, his Ma had pulled him into her arms and cuddled him until he felt good and safe and nobody had made a fuss that he was a boy. Even Emily had tried to comfort him, assuring him that she would always be his Em. And Pa, Pa had pulled them all into his arms. Yes, Theo felt like the happiest and luckiest boy in the world.

 

As the light wind blew in her hair, making her hat move from its place Megan shifted a little on the seat. She had come along way since she left the harbour of Liverpool and in such a short time. Who would believe her if she had said that less than a year later she would be married and have two children to care for. A small tilt of her head put her two boys in view and she felt the pride in her grow. She had been surprised when those two had come running against her and Emily yesterday and Theo had called her Ma. Emily had been even more surprised and it had taken the rest of the picnic to explain to her what adoption meant and that Theo would be her big brother, like Anders to Selma. She had never thought that Nick would even think of such a thing as that Theo should stay with them, she hadn’t and yet she had been around the boy for a month. Her handsome strong husband, her wonderful partner. She placed her hand under his muscular arm and leaned a little against his shoulder. Nick moved his arm and placed it around her waist, pulling her closer to him. Theo’s smile grew even bigger. His Ma and Pa really loved each other.

 

 

 

The buggy stopped in front of Jarrod’s office, and a waiting Jarrod who looked at his watch just as Nick stepped on the brake. He was about to say something but reached out to help his sister-in-law down instead. Just then Theo looked across the street and stiffened and as Nick took the reins he felt the change in the boy. He tried to follow where the boy’s eyes went but couldn’t make out which of the men coming out of the saloon that caused the unease so Nick placed a calming hand around the boy’s neck.

 

"What is it son?"

 

"Father." One word, a word that revealed a lot of pain and fright. Nick quickly looked at the men again as both Jarrod and Megan stopped in their movements.

 

"Which one?"

 

"The man in the blue shirt Sir." By now all three adults were looking at the crowd of men under the saloon sign. Nick got ready to go over there when Jarrod leaned forward and touched him.

 

"No Nick, wait. Megan take Theo into my office but go out the backdoor so that you can get to the clinic now instead of later. Nick and I will pick you two up after we have had a talk with Mr Coss. I’m sure the judge will understand why we will be very late." He lifted the boy down, gave him the crutches and saw them inside before he turned back to his brother. "Nick, we need to get him into my office without causing too much of a commotion. Think we can do that?" The last words were an order to his younger brother to keep calm and not start a fight.

 

"Sure." Nick tied the horse to the rail and followed Jarrod over to the group. Coss was standing near the horse trunk when they started towards him but within a few seconds he started with a staggering walk towards another saloon. The brothers hurried their steps and when they were on each side of the man Jarrod whispered a few words in the man’s ear, making him nod and follow with them without a word. They had just made it into Jarrod’s office when Nick couldn’t keep quiet any longer and standing very close to the stinking man he stared into his face.

 

"Why are you in town today Coss?"

 

"Hey, can’t a man have a drink?"

 

"You have been wanted for a month Mr Coss, why turn up on the last day that it’s possible to claim your son back?"

 

"Has the bastard been giving you trouble? I heard that the rich and mighty Barkleys had taken him in. I would have kicked him out a long time ago. He is a useless son of a bitch." It took all Jarrod’s strength to stop Nick from attacking the man. Jarrod forced his brother to the other side of the room, showed Coss to the armchair across his desk before he sat down in his seat behind the desk.

 

"Mr Coss correct me if I’m wrong but if I understand you right the boy is just in your way?" The man sneered so Jarrod continued. "So if we pay you, lets say $ 100 will you sign some papers saying that you relinquish the right to him?"

 

"Sure where do I sign?" Coss leaned forward eager to get the money. Nick turned against the wall so that he wouldn’t do anything to make the situation worse. He felt the anger rise inside him. How could a young boy just be … for him the boy meant a young life, someone to care for and show the world … they were talking about a wonderful little boy. He grabbed hold of a book in Jarrod’s bookcase. Jarrod sent a warning glance to his brother as he stood up.

 

"Just a moment." Jarrod went to the door. "Mrs Smith, will you please run over to the sheriff and get him and one of his deputies over here at once. It’s very important" When he had returned to his desk he sat down and wrote out some papers. Nick had moved to the window to watch for the men, feeling curious why his brother had asked for Fred. The wait and frustration was killing him and he checked his watch over and over again. "Nick that is the fifth time this last minute. They won’t come any sooner. You must excuse my brother Mr Coss, he is a very impatient man and to wait for just a minute is too long a wait for him." Coss smiled understandingly back to Jarrod and leaned back into the chair as Jarrod put down his pen. At that moment the door opened and Mrs Smith showed Fred and Sam in.

 

"Jarrod, you wanted to see us. Is this man causing any trouble?"

 

"No Fred, I just want you two to read this out loud and then witness it after Mr Coss has signed it. After that Fred I want you to follow me to the Judge."

 

"Sure thing." Fred looked at Nick, noticed the hard eyes and wondered what had been going on as he took the paper from Jarrod and started to read. "Nicholas and Megan Barkley have from this day, 31st March 1880 adopted Theodore Coss born 4th April 1873 to be their own son and to be treated as such. They paid Mr Coss the sum of $ 100 as a grant that he from this day 31st Marsh 1880 will have no claims on Theodore Coss and with his signature he relinquish his parenting rights to the boy and that he has received the sum $100." He looked at the man sitting in the armchair. "Mr Coss do you understand what this means?"

 

"Yep, I have finally gotten rid of that bastard." He reached for the papers and signed them missing Nick’s tight fist and mouth. Jarrod motioned his brother to sign before Fred and Sam signed it. Nick got the money out of his wallet and gave them to the man together with one of the papers. "I just can’t understand why you are prepared to pay for the boy, he is of no use." Before anyone could react Nick’s right fist hit the man’s chin and as he sank back into the chair Nick turned to his brother.

 

"I’m off to see where my family is. Fred, Sam." He placed his hat on his head and headed for the clinic.

 

 

 

Doctor Merar was examining Theodore’s body for any signs of unhealed bones or other damages that still were there from the beating but the boy showed up as being in perfect health apart from being too short for his age, still a bit underweight and a left leg that was more or less lame. In fact the boy’s face was shining with happiness when the doctor listened to his heart and lungs.

 

"Alright young man, tell this old man what the secret is? You are glowing so much I think I’ll keep you here and save the candles tonight."

 

"I got a Ma and a Pa."

 

"Huh, have you?"

 

"They are keeping me Doctor Merar, I don’t need to pack. They don’t care that I’m a misfit." Megan felt a sting in her heart as it sounded as if he just was a piece of stock being judged by appearance. The doctor looked over to Megan and smiled.

 

"Now that sounds like a good thing. And about your health young man you are strong as an ox I should think. What do you say about sneaking out to Mrs Merar and see if she has any lemon poppy seed cake while I talk to Mrs Barkley?"

 

"Yes Doctor Merar, thank you Doctor." He grabbed his crutches and Megan watched him leave, heading towards the kitchen.

 

"Now Megan, it’s your turn to sit on the bench." He patted the seat opposite him and with a slight hesitation Megan moved over and sat down. They heard the clinic door open and the knock on the door told Howard Merar that it was Nick on the other side and he left to open the door. "Hallo Nick. Why don’t you join Theodore in the kitchen while I check your wife?"

 

"No, Doctor. I think I want to be with her and hear what you say."

 

"Nicholas, I don’t think it is very suitable. Go to the kitchen." Howard didn’t raise his voice but Nick didn’t miss the threatening tone in it.

 

"Kitchen, but I still …"

 

"Go." Howard had dealt with Nick Barkley since he was a toddler and knew exactly how to handle him and now he stood waiting in the doorway until Nick knocked on the door to the Merar’s private rooms. First when Nick was let in by his wife he closed the door and went over to Megan. "Megan lay down on your back and bend your legs. I know this isn’t very nice but I have to check and see how you are healing." He smiled towards her and helped her on to her back. During the whole exam Megan didn’t say a word but tears ran along her cheeks. "There, Love, all done. Everything looks as it should and I can’t see any reasons for why it shouldn’t go well next time."

"Why did …?" Megan straightened her dress as Howard went to sit by his desk.

 

"I still think it was nature’s way of getting rid of something that wasn’t well, Megan. It’s absolutely not your fault or anything that you could have done to avoid it. I’ll call for your husband before he bursts in here, he has been very patient I must say." The older man smiled as he opened the door. Nick sat outside with a piece of cake in his hand and Howard shook his head as he motioned the worried husband into the room. "Nicholas, what shall we do with you?" He watched as the younger man gave half of the cake to his wife and as the silent communication between them went on. "Excuse this old man but I do have a few more clients than the Barkley family."

 

"Sorry, Doctor Merar. Nick sat down beside Megan.

 

"Nick, they are both fine and as for Megan here I can’t see any reason for why there won’t be a successful pregnancy the next time and in fact I think I’m going to get prepared to deliver the next generation Barkley in about nine, ten months." He looked at the blushing couple and smiled at Megan as she couldn’t look him in the eyes. "And as for the other good news delivered by Theodore earlier, I found a piece of paper that I was suppose to give to his mother almost seven years ago but her death and Mr Coss’ behaviour at the time made me put it aside. Here is the boy’s birth certificate. My dear wife has been on me that it was time to clean out the old cupboard and all papers in it and I found it among them. I forgot it the other day." Nick took the paper and gave it to Megan. She mumbled the names and date on it

 

"Theodore Andrew Coss, AnnaBell Coss, Jonas Coss, 4th April 1873." She looked up and counted. "Nick it’s his birthday on Friday. We have to make it special."

 

"I know Megan and we will give him a true Barkley birthday. Besides I decided on the way over here what I’m giving him. Doctor Merar, you are certain everything is fine with my family?"

 

"I’m sure Nick. Take them home." Nick stood up and after helping Megan up he shook hands with the doctor. Howard left the couple while he went to get Theodore.

 

"Is it the Judge now Nick?"

 

"No, Jarrod and Fred were taking care of it and Coss. We paid him off, I know, not something I thought I would do, pay for a child but it was better than have him turn up and destroy our plans for the boy. I thought we should go by the tailor and pick up the things you ordered last week and then head for the Cattlemen’s for a celebration dinner. The ladies can wait another hour or so and Em isn’t suffering at home."

 

 

 

At the ranch

 

Emily was in a lousy mood and showed that she indeed was Nick Barkley’s daughter. Victoria was having a hard time trying to stay calm and one or two threats about the spoon had been made which didn’t make the situation any better. When Heath walked in for lunch he found Emily screaming and throwing her toys down the stairs. He managed to get up to her without being hit too badly by the wooden animals.

 

"Sweetheart, what has happened? Don’t …"

 

"You go, Em don’t like you. You bad."

 

"What did I do?"

 

"I want Daddy."

 

"Emily, he needed to go into town. Now what caused all this? Where is Eggan and Lucky?"

 

"They do bad thing, Em get told bad, Em not bad." She fixed him with her eyes and when he sat down she pushed him. "Go. You bad too." Heath was used to deal with calves and broncs so he wasn’t having any problems handling her fists and pushes instead he worried over the reason for this outburst.

"Em I’m sure you have misunderstood things. I’m sure you didn’t get blamed for what the little animals did."

 

"Hmmm, she is right." A tired and exhausted Victoria turned up. "I told her it was her animals so she had to see to it that they didn’t do their needs indoors. When she refused I told her she had to or I would get my spoon."

 

"Mother! She is just three."

 

"Well, my excuse is it came after she had tested me for an hour." Heath pulled the girl into his arms.

 

"Em, why don’t you and I go and see to the pets and then after lunch you can come with me for a little while."

 

"No Em want Daddy."

 

"He had to go into town with Megan and Theodore."

 

"Always Theore, never Em." Tears were running down her cheeks. Heath held her close and rocked her a little.

 

"You know he was going to the doctor and then they were going to see the man about Theo being your big brother."

 

"I don’t want him. I hate him."

 

"Now I don’t believe that for one minute." Heath looked down at the foyer and saw the things spread all over the room. "Why did you throw your toys?"

 

"Because." Her lower lip was pouting.

 

"Why don’t you and I put them back into their box before lunch?"

 

"No."

 

"No? Who is going to do it then?"

 

"She" Emily pointed at Victoria.

 

"Well, I didn’t throw them. You are a spoiled child Emily. If you don’t pick them up they will end in the fire." Emily sat on Heath’s lap with crossed arms and hard eyes looking at Victoria and Heath was amazed how like her father she was when he was angry.

 

"Mother, don’t make things worse."

 

"You spend the day with her then."

 

"Mother, you know I need to go out to the north pasture to check it." Silas started to pick the toys up which Emily noticed and she screamed.

 

"NO. NOT MR SILAS, YOU" She pointed to Victoria once again.

 

"One more word from you Emily Catherine Adams Barkley and you will end up in your room without any toys or books."

 

"Em not fraid of you. You orrible." She pointed her finger at her grandmother.

 

"Emily!" Victoria hissed. Heath stood up with the girl and took her into her room before anything else was said. To himself he hoped Nick and Megan would come home soon or it would be a long afternoon.

 

 

 

In Stockton

 

"What do you think Nick? Won’t our idea work?" Margaret looked at the rancher, who weighted on his heels before he answered.

 

"Why would wealthy young ladies want to come here instead of San Francisco? Or may I rephrase it: why would parents send their daughters here? Stockton is just a small ranching town with cowboys and saloons."

 

"For heavens sake, son. It’s a growing town without the social problems that San Francisco has. I think that just because it’s calmer and smaller, beside our advertisement about "get the same education" as the royals in England" will probably get us some girls too and then, Love it’s up to us to show that we are simply the best."

 

"But how …? You will need teachers, staff …"

 

"Well …" Vera looked at him. "I’ll teach the domestic subjects and master the kitchen, Margaret will take care of etiquette, embroidery and lead the staff, Victoria, gardening and other things that might be good to know out here and Megan …"

 

"Oh no, Megan is not getting involved with this. She has enough as it is. I’m not going to allow it."

 

"Megan will run this place as she does with the coffee shop."

 

"Vera, did you hear what I said? She is not getting involved here. She has a household of her own to take care of first."

 

"I heard you Nick and I think you are underestimating her."

 

"So several months of illness and Saturday are just pretend? Something I just dreamed of?"

 

"Nick Megan knows …"

 

"That’s it she doesn’t. She wouldn’t say no, especially not to you two."

 

 

 

Much later Nick sat by his desk in the study doing the bookkeeping and studying the figures from the months he had been gone. Things were going slow and there was so much else on his mind too, besides that his two girls both were sour at him for different reasons and for reasons he didn’t understand. Putting the pen down he hid his face in his hands, using his fingers to rub his forehead. He felt so old and tired. Jarrod walked into the room at that point bring the papers from earlier today with him.

 

"Want to keep these in the family safe or your private?"

 

"Huh?" Nick looked up.

 

"Little brother, you look terrible."

 

"Right now I think you are the only one on speaking terms with me besides Theo who is asleep and Silas who I haven’t seen yet."

 

"I heard of the actions here today and your meeting with the in-laws."

 

"They are not my in-laws." Nick growled.

 

"Nick, I’m on your side in this so don’t … Here have a whisky instead. Papers where?"

 

"I’ll put them with the rest."

 

"The rest?"

 

"Em’s birth certificate, Theo’s that we got today and the marriage licences."

 

"Aha, you started your own family collection."

 

"Huh."

 

"Nick, things will calm down besides Heath and I want to discuss something with you. Something we talked about while you were gone." Nick lifted a brow and watched Heath sink down in one of the chairs by the hearth. "Father left this house to you, it says so very clearly in his will, which also says that as long as your siblings and mother want they may live here. And when we wanted to leave the family would provide for something else. Remember we decided to pay for Audra and her husband’s house in Boston, Eugene has his in Philadelphia, I got my house in San Francisco which leaves Heath."

 

"And I have my eyes set on a piece of land not far from here that we don’t use for anything today but would be enough for a house and a small garden. Still close enough for us to work together but far enough for us to have separate family lives."

 

"But yesterday I thought of building Meg and me a house at the lake."

 

"Now you don’t need to do that. Let her have the money to redecorate the house instead, just inform Mother first."

 

"Have you two discussed this with her?"

 

"No."

 

"And when you are in Stockton Jarrod?"

 

"Well, I do have two younger brothers so I hope they have a guest room that I could use now and then"

 

"Mother is not going to like it."

 

"What am I not going to like?"

 

"That Nick and Megan take this house into custody according to Father’s will meaning Heath builds his over at Land’s end, you and I have our rooms and Megan gets to redecorate the rest if she wants too."

 

"You are right, I didn’t like it." She turned around and walked up to her room.

 

 

 

Chapter thirty-two

 

Megan strode into the study, finding Nick standing by the bookshelves looking for the bookkeeping books from January – March for a few years. He wanted to compare the figures from the past five years with what he got this year. He was so deep in his search that he didn’t hear her come in but when he did he smiled towards her noticing too late the hard look in her eyes.

 

"How dare you! How dare you come home after two months and ruin what Victoria and I have started to build up! Wasn’t it enough how you treated Emily yesterday, punishing her just because somebody else told you to? She went to bed without knowing why. You didn’t even bother to say good night to her." Megan hissed dangerously towards him making Nick actually back a step.

 

"What on earth are you talking about?" He put the book he was holding back in its place.

 

"I can’t believe how you treat your Mother or daughter. What give you the right to destroy their life and ours?"

 

"For heavens sake Meg."

 

"Don’t Meg me." Her green eyes burned into him. "You can find your own home to redecorate. I’m leaving this one." As she turned Nick reached out to stop her. "Don’t you dare touch me!"

 

"Calm down. I have nothing to do with it. It was Jarrod and Heath."

 

"Now that is pathetic. I never thought you would sink so low that you put the blame on your brothers." Before Nick could say anything else she had rushed out of the room. He strode over to the door and slammed it shut. The paintings on the wall shivered before two of them fell down. He almost gave the closest one a kick but bent down and picked it up. It was a portrait of his father and his horse, done shortly after the house was built. Nick inhaled and sighed.

 

"Father, I could definitely do with some fatherly advice of how to handle my girls. Emily fights and behaves badly, Meg is angry at me for something I haven’t even said and Mother … well … without talking to her I guess I got the blame for my brother’s idea." Another sigh left him and he turned to hang it back.

 

"Boy Howdy Big Brother, if you are going to knock the walls down there are better ways than slamming the door." Heath opened the door and popped his head in. "Want to calm down with some brotherly bonding and come fishing with me, Jarrod and Theo?" Nick stood quiet for a moment feeling that he had to calm himself before answering his brother. As he straightened the painting he noticed a piece of paper sticking out from the side and as he turned he took it.

 

"I might as well. As it is now I can’t concentrate anyway and starting from tomorrow with the trial, who knows when we will get another chance. I’ll get my things. Which lake?"

 

"We thought of going up to the stream for some trout. Shall we wait or are you coming?" Nick went over to the desk.

 

"Go ahead, I’ll meet you there. I want to put things away first."

 

"Alright, don’t take too long or there might not be any left for you." Heath closed the door as he left, missing the fact that Nick sank down in the chair. When he finally felt calm enough to meet Megan without starting a new scene he went up to their room. He was surprised and relieved that she wasn’t there and he quickly got his gun strapped to his leg and his fishing gear out of their wardrobe. When he closed the door and started towards the stairs again he heard her voice from Emily’s room and he stopped.

 

"Sweetheart, I don’t know." Emily answered something but he couldn’t make out what she said so he put down his things and moved closer. He knew it wasn’t very nice to eavesdrop but somehow it didn’t matter right now. He stood so that he could peek into the room. Megan was sitting on the bed with Emily on her lap. Emily was crying.

 

"Auntie Eggan, why Daddy hate me?"

 

"I don’t think he hates you. Why do you think that?"

 

"He gone long time and when he come home only Theo, never Em." Megan stroked the child’s hair and didn’t know what to say at first. "Then he say Em be bad girl, say don’t do, but Em do nothing, just sit and eat, then Em get punish."

 

"I think he is confused Em. He doesn’t know how to handle a little girl, it’s easier with a boy since he is one."

 

"He not kissie nightie or read book." Megan kissed Em’s forehead.

 

"Why he did what he did will have to wait for him but I do know he loves you a lot. You are his little girl."

 

"He only like Theo. Em hate Theo."

 

"Now I don’t think you do. I just think you are a little jealous and don’t know who to handle it."

 

"What ellous?"

 

"It’s when you want something somebody else has but you can’t have. I think that for nearly a month you were all that mattered to Theo and then your daddy came home and he took over. Theo has never had a daddy to look up to, it’s normal that little boys wants to be with other boys."

 

"He forgot Em"

 

"Sweetheart, so much has happened in so few days. I know he hasn’t forgotten about you. Theo wanted to read with you yesterday but you said no."

 

"No daddy."

 

"He hasn’t forgotten you either. He just finds it hard when you don’t act like the angel he thinks you are. He forgot that you are a three years old with the same temperament that he has." Emily sat quiet for a while, while she was being rocked by Megan.

 

"Why you opt Theo and not Em?

 

"Because Em didn’t want me as her mummy, she only wants me for her auntie."

 

"Please opt me, then we leave." Nick was shocked. His little baby didn’t think he loved her. What kind of beast was he to give her that impression? And now first Megan had said she was leaving and Emily wanted to leave too. He felt helpless and turned to the stairs again. When he reached them he sat down on the top one. Damn it. He was not going to take the blame for Jarrod’s idea, he was not going to lose his girls because of this. Damn, it was hard to be a father and a husband. His fingers searched for his watch and he felt the piece of paper. Father what would he have done, would he have let us walk out of his life? No he would have fought for his marriage, family and everything else that was important. Would he have waited, hesitated perhaps act when it was too late? No, he would have gone straight into the situation and sorted it out. I’m like that. Nick thought. I’m like Father in every situation but this, why am I hesitating here? Because I … Nick stood up. I’m a coward. He stood up took a few steps down and turned back and walked towards Emily’s room again.

 

"May I come in?" Emily took a firmer grip around Megan’s waist.

 

"I guess so."

 

"Em be good." Emily’s voice was tiny and with a hint of panic.

 

"Shhh" Megan stroked her. Nick pained even more. His daughter thought he came just to punish her.

"I’m sorry Em. I can’t take back what I have done, only hope I’ll learn." He stroked her cheek. "What can I do to make you believe me? I love you Sweetheart." Megan nudged at Emily, feeling the girl wanted to go to her father but wasn’t sure if she should. When Emily had changed lap Megan stood up. Nick gleamed at her while he and Emily cuddled. Megan first went over to put away the things that were on Emily’s desk and then she cleaned up after the kitten before she started towards the door. She felt relieved that father and daughter at least had made up as she entered their bedroom. After getting her bag she started to pack enough things to keep her going for a few days before she went over to her side of the bed and pulled out the bedside table drawer. The first thing she saw was the Valentine gift from Nick and as she touched it tears started to flow. She lay down, letting her tears run. A soft touch as the bed sank down made her understand that she wasn’t alone.

 

"Please go."

 

"No, Beloved. I’m not going to lose you for something I’m innocent of. Our marriage means a lot to me and I’m prepared to fight for it, but I’m starting to wonder about you? You accused me for judging and punishing Em for a reason she didn’t know and yet you are doing the same to me. At least I know that Em had been horrible and thrown things around since I did find a wooden horse in the foyer but you accuse me of lying to you. Have I been such a horrible husband to you? Have I ever lied to you before? Then why should I start now? Meg?" He tried to turn her to face him. "I don’t know what Mother said to you but believe me, I did not tell Mother that this house wasn’t hers any longer, I told my brothers that we were building by the lake. Heath wants to build by land’s end, Jarrod has his in San Francisco so I guess they couldn’t see why we should move, besides Father did leave the house to me. I have said it before; I’ll move if you want as long as we don’t leave the valley, we could even move into that house of yours."

 

"It’s going to be a school."

 

"There aren’t any papers signed about that yet, are there?" Megan shook her head.

 

"You won’t like it in town."

 

"That’s another thing." He put his arms around her. "Megan, I don’t care where we live as long as we are together."

 

"Me too."

 

"Emily went down to the kitchen to see if Silas had any goodies stored away, why don’t the three of us go for a ride? We could have a peek at different places or just go to the small waterfall."

 

"The waterfall sounds nice." He smiled at her as she turned her head and looked at him.

 

"Then the waterfall it is. You might to want to wash that pretty face before we leave." With a kiss he left her.

 

 

 

Chapter thirty-three

 

It was just the third day of April and yet the sun was hot. At least Nick felt it as such from where he sat beside Jarrod and Megan. Yesterday had been a waste and from the start of today, this day would be the same. He thought of all that needed to be done at the ranch, pulling out his watch to gleam at it.

 

There had been two surprises the day before. One had been that both Jarrod’s friends were on the enemy’s side, the other that the judge was changed from Judge Formby, a very dear friend of Jarrod’s to Judge Wellington from San Francisco. Nick had been both hurt on his brother’s behalf and stunned but Jarrod had explained later that their boss probably worried about losing and put in all he had since the Craven’s were a rich client. Heath had added that it only meant that Jarrod was the best and it had explained why Miss Ascot had had another lawyer than they had thought she would. Nick hadn’t even known that that woman hadn’t had Johan Peters as a lawyer when it came to court. As for the judge, well, he hadn’t decided over how he felt about that change, yet. Nick pulled himself back to reality, studied Jarrod for a moment before he straightened his back in pride over Big Brother as he looked over to the jury and instead wondered what they were thinking of. The evidence provided to them yesterday should have made it clear the Barkley family was right and that Craven had no chance to win or gain on this. Nick still couldn’t figure out why Mr and Mrs Craven hated his wife so much that they would take it to court. Surely by now after three months they would know who they were dealing with.

 

 

 

Nick took a sip of water trying to keep his eyes and ears focused to what his brother was doing and saying. So far it wasn’t in any way interesting and he felt the warm air making him dozy. He reached out a hand, touched Megan’s and gave it a small squeeze. His wife looked tired and tried to smile back. For some reason she was scared. Nick knew she hadn’t slept very well, he had woken twice when she nearly pushed him out of bed and once when she actually had fallen taking the blanket with her. At the end he had secured her against his body with his arm and leg and somehow managed to get her to lay still but sleep no. And to make it worse Emily had come into their bed around four. He had left them when the clock struck five and gone out for a ride instead. He braided their fingers and tried to give her some of his strength. She looked so beautiful in the simple dress she had chosen.

Behind the couple sat Victoria, Heath and Vera Woods. They had all decided together with Jarrod that it was best if Margaret Capenwick were kept a secret until Jarrod called her as a witness but she had after yesterday been so frustrated that Vera today had lent her new friend some clothes, since the ladies knew that Margaret’s expensive outfits would catch attention in the courtroom of Stockton. Margaret was now sitting in the back row hiding under a bonnet, shawl and a very plain coat.

 

Heath was keeping a close eye on his sister-in-law. While Nick had been gone he had made it his job to keep her safe and well and the look of her now made him worried. He wondered if she and Nick had had another argument because of the house suggestion he and Jarrod had made but he sure didn’t think it looked so. He didn’t want her to turn ill again. She and Nick sure needed time together and she to be on her legs. He started to think, developing the idea that suddenly came to him and as Jarrod again asked the man about the sales Mr Melwin had done with the Barkley products Heath let his mind travel to the lodge.

 

 

 

Victoria was another Barkley who couldn’t concentrate. She found the old man very boring. He had apparently worked with Peter Melwin during the house building but she couldn’t recall him at all and information he came with Jarrod managed to shatter into little pieces. She hid the yawn that she felt came and her mind wandered off to poor Mrs Persson who not only had her own six children today but also Emily and Theodore. The only consolation was that Alma was used to having small children around her, and that Emily loved being with Selma and Anders, and that Anna seemed to have taken to Theo. Emily was bound to behave around them. Victoria turned her attention back to Jarrod.

 

Nick weighted the chair on its back legs as sitting still was hard. He started to feel very restless and hungry, wondering if it wasn’t time for lunch he put his fingers into the pocket for his watch and felt the piece of paper he had found behind the painting. He pulled it out and moved a little closer to Megan in case it was something she should read too. When he unfolded it he felt his jaw drop, nothing, there was nothing written on it at all besides the first words "This painting … " and here he had thought his Father would provide him with a secret. He was about to crumble the paper together when he remembered what had happened when he felt it when he sat on the stairs. Even if it didn’t say anything it was important, it had saved his marriage this time. He gently folded it together and saw that Megan studied him. He would have to tell her about the paper tonight when they were alone. He looked up and noticed Judge Wellington also looked at him and he smiled an apologetic smile back as Jarrod sank down on the chair beside Megan.

 

"I think it’s time for lunch. The court starts again at one o’clock. Mr Barkley, I hope your witness will have arrived by then." Every one stood up and Nick put a gentle hand on Megan’s back.

 

"Nick, what was in that paper? You look so strange."

 

"I’ll explain when we are alone as long as you promise not to laugh."

 

 

 

"Counsellor Barkley, the floor is yours." Judge Augustus Wellington was in Stockton Court room for the first time and he didn’t like it. He missed his cool court room in San Francisco and wished he never had promised his old friend to take this trial. The Barkley family had swept the floor with the evidence they had gathered concerning Tom Barkley’s connections with Peter Melwin and how much the Melwins really owed them. Wellington understood that his friend wanted him there hoping it would help the firm’s client Mr Craven and the lawyers representing him and he sensed that it was more to it that just the crops and he hoped that Jarrod Barkley now would clear the "sky" for him so that he could be on his way back to the city.

 

"I call Mrs Margaret Capenwick to the stand." Jarrod looked out over the audience and down the aisle came a magnificent woman dressed in a silver grey dress with her white hair perfectly formed around her head. Adeline Craven paled as her older sister walked past her while her husband Albert suddenly started to cough.

 

When Margaret had been sworn in and taken her seat Jarrod started with the normal questions about who she was and how she came to know Megan Barkley née Adams. Margaret answered the questions but when she had finished stating why she was there she turned to the judge.

 

"Your honour Judge Wellington, it would be much easier if you would let me tell the background to why my sister and her husband persist on having us all perform this ridiculous trial." She held up her hand to Jarrod. "Counsellor Barkley has informed me the procedure but I’m an elderly lady and would like to leave this building before I’m ready for the graveyard. After I’m done I promise I shall answer any questions there are from the lawyers." Wellington looked over his spectacles at her.

 

"Mrs Capenwick, you should have come forward before this started."

 

"Your honour, Counsellor Barkley and I tried last week but were met with the words that this had to be settled in court."

 

"Very well then, Mrs Capenwick. Let it be known to the protocol that we are changing the normal procedure and let the witness first tell us her statement. Mr Peters and Mr Goldstein, be prepared with your questions when Mrs Capenwick is done. Counsellor Barkley you may join your clients. Mrs Capenwick you may start." He leaned back in his chair and watched the woman as she straightened her dress and then her hat.

 

"As I said before my name is Margaret Capenwick but I was born as the first daughter to Lord Chapwell and my sister Adeline came less than a year later. Our parents already had five boys. The family owned a castle in Sussex. My sister and I had our debutante ball at the same time meaning I had to wait a little while Adeline had hers a little early. By then our economy wasn’t very good and my brothers spread around the world in different choices of work, only Anthony stayed at home since he was Father’s heir. At one of the dances I was introduced to Joseph Capenwick whose family had made their money in textiles and transport industries. Joseph worked together with his father and two brothers but he also had a few things on his own. He volunteered to pay some of the family’s debts if he was allowed to marry me. I said yes of course and Father accepted it. My husband had his toys as all boys do, the toys are just different depending on how old boys are. Now my husband liked engines and unfortunately one day when our youngest was a year old he was killed in one of his games leaving me as a very wealthy widow."

 

Nick was amazed over the woman in front of him and he leaned forward on his elbows while Jarrod who heard the story before leaned back and just enjoyed the situation.

 

"By now Adeline had met Albert Craven. He made the big mistake to brag about his money and tell Father and Anthony that heritage and traditions were in the past and were going to be destroyed as they were parasites. Money was the thing and was the only thing that mattered. Well I think you can imagine Father’s reaction when everything he cherished was criticized. Mr Craven was told to leave and Adeline was forbidden to see him. She disobeyed Father and eloped and we received a telegram informing us that they had gotten married. For our parents she was as good as dead but I stayed in touch with a letter now and then."

 

Margaret looked at the judge. "I can see that you are wondering why I’m telling you this but you will understand, Your honour. I have three children, 2 boys and a daughter, Abigail. Abigail is very much like her aunt. Anyway after my husband’s death I had kept our London home and I decided that the children and I were going to live there. Modern communications are good to Sussex and my husband’s family saw to it that we could keep his part of the companies they had together and for his own transport company I saw to it that it was run by people I could trust. I wanted everything to be in order for his sons one day. When my daughter was eighteen she met her husband at a debutante ball and left as the last child the house. It got very empty and I got bored. That is when I started to educate the daughters to old friends and their families in how to behave and anything else that might be good for a Lady to know when she goes on to her debutante year. It seemed that I managed to keep my students but never seemed to be able to keep a maid until I came across Miss Adams."

 

Margaret smiled to Megan and saw that the girl relaxed a little as Nick reached for her hand and held on to it. She sighed. They were so sweet together.

 

"Every Saturday I used to treat myself to some exclusive chocolates and one Saturday Mrs Smittens told me that she was closing the shop and since she knew I was, once again, looking for a new maid or rather a lady’s company, she asked if I would be interested in one of her girls. After she had told me about Miss Adams I went home and thought about it and the coming Saturday I asked to meet her."

 

The hot air made her sweat and she stopped talking while she looked in her purse for her handkerchief. After she had wiped her face she got out a small hand fan before she continued. "That is one of the best decisions I have ever made. Miss Adams stayed with me for a little more than five years but during that time I learned things I never knew I would and Miss Adams turned into a very special lady. Once when one of her nephews was ill and she had to take care of him I visited her. I can’t remember who of us was most surprised. I did know that people lived under different, what shall I say, circumstances but I never before knew how bad it could be. My admiration for the girl grew immensely. When she was back by my side I forced her to guide me around in both Southwark and the East End and after that I started a few funds seeing to it that the children and women got it better, a little any way. A few schools, a hospital ward etc. I noticed now that my daughter didn’t like what was happening and that she complained to her aunt. Every letter Adeline sent told me off for spending the money on scum and that I needed to get rid of Miss Adams at once. I didn’t bother about it and continued to go my own way. I knew about Miss Adams’ sister here in America and I knew about Miss Adams’ dream of joining her but also the reason for why she still was in London so when the day came when she buried her Father I told her I would pay her ticket. I didn’t want to lose her but I felt better to know that she would arrive here safely.

 

"Needless to say I found the house very empty after she had left and I realised that she had become like a daughter to me. I wished I had had one more son, and don’t get me wrong now because I have the best daughter-in-laws a mother can have but one more son would have meant that he could have married her and she would have stayed with me. My own flesh and blood daughter had become worse and all she wanted was to have and have. Her demands were driving me mad so about two weeks after Miss Adams had left I paid her a sum of money saying that was it. She was cut from my will and she and her husband had to fund their lifestyle by themselves. I drew up funds for all my grandchildren and for my sons too. I know that if I had done this while Miss Adams still had been with me she would have seen to it that I hadn’t done it. Abigail complained to her dear aunt at once and I got a telegram saying that if I didn’t pull back the funds my sister and her husband would see to that I was declared insane. Did I bother no, did I pull back the funds, yes I did. I pulled back Abigail’s but not the grandchildren’s or my boys’. Then I went to Lord Bremness and my brother Anthony and they helped me with the rest. Now things like this don’t happen over night, all this took a few months and the last pieces weren’t ready until Christmas. You see Your honour, I turned Miss Adams into my heir. She will get everything except the few things I have marked out for my sons, daughter-in-laws and grandchildren. My daughter won’t get a thing. I told the family about this at our Christmas dinner and the day after I had a telegram from my sister."

 

She saw the shocked eyes of Megan and Nick’s brow s raise in surprise as he looked between them before he steadied his wife as she was about to faint. He held the water glass for her as her hands were shaking. When he had placed it back on the table he gently stroked her back calming all the emotions that went though her. The trio behind them stared at Margaret and tried to understand what she had just told them.

 

"I can just imagine what went though my sister and her husband’s heads when they met Miss Adams and her husband. Oh. I think I have said Miss Adams all the time out of a habit. It’s of course Mrs Barkley. Sorry Dearest. I think that by hurting Mrs Barkley they thought she would get me to change my mind but what they didn’t know was that Mrs Barkley had no idea of what I had done or that I had wanted to adopt her but my lawyers and advisers say you can’t adopt an adult and especially not when she didn’t know." She looked up at Judge Wellington who looked back at the woman. She was a surprise indeed and with a look at the Craven’s table he adjourned the court a few hours so that the lawyers could have a discussion with their client. He also saw that younger Mrs Barkley looked like she needed to lay down.

 

"Jarrod you knew?" Nick looked at his brother while helping Megan to her feet. Victoria and Vera had hurried to Margaret.

 

"Yes, Margaret told me everything last week but I had to promise not to say anything. As she said we tried to keep this out of court."

 

"So that I would never know?" Megan studied the face of her brother-in-law.

 

"No Megan, I just think she was looking for the right time to tell you and it hadn’t come yet. You two have never been completely alone since she arrived and I think that is what she wanted."

 

"She could have asked." Megan felt hurt and Nick saw the pain in her eyes and pulled her into his arms.

 

"You know what Love, if you had known it wouldn’t have been such a good effect. Now everybody could see that it was a complete surprise for you. Adding to the good points. Come we have a few hours before we need to be here again. Why don’t you and Margaret talk things over in Jarrod’s office while the rest of us have a nice piece of pie and some very strong coffee, even if I would rather have a cold beer? And there is another good thing with this break, now I have a chance to pick up a few things for our birthday boy tomorrow."

 

"Nick, about that, think the Persson children would like to come to a small party on Saturday? I mean, tomorrow is Friday and us being here for two days, think Theo would mind if he had to wait for the party?"

 

"No Megan, I think he won’t mind but that doesn’t mean we won’t celebrate tomorrow but the party is on Saturday." Heath heard the last words.

 

"Party?"

 

"For Theo."

 

"Can I get to arrange a fishing pond like the one they had at the fair?"

 

"Sure, no children party without a fish pond."

 

"Well, if Uncle Heath gets to do the fish pond I think I need to think of something too. Margaret, you were magnificent."

 

"Thank you Jarrod. Megan, I should have told you before."

 

"Margaret, I suggested to Megan that the two of you talk things over in Jarrod’s office."

 

"I like that. Will you join me Megan?" Megan smiled at the elder woman.

 

"Of course."

 

 

 

Chapter thirty-four

 

Nick stood leaning against the fence to the paddock smoking his cigar. The darkness was closing in and the chilly clear air felt good after the two days indoors. In the paddock were the five horses from the Doyle’s and a few new ones that Sam Brahma had found a week ago. Nick studied their movements and felt very satisfied with what he saw. Duke McCall came up, accepted the cigar Nick handed him and together the men stood in silence for a while.

 

"I got the saddle and bridle for the pony. They will be in the tack room tomorrow morning."

 

"Wait until after breakfast. The women decided that they didn’t want to get up at five and you know that Theo is up with us, even if we tell him to enjoy the opportunity for a longer sleep. He will notice if they are there and I don’t want to spoil the surprise." He blew out the smoke. "Some fine mares there."

 

"A couple of the men saw the stallion again today."

 

"Huh, perhaps he’s worth a try?"

 

"Think so."

 

"Monday?"

 

"I’ll send out a couple of lookouts tomorrow to see if he stays in a certain area or if he just moves about."

 

"See if there are any mares with him. I didn’t see any last week."

 

"They didn’t mention any but I’ll see to it that they check it out. Plans?"

 

"No mares we could use these ladies." Nick nodded towards the two mares that stood close to him.

 

"Tried the roan yesterday morning. She is calm. Perhaps something for Megan to learn on?"

"Megan is not too bad as a rider." Duke smiled when he sensed his boss’ surprise. "She and I have been practicing both riding and driving a buggy. She learns quickly even if she’d rather let someone else drive."

 

"But …"

 

"I guess she’d rather have me as a tutor than you and I was suppose not to say anything but as I have noticed that she hasn’t even been down here since you came home I figured you might as well know."

 

"She is full of surprises." Nick shook his head and grinned. Duke noticed the figure coming in the dark and after giving Nick a squeeze on his shoulder he left. Passing Megan he tipped his hat. Seeing Nick she hesitated a little as she was unsure if he wanted her company or not.

 

"Come here, Love." Nick pulled her into his arms and gave her a gentle kiss. A soft push on the side made them turn towards the paddock again. The roan mare stood by the fence hoping for something to munch on. Megan patted her flank and smiled.

 

"Sorry, haven’t got any with me today." Nick reached into a pocket and gave Megan a bit of sugar.

 

"Always be prepared." He stood behind her and rested his head on her shoulder.

 

"I couldn’t find you inside when I came down again. Do you want to be alone?"

 

"No, I don’t mind your company. It just felt good to be outside and I didn’t feel like a game of pool with my brothers or discussing the trial. Did you get a chance to talk to Alma when you picked the children up?"

 

"Yes, I invited them and a few more children that were there. Emily has found herself a group of friends and Theo is happy to just be around her and Anna." Megan smiled. "Actually I think those Scandinavian children treat him as one of them and I think he enjoys that. I guess being from another country has made them understood how it is to be different, to not fit in. In all I think with Em and Theo it will be twelve children. Think we can handle it?"

 

"No problems but Mother said she invited a few from the orphanage too so it will be more." He felt her lean against him. "How are you doing, my beloved Megan? It’s been a quiet afternoon."

 

"I’m scared, shocked, tired and angry."

 

"Angry?"

 

"Yes, that they would do something like that to hurt you and your family, just because they wanted revenge and to hurt Margaret."

 

"Me? Meg it was you they used. The Barkleys as a family won yesterday. Today was all about you. I was surprised that they still wanted to continue the trial after what Margaret had told the court and I’m grateful that the judge realised the situation and made it short when Peters called you to the stand."

 

"Margaret still wants to adopt me and asked me to think it over."

 

"Meg, I can’t tell you what to do, just follow your heart."

 

"I’m scared Nick." He pulled her closer.

 

"Don’t be. I’m here."

 

 

 

"Hurry up, is everything in place?" Victoria urged them to be in the dining room when Nick, Heath and Theo came in from the barns. Silas had prepared a special breakfast for the boy with the things he had noticed the boy loved for breakfast. Emily came down the stairs as fast as she could holding her auntie with one hand and with a small piece of paper in her hand. She had put on her Christmas dress to be as pretty as possible after Megan had explained why today was special.

 

"Auntie Eggan, you still opt me?" Emily stopped half way down.

 

"I want too Em if you are sure."

 

"Em want too." She took a few more steps down before she stopped again. "When my special?"

 

"When is your birthday? It’s in May, on the 29th. Nearly two more months."

 

"Too long."

 

"I know and to make it worse Love, you have to share it with me."

 

"Your special too?"

 

"Yes, but as I’m so much older I’ll let you have the day. Alright?"

 

"No, it our." She jumped the last step and pulled her aunt towards the dinning room but stopped when she saw the decorations. "Pretty." She put the crumbled paper beside her plate and crept up on the chair. Victoria was about to take it to throw it away. "No." The girl pushed her grandmother’s hand away. "Theo’s."

 

"Sorry, child." Victoria walked over to her place as Jarrod, Margaret, Vera and Megan stood by theirs. They heard the front door open and the three boys come in. Nick was louder than normal so that they would know that they were on their way.

 

"Come on, Son. Need to clean up a little before we sit down for some food." Theo looked at him and nodded. As soon as he had gone towards the kitchen to wash Heath hurried to his place and Nick went for the trolley they had prepared yesterday.

 

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!" The volume of the voices that met Theo when he turned into the dining room almost knocked him down and he backed a few steps. Emily jumped down from her chair, grabbed his arm and pulled him into the room.

 

"Special day, we have pancake." Nick went up to him and tousled his hair while Megan pulled him into her arms. Theo looked at the decorations hanging from the ceiling and that laid around his place. With the help of his parents he was soon placed where he should be while the rest of the family sat down. Nick pushed the trolley closer too him and grinned when he noticed the boy’s large eyes on all the parcels.

 

"Now where shall we begin? Here is something from your grandmother." Theo looked stunned at Victoria as he took the parcel. He sat watching it until Emily pushed his arm.

 

"You open, thing inside." She looked at him with an experienced face which made the adults burst out in laughter. "Em help?" Megan touched Emily and shook her head. Theo started to carefully open the sides first, trying to save the paper as much as possible. When he lifted the lid of the box he found a game of Chinese checkers. He touched the marbles and with shining eyes he looked to Victoria and thanked her before turning back to the box. Emily pushed him again. "More."

 

"Sweetheart, let Theo take his time." Megan stroked her back.

 

"But Em want pancake."

 

"In time you will get some." Theo looked at his sister and smiled.

 

"Here Son, this is from Uncle Heath." Nick was as patient as his daughter but not for the same reason. Theo understood that he couldn’t spend too long time looking at each item but was still stunned over things he got: clothes from Mrs Margaret and Mrs Vera, fishing rod and harmonica from Uncle Heath, books and more games from Uncle Jarrod, a Punch and Judy from Emily, more clothes from his grandmother. It wasn’t until he opened the last parcel that was from Ma that his tears started to fall as he got so overwhelmed. Megan had gotten him boots, a vest, a bandana and a cowboy hat with the help of her husband after he had told her about the pony.

 

"I’ll look like you Pa." He put the hat on.

 

"Well, I’ll let it go for today Son, but we don’t wear our hats at the dinner table." Theo quickly took it off as Heath chuckled.

 

"Theo, we will teach you all that you need to know about wearing a cowboy hat so that it will show that you are a Barkley man."

 

"Why don’t you brand the poor boy too?" Victoria looked at her sons.

 

"MOTHER!" Her sons answered her in unison.

 

"Ready for breakfast Theo?"

 

"Yes, Granny."

 

"No." "There is more." Emily and Nick answered at the same time. Emily reached the small crumbled paper to him. Theo looked at her and took it. There was something hard inside and as he unfolded the paper a stone showed. It had the rough shape of a heart.

 

"It’s pretty Em. So soft." He let the stone stroke his cheek.

 

"Em find it when we picnic. Em find many stone." Theo showed Megan.

 

"It’s lovely. It looks like a heart, dear." She gave it to Victoria and one by one the family members got to feel the soft stone. Theo followed its way around the table with a worried look and Megan realised that the stone probably meant more to the boy than the other gifts he had gotten. When the stone was put away in the box with the cowboy outfit Nick smiled to Megan and winked his eye as she nodded.

 

"Son, now it’s my turn but we have to go outside, I think your Grandmother and Mother would have my behind if I brought it in." Heath moved quickly and was out of the room before the others knew it as Nick lifted up Emily. He was a little worried how she would react to the present. When they all reached the front door Jarrod held it open so that they all could go outside. Nick placed a hand on Theo’s shoulder as Heath came leading the pony. Theo stared first at the pony and then at Nick. "Happy Birthday Son. I was about your age when I got Coco. He is your responsibility and I trust you are capable of taking good care of him. He is four years old and called Dusty."

 

"Thank you Pa. I will, I will take the best of care of him." He hopped over to the horse and caressed the soft head. Emily watched and sighed.

 

"Now we never get pancake." Giggling Megan stroked her cheek.

 

"Don’t worry, Love. That little cowboy must have some food in his tummy or his Ma will have a serious word with his Pa."

 

 

 

Nick threw himself down on their bed and grinned at Megan as she was struggling with her dress. He was still fascinated over how beautiful she was without the extra colour and stuff the women he had been with before had used. Megan was just clean, you saw what you got and he loved it. Her skin had been coloured by the sun and that was her makeup. Her hair had some red in it that sparkled in the candle light. Sensing that something had gone wrong he decided to help her and walked over to her and started to unbutton the buttons she struggled to reach. He helped the cloth slide off her shoulders but to his disappointment she placed her arm over her bust and stopped it from gliding off completely so instead he placed a kiss on her neck before he pulled her into his arms.

 

"Somebody is in a good mood tonight." Megan tilted her head and gleamed up to him.

 

"Hmmm, I have the right to be."

 

"Mind letting me into the secret?"

 

"I got a lovely daughter who finally decided that her aunt is going to be her Ma, a son that is going to be one of the finest horsemen in this state and the best of all …" He lifted her up and carried her to the bed. "I have the most wonderful wife a man can ever ask for. Not only is she beautiful and sweet as a warm ripe peach, she is this family’s brain and glue." He let his lips trace down her neck when they heard a knock on the door. "Sssshhh, if we don’t say anything whoever is out there might go away." Another tiny knock was heard.

 

"Daddy?"

 

"Nick you can’t leave her like that. What if she was having a nightmare? Go and get her." Nick stood up.

 

"You owe me girl. Nightmare huh?" Megan nodded and Nick sighed. Another thing he didn’t know about. "Hello sweetheart, what is it?" He lifted up Emily and wiped away the tears from her cheek.

 

"Nanny say Em must knock." She put her arms around his neck and Nick walked with her over to the bed.

 

"What are you doing up Em? Last time I looked you were fast asleep."

 

"They forget Em."

 

"Who?"

 

"They. And then Em all alone and dark round." She snuggled up into his arms. Another knock brought the attention to the door again and Megan walked over as she tied her dressing gown. Nick sighed.

 

"Ma, is Em here? I heard her cry before but when I got there she was gone." Theo stood outside looking miserable. He didn’t like to disturb his parents this way but his sister’s crying had shaken him.

 

"She is in here Theo." Megan stepped aside. "She has had another nightmare. I don’t think she has had one since you came." Theo went over to the bed.

 

"Sorry Pa." Nick moved so that the boy could get room too

 

"It’s alright Son." Theo stroked her cheek too.

 

"You could come into my room, Sis and read my new book if they let us have the light on." Emily shook her head and clung on even harder to her daddy.

 

"Know what Theo, why don’t you get that book and we all can read it." Theo’s eyes shone and he went off. "Megan, what is this nightmare thing? When did it start?

 

"A few days after you left, she overheard Jarrod talk to Fred about one of his clients and somehow in her mind she thought they were going after her because she had done something wrong. Anyway she heard something about a dark cellar. There were different dreams nearly every night, the other worse than the other but after Theo came they stopped. Sorry, I just haven’t thought of them." Nick smiled to her over his daughter’s head.

 

"It’s alright, Love. I gather the things that have happened to her during her short life isn’t making things easier either. Seems we won’t be alone tonight, remind me tomorrow that we are buying a larger bed. Why don’t you get yourself ready and when your done we can change places for a while."

 

"I’m sorry that your plans were interrupted." She kissed him and left with her things for the bathroom. Nick sighed and thought of what he had planned and that now had been postponed.

 

 

 

It was still dark when he woke Megan with a soft kiss. When her eyes were just open enough for her to notice him he placed a finger over her lips and whispered in her ear.

 

"Just get dressed for a ride. I want to show you something."

 

"But …"

 

"Sshhh, I don’t want company. Duke told me. I give you ten minutes to get ready while I get the horses. Meet me outside. Hurry please and please Love don’t wake them." Nick helped her out of bed. The cold air hit her and she wanted to climb back but her husband helped her into the dressing gown. "Ten minutes." She hurried as fast as she could thinking how fast one could forget how it was getting up before the hearth had warmed the room and when it was still dark. She found the skirt and boots Victoria had gotten her when her riding lessons had started and with a coat over her arm she hurried down the stairs trying to button the shirt. The cold water and the toothpaste had at least woken her and made her feel a little better. For every step she took she wondered what on earth her husband was up to. She gently closed the door as Nick came leading the horses up to the house. He tied both to the rail while he helped her with the coat.

 

"Nick, I’m not that …"

 

"Don’t worry, we won’t rush away but that don’t mean we have all the time in the world. Come on, let me help you up. I tried Patchy the other morning so I can guarantee she is calm and steady. Trust me." He was ready to help her when she mounted the roan. Nick let out a whistle. "Perhaps it is a good thing that it is Duke and not me teaching you because I sure don’t know where to keep my eyes Mrs Barkley." Megan snorted and took the reins from him. Chuckling Nick mounted Big Duke. "This way my Love, this way." Nick rode slowly out of the gate.

 

 

 

Theo stood watching them from the window. He had heard Nick and Megan and after she had left the room he had sneaked up to the window. Smiling he watched the two people he loved most beside his little sister ride out in the darkness before he returned to his warm bed.

 

 

 

They rode beside each other in silence. Megan noticed that Nick had his saddlebags and bedroll on and she felt the blush rush to her face. Nick sensed that something was going on in his wife’s head and he tilted his head to study her more closely while he smiled to her.

 

"Where are we heading Nick? It’s so dark I don’t even know which way we are going or if I have been here before." Her hand went up to strike a lock back into its place. "Oh, Nick I forgot my hat."

 

"So? You are beautiful even without it. And no talk about decent women must have a hat because nobody besides the horses and I can see you and we don’t care." He grinned at her. "Why don’t you let it loose completely?" He reached over to help her but she pushed away his hand and slid a little down the side. Nick steadied her.

 

"No."

 

"No? Want to slide down?" He couldn’t help himself, he just had to continue to tease her as he was enjoying the moment that he was, for once, alone with her.

 

"No. I can’t concentrate with you around. Is it still far Nick?" He shook his head and calmed Big Duke into a walking pace.

 

"Be careful around here Meg, some branches are low but this is the best to approach the place we are going to." Suddenly Megan heard the water and her eyes started to beam. Just as they came out in the open the first sunbeams came and got the water in the fall to glitter. Nick stopped the horses and turned to Megan. "When we were talking the other day you said something that got me thinking and the other morning when the bed got too crowded I took old Patchy here and went to check this place out. What do you think?" Megan looked around her. The greenery of the hardwood forest where the trees were still leafing giving them the fragile green colour, the glittering water, the rising sun’s golden colour colouring the sky in purple and lighting up everything, it all made the place look magical.

 

"Oh Nick it’s a dream. What on earth did I say when we were here that …? She turned to him. He got his horse moving and Patchy followed Big Duke.

 

"What you said was something like this "I have never felt so much at home as I do here." He got off the horse and tied him to a branch before he helped Megan off the horse. Placing the saddlebags over his shoulders he gave Megan the bedroll before he led her to the small stream that left from the fall. Megan couldn’t get enough of the scenery and almost tripped. Nick got everything ready and helped her down on the blanket. "Mind the grass, Love, it’s still damp from dew." He opened the bags and pulled out a bottle of champagne and two glasses. With experienced movements he opened the bottle and poured it.

 

"This was a marvellous idea, Precious, absolutely marvellous."

 

"Now you know why I was in such a good mood last night. Well, one of the reasons." He let a finger run along her face and then follow her body line and Megan felt her blush rise again. "After the trial and Margaret’s talk about how it looked in the part of London you came from my mind started to run in, I guess you can say, different twists, I had never realized really how bad your upbringing must have been and I must say I admire you even more now but I also felt bad."

 

"Bad? Why? You haven’t done anything to feel bad Nick."

 

"I have, instead of courting you as I should I more or less rushed you into a marriage, then I left you alone with my Mother and daughter. And not even a proper wedding did you get."

 

"Oh, Nick, do you really think I care about it. I got the man I dreamed of, that’s all that matters to me."

 

"I know, you don’t ask much of life, of material things that is. I have noticed that the only jewellery you use is the cameo and the rings …"

 

"I got my watch."

 

"And your watch." He smiled.

 

"I don’t have …"

 

"I know that. I also know that it’s my duty and pleasure to see to it that you have some more." He pulled a box from one of the bags. "Here Love." Megan took the box and was about to answer when he put a finger over her mouth. "Open." Megan lifted the lid gently and looked at the necklace that lay there.

 

"Nick, it’s so beautiful. The pearls, they are so …" She let her finger run over the pink round pearls. Nick leaned forward, took it, turned her around and placed it around her neck. Then he loosened her hair.

 

"I love you." Megan leaned into his arms. "I’m … I … Megan, what would you say about building our home here, on this spot with the road leading to the house the way we came riding and a veranda or garden facing this way so that we can enjoy it both mornings and evenings? I talked it over with Jarrod and Heath last night and after a discussion they saw things my way. Mother can have the house even if it’s rightfully mine. Perhaps Theo or Em or any one else of our future children might want to live there after her but I want you to have your first own home, a home that is yours from the beginning. Jarrod is going to see if there is anyway this piece of land can be yours or if not that both our names are on the paper. I want you to have this as your morning gift. The ranch buildings are just ten minutes away if you take a short cut so it’s no problems. Megan, what do you say? Shall we build our home and future on this spot?" Megan turned around and placed a kiss on her husband’s lips.

 

"Yes, I would love that."

 

 

 

THE END