I Love You Enough

(Parts 1-9)

by Livvie

 

 

 

 

Disclaimer: The characters and situations of the TV program "Big Valley" are the creations of Four Star/Republic Pictures and have been used without permission.  No copyright infringement is intended by the author.  The ideas expressed in this story are copyrighted to the author.

 

 

 


Her bright blue eyes smoldered in resentment toward the pacing figure in front of her. There was no way she was sorry for she did. She had never been sorry for anything in her entire life, and no stuffed shirt Counselor Barkley was going to make her start now.

 

Jarrod Barkley stopped pacing and placed his uncalloused hands flat on his desk, leaning forward slightly. His own intense blue eyes were fixed on the teenage girl in front of him.

 

"Now look," he began," we can do this the easy way, or we can do this the hard way. The sheriff instructed me to get some basic information from you and I'm going to do it one way or another."

 

"That's what you think," she snapped back," What do you need information for? The storeowner already dropped the charges against me; you got no right to hold me here!"

 

Jarrod fought down the urge to shout. Something, he thought absently, that he wished his brother Nick would do more of. Instead what he said was this:

 

"If you won't tell me what I want to know, what makes you think I'll tell you what YOU want to know?"

 

The girl scowled, if there wasn't anything she hated more than sitting in a stuffy office, it was the smug, stuffy lawyer that went with it.

 

"The name's Rose," she mumbled.

 

"Now that's very nice, does it have a last name to go with it?"

 

Now it was her turn to be smug.

 

"You said you wanted BASIC information, my first name IS basic information...anything else would be strictly personal."

 

Jarrod sat down in his desk chair and folded his hands in front of him.

 

"Now look Rose, I'll be happy to let you leave the minute that you provide me with enough information so that I might contact your parents."

 

For a moment Jarrod could have sworn he saw her skin pale slightly.

 

"Whaddya need to contact them for?" she asked...sarcasm gone.

 

"You stole food from the General Store, now don't you think that's something that they should know about?"

 

She regained her composure quickly.

 

"Sure thing," she said, sarcasm back. "If'n I had parents."

 

Jarrod felt a slight pang of sympathy.

 

"You don't have parents?"

 

She began to play with the buttons on her shirt sleeve.

 

"Nope."

 

Jarrod sighed," Well then Little Lady, that presents us with a problem."

 

"For you maybe, I can just get up and leave." she stood up and headed for the front door.

 

"THAT'S the problem," Jarrod said stopping her in her tracks.

 

"WHY is THAT a problem? You said I could leave as soon as I gave you information."

 

"Well that was before you disclosed that you didn't have parents."

 

Rose stiffened, she was beginning to understand what he was trying to tell her.

 

"You can't send me home because I don't have a home to go to?"

 

Jarrod nodded as she flopped back down in her chair.

 

"Now listen Counselor," she said defensively," I've been on my own for the past year now. I don't need a home with parents to depend on. I depend on myself, do you understand?"

 

"You depend on yourself and yet you needed to steal food from someone else to keep from starving to death? No Rose, you are thirteen, maybe fourteen years old, you need someone whether you want to admit it or not. The last place in this world that you need to be is on the streets scrounging to get by!!!"

 

"But I HAVE been getting by!!! That's my point!!!" she shouted, rising to her feet. Jarrod rose to meet her.

 

"And MY point is that if I let you go now, knowing what I know, it would weigh very heavy on my conscience."

 

"So you don't care what happens to me anymore than anyone else does. Is that right Counselor."

 

Jarrod massaged his temple in frustration. "You're very exasperating for one so young.

 

"And you very exasperating for one so old Counselor."

 

Jarrod resumed his earlier position of leaning forward on his desk.

 

"First of all Young Lady, I am not old...I just want to clear that up. Second of all, what I meant was that I'm involved now and I couldn't let you go even if I wanted to."

 

She matched his leaning position on the opposite side of the desk.

 

"All right then Mr. Barkley...what do you propose we do?"

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

"I propose that you stay at the Stockton orphanage until we can find a suitable home for you," Jarrod suggested.

 

"Now wait a minute Counselor, I'm not going to any old orphanage to sit around and be studied by adults like some horse being sold at auction," Rose snapped in protest.

 

"Then what do you propose we do?" Jarrod asked, echoing her earlier words.

 

She plopped down in her chair, smug smile on her face. At least, to Jarrod, it seemed smug.

 

"I have an Aunt in New York, I could stay with YOU until you reach her."

 

Jarrod's eyes opened wide, she was definitely forward in her mannerism wasn't she?

 

"With ME???"

 

"Well why not?" she pouted..."If you send me to an orphanage I'll just run away, and you said that you were too involved now to let me go and it would way heavily on your conscience."

 

Why that sneaky little, Jarrod thought. Eying her eager face Jarrod laughed out loud.

 

"Well I don't really see a problem with it, but my family might."

 

Rose stood back up and drew herself up to her full height...which, in reality wasn't very tall at all.

 

"Why would they? I'm adorable, they'd love me."

 

Jarrod surveyed her up and down, "That's debatable" he said.

 

"Sure, fine," she said, sounding hurt," you don't trust me?"

 

"Now I never said THAT and you know it," Jarrod said defensively. Sighing he added, "Alright we'll give it a try, just let me talk to the sheriff first."

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

Rose stood leaning against the post next to the sheriff's office when Jarrod finally came out. His ears were still ringing with the load of objections that the sheriff had come up with before finally, and rather reluctantly, agreeing to let her go with him to the ranch. The objections were to be suspected though, he'd had several two years ago when he took in Maybelle Williams, and look how well she turned out.

 

"So what did he say?" she asked.

 

He decided to bypass all the gristly detail so instead he said," It took a little debating on my part, but he finally saw my point."

 

"Which means...?"

 

"It means he said yes," Jarrod said, spelling it out.

 

She breathed a sigh of relief, happy that she wouldn't have to go to the orphanage after all.

 

"So..." she said changing the subject," do you think that since I'm staying with your family for a spell, that maybe I need to know a little about them?"

 

They were on their way to the livery stable to fetch the buggy as Jarrod tried his best to answer her questions.

 

"Well let's see...there's my mother and little sister Audra. Then there's my three brothers, Heath and Eugene who are the quieter of two. But Nick...well you might have to watch out for him."

 

Rose stopped dead in her tracks, paling considerably. "Watch out for him how?" she squeaked.

 

Jarrod didn't notice her change in pallor, but instead kept walking, letting her fall behind.

 

"I only meant that he can be a little louder than you might be used to."

 

Trust me, She thought, I'm used to a lot. But noticing his relaxed tone she to relaxed and hurried to catch up.

 

"I ain't scared of nobody!!!" she informed him.

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

So the deal had been made and Rose now found herself seated in a buggy next to a wealthy lawyer, a position that she NEVER thought she'd ever be in. She hated to admit it to anyone else but she was extremely nervous. Would the Barkleys mind her staying with them for a spell? Would she WANT to? Well...she could already answer the second question, of COURSE she did. If she didn't she wouldn't have lied about her New York aunt. She might as well enjoy her stay with the aristocracy while the pretenses lasted.

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

She had been so wrapped up in her thoughts that she hadn't noticed when the buggy stopped. She started out of her seat when a large hand waved in front of her face. She slapped in away in annoyance.

 

"Don't do that!" she snapped.

 

Jarrod smiled at the burr under her saddle, she sure could work up a fuss in a hurry.

 

"You were awfully quiet during the ride out here, I was just making sure you were still in there."

 

Rose rolled her eyes as she jumped down out of the buggy at his mild, but unfunny, joke.

 

"Where would I go?" she asked sarcastically.

 

Jarrod shrugged his shoulders, stepping down from his own seat in the buggy. He was already headed for the front door when he looked back at the teenage girl. She stood rooted to her spot on the ground...neck stretched all the way back....staring at the large white mansion in awe.

 

"Rose?" he called to her.

 

She looked at him, almost guiltily. She was only more than a little embarrassed that she'd been caught staring. She followed him to the front door. Jarrod held it for her as she walked in...eyes almost bulging out of her skull as she took in her surroundings. Turning to face Jarrod and forgetting her manners yet again she asked:

 

"This IS where you live right? You ain't foolin' me are you?"

 

"He most certainly isn't," a feminine voice said behind them.

 

Rose turned back around to see a well dressed elderly woman descending the stairs. At least, Rose SUPPOSED she was elderly. If the woman didn't have solid white hair she wouldn't have guessed her to be any older than Counselor Barkley behind her.

 

"Hello," the woman continued pleasantly," I'm Victoria Barkley, Jarrod's mother."

 

If she hadn't been remembering her few lessons in manners this time, Rose's jaw might have been scraping the ground. She looked at Jarrod.

 

"THIS is your mother?" she asked.

 

He nodded just as Victoria said, "Why? shouldn't I be?"

 

The teenager felt her face growing hot and just KNEW that it was turning the color of her namesake.

 

"No Ma'am," she stammered, "I mean, yes Ma'am. I mean...I just didn't expect Mr. Barkley's  Ma to be so...pretty."

 

Jarrod chuckled silently as he watched the girl that was so brash in his office be so awkward in the presence of his mother. Somehow he got the feeling that this just might work out...provided that Victoria took the news of their new house guest in good stride. But it was best to worry about one thing at a time.

 

"Come on Rose," Jarrod interrupted them," let me show you your room."

 

He noted Victoria's confused face and added," I'll explain in a minute Mother."

 

Nodding her consent, Jarrod took Rose upstairs. As soon as they were in the upstairs hall and out of his mother's earshot he whispered to Rose..."You know if you keep that flattery up, my Mother my decide to NEVER let you leave."

 

Again...Rose felt her face flush, but she said nothing.

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

Jarrod found his mother sitting in the living room when he came back downstairs...waiting for him more than likely. Entering the room Jarrod poured himself a drink before beginning the inevitable conversation that he knew they were going to have.

 

"You know you never cease to amaze me Mother," he began.

 

"Oh?" Victoria questioned...slightly puzzled, "Why is that?"

 

Jarrod turned around to face her," You got more respect out of that little lady in the last ten minutes then I've gotten in the last two hours."

 

Victoria smiled," I guess I just have the magic touch."

 

He tipped his glass toward her in agreement with her playful remark. "Exactly."

 

"Jarrod," Victoria said, becoming serious," why did you bring her here? I'm sure there's more to all of this than the fact that she's a house guest."

 

Jarrod stared at the bottom of his glass, Mother always knew. "Your right of course," he admitted.

 

"Then what is it?"

 

He took a deep breath and began the story.

 

"Jake Thomas caught Rose stealing food out of his store, he decided not to press charges because this was her first offense and because she seemed to be new around town. But he DID want her parents to be notified of her misdemeanor. Fred tried his hand at questioning her and wasn't able to get anywhere so he called me over." Jarrod stopped, a faint smile on his lips as her remembered the state the Sheriff was in when he handed the teenager over to him for questions.

 

"Anyway," he began again," to make a long story short, I didn't get much out of her either. However, she did manage to tell me that she didn't have any parents. Of course I couldn't very well let her leave my office after hearing that." He looked over at Victoria, making sure she was still following, which she was. "I suggested to her that she stay at the orphanage until a suitable home could be found. It was an idea that she rejected, and to be quite honest it wasn't one that I had the heart to go through with anyway. It was clear to me that she needed proper attention, and that was something she just wasn't going to get at an orphanage."

 

"So you brought her here?" Victoria interjected.

 

Jarrod nodded.

 

"How long will she be staying with us?"

 

The lawyer swallowed his drink down and poured himself another before answering, "That's undetermined."

 

Victoria let this sink in for a moment, then she asked, "Did she mention any family members that she could stay with?"

 

"She said she had an Aunt in New York, so if that's true, Rose will have to stay here until her aunt can be contacted."

 

Victoria nodded her consent. "Jarrod, you know I'm willing to help in any way that I can."

 

He looked at his mother gratefully. "I was hoping you'd say that."

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

Rose looked around in awe at the interior of what was now her bedroom...for the hundredth time since Jarrod had left her ten minutes before. This was to lavish to be a dream...maybe it was just a really bad joke. On the other hand, if it was a dream, it was certainly one she didn't want to awake from. Why would she? She wasn't in any particular hurry to go back to her little shack in Cold Springs.

 

She eyed the bed longingly...it looked so comfortable! She made a mental note to ask when the Barkleys turned in around here. Her bed where she came from was a hard wood floor...ANYTHING was better than that.

 

There she went again...thinking about the place where she'd come from. Hadn't she promised herself that she wasn't going to do that? Isn't that why she ran away? So that she WOULDN'T think about it? She wasn't in Cold Springs anymore, she was in Stockton, and she was staying with the Barkleys.

 

A tap on the door interrupted her thoughts and indicated that Jarrod was back. But when the door opened Rose was surprised to Victoria entering instead.

 

"Ma'am?" Rose stammered," I didn't expect to see you up here."

 

Victoria smiled at her. "I might be getting older these days, but I can still climb a staircase."

 

No one had to tell Rose that her face was turning red, she could feel the burning. Why couldn't she say the right thing in front of this woman? Heck, why did she even open her mouth? All she managed to do was make an idiot out of herself every time she tried.

 

"No Ma'am, I just meant that..." she stopped herself when she saw the humorous glint in Victoria's eyes.

 

Great, now she's laughing at me.

 

"I know that isn't what you meant Dear," she said.

 

Dear? No one had ever called her "dear" before. People had called her several other choice names that she didn't care to
think about, but never "dear".

 

"I just came up to see if everything was alright."

 

"Oh yes Ma'am!" Rose said quickly, and almost childishly.

 

Ma'am. Eventually Victoria would have to tell Rose how much she hated being called "ma'am" but there was a time for everything, and now wasn't time. She'd managed to break Heath out of the habit, so now it was Rose's turn...not that she expected the poor girl to call her "mother," but at least something that didn't make her feel so old.

 

"Dinner is in a couple of hours," she said aloud," maybe you would like to clean up before you eat?"

 

Rose looked down at her clothes...she definitely could use a bath. Her shirt was so dirty that you could hardly tell what color it was anymore...but these were the only clothes she had.

 

"I don't have nothin' else to wear Ma'am," she told her a little sheepishly.

 

Victoria sympathized with the girl, she remembered being in the same situation when she was her age. "That's alright," she reassured, I'm sure that I can find something." She didn't want to mention that that "something" was one of her daughter's old things...and that they were in the attic.
"I'll show you where the bathtub is," she turned to leave.

 

"Ma'am?" Rose asked," why are you doing this for me? I mean....I'm sure Mr. Barkley has told you about...about what I did."

 

"You are a guest," Victoria replied," as long as you are here I won't treat you with any less respect than what you deserve."

 

"I don't deserve this much," Rose said," I was stealing food."

 

Victoria smiled," I'm not saying you did anything right, but I can tell you that I've been guilty of doing similar things when I was hungry."

 

"YOU Ma'am?" this was surprising news.

 

Victoria nodded," I haven't always been rich you know. But enough about me...let's see about that bath."

 

Rose grinned," Yes Ma'am!"

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

Rose sighed with pleasure has she lay in the warm bath water. She let her eyes droop as she felt the tension in her muscles loosen and melt away. She'd never felt anything this good in quite some time. Come to think of it, she'd never felt anything this good at any time. She was only faintly aware, in her dreamy state of mind, of the soft tap that sounded on the door.

 

"Rose?" the muffled voice of Mrs. Barkley asked from outside," may I come in?"

 

Rose opened her eyes and sat up," Yes Ma'am."

 

Victoria entered and quickly shut the door. "I forgot to bring you a towel..." her voice trailed off and she stared blankly at Rose's back.

 

"Is somethin' wrong Ma'am?" Rose asked. She followed the older woman's gaze to the area on her back that she was staring at.  "Oh that?" Rose said, laughing it off nervously," it was a um...accident."

 

Covering the space below her neck and almost the entire length of her spine was a huge mass of discolored scar tissue, and it didn't look like it had been done by any accident.

 

"Might I ask how it happened?" Victoria inquired.

 

"Oh...um...I can't really remember too well," Rose said quickly," I was...really little."

 

Victoria didn't know how anyone could forget receiving a scar of that type of magnitude, but she decided not to press the issue. She would figure something out later. For now she just smiled and handed Rose the towel.

 

"Here," she said," I'll be right back with something for you to wear."

 

Then just as quickly as she entered, she was gone again with a swish of her skirt. Rose exhaled the breath that she hadn't known she'd been holding. Did she suspect? This could not turn out well for her stay with the Barkleys. She just hoped that Mrs. Barkley wouldn't mention it to the lawyer.

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

Dinner. Now this was going to be an interesting experience. At least it was going to be from what Jarrod could figure. He could sense the poor girl's apprehension from the bottom of the staircase. He couldn't help but feel a slight pang of sympathy for her though, he'd always taken for granted the nice things he'd been born into, seeing someone that had never even been inside of a real house reminded him just how lucky he was.

 

"Now this couldn't be the same girl I spent the morning interrogating, now could it?" he said lightly.

 

He smiled warmly at her as he watched her face turn bright pink. For some reason or another this girl blushed a great deal.

 

Victoria wrapped an arm around Rose's thin shoulders," She looks very pretty doesn't she Jarrod?"

 

Jarrod grinned," Pretty as a picture."

 

What started as a light pink made a hasty transformation into a deep crimson red. Apparently compliments were not a commonplace in Rose's world. But indeed she did look very pretty. She sort of reminded him of Audra when she was that age, probably had something to do with the dress.

 

"Where are your brothers?" Victoria asked her eldest.

 

Jarrod turned his attention to the Barkley matriarch. "Oh, um, they said they were going to be a little late."

 

Her frown of disapproval did not go unnoticed by the ever observant lawyer.

 

"Well," Victoria said brightly," let's go into dinner shall we?"

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

Rose pulled her nightgown down over her head, mindful of touching her back, thankful that the fabric was soft. She couldn't believe she had been so careless as to let Mrs. Barkley see her scars. However, there was no mention of them all throughout dinner, maybe she didn't have cause for alarm. Who knew? Maybe Mrs. Barkley had already forgotten about them. However, she still had to be more careful in the future.

 

Dinner had gone better than she had anticipated. She had expected to make a fool of herself like usual. The ones named Nick and Heath did come to dinner late, but nevertheless she got to meet them.

 

Nick had seemed friendly enough, but he was kind of...loquacious? No, he was more than that, he was LOUD. She supposed he had his good qualities once a person got to know him, but at the moment she didn't want to get to know anyone that made the fatal mistake of calling her "Rosie."

 

Now HEATH, Heath was different. She took an instant liking to him. He was calm, polite, and HE didn't call her "Rosie." He was also extremely handsome. She knew too well that she was too young for someone like him, but still, thinking about him caused her temperature to rise to slightly above normal.

 

She didn't quite know what to make of Mr. Counselor Jarrod Barkley, Attorney at Law. She had despised his with a strong passion earlier that morning. Okay that wasn't entirely true, she despised his smugness...his way of making you feel like a complete idiot. However, he seemed like a reasonable down-to-earth type of man. He had a good head on his shoulders. He seemed like the type of person one could run to for anything, that a person could tell everything, which was probably why he was a lawyer. He seemed to inherit these traits from his mother.

 

Rose was definitely pleased that she had managed a small friendship with Mrs. Barkley. She hadn't judged her on outward appearance or on anything she'd done wrong. That was so different from how anyone else would have treated her, and how most everyone else treated her already.

 

She climbed into bed, happy that she'd managed to be taken in by a family like the one she was with. She only hoped it would last.

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

A sharp piercing scream resounded in Jarrod's ears, jarring him out of his pleasant dreams and snapping back into consciousness. He bolted out of his room and made his way down the hall to the guest room and flung open the door.

 

He ran to Rose's side, and desperately tried to wake the writhing figure. He tried to pull her up into a sitting position fighting against her flailing arms.

 

"Rose!" He said," Rose, Honey, come on wake up."

 

She pushed against him trying to get him to release his hold on her.

 

"LET GO!!!" she screamed.

 

"Rose WAKE UP!!!" He shouted.

 

Her eyes flew open in shock and scanned her surroundings. They finally settled on Jarrod's face and she burst into tears.

 

"I'm sorry Mr. Barkley, I'm so sorry." she cried.

 

Jarrod pulled her into a comforting embrace.

 

"Shhh," he said, smoothing her hair," shhh...just calm down Sweetheart, it's alright. It was just a dream."

 

"No," she cried softly, barely audible. "It was real."

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

Early the next morning Jarrod found himself positioned in front of Rose's bedroom door, knocking lightly, wanting to gain entrance. When he received no response he opened the door slightly, peeking in to make sure she was even present. The quiet figure of the teenage occupant sat still, back facing away from him, staring out the window.

 

"Mind if I come in?" he asked.

 

Again he received no response. He took the silence as an unspoken invitation and entered the room, closing the door quietly behind him. He moved toward the window and took a seat on the windowsill, placing himself directly in her line of vision. He took a moment to study the almost comatose form in front of him. The only sign of life was that her eyes were open, staring blankly ahead, seeing all and yet seeing nothing. He glanced out of the window at the bright sunshine that flooded the scenery outside , thinking absently how the mood outdoors and the mood indoors were in sharp contrast with one another. It was then he decided to break the silence.

 

"Lovely day today, isn't it?" he said, thinking of nothing better to start the conversation.

 

"What do you want ,lawyer?" she asked in a flat monotone.

 

Finally! He'd received more than a blank stare! Granted it wasn't much, but in the duration of his career he'd learned to take what he could get when he could get it.

 

"I wanted to see if you were alright," Jarrod said.

 

She looked at him, eyes strangely devoid of all emotion, dark and empty, like a fire after it's been doused with water.

 

"No, you didn't." she responded.

 

Jarrod frowned with concern. Something  was wrong. This was not the same girl he had met yesterday afternoon. Whatever it was she had dreamed about last night had shaken her deeply.

 

"Rose, what's the matter?"

 

A flicker of sarcasm touched her lips and when she spoke her voice was laden with it. "Why ,Counselor? I thought lawyers couldn't get emotionally attached to their cases."

 

"First of all," Jarrod snapped back," I don't believe I ever referred to you as one of my 'cases.' And second of all, I can get emotionally attached to whomever I please."

 

He paused after this statement, surprising himself with what he had just said. He also knew, just by the silence in the room, he had surprised her too. She stood up suddenly.

 

"Excuse me ,Mr. Barkley," she said, trying to exit the room, but Jarrod grabbed her arm.

 

"Rose, I want to help you."

 

She pulled her arm back angrily. "No you don't," she hissed back. " You're the one who wanted to put me in an orphanage in the first place, remember?"

 

Jarrod stood up, ." If I had really wanted to put you in an orphanage,, Rose, you'd be there now without a second thought."

 

She stared at him, disbelieving, blue eyes meeting blue.

 

"It was a mistake asking you to let me stay here," she said, turning away.

 

Jarrod sighed before responding, softly and gently, "Then why did you?"

 

Rose laughed, trying desperately to stop the tears that threatened to fall. "I don't know," she said in a small voice. "I guess that for once, I just wanted to know what it felt like to finally have everything."

 

Her words went through him like a dozen knives piercing his skin. His heart ached for this girl. She was so helpless...so alone. He longed to gather her up in his arms like he had the night before, to cradle her and take all her pain away, like a father might for a daughter.

 

"Rose, I said before that I wanted to help you. I meant it. But you have to be honest with me before I can do that. I know you weren't telling me the truth yesterday. You don't have an aunt back east do you?"

 

Rose shook her head.

 

"Then why did you tell me that you did?" he asked.

 

"It doesn't matter , Mr. Barkley, because you can't help me," she said sadly," No one can."

 

 

   * * * * * * * *

 

 

Jarrod shut the door behind him, leaving Rose's room no wiser than he had been when he had entered. The only thing he'd gained out of the entire conversation was extremely minimal information, and a deep sadness over what the Barkley house guest must have endured in her short life. He wasn't at all surprised that Victoria was waiting for him at the bottom of the stairs when he descended.

 

"How is she?" the older woman asked.

 

Jarrod sighed heavily, almost afraid to say it aloud, thinking that maybe if he didn't say it that it would disappear. His voice broke slightly when he said," Not good."

 

Victoria placed a sympathetic hand on his shoulder,(.)" Is there anything I can do?"

 

Jarrod scoffed sarcastically," I seriously doubt that." Realizing his rudeness, he looked at Victoria apologetically. "I'm sorry Mother. I'm just so frustrated. I wish I knew what was troubling her."

 

"Did she give you any hints?"

 

"No. She said it didn't matter if she did tell me anything because 'no one can help her."

 

"Jarrod, did you ever stop to consider?"

 

Jarrod looked at he. "Consider what?"

 

"Jarrod, I don't know many things. But the one thing that I have learned in all my years on this green earth is that too many people build walls around themselves. They are afraid to care too much for one person, or open up to one person because they think the other person might not care at all."

 

Jarrod sat down on the bottom stair, contemplating his mother's words of wisdom. Was that true? Did Rose honestly think he didn't care? He would've thought that last night would have proved it to her. After all, Jarrod didn't make a point of running into teenage girl's rooms at night for no reason at all. He almost felt parental toward her, like he was supposed to protect her. Although, for the life of him, he could not figure out the reason why. He'd only met her yesterday morning.

 

"What can I do, Mother?" he asked. He felt almost as helpless as when he was a boy, coming to her for all the answers.

 

"What do you think you should do?"

 

Jarrod hated those type of questions. "I don't know. She told me she didn't have any family at all. The only thing I can think of to do is take her to the orphanage in town."

 

Victoria stiffened at this news. Like Jarrod, she had felt a strange protectiveness over this new stranger. She couldn't pinpoint it's source either, but something told her that they should never let this girl out of their sight.

 

"Jarrod, do you think that's wise?"

 

Jarrod shook his head. " I don't, but I don't know what else to do. I don't want to send her to any orphanage but it's the only logical thing I can think of."

 

"Now you listen to me, Jarrod Barkley," Victoria said firmly. "Logic never did anyone any good unless they were doing arithmetic at school. Logic won't help that poor, frightened girl upstairs. Perhaps, logic is good, as far as it goes. But you must remember to use your heart as well as your head. If you do, I think you'll find more answers than you know."

 

 

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A large fist smacked down hard on the thick wooden table in front it. How dare that little brat? She thought she was so clever! Well he knew a few secrets too. He'd been in this game too long to see her walk away from him. He couldn't afford to have her getting mixed up with the Barkleys. He was going to get her back, and little Miss Jennifer Tate would be in for a rude awakening.