Through the Eyes of a Child

Parts 6-12

by Marci S

 

 

 

Disclaimer: The characters and situations of the TV program "Big Valley" are the creations of Four Star/Republic Pictures and have been used without permission.  No copyright infringement is intended by the author.  The ideas expressed in this story are copyrighted to the author.

 

 

 

 

Part 6

 

Nick spotted his brother and rode near him. Heath was fixing the fence that Nick was supposed to the day before but never found the time. He knew Heath was angry by the comments he had made at breakfast and Nick promised he would help. He had to admit it felt good getting back to normal.

“Heath.” Nick jumped off and tied his horse up near Heath’s horse.

 

His brother only grunted as Nick walked over.

“Where do you want me to start?” Some strong storms had knocked over a long stretch of the fence and it would probably take all day to fix.

“I don’t care.” Heath mumbled as he stood a post upright.

 

Sighing Nick picked up the next downed post and started digging a hole. He knew Heath was jealous of his relationship with Sam and Nick had talked long and hard with Jarrod, trying to figure out a solution to the problem. But they couldn’t and Nick wasn’t about to stay away from the little girl for Heath’s sake. It had been a week since her fever broke but she still didn’t have a lot of energy and was content staying near the house, quietly playing with her dog. Heath’s relationship with his sister seemed to be better, but he was still quiet and moody with the rest of the family. He was fine with the adoption and Jarrod was off in San Francisco getting the papers in order.

“Heath, how long are you going to be mad at me?” Nick kicked the post to make sure it was steady. He then started wrapping the wire around it.

“I’m not mad.” Heath had moved past his brother and proceeded to the next post.

“Yeah right.” Nick pulled the wire, crying out in pain. He knew the cut was bad before looking at the blood gushing down his arm. Quickly he pulled off his bandana and wrapped it around his hand and wrist.

“What happened?” Heath rushed over and noticed the blood dripping down his brother’s hand. “How bad?”

“I’m fine.” Ignoring the pain he continued to work.

 

Heath shrugged and went back to work also. But he couldn’t ignore the pain or blood for long and soon Nick sat heavily on the ground feeling lightheaded.

“Nick!” Heath rushed over. He grabbed Nick’s arm and checked the wound. It was precariously close to the wrist and Heath was afraid he hit an artery. “Let’s go. I’m taking you home and getting the doctor.”

“It’s just a cut.” Nick shook off his brother and stood. “This fence needs to be fixed before we lose any cattle.”

“It will get fixed. Just not by you.” Heath pushed his brother towards the horses and helped him up. He could tell the blood loss was affecting Nick just by the way he was leaning on his horse. They rode as fast as they could and soon neared the house.

 

Sam saw them and rushed over. “What happened?”

 

Lucky started yapping and got in the way.

 

“Sam, grab the dog.”

“Nick what’s wrong?” She ignored Heath as she stared at the stricken Barkley.

 

“Samantha, get Lucky out of the way.”

 

Sam scooped up the dog and followed them into the house.

“Audra, go get a doctor.” Heath ordered as he helped Nick to his room. Victoria followed, concerned by all the blood dripping from her son. She ran to get towels as Heath helped Nick into bed.

“It might be an artery,” Heath stated as they wrapped the wrist and hand. He heard the dog barking and realized his sister was underfoot too. “Sam, take the dog and leave.” Heath didn’t think Nick would want the child to see him in so much pain.

“No.” Defiantly she stood there, as the adults were too busy to remove her from the room. She rubbed one of her own wrists, no longer bandaged but noticeably scarred.

 

Finally the doctor arrived and they were all ushered out of the bedroom.

 * * * * *

 

A couple of hours later the doctor emerged with Victoria, both smiling. “He’ll be fine” the doctor told Heath. “He did lose quite a bit of blood but he’ll heal. His hand will be out of commission for a few days and you need to watch for infection.” The doctor dug into his bag. “Give these to him and I’ll come back in the morning.” He noticed Sam sitting on the steps and tousled her hair. “How do you feel?”

“Fine” she answered glumly. “Is Nick ok?”

“He’ll be fine so stop worrying about him.”

 

Sam looked up. “Did somebody hurt him too?”

 

The doc looked up at Victoria before answering. “Samantha, it was an accident. He cut himself on some wire.”

 

Sam nodded as she stood up. “Oh! I thought maybe they…” She stopped and starred at Heath. “Nothing” she whispered and sat back down on the steps.

 

The doctor exchanged another look with Victoria before heading downstairs. Audra offered to take him back and they both left the house.

“Samantha, it’s close to lunch. Are you hungry?” Victoria neared the child.

“No.”

 

Victoria noticed she was rubbing her wrist.

“I’ll get back to the fence.” Heath started to pass Victoria when she grabbed his arm.

 

“Heath, get some men to do that. I need you to go into town for me.” Silently she pointed to the child. “I think you should take Sam with you.”

“No!” Samantha shouted as she stood up. “I want to stay with Nick.”

“No you don’t.” Heath grabbed her as she tried to go up. “Nick is going to rest and he doesn’t need you waking him up.” Heath quickly descended the stairs with Sam still in his arms. “I think going to town is a good idea.”

“After lunch” Victoria stated firmly. “Since it’s just the three of us we’ll grab something simple in the kitchen.”

 

Heath nodded as he carried Sam towards the kitchen and placed her down at the table.

“I’m not hungry.” Sam watched them put some sandwiches together, her lip curling at the plate put before her. She saw Lucky standing next to her chair.

“Samantha, don’t you dare.” Victoria eyed the dog also and knew what the child was contemplating. “Eat your sandwich.”

 

They joined her at the table and started eating. Sam stared at her plate. It was a daily battle to get her to eat, some days worse than others. Much to Heath’s chagrin, Nick was the one who usually got Samantha to eat. Sam picked up the sandwich and took a small bite. She made a face as she chewed slowly. “Will Nick wake up soon?”

“Sam, by the time you and Heath come home, Nick will be up. And you can see him then, ok?”

“Ok. It’s going to hurt him,” she whispered between bites. Silently the child finished her sandwich; not noticing the worried look on Victoria’s face.

 * * * * *

 

Heath was loading up the wagon as Sam stood by watching. The child was sullen and hadn’t spoken more than five words the whole trip up. He noticed Tommy Kyle staring at the candy and a thought entered his mind. “Sam, do you want a licorice stick?”

 

She shook her head. “I think he does.” She motioned towards the boy.

“Hey Tommy.” Heath approached the child.

 

He looked up and smiled. “Mr. Barkley.” Tommy was the son of a Barkley ranch hand and he was a friendly, mischievous child with red hair and a face full of freckles. Heath noticed he was missing his two front teeth. Sam still had all her baby teeth and it was another way she seemed to lag behind children her own age.

“Tommy, do want a licorice stick?” He nodded eagerly. Heath went over and purchased two pieces of candy. He handed one to each child. “Tommy, I need you to do me a favor. I have some errands to do in town and I want you to keep Sam company until I’m done.”

 

Tommy eyed the child who was hiding behind Heath’s leg. “Who is she?” He pointed towards the girl.

“This is my sister and she’s recently come to live with us.” Heath gently pulled Sam out from behind him.

“Oh.” Tommy nodded and Heath was thankful he didn’t ask any more questions. “OK, let’s go.” He reached for Sam’s arm but she pulled away.

“Sam, go ahead. I’ll come find you when it’s time to go.” Reluctantly she followed Tommy out of the store.

 

Hoping he was doing the right thing, Heath headed over to the saloon for a drink.

“Where are we going?” Sam asked.

“Follow me.” Tommy started running and so did Sam. They ended up near some small houses. “That’s my house.” He pointed. “If you’re not afraid, I have a tree house. But you have to climb the tree.”

“I can climb anything,” Sam proclaimed proudly.

 

Tommy stopped and faced her. “Anything?”

 

She nodded.

 

He looked around and his gaze finally settled on a barn amidst a group of trees. “How about that?”

 

Sam looked that way and noticed how high the barn was. But she also noticed the trees and nodded her head.

“Do it then.” Tommy challenged.

 

She eyed the barn and the trees and slowly walked neared them. Figuring out the best way to go Sam slowly started climbing.

“I was kidding.” Tommy couldn’t believe she would do it and he was worried about getting in trouble. “It’s too high and we’ll get in trouble.”

 

Sam ignored him as she went about looking for the best way to get up the tree. Sam slipped and she heard Tommy gasp below her.

“Sam, get down.”

 

She caught her breath and continued to climb. It was higher than she had ever climbed but she was good at it and finally made it to the top of the barn. Reaching for the building Sam grabbed it and pulled herself up. Triumphantly she looked down at the boy below her. “Told you I could do it.”

Tommy stared up in disbelief. He couldn’t believe a girl could climb that high and he wanted to follow but he was too scared. “Sam, come down so we can play.”

 

Sam walked to the edge of the barn, scaring Tommy by how close to the edge she was.

 

“Sam.” He looked around, wondering if he should go for help. “Come on Sam. I don’t want to get in trouble.” Tommy was close to tears.

“Why would we get in trouble? We’re just playing, right?”

 

Tommy nodded. “I guess.” He walked closer to the barn. “Are you coming down?”

 

Sam walked higher up. “I kind of like it up here. You should come up.” A slight smile crossed her face. “You’re not scared, are you?”

“No.” He was but he couldn’t admit that to a girl. “I’ll come up.” He started climbing, keeping his eyes upward. Tommy landed on the roof with a thud, breathing hard.

 

Sam watched him, somewhat amused. “That was easy, wasn’t it?”

 

Tommy nodded, still trying to catch his breath. When he did they both peered over the side.

“Long way down” Tommy commented, then glanced sideways. “Why don’t you go to school?” Tommy asked after a few minutes of silence.

“Can’t read” Sam said matter-of-factly. “Don’t care about school.”

“It’s not so bad. Teacher is nice and we play games outside. You should come and you can sit next to me.”

 

Sam shrugged. “I guess I’ll have to some day. Unless they send me back.”

“Back where?” Tommy sat up and dangled his legs over the edge. “Sam, where’d you come from?”

“An orphanage” Sam quietly answered.

“You’re an orphan?” Tommy’s eyes widened. “But Mr. Barkley said he’s your brother. You can’t be an orphan.”

“I was for three years but…” Sam shrugged. “Heath is my brother but I don’t know what everyone else is. I guess they can send me back if they don’t like me.” Sam didn’t know why she was telling Tommy this but he seemed interested.

“We’d better get down” he said suddenly. “You don’t want to get caught and get in trouble.”

 

Sam nodded and they stood up when they heard Heath calling their names.

“Uh oh” Tommy said as Heath approached the barn. He saw the two of them standing up there.

“Get down now.” Heath walked towards the tree they had climbed. “Come on, one at a time so I can catch you if you fall.” The kids exchanged glances before slowing walking towards the tree.

“You can do it” Sam encouraged when Tommy hesitated near the edge. “Just grab the tree and don’t look down.”

 

Tommy took a deep breath before leaning for the tree and climbing down. When he reached the bottom Sam followed and scampered down.

“Don’t make her go away.” Tommy pleaded with Heath. “It’s my fault…I dared her to do it.”

 

Sam was surprised that Tommy was taking the blame and she stared at the boy. When she looked at Heath he didn’t seem too angry with her.

“It’s not his fault,” she firmly stated.

 

Heath stood before them, unsure of whom to yell at. “Don’t do it again,” he finally said. “Sam we need to go home.” He took his sister by the hand.

“Mr. Barkley, can I play with Sam again? She’s really neat for a girl.” Tommy grabbed a hold of Heath’s arm.

 

“Sam?” Heath looked at his sister.

“Sure.” She smiled slightly. “He’s ok for a boy.”

 

Heath put his hands on his hips. “Only if you two promise to stay on the ground…no climbing trees, promise?”

“Promise” the children said in unison, then started giggling.

 

Heath again took his sister’s hand. “Tommy, I’ll talk to your father about you coming over to the ranch.”

“Ok.” Tommy watched them leave and then ran off to find his friends and tell them about Sam. Though he knew they wouldn’t believe him about how high she could climb.

 * * * * *

 

The ride home was quiet and Sam kept glancing at her brother, wondering how mad he was. Finally her curiosity got the best of her. “Heath, are you mad?”

“Not really.” Heath sighed deeply. “Sam, do you want to know the first thing that came to me when I saw you up there?”

“What?” Sam asked as Heath suddenly stopped the wagon.

 

He turned and faced his sister. “I thought you would fall and kill yourself and I would lose my sister again.” Heath saw the look his sister gave him and he wondered if she was too young to understand how scared he was.

 

Sam turned away as Heath started the team up again. “Heath, I wasn’t going to fall. Climbing is the only thing I do good and I wanted Tommy to like me. Don’t be mad at me.”

“I’m not mad.” Heath reached over and touched the child’s head. “But maybe we can find something else you’re good at.”

“Like what?” Sam asked glumly. “I can’t do anything right.”

“Sam, don’t say that.” He kept his hand around the child. “I think it’s time you start riding on your own. Let me talk to Nick about getting you a horse. Then you and Tommy can ride together. How does that sound?”

“Really?” Sam’s face lit up. “My own horse?”

 

Heath nodded as he smiled at his sister. “But only if you stay off of roofs. Got it?”

“Got it.” Sam’s smile left her face. “Think Nick is ok?”

“He’ll be fine. It takes a lot to hurt a Barkley,” he added.

“I wish I were a Barkley.” Sam turned quiet, lost in her thoughts.

 

Heath glanced over at her, wanting so badly to tell her about the adoption. But it was a family thing and she would learn when the whole family was around. They were near the house and the rest of the ride was made in silence.

 

As soon as the wagon stopped Sam jumped out and ran into the house. “Nick? Nick, are you awake?”

“Samantha, keep your voice down.” Victoria scolded the child. She was picking up one of Nick’s bad habits…yelling at the top of her lungs. “Nick, is still in his room, but he’s awake and you can go see him.”

 

She raced up the stairs so fast Victoria was afraid she would fall.

 

She heard footsteps and glanced over at Heath. “Did the trip to town go well?”

 

Heath nodded, deciding to keep the roof incident to himself. “I introduced her to Tommy Kyle and I think they hit it off ok. I better unload the wagon.” He walked off whistling and Victoria was happy to see him in a good mood for a change.

 * * * * *

 

Samantha stood in Nick’s doorway until he noticed her there.

“Sam!” He smiled at her. “Come in.”

 

That was all she needed and she ran and jumped into his bed. “Is your hand better?”

“Not yet, but it will be.”

 

Sam looked at the bandaged wrist. “It hurts, doesn’t it?”

 

Nick noticed the child looking at her own wrists and knew what she was thinking about. He reached over and touched her face. “I’m going to be fine and so are you.”

 

Sam looked up and smiled. “Heath said I could get my own horse and ride by myself. Is that ok? Will you teach me to ride? He said I could ride with Tommy Kyle.” Excitedly the child kept asking questions until Nick reached over and gently placed his hand over her mouth.

 

“Give me a chance to say something.” He removed his hand and pulled Sam closer to him. It took him a few minutes to place the name but finally he pictured the curly redheaded son of one of their foreman. Nice kid and he seemed to have a good effect on Sam’s demeanor.

 

She snuggled in next to him.

“I think a horse is a good idea.” Nick didn’t say that he had been planning on getting her a horse and decided it was best that Heath did it. “But I think you should let Heath teach you how to ride.”

“Why?” Sam asked.

“Because he’s a better rider, so that will make him a better teacher.” Nick didn’t like lying but he knew how Heath felt right now and the best thing for him was to spend time with his sister.

“OK.”

 

Nick was glad she accepted the lie so easily.

 

“But we can still ride together, right?”

“Of course.” Nick placed his good arm around the child. He was feeling tired and knew he needed some more sleep. “Sam, you better run along so I can get some sleep.”

 

Sam moved but Nick kept his arm around her.

 

“Can I get a kiss before you leave?”

 

She smiled and quickly kissed his cheek, hugging him tight. “I’m glad you’re ok.” Sam jumped off the bed and ran out of the room, just as Heath turned the corner, out of her sight.

 

He had heard the exchange and knew what Nick was doing. He knew he should be grateful but mostly he was angry: angry with Nick and hurt that his sister cared so much more for Nick than her own brother.

 

 

Part 7

 

Jarrod put his suitcase down and walked around the house. He wasn’t expecting a welcome home party but after being away for a week it would have been nice if someone was there to greet him. He heard the door open and Nick walked in, closely followed by Heath.

“Jarrod, you’re back early.” Nick rushed over. “Good news, I hope.”

 

Jarrod smiled at his two brothers. “Can the ranch run without you two for a few days?”

 

Nick’s eyes narrowed. “Why?”

Jarrod motioned them to the family room. “It was mother’s idea. I only got the initial paperwork started. The judge needs to sign it and mother felt it was necessary for the whole family to be in San Francisco when it’s done.” He could tell that his brothers were still confused. “Sam’s too smart to think a piece of paper is going to keep her here. But if we all go and stand there while the judge explains it, she’ll believe it. Where is she anyhow? How is she feeling?”

“Mother took her to town so she could play with Tommy Kyle. It’s his fault.” Nick pointed at Heath. “Audra was bad enough and now this one is starting even younger. Tommy this, Tommy that.” Nick rolled his eyes as his brothers laughed at him. “Just wait until you hear where Heath found them.”

“Where?” Jarrod wasn’t sure if he wanted to know. He walked over and poured three drinks. “What kind of trouble is Sam getting in to?”

“It’s nothing.” Heath downed his drink. “You know that barn near the Kyle’s house?”

 

Jarrod nodded.

 

“I found the kids sitting on top of it.”

“What?” Jarrod’s eyes showed his surprise. “Don’t tell me they climbed up there.”

“All the way” Nick commented, throwing his arms up. “I tell you that kid is going to be a bad influence on Sam.”

“How many times do I have to tell you it was Sam’s idea?” Heath sighed. “Tommy dared her and Sam eagerly showed she could do it and then dared Tommy to follow.” Heath smiled. “I had forgotten that my sister was part monkey. Do you remember the swing I showed you?” He addressed Nick who nodded. “After I put it up Sam thought it would be fun to shimmy up that rope and hide in the tree.” Heath chuckled at the memories. “I looked everywhere for her and finally, when she could tell I was worried she called out my name.” Heath shook his head. “Boy howdy she was only four years old and I couldn’t believe she got up there. I was so relieved to see her I immediately forgot how angry I was that she hid for so long.” He glanced over and saw his brothers smiling at him. “Part of me was happy to see some of that spunk come back. Why are you both smiling at me?”

 

Jarrod neared his youngest brother and slapped him on the back. “It’s just good to see you laughing.”

 

Before Heath could answer the door flung open and Sam ran in, Lucky yapping at her feet. She stopped when she saw Jarrod. “Jarrod.” Sam ran and flung her arms around him.

 

Jarrod reached down and picked up the little girl. “Are your feet staying on the ground?”

 

He laughed at the look she gave him.

“Mother.” Jarrod reached down and kissed his mother hello.

“Jarrod, did you get everything done?”

“Indeed I did.” He put the child down. “Plus I got something little for Samantha.” He reached in his pocket and pulled out a book, handing it to the child.

 

Samantha flipped through it looking at the different pictures. Then she looked at the cover.

“I can’t read it.”

“Not yet.” Jarrod reached down and touched her nose. “But you will soon and I think you’ll really enjoy this story.” He could tell that Sam wasn’t so sure.

“What’s the title?”

“Alice In Wonderland” Jarrod answered, “and I know you’re going to like it. Besides we have a long train ride to San Francisco to read it together.”

“Why do we have to go back there?” Sam looked around worried. “I don’t want to go back” She backed away and right into Nick.

“Whoa.” Nick knelt down and wrapped his arms around her. “The whole family is going to San Francisco for a very special reason.”

 

She turned and faced him. “Why?”

 

Nick glanced up at this mother and then at Jarrod.

“Sam, come with me.” Victoria took her hand and led her over to the sofa. Victoria sat down so she was eye level with the child. “Samantha, you know what it means to be adopted right?”

 

The child nodded solemnly.

“How would you like to be adopted by me?”

 

Sam was surprised by the question and didn’t seem to know what to say. She glanced over her shoulder at Heath who smiled reassuring.

“Really? I’ll be a real Barkley?”

 

Victoria nodded. “And Jarrod and Nick will be your brothers and Audra will be your sister and I’ll be…” Victoria paused, unsure if the child could accept another mother.

“You’ll be my mama” Sam whispered. “Can I call you that?” She turned suddenly and faced Heath. “Heath, is that ok?”

“It’s fine” Heath assured her.

 

Sam turned and faced Victoria once again. “Mama” she said again, with a little more confidence, then flung her arms around Victoria.

 

For a few minutes there wasn’t a dry eye in the house. Finally Nick cleared his throat. “Any hugs left for the new brothers?”

 

Victoria released the child and she ran to Nick. Victoria took the time to pull Heath aside.

“Are you truly ok with this?” He glanced back to see Sam giving Jarrod a hug.

 

“I am.” Heath smiled. “That child is starved for affection and I can’t imagine any family more able to give it to her.”

 

Victoria reached up and kissed his cheek.

“Heath.” He looked down at Sam who was tugging at his pants. She held up her arms and Heath lifted his little sister into his arms. “Is this really ok? Would they be mad at me?”

 

After everything she had been through Heath couldn’t believe she would care what her parents would think about this.

“Samantha, they would not be mad at you. They would want you to be happy and safe and part of a good family.” A better family than they would have ever been Heath silently added as he hugged his sister.

“I’m hungry” Sam suddenly said as she leaped out of Heath’s arms. “Is it time for lunch?” She raced around them as they headed to the dining room. “I can’t wait to tell Tommy.”

 

Nick groaned loudly at hearing the boy’s name.

 

“He’s got this baby sister and I helped their mama feed her and I changed her diaper.” Sam made a face. “That was kind of yucky but…” She stopped talking as Jarrod lifted her into the booster seat. “I think we need a baby around here.”

 

Nick started choking on the water he had just sipped. “I told you that kid was going to be a bad influence.” They all started laughing, except for Sam who looked around, not seeing anything funny in what she said.

“Sam, eat your lunch.” She eagerly dug in, for once not needing any prodding to eat.

 * * * * *

 

Heath lowered himself in the seat, trying to get comfortable. He wasn’t fond of train rides and this was no exception. Nick was sitting next to him also shifting constantly in his seat. He was sleeping or trying to sleep with his hat over his eyes. Heath glanced across the aisle where Sam was chatting non-stop with an elderly gentleman who had offered her some chocolate. He caught Jarrod staring at him a few times and he wondered if his brother was thinking the same thing. The child they were both watching seemed so different than the sullen one that they had brought to Stockton. In less than two months she had gone from a scared, silent child to one who felt secure enough to talk to a stranger.

 

Sam must have realized she was being watched because she turned and smiled at Heath. Victoria whispered something to the child and then she walked over to her seat next to Jarrod. Sam sat still for a few minutes before standing up in her seat and leaning against Jarrod. Heath frowned when Jarrod gathered Sam in his arms. It was obvious to the family that Sam craved the attention she missed for so many years but because she looked younger they all treated her younger and it bothered Heath to see that. Nick was the worse offender but Heath hadn’t found the right time to confront him about it. He wanted his new family to love his sister and he knew they did, but in the past few days Heath had begun to think about Sam’s future and he wanted the best for his sister. He was anxious to get Sam in school but she was still struggling with her reading and writing and did everything she could to get out of her lessons.

“Sam, come here.” Heath motioned to his sister.

 

With Jarrod’s help she jumped down and walked over to Heath.

“Do you want to practice your reading or writing?”

“Neither.” Sam turned but Heath grabbed her before she could move away.

“Wrong answer” Heath whispered as he brought out a writing tablet. “Sam, you’ll need to write your legal name for the Judge.”

 

It was a lie but one Jarrod allowed Heath to use to get Sam interested in writing. She frowned as she picked up the tablet and the pen.

“Write your full name” Heath insisted when Sam stopped after three letters. Sighing she continued and finished up her first name.

“Do your last name now. Remember how to spell it?” Sam nodded. “Why don’t I have a middle name?”

 

It was a question that Heath didn’t have the answer to. “I don’t know” Heath admitted hoping Sam would drop the subject.

“Sam, you can pick a middle name if you want.”

 

She glanced up at Jarrod. “I can?”

 

He nodded.

“What should I pick?”

“Anything but Tommy” Nick mumbled from beneath his hat.

“That’s a boy’s name.” Sam playfully tapped his arm. “I don’t know.” She picked up her pen and slowly wrote her new last name.

“Barkley” she stated firmly. “What else should I write?”

“Practice the alphabet.”

“I’d rather read.” Sam put the pen down and looked up hopefully at Heath.

 

He nodded and lifted his sister on his lap. Jarrod handed him the book and Heath opened it up to the book marked page.

“Start here.” Heath pointed to the word and slowly Sam tried to sound it out.

“Take your time.” Heath could hear the frustration in his sister’s voice. Heath let her struggle through two pages before he quietly started reading to her.

 * * * * *

 

The nightlife was so different from Stockton and Samantha Hope Barkley tried to see it all. In the end Sam had decided that her new mother should choose her middle name and though she didn’t understand the significance of Hope she liked how it sounded and proudly signed her full name before the judge. Now it was time for a celebration dinner and the family strolled down the street towards the restaurant that Jarrod had suggested. Sam started to lag behind, her attention drawn to a street musician playing the violin.

 

Nick noticed and quickly approached the child. “Sam, what are you doing?”

 

She pointed to the musician. “Watching him. Jimmy used to play the violin.”

“Who’s Jimmy?” Nick knelt down next to the child.

“He was my friend and he took care of me. If he got lots of money we would each get a potato. Otherwise we shared.” She faced Nick. “Can we give him some money?”

 

Nick nodded and reached into his pocket. He pulled out some coins and handed it to Sam.

“Is this a lot?” She stared at the money.

 

“It’s enough. Go ahead and give it to him and then we need to catch up to the family.”

 

Sam nodded and dropped the money into the can, receiving a smile for her donation.

“Let’s go.” Nick picked up the child and placed her on his shoulders. “What happened to Jimmy?”

“He died” Sam said glumly, resting her chin on Nick’s head. He wanted to ask how but decided it wasn’t the right time as they approached the family.

“We were watching a man play music,” Sam proclaimed before they could ask.

 

They entered the restaurant and were seated immediately at a reserved table.

“Wow.” Sam looked around at all the people.

 

She didn’t notice the man who placed glasses of water on the table but he recognized the child. He kept his eyes on her during their dinner, watching intently as the silver haired woman cut the child’s meat and fussed over her to finish her meal. He watched as they cut the specially ordered cake, welcoming the child into the family. Even after his shift ended he stayed, until the family was finished and one of the men carried the sleeping child in his arms. Finally he ran home to his wife, slamming the door behind him.

“Liz! That kid is back.” He threw his jacket on the chair.

 

Elizabeth Cole gritted her teeth as her husband slammed things around the house. It was a long day at the orphanage and he was the last thing she wanted to deal with.

“You heard of the Barkleys?” He got right up into her face. “Them rich people from Stockton.” Jay Cole spat on the floor. “They adopted that kid and they’re here celebrating.” He grunted and then kicked a chair. “I’m not going back to jail. We got to kill that kid before she tells them.”

“No.” Elizabeth shook her head. “She hasn’t said anything yet and she’s not going to.” Elizabeth had known who took the child and she hoped that Samantha would be far away and safe from her husband. “Jay, let her be.”

 

Her husband’s nose flared as he slapped her across the face. “Don’t tell me what to do. Do you hear me?” He grabbed her arm. “As soon as I have enough money we will go to Stockton and we’re going to shut that kid up forever.” He slowly wrapped his hands around her neck. “Do you understand me?”

 

His fingers tightened until Elizabeth started turning blue.

“Had enough?”

 

He watched as his wife crumpled to the floor, breathing hard.

 

“As soon as I have enough money we’re going to Stockton.”

 

He kicked her once before leaving the house.

 

Part 8

 

Victoria found Jarrod in the study.

“Is Sam asleep?”

 

Victoria nodded as she took the drink that her son handed her. “She was too tired to argue that it was too early for bed.” Victoria took a sip. “I suppose staying up most of last night didn’t help.” Victoria had stayed up with the child who was too nervous about her first day of school to fall asleep.

 

Jarrod smiled. “I think it went fine and Tommy had a lot to do with it.”

 

Those two had become inseparable since the return from San Francisco and Samantha had asked to go to school so she could spend more time with her friend.

“Much to Nick’s chagrin,” Victoria remarked with a smile on her face. “Did they return yet?”

 

Before Jarrod could answer the door opened and Nick’s voice could be heard throughout the house.

“Nick, keep your voice down. Sam is sleeping.”

“Why?” Nick threw his hat on the sofa. “It’s a little early isn’t it?”

“Did you get the horse?” Jarrod asked.

“It’s a beauty.” Heath whistled softly. “I can’t wait until Sam sees it. Why is she in bed?” Heath echoed his brother.

“She’s tired, that’s why. And if either of you wake her up, you’ll spend the night up with her.” Victoria pointed a finger at her sons. “Don’t mention the horse until after school, otherwise she won’t want to go.”

Upstairs Sam was already awake, having heard her brothers enter the house. She sat by the banister unseen by the adults and listened to the conversation. She felt bad for eavesdropping but was too excited about her new horse to feel too bad. Sam started to tiptoe back to bed when there was a knock on the door and she sat back down, curious to see who was there. She saw Jarrod walk to the front door and she strained to see who was beyond the door.

“Can I help you?” A couple stood in the doorway. The woman held her hand out to Jarrod.

“My name is Elizabeth Cole and I’m a teacher at the orphanage that Samantha was at.”

 

That peaked Jarrod’s interest and he motioned the couple in.

 

“This is my husband.”

 

The men briefly shook hands as the family came out of the study. Jarrod briefly introduced everyone.

“Can we help you with something?” Victoria asked.

 

Elizabeth smiled. “We were passing through and I knew Samantha was here and I was just checking to see how she was doing.”

 

Her husband looked around the room, avoiding eye contact with everyone.

“She’s fine, but asleep,” Nick answered gruffly. “It’s kind of late for visiting, don’t you think?” Nick took an instant dislike to them and it showed in his voice.

“Nick, don’t be rude to our guests.” Victoria placed a hand on her son’s arm. “Samantha had her first day of school today and she was up most of the night worrying about it. Ms. Cole, were you Sam’s teacher?”

 

The young lady shook her head. “I taught the older kids so I didn’t know Sam well. But when I mentioned that I would be passing through Stockton one of the sisters asked me to check on her.”

“She’s doing just fine” Victoria assured her. “We’ll tell her you stopped by.”

“Don’t tell her I was here.” The woman could tell they were confused by her request. “The child doesn’t know me and it might just confuse her. I’ll let everyone at the orphanage know she’s doing just fine. We should get going.”

“How long will you be in town?” Jarrod questioned.

“Just a day,” the man answered quickly. “We’ll be on the stagecoach tomorrow. Let’s go.” He grabbed his arm’s wife and pulled her out of the house.

“That was strange,” Jarrod remarked after the couple had left. “I was at the orphanage getting the adoption papers in order and they all knew how well Sam was doing.” He scratched his head.

“I don’t like them,” Nick spit out, “and they better leave tomorrow.”

“And if they don’t little brother?” Jarrod put an arm around Nick. “Just what are you going to do?”

“They just better be gone.” Nick easily slipped away from Jarrod. “I need a drink.” They watched him walk back into the study.

“His intuition is usually pretty good.” Victoria frowned. “Maybe we should keep Sam out of town until they’re gone.”

“Why?” Heath had been quiet the whole time the couple had been there. “Just because Nick doesn’t like them?” He faced them hands on his hips. “If we do that we’ll scare her and that’s the last thing Sam needs right now. She’s excited about school and she knows to go to Jarrod’s office right afterwards, so she’ll be fine.”

“I agree.” Jarrod nodded his head. “I’m sure they’re harmless and just wanted to check on Sam.” He turned and joined his brother in the study. “Your hand well enough for a game of pool?” Jarrod took a pool stick and handed one to his brother. “Heath will play the winner.” He glanced at Heath who nodded his head. Their sibling rivalry took over and the strange couple was soon a distant memory in their minds.

If they had gone upstairs they would have found Samantha cowering in the closet hiding from the bad people. She knew they were there to kill her, just like he had promised and she wanted to tell her family but she was scared. He said he would kill anyone she told and she didn’t want them to die. Sam waited until she was done shaking and then crawled back in bed. She knew her mother would check on her soon and Sam would pretend she was asleep. Sam closed her eyes and tried to fall asleep. But all she could think about was that man and sleep never came that night.

 * * * * *

 

Sam and Tommy sat on the sidewalk trying to decide what to do. Their teacher had an emergency and school was let out early. Sam went over to Jarrod’s office but he was not there and the door was locked. She glanced around wondering where they were.

“Hey did you hear me?” Tommy tapped his friend’s arm. “Samantha, what’s wrong with you? Why aren’t you talking to me today?”

 

Samantha stood up and walked away, Tommy followed.

“Sam, don’t you like me anymore?”

 

Sam stopped, startled when she saw the couple up ahead. She quickly slid around the corner, pulling Tommy with her.

“What’s wrong?” He noticed how hard Sam was breathing as she leaned in against the wall.

“They’re over there.” She pointed to the couple.

“Who are they?” The man seemed to be watching them.

“They want to kill me and they’re going to.” Sam was near tears now. “I need to hide from them.” She started running.

“Wait up.” Tommy reached out and grabbed her arm. “Why would they want to kill you?” Both children were breathing hard.

 

“See this.” She extended her arms so Tommy could see the scars on her wrists. “They did this to me but I didn’t die. Tommy I can’t tell you more, cause they’ll kill you too.”

 

Tommy glanced from the wrists to Sam’s face. “What’d you do?”

 

Sam sighed deeply. “I didn’t do anything. It’s what I saw him do.”

 

She saw Tommy’s eyes widen and spun around, right into Jay Cole. Sam stumbled into Tommy and they both fell to the ground.

“Tommy, run.” Sam tried to get up but the man grabbed her.

 

“You knew I would come for you didn’t you?” He smiled and Tommy saw his missing teeth.

“Leave her alone.” Tommy kicked the man in the shin and he cried out in pain.

 

“Why you.” He tried to grab Tommy but the little boy moved too fast.

 

Sam was frozen in fear as she stared up at him.

 

“You’re coming with me.”

 

Sam finally woke up and she fought as the man lifted her into his arms. “Tommy, help.” He placed a hand over her mouth and carried her towards two horses. The woman meekly followed.

“Let her go.” Tommy kept hitting him but the man ignored the little boy and threw Sam on the horse and mounted behind her.

“Help” Sam squeaked out before her mouth was once again covered.

 

Tommy stood there, mouth open, as they rode away with his friend. Finally he found his feet and ran for help.

 * * * * *

 

Jarrod stared up at the dark sky, silently saying a prayer. It had been hours since he had run into Tommy and learned of Sam’s disappearance. The little boy had been too afraid to tell anyone else and they had lost precious time in their search for the child. The men had been out for hours and slowly each one had returned to get food and rest, not a sign anywhere of the Coles or of Sam. His brothers had not returned yet and Jarrod doubted either would without some news. He couldn’t forget the words Nick had said before he took off… “I told you they were trouble”…Jarrod wished now that they had believed him, but it was too late for second-guessing. He was left alone to coordinate everything and hope that someone would find some clue soon.

“Jarrod, I’m taking Mother home to get some rest.” Jarrod glanced at Audra and then at his mother, who sat forlornly on a wooden bench. She had aged greatly in the past few hours, but they all had. None could deny that Cole had tried to kill Sam before and that his intention was probably the same.

“OK Audra. I’ll come home as soon as I hear something.” He smiled weakly as he kissed his sister’s forehead. Then watched as they drove off.

“Jarrod.” He turned to see Lance Kyle nearing him.

“How is Tommy? I’m so sorry I made him cry.” Jarrod felt horrendous for yelling at the child.

“He’ll be fine.” Lance grasped Jarrod’s shoulder. “Any news?”

 

Jarrod shook his head.

“Jarrod, after Tommy calmed down he told me something I think you should know.” He paused to make sure he had Jarrod’s attention. “Sam said they wanted her dead because she saw him do something. Also she couldn’t tell anybody because he would kill them too.” Lance rubbed his left wrist. “She said they cut her wrists and she was suppose to die then.” He shrugged. “That’s all Tommy could remember.”

 

Jarrod just numbly stared at the man. It wasn’t anything that Jarrod hadn’t figured out and just confirmed that his little sister was in big trouble.

“I should get back to my son.”

 

Jarrod tried to find something to say but nothing came to him and he silently watched the man walk away. Jarrod wasn’t sure how long he stood there before he heard Nick calling his name. He turned to see Nick slowly walking his horse towards him.

“Any news?”

Nick didn’t need to answer. His face answered for him. “Is Heath back?” he asked gruffly.

“No.” Jarrod answered, and then lowered his gaze. He couldn’t bear to see the hurt in his brother’s eyes.

“This is just some cruel joke.” Nick shouted, not caring who heard him. “Bring that child into my life…our life” he quickly corrected, “make us love her and then take her away.” Nick’s voice quivered with each word. “Somebody is playing with us, the almighty powerful Barkleys.” Nick’s arms flailed in the air. “The great Barkleys. We have all the money in the world and we couldn’t protect this sweet little girl.” Nick swiped at the tears falling down his cheeks. “She trusted us to protect her and now she’s gone.”

 

Jarrod tried to reach out but Nick backed away.

“No Pappy. This is something even you can’t fix.” Nick sniffled and closed his eyes tightly. “And you can forget about Heath coming back…”

“He’ll be back” Jarrod quietly interjected. “This is his home…”

 

His words were cut off by Nick’s sarcastic laughter. “He can’t face us. How can he?” Nick didn’t give his brother a chance to answer. “This is the second time he’s lost his sister and he can’t live with that. He’ll find her first or he’ll die trying.” Nick abruptly turned, leading his horse to water and food.

 * * * * *

 

Jarrod stood in the doorway and silently watched his family. Four days had passed and there was still no sign of Sam and Heath hadn’t returned home. The family tried to get on with their lives but they did so with heavy hearts and little laughter. Men were still out there looking for Sam and the nearby towns had all been wired and a large reward was posted for any information but no news came; and with each passing day their hope that they would see Samantha alive grew dimmer. He knew Nick was taking it the hardest but nothing Jarrod said seemed to help his brother. Nick wouldn’t admit it but he missed Heath just as much and Jarrod hoped their brother would return soon. But he too was beginning to wonder if Heath would ever come home. Nick sat there, absently petting the dog that he had threatened days ago to get rid of. Jarrod knew he wouldn’t; that was the last link to Sam that Nick had and he would cherish that dog just for that reason.

“I’m leaving for San Francisco in the morning.” Momentarily they stared at him until Victoria found her voice.

“Jarrod, it’s not a good time. The family needs to stay together.”

“Not for good.” Jarrod realized what his mother was thinking. “I’m going because I need to find out the truth about Jay Cole and what happened to Sam in that orphanage.”

“What good will that do?” Nick removed the dog and stood up. “It’s not going to bring Sam or Heath back.” He tried to pass his brother but Jarrod grabbed his arm.

“I never knew you to be a quitter,” Jarrod whispered, “but I guess I underestimated you.”

 

Nick shook his arm free. “I guess you don’t know me at all.” He stormed off and they heard the front door slam a minute later.

 

Nick stood in the fresh air and took a deep breath. He aimlessly wandered and then ended up in the barn. There he stared at the brown mare that was to be Sam’s horse. She never got to see her new horse he wearily thought. Gently he started brushing the animal.

“She would have loved you.” He tried to picture Sam’s face as she saw the animal and it hurt to see her smiling face and her sparkling eyes.  “Damn it.” Nick threw the brush away and then crumpled to the ground, crying uncontrollably. He heard footsteps and looked up, seeing Jarrod through his tears.  “Go away.”

Jarrod didn’t listen and lowered himself to the ground, beside his brother. “Nick, it’s ok to cry. I’ve done it myself the past few days.” He cupped his hands around Nick’s face. “Nick, we have to stay together as a family. Heath is going to come home and he’s going to need us all to get through this.”

“And…Sam?” Nick choked out.

“I don’t know.” Jarrod sadly shook his head. “Nick I wish I could tell you that she’s alright but I can’t. I just don’t know.” He smiled weakly. “Nick, I need you to hold this family together while I’m gone.” Jarrod lightly patted his brother’s back. “And if Heath returns you give him the fiercest hug you can and don’t let go.” Jarrod calmly wrapped his arms around his younger brother and waited until Nick had cried himself out.

 * * * * *

 

Heath no longer knew where he was, nor did he care. He wasn’t sure how long he had been traveling or whether he was still in California. Nothing mattered to him but finding his sister and this search was proving as futile as the first one. He felt his horse buckle and Heath was thrown to the ground. He rolled to get out of the way of the falling horse.

“Damn.” Heath crawled to his horse and carefully checked his legs, wincing when he felt the broken one. Knowing there was nothing he could do Heath pulled out his gun and quickly put the horse out of his misery. Heath sat down heavily; too tired and too numb to do anything but fall asleep.

Samantha found Heath by the pond and took his hand.

“Heath, I have to show you something.” She led him away from the water and pointed to a dead bird. “What happened to him?”

 

Heath bent down and grabbed a stick, poking at the bird. “I don’t know Sam. Maybe it’s old and it just died.”

“What happens when it dies?”

 

Heath sighed as he stood up. He didn’t have any idea how to explain death to a four year old. He didn’t know what he believed himself.

“Let’s find a box and we’ll bury him.” Heath walked back to the house and Sam followed. His mother was with Hannah and he had no clue where Sam’s dad was off to. He found a small tin, grabbed some straw and they headed back to the dead bird. Sam watched quietly as Heath placed the bird in the tin and slowly dug a hole.

“Will it get lonely by itself?”

 

Heath shrugged. “Sam, it’s dead, I don’t think it will care.”

 

He started to place the tin in the hole but Sam grabbed his arm.  “Don’t. Heath we have to put something in there with him.”

 

Sam ran back to the house and returned a few minutes later with a tiny doll.

“This will keep him company.”

 

She placed the doll in the box and allowed Heath to finish the burial.

“Heath, what does it feel like to die?”

“Sam, I don’t know.” He lifted up the child and carried her over to their swing.

“I don’t want to die alone.”


Heath woke up abruptly, fully remembering his dream. He staggered away from the dead horse determined to find his sister. Dead or alive he was going to find her and make sure she wasn’t alone.

 

 

Part 9

 

Jarrod stepped off the buggy and stretched. He always enjoyed coming home but wished he had better news to share with his family. He took the telegram out of his pocket and read it again. At least he had some news about Heath he wearily thought as he entered the house. It was eerily quiet as he searched for someone.

“Silas, where is everyone?”

The old man shrugged slightly. “Don’t know Mr. Jarrod. I suppose trying to keep busy.” He smiled sadly. “I sure do miss that youngster around here.”

“So do I.” Jarrod walked through the kitchen and exited out the back door. There he found his mother sitting in the flower garden. He noticed the dug up holes that she and Sam had started were still unfinished.

She glanced his way and smiled. “Jarrod. Welcome home.” Victoria neared her son and gave him a quick kiss. She saw where he was looking and sighed. “I was hoping Sam would return and we could finish planting together. Did you find anything out?”

Jarrod nodded. “I think I have all the pieces to the puzzle but nothing that will lead to Samantha. I do have news on Heath.” He held up the telegram. “He wandered into Carson City suffering from heat exhaustion but managed to tell them his name before he passed out.”

Victoria’s face showed her shock.

“Nick was right” Jarrod continued. “He’s going to find Sam or die trying.”

“You have to get him.” Victoria placed a hand on her son’s arm. “Get him and bring him home. We can’t lose Heath too.”

“I know.” Jarrod reached into a jacket pocket and pulled out two train tickets. “We’ll have to go to Sacramento first and catch a connecting train there.” Jarrod was in no mood for another long train ride but it had to be done. “I’m taking Nick with me in case he puts up a fight.” Assuming he was alive Jarrod thought to himself. The telegram was sent the day he staggered into town and that was four days ago. “How is Nick?”

“He’s not doing good. Jarrod I keep finding him in Sam’s room, just sitting in the dark.” She shook her head. A door slammed loudly, startling them both.

“I bet that’s Nick.”

They entered the house and found Nick going through the desk drawer, looking for something.

“Nick, is there a problem?” He didn’t bother answering Jarrod, nor welcome his brother home.

“Do you want to hear what I found out?”

Nick stopped rummaging and stared at his brother. “Unless you found Sam or Heath I don’t care.”

“Heath is in Carson City.”

Nick’s eyes narrowed. “Nevada? What the heck is he doing there?”

Jarrod gave him the telegram and Nick quickly read it.  “When do we leave?”

“Tomorrow morning. It’s going to take two days to get there and…” Jarrod paused. “Two very long days wondering if he’s even alive.”

“He’s alive,” Nick mumbled. “Getting him home will be the hard part. Assuming he’s still there when we arrive,” Nick added. “Any news about Sam?” Nick asked saying her name so quietly.

Jarrod nodded. “Where’s Audra? I think everyone should hear this.”

“She won’t be back until tonight,” Victoria answered. “Jarrod just tell us what you found out.”

They waited as Jarrod poured three drinks and handed them out. “It was hard getting the sisters to talk but everything seems to fit.” Jarrod paused, gathering his thoughts before continuing. “There was a man named Mike Coons that came to the orphanage quite frequently and Sam was especially close to him. So was Elizabeth Cole.” Jarrod waited momentarily but neither commented. “He was murdered at the orphanage about two months before we found Samantha.”

Nick took a deep breath and let it out slowly. “You think Sam saw the murder?”

Jarrod nodded. “I do. But there’s more. Mrs. Cole confided to a friend that she was going to divorce her husband and marry Coons and they wanted to adopt Samantha.”

“So Cole found out and murdered this man and now he wants to keep Sam quiet.” Nick finished the story.

“It doesn’t make sense.” Victoria blurted out. “If Elizabeth Cole wanted to adopt Sam why would she lead her husband here? She must have known what he did.”

“She didn’t,” Jarrod countered. “Jay Cole worked at the restaurant we ate at in San Francisco. That’s how he found Sam.” Jarrod shook his head. “Any other restaurant and Sam would still be here.”

“Jarrod don’t.” Victoria neared her son and lightly touched his arm. “You didn’t know. None of us did.”

Silence engulfed the room as they thought about the new information.

Suddenly Victoria smiled. “Sam still has a chance.”

They stared at her, waiting for more.

“If Elizabeth loves that child she’ll do anything she can to keep Sam alive and get her away from her husband.” She looked up hopeful but her sons didn’t comment. “I know she’s still alive and we will find her.”

“Mother, I hope you’re right. In the meantime we need to get Heath home and help him deal with this.” Jarrod poured another round of drinks. “I keep hoping a ransom note will arrive so we at least have an idea where they are,” Jarrod muttered before downing his second drink.

Nick had remained quiet and angrily he tossed his glass against the wall, shattering it and leaving stains on the wall. “Is it any better if Sam is still alive?” he angrily asked. “How much torture can that child handle? Hasn’t she been through enough?”

They were rhetorical questions that went unanswered. He stormed out of the room and out of the house.

“He’s right,” Jarrod quietly commented. “She might be better off dead than being tortured by Jay Cole.” With that said Jarrod left his mother alone.

 * * * * *

 

“Nick, one more complaint and I’m going to muzzle you.” Jarrod exited the train ahead of his brother. He looked around trying to decide where they should start. Nick stood behind him, stretching and moaning.

“I’m sure the doctor would know something.” Nick pointed in the right direction, and then started walking that way. The doctor was with a patient so they waited outside.

“Dusty town,” Nick mumbled ignoring the glaring look he was getting from Jarrod. “Is there anywhere we can get a drink?”

“Little early, don’t you think?”

“No!” Nick folded his arms. “If I have to get back on that train I plan to be very drunk.”

The door opened and a tall, elderly gentleman escorted a little boy out. “Can I help you two?”

Jarrod nodded. “We got a telegram that our brother was here and he was sick. His name is Heath Barkley.”

“Young man. Doesn’t say much. He was here.”

“Was?” Nick barked out. “What do you mean was?”

The doctor shrugged. “Against my orders he left this morning.” He eyed the two brothers. “But in the shape he’s in I don’t think he’ll get very far before he needs to rest.”

“Damn it. Now what do we do?” Nick looked to his older brother.

“Doc, what kind of shape is he in?”

The old man smiled slightly. “He came in feverish and dehydrated. I fixed him up just fine but if he pushes himself, he’ll be right back where he started. I wanted him to stay a few more days but he said he had to leave.” He paused, looking over his shoulder. “I believe he said he was heading west. There’s a stable that-a-way if you want to buy some horses and go after him.”

“Jarrod?”

“I don’t know.” He looked in the direction that the doctor pointed. “It’s a long shot but at least we won’t have to get back on a train. Nick, go buy some supplies and I’ll see about the horses.” Nick started walking away, then stopped suddenly.

“Should I get some rope?” Jarrod was momentarily confused by his brother’s comments, and then a small smile played on his lips.

“If you think it’s necessary to get Heath home, get it. Just hurry! I want to get started before the sun is too strong.”

 * * * * *

 

They had picked up a trail early on and followed it, hoping it belonged to their younger brother. They made good time, only stopping for lunch, but by sunset they still hadn’t seen any sign of Heath.

“Jarrod, do we keep going?” Nick stopped. “This is stupid. We don’t have a clue if we’re following the right trail.”

“Look up there.” Jarrod pointed ahead to a lone figure and they both galloped towards him.

Nick reached the rider first. “Heath.” His relief in seeing his brother was overshadowed by his concern for him. “Heath!” Nick grabbed the reins as Jarrod caught up to them.

“How is he?” Jarrod immediately noticed that he was leaning to his left side and barely conscious.

“Let’s set up camp here.”

Heath grunted softly as they dragged him off the horse and laid him out on the ground. Heath seemed disoriented and didn’t realize who was with him.

“What do you want?” He struggled as Nick grabbed a blanket and tried to wrap it around him.

“Heath it’s us. Nick and Jarrod.”

Slowly realization came to Heath but that only made him angrier. “Leave me alone.”

He tried to get up but Nick easily held him down.

“Heath, calm down.” Jarrod tried to reason with him. “We’re going to make camp here and tomorrow we’ll start for home.”

“No. I’m not going home.” Heath struggled to get free.

“I should have bought rope,” Nick muttered, his arms still wrapped around Heath.

“Heath, stop fighting us.” Jarrod grabbed his shoulders. “We want to find Sam as badly as you do but it’s not worth your life. Do you hear me? We’re not going to lose you too.”

Heath’s strength seemed to leave him and he stopped struggling. “I can’t give up. I have to find her.”

“We won’t give up. I promise you.” Jarrod smiled down at him. “But we need to get you home and you need to get well.” Jarrod glanced at Nick. “Heath, Nick is going to let you go but if you try to mount that horse before morning, we’re going to tie you up.”

Nick released his brother.

“Hey bro, we got beans for dinner. Your favorite.” Nick scurried to get a fire started. Heath moved towards a tree stump and leaned against it. He watched his brothers get dinner started but he was too tired to wait and fell asleep before it was ready.

 * * * * *

 

“Heath, wake up.”

Slowly he opened his eyes and tried to focus. He first noticed how dark it was and then his brother’s face.

“Nick! It’s still dark. Why’d you wake me?”

Nick sighed as he moved away and sat down hard on the ground. “You’ve been moaning and talking out loud for the past hour and I couldn’t take it anymore.” He glanced over at Jarrod who was sound to sleep.

“Can’t sleep?” Heath asked as he propped himself up on his elbows.

Nick shook his head. “Not anymore.” They were both staring at Jarrod.

“He seems to be able to,” Heath commented.

“He deals with things differently,” Nick stated. “He has everything under control. Every town has wanted posters with pictures of Jay Cole and Sam. He knows what happened at the orphanage…”

“What happened?”

Nick quickly explained to his brother all that Jarrod had learned in San Francisco. They were both quiet for a few minutes after he finished.

“Nick, tell me this is all a bad dream and I’ll wake up in the morning.”

Nick didn’t respond.

“I swear she was such a happy child. How could she always laugh when her father was abusing her?”

“I don’t know.” Nick didn’t want to talk about Sam but it seemed that Heath needed to.

“Do you think that lady will protect her? Maybe she’ll set her free.” He glanced over at Nick who silently looked the other way. “Nick, I’m sorry.”

“For what?” Nick faced his brother.

“For being jealous. I should have been happy that everyone loved my sister but…” Heath slightly shrugged his shoulders. “What do we do now?”

“I don’t know.” Nick felt like he was saying that a lot lately. “Go home, continue our lives and pray that someone finds that little girl before it’s too late.”

“Doesn’t seem like that’s enough.” Heath wrapped the blanket tighter around himself.

“I know.” Nick stood up and stretched his legs. “Heath, get some sleep. We have a lot of riding to do tomorrow.”

“Shouldn’t you do the same?”

Nick shook his head. “I’m not tired. Go to sleep.” Heath was too tired to argue and he stretched out, falling asleep quickly.

 * * * * *

 

A few days later the brothers made it home. Victoria met them at the door. “Heath.” She looked him over and decided that Heath didn’t look too bad. “How do you feel?”

“I’m fine.” He didn’t want to be fussed over. “I’m going up to take a bath.” They watched him slowly ascend the stairs.

“How are you two?”

“One down and one to go” Jarrod mumbled. “Any news about Sam?”

His mother shook her head. “Audra went into town everyday and so far nothing.”

“I’m getting back to work.” Nick quickly exited the house.

“Jarrod, we need to keep this family together.”

“I know.” Jarrod poured himself a drink. “I just don’t know how,” he quietly added. “I’m going in to town and see if there’s any news.”

 

After he was gone Victoria sat down heavily. She wondered how one little girl could make such a difference in all their lives. And she dreaded what would become of her family if they couldn’t find that girl. Silently she said a prayer and hoped wherever Samantha was, it would reach her and comfort her.

 

 

Part 10

 

Jarrod was the last to the breakfast table.

“Morning everyone. Mother.” Lightly he kissed her forehead. “I thought I heard arguing. What did I miss?” Jarrod grabbed a plate and filled it with scrambled eggs. “Well?” he asked as he sat down.

“We were not arguing, we were discussing.” Nick said between bites.

“We were arguing.” Heath countered. “I say Mary was the prettiest girl at the party last night and Nick thinks it was Linda Sue.”

“It was.” Nick pointed a finger at his little brother. “You need to get your eyes checked.”

“There’s nothing wrong with my eyes.” Heath smiled slightly. “Is there Jarrod?”

“No way.” Jarrod shook his head. “I am not getting in the middle of this.” He smiled. “Besides, neither holds a candle to Elizabeth.”

Nick choked on the coffee he was drinking and then stood up. “I have too much to do today than listen to this nonsense. You’re both blind as bats. Heath, are you coming?”

Heath nodded as he gulped down the rest of his breakfast.

“Jarrod don’t forget we need to start hiring men for the fall harvest.”

“Nick I won’t forget.” He watched his brothers walk out of the room. “Sorry to eat and run but I need to get to the office. I should be home by dinner.” Jarrod kissed his mother and sister before leaving.

“Mother, did you buy any of that?”

 

Sadly, Victoria shook her head. “They’re trying to move on, we all are. I don’t think any of us wanted to be at that birthday party last night but the Martins are old friends and we were invited.”

Audra lowered her head.

“Audra, what is it?”

 

She looked up at her mother. “Last night no one even asked us how we’re doing? It’s like Sam doesn’t exist anymore. No one asked about her.”

 

Victoria reached over and grabbed her daughter’s hand. “Audra it’s been two months since Sam was taken. They don’t mean to be rude or insensitive, they just don’t know how to act around us so it’s better to leave the subject alone.”

“Sam is not a subject. And it’s not just our friends and neighbors. Mother, when was the last time Nick or Heath even mentioned her? Or Jarrod? Is this how we’re going to deal with this? Keep Sam’s door closed and never mention her?” Audra stood up. “I’m sorry mother but we’re not dealing with this. Everyone is shutting down and I think I’m the only one who sees it.” Near tears, she ran out of the room.

“No dear, I see it too.” Victoria slowly finished her coffee as she mentally planned her day.

 * * * * *

 

Elizabeth knelt on the floor and checked on the sleeping child. It made her ill to see the bruises on her face and arms. As the days went by Sam was becoming more and more defiant and Jay was dealing with the child the only way he knew how … beating her into submission.

“Get away from her.” Jay grabbed his wife’s arm and hauled her to her feet.

“Jay, how much longer are we going to do this? The posters are everywhere and we can’t even go into town. Why are you doing this?”

 

Jay was still holding his wife’s arm and he squeezed until she cried out in pain. Sam moaned in her sleep but she didn’t wake up.

“Don’t question me.” He released his wife. “It would be too easy to kill her. It’s your fault.” He pointed his finger. “You were going to leave me for him and that child. You’re going to suffer watching that child suffer and then she’ll die.”

“Jay no.” Elizabeth backed away from her husband. “She’s just a baby and she hasn’t done anything to you.”

“Stop your whimpering.” He lifted his arm as Elizabeth cowered against the wall.

 

Sam suddenly cried out in her sleep and Jay glanced that way.

 

“Shut her up or she’ll really have something to cry about.”

 

Elizabeth rushed over to try to soothe the child.

 * * * * *

 

Jarrod heard the door open and looked up to see Tommy and his little brother. He smiled at the children as they neared him.

“Tommy what are you doing here? Is this Jacob? He sure is getting big.”

“I’m five.” Jacob held up five fingers.

“Jacob, not now.” Tommy took his brother’s hand. “Mr. Barkley, have they found Sam yet?”

“No Tommy but we’ll still looking everywhere and we’ll find her. Where’s your mother?”

“The baby has a doctor’s appointment,” Tommy answered. “I sure do miss Sam. I wish they’d find her already.”

 

Jarrod didn’t know what to say and he was relieved when the door opened and Mrs. Kyle walked in. “Tommy, I told you to leave Mr. Barkley alone.”

 

Jarrod watched in amazement as she toted the baby and kept the twins in line. Jarrod couldn’t remember the twins’ names. Lance always called them the twins when he talked about them as if they were one child. Jarrod remembered when the baby was born and how happy Lance was to finally have a little girl after four boys.

“Jarrod, are you ok?” Mrs. Kyle reached over and touched his arm.

“I’m fine.” He smiled at her. “Grace is a beautiful child.” Jarrod touched the baby’s hand.

“Jarrod is there any news?”

 

He shook his head.

“We’re all praying that she’ll be found safe,” she said. One of the twins started touching things on the desk.

“Daniel, don’t touch.” Tommy’s free hand grabbed his little brother. “Mr. Barkley, you’ll let me know when Sam is home, right?”

 

Jarrod smiled weakly at the child. “Tommy, after the family, you’ll be the first to know.”

“We need to get going.” Mrs. Kyle started ushering her brood out the door. Suddenly Tommy ran back alone.

“I know they’re going to find her. Mr. Barkley, I’m going to marry Sam someday. You’ll see.” He ran out before Jarrod could open his mouth.

 * * * * *

 

Heath stood in the hallway and stared at Sam’s door. He knew Nick was in there, as he was every night. Normally Heath would just stay in bed but tonight he got up and decided to confront his brother. Heath opened the door and was greeted with a low growl. He could see Nick sitting in the chair and he assumed the puppy was with him.

“Don’t turn the light on.”

 

Heath left it off and slowly neared his brother. “Nick, why do you do this to yourself?” Heath sat on the edge of the bed. “Why do you come in here every night?”

“I wasn’t aware that you knew.” Nick’s voice sounded shaky.

“We all know.”

 

He felt Lucky jump on the bed and Heath picked up the dog.

“Does anyone sleep around here?” Both Nick and Heath squinted as Jarrod turned on the light. “Is this what it has come too?” Jarrod neared them. “We can only think or talk about Sam during the middle of the night?”

“I’m going back to bed.”

 

Nick stood up but Jarrod wouldn’t allow him to leave. “Nick, please stay.”

“Why? What’s the point?” He glanced over at Heath and then back to Jarrod. “I know why I come in here and I don’t need to be lectured by either of you.” Nick started pacing, nearly stepping on Lucky a couple of times.

“Jarrod, isn’t there anything more we can do?”

 

Jarrod shrugged slightly, avoiding Heath’s gaze. “We’re doing everything I can think of. They can be anywhere or Sam could be dead.”

 

That stopped Nick. “Don’t say that.” Nick pointed his finger at his older brother. “Sam is a survivor and she’s out there somewhere.”

“No, she’s not a survivor.”

 

Nick spun around and faced his younger brother. “What do you mean?”

“Nothing.” Heath looked away.

“Heath, I’d like to know what you mean also.”

 

Heath felt uncomfortable under both their scrutiny. “I don’t know what I mean. Everyday that goes by we lose a little bit more of her.”

“That doesn’t make sense.”

“Nick, let him continue. Heath, go on.”

 

Heath stood up and walked towards the window. He stared out at the darkness wishing his brothers would just leave him alone.

“Heath.”

 

He felt a hand on his shoulder and knew it was Jarrod.

“You remember what she was like when we found her.” Heath said as he continued to stare out the window. “She’d been through so much she was shutting down and slowly starving herself.” Heath turned slightly and caught a glimpse of his brother’s face. “Then suddenly she had a family and just as suddenly it was gone.” Heath turned completely. “If Sam is alive, how do you think she feels right now?”

 

Neither answered.

“She’ll never be the same,” Heath added quietly. “She won’t get over this.”

 

"Hogwash,” Nick spit out. “If you think that then you’ve learned nothing about being part of this family.”

“Heath, I have to agree with Nick.” Jarrod smiled at his youngest brother. “She might not be the same but she’ll get over it. Heath, you’d be amazed at what love can do especially with a child.”

“Jarrod is right.” They all turned to see Victoria standing in the doorway.

“Mother, we’re sorry we woke you.” Jarrod walked towards her.

“Who said I was sleeping.” Victoria entered the room. “Is this a private conversation or can I join too?”

“Conversation is over,” Nick said suddenly. “I’m going to bed.” He walked out swiftly with all eyes on him.

“Maybe we should all get some sleep. Mother, Heath goodnight.”

 

Victoria watched him go, and then faced Heath. “Was it something I said or just that I showed up?”

 

Heath shrugged. “They don’t understand, none of you understand what it’s like to feel so alone.” Heath sighed deeply. “I guess it doesn’t matter until we find her. Assuming she’s alive,” he added much quieter.

 * * * * *

 

Sam was walking along between Nick and Heath, holding both their hands. They had rode for an hour and now they walked along the fields, just talking. Sam loved to listen to them arguing and it never scared her, no matter how loud Nick got. She glanced to her right where Heath should have been but it was her father standing there. Quickly she looked left and Jay Cole was there instead of Nick. Sam started screaming and then she woke up. Samantha tried to move, momentarily forgetting that her legs were shackled to the bedpost. She glanced around the dirty cabin and realized she was alone. Sam enjoyed the peace for a few minutes until the door opened and they walked in.

“You’re awake.” Elizabeth neared the child. “Are you hungry?” Elizabeth glanced at the child’s wrist and it still looked very swollen. “Sam, let me check your arm.”

 

She reached for it but Sam pulled away and tried to hide it.

“Stop fussing over her.” Jay leaned over the cowering child. “That’s what you get for cussing at me. Keep it up and you’ll get more.”

“Jay…”

 

Before Elizabeth could get another word out Jay slapped her. “Now make me something to eat.”

 

As Elizabeth got busy cooking lunch Jay hovered near the child. Sam hated the way he smelled and she turned her face, leaning it against the bed. “I have to go to the bathroom.”

 

He seemed to ignore her.

 

“I have to go real bad.”

 

Finally he nodded and started going through his pockets until he found the key. Quickly the shackles came off and Jay hauled the child to her feet. “Let’s go.”

 

Sam’s legs were too stiff to walk and Jay dragged her outside. A few minutes later they returned and he shoved her back to the floor. Sam cried out in pain when her head hit the floor.

“Lunch is ready,” Elizabeth said quickly, hoping to deter Jay’s attention from the child. She quickly served her husband and then went to give Sam some food.

“Don’t feed her.”

 

Elizabeth stopped in her tracks. “Jay, she needs to eat.”

“She needs to learn some manners. If she doesn’t, she’ll starve.”

 

Elizabeth looked at the child who refused to meet her gaze.

“Come eat with me.”

 

Elizabeth took a deep breath before she sat down at the table with her husband.

 

Sam didn’t care because she wasn’t hungry. She flexed her fingers and toes, just glad to be untied and able to move everything. Her wrist hurt but she was able to ignore the pain. Recently she’d been able to ignore a lot of things, even that monster when he was close to her. Sam thought back to her dream and her thoughts drifted to Heath and Nick. It had been a long time since she had thought about her brothers and it surprised her that she dreamt about them. She knew she would never see them again and it was less painful to think about things that would never be.

“We’re leaving here tomorrow.”

 

Sam looked up when she heard him say that.

“Jay, where are we going?”

 

He shrugged. “I thought someone was staring at me today in town and it’s not safe here.”

“Jay, we can’t keep doing this.”

“Shut up.”

Sam closed her eyes and tried to shut them out. Her mind wandered back to an earlier time in her life.

“Leah, I can’t live in this town anymore. Let’s take Samantha and leave.”

“Robert, no.” Leah continued preparing dinner. “I like this town and I’m not going anywhere.”

 

Sam was drawing at the table and she looked up just as her daddy grabbed her mama.

“You’re my wife and you’re going to listen to me.”

 

Leah cried out weakly as he squeezed her arm.

“Daddy, stop it.” Sam ran up to them and tugged at her daddy’s pants. “Leave Mama alone.”

 

Robert pushed his daughter away, causing her to crash to the floor. She started crying and Leah turned her attention to the child.

“Just keep coddling her like you do your son.” In a huff Robert walked out of the house.

 

Leah continued to soothe her child until she had stopped crying.

“Draw Mama a pretty picture.”

 

The confrontation seemingly forgotten, Samantha happily started drawing.

 * * * * *

 

Heath stood alone on the front porch and stared up at the stars. He heard footsteps but didn’t bother to see who was behind him.

“Heath, what are you doing?” Audra stood behind her brother.

“Just staring at the stars.”

“And thinking about Sam?”

 

Heath nodded. “Its three months today.”

“I know.” Audra gently touched his shoulder. “She knows we love her and we’ll never stop looking.” Even as she said them Audra knew how hollow the words sounded. “Heath, it’s late, come inside.”

“In a few minutes.” Heath waited until he heard the front door shut. “Sam, don’t forget how much I love you.” He continued to stare upward.

 

 

Part 11

 

Nick paced like a raging bull. Finally he had enough. “Heath! Heath, get off that horse now.” The new stallion was too wild and Nick knew he was going to throw his brother. “Heath, jump off.”

 

Heath wouldn’t give up and finally the horse threw him and broke through the fence.

“Heath!” Nick shouted as he raced towards his brother. Lance followed and they knelt down next to the fallen man.

“I’m fine.” Heath brushed them off and tried to stand up. He moaned as the world spun around him and fell heavily to the ground.

“Take it easy.” Nick kept his hand on Heath’s shoulder. “Lance, ask one of the guys to go get a doctor and then go after that horse.”

“Yes sir.”

“Heath, what were you thinking?” Nick helped him up. “You know better than to stay on a bucking horse.” Slowly he helped his brother to the house.

“Nick, I would have had him. A couple more minutes and I would have had him.”

“A couple more minutes and you would have been dead.”

 

They entered the empty house and slowly climbed the steps. Nick sat Heath on his bed and then helped him get his boots off.

“How do you feel?”

“My head is still spinning. Think I just need to sleep.” He tried to lie down but Nick wouldn’t let him.

“No you don’t. You’re not going to sleep until the doctor gets here and says it’s ok.” He noticed that Heath eyes were closing. For nearly an hour Nick tried to keep his brother awake. “Heath, talk to me.” Nick slapped him lightly on the face. “Heath, tell me about Sam.”

“Huh?” The mention of the child seemed to snap Heath back. “Tell you what?”

“Anything. What was she like when she was a baby?” They hadn’t talked about Sam in weeks and Heath was surprised that Nick wanted to hear about her. “Come on Heath, tell me.”

 

Heath closed his eyes tightly as he tried to think of something. “Nick I can’t. I can’t think of anything right now.” Heath ran his hand through his hair. “Nick, leave me alone. My head hurts and I don’t want to talk.”

“Nick! Heath! Where are you?” Nick was never so happy to hear his brother’s voice.

 

He quickly left the room and saw Jarrod and the doctor running upstairs.

“I heard what happened so I came home. How is Heath?”

 

Nick led them to his room. “Complaining of a headache and wanting to sleep.”

 

The doctor nodded as he went in and started examining the patient. Nick and Jarrod stayed in the hallway until he was done.

“Well?” Nick approached the doctor first.

“He has a egg-size lump on his forehead and probably a concussion. Keep a cold compress on his head and let him sleep, waking him every few hours. I’ll stop by tomorrow to see how he is.”

“Thanks doc. I’ll see you out.” Jarrod escorted the doctor to the door while Nick went back to sit with his brother.

“How do you feel?” Nick fixed the covers over his brother and sat gently on the bed.

“Boy howdy, my head hurts.”

 

Heath closed his eyes but that didn’t seem to help. He heard Jarrod enter the room and felt something cold placed on his head.

“Nick, I’m sorry the horse got away.” Slowly he opened his eyes and stared up at his brothers. “Why’d you want to hear about Sam?”

 

Jarrod glanced at Nick.

“It’s been awhile since we’ve talked about her…” Nick paused. “I miss her and I wanted to hear what she was like as a baby.” Nick looked away as he felt Jarrod grasp his shoulder.

“She never sat still,” Heath began with a slight smile on his face. “You name it she got into it. I’ll never forget the day she picked up my gun.”

It was a hot day in Strawberry and Heath was surprised that no one was around. He decided to go swimming and quickly undressed and jumped into the pond. He was only in there for a few minutes when he heard voices and quickly got out and got dressed.

“Heath.” He was buttoning up his shirt when he heard Sam call his name. She jumped into his arms and he hugged her tightly. He heard his mother calling him so Heath put his sister down and walked towards the house. He talked to his mother for a few minutes and then went back to collect his sister. Heath stopped dead in his tracks.

“Sam, what are you doing?”

 

He had left his holster on the ground and Sam had managed to remove the gun. Heath tried to remember if the safety latch was on but he didn’t know.

“Sam, put that down.”

 

She looked at him and then down at the gun in her hands. Slowly she turned it and looked down the barrel.

“Sam!” Heath rushed over to her and grabbed the gun out of her hands. “Don’t you ever touch this again. Do you understand me?”

 

She wasn’t sure why he was mad but it scared her and she started crying.

“Sam, don’t cry.” He waited until she stopped.

“What’d I do?” She looked at him with her big green eyes.

 

He placed the gun before her. “Sam, a gun is very dangerous and you can’t touch it.”

“But you carry it all the time.”

 

Heath sighed, not knowing how to reason with a four-year-old. “Sam, when you get older I’ll teach you how to handle this. But for right now I don’t want you near one.”

“Teach me now.” Sam stamped her foot on the ground. Against his better judgment and knowing his mother was going to kill him, Heath spent that day teaching his little sister how to shoot a gun.


“You taught her how to shoot?” Jarrod incredulously asked. “Heath, what were you thinking?”

“I wasn’t,” he admitted. “I stood behind her and kept my hands on the gun but she did pretty good.” He yawned.

“Heath, get some rest.” They turned the light off and left the room.

“Did you believe him?” Nick asked in the hallway.

 

Jarrod shrugged, a sad smile playing on his face. “Regardless, it was nice to hear someone talk about Sam.”

Nick nodded. “I hate myself for saying this but it doesn’t hurt as much as it did. I know time heals but…” Nick sighed, and then took a deep breath. “I still miss her and I always will, but it’s getting easier and I feel so guilty for saying that.”

“Don’t! Don’t feel guilty about that.” Jarrod wrapped an arm around his brother. “I hope Mother and Audra are having fun in Denver.”

Nick laughed. “I’m sure they’re buying the town out. Let’s get something to eat before we have to check on Heath.”

 

Jarrod lightly closed Heath’s door and then they headed downstairs to the kitchen.

 * * * * *

 

After a long search they found a small shack and stopped the horses. Sam felt herself being lifted off the horse and then roughly dropped to the floor. She scampered to the corner and leaned against the wall.

“We passed a small town a short while ago. I’m going to check it out.” Jay grabbed his hat and left.

 

Elizabeth turned her attention to the child. She grabbed some bread out of her bag and knelt down next to Sam. “Sam, you need to eat something.”

 

The child hadn’t spoken in days and ate barely enough to keep herself alive. Elizabeth put the bread down and tried to straighten the child’s legs, causing her to cry out in pain. She had been tied up for so long her legs were too weak for her to walk or even straighten. Jay didn’t even bother with the shackles because he knew she couldn’t walk.

“Sam, I’m sorry. I know it hurts.”

 

Elizabeth tried to exercise the muscles but Sam fought her the whole time.

“Sam, please eat. I’m going to get you out of here but I need your help.”

 

Sam briefly met her eyes before lowering her gaze.

 

“First you have to eat. You’re going to need some strength to do this.” Elizabeth again offered the bread and this time Sam took it. Before she could say more her husband showed up and Elizabeth backed away from the child.

“The town’s called Mesa and I don’t see any posters up.” He took off his boots and sat down in the lone chair.

 

Elizabeth cautiously neared her husband. “Jay, we’ve been running for months. Why can’t we do that ransom idea of yours? We’ll get money and we can leave the child somewhere that they can find her. Jay, please. Look at her. Hasn’t she suffered enough?”

 

Slowly Jay got up and approached Sam. She cowered into the corner, as far away from him that she could get.

“I don’t know.” He knelt down next to Sam. “I’m kind of getting used to having her around. Let’s say we cross the border into Mexico and we become a family. How would you like me as a daddy?”

 

To Elizabeth’s horror Sam spit in her husband’s face.

“Why you!” Jay stood up wiping his face. “You’re going to be sorry.” He started taking off his belt.

“Jay, no.” Elizabeth tried to stop him but he easily pushed her away and started whipping the child. Elizabeth covered her ears, trying to drown out the child’s cries.

“That’ll teach you.” Jay turned away from the child and back to his wife. “I need a drink. I’m going back into town. I expect dinner ready when I get back.”

 

After he stormed out Elizabeth addressed the child. “Sam, there’s a stream not too far. I’m going to get some water and clean you up.”

 

Sam was still whimpering, curled up in a ball on the floor. She was in the same position when Elizabeth returned.

“Sam, I’m going to remove your clothes.” Quickly she took the threadbare clothing off the child.

 

It had been a while since Elizabeth had been able to get Sam new clothes and these were so worn and so holey that they didn’t protect her at all from the buckle. She had so many cuts and bruises that Elizabeth didn’t know where to begin. Elizabeth chose the biggest spot and gently wiped it with the cloth. Sam cried out and tried to move away.

“Sam, don’t move.” Quickly Elizabeth cleaned what she could and got the child dressed. “Sam, listen to me carefully. As soon as I can I’m going to send a telegram to your family and tell them where you are. Then I’m going to set you free…” Elizabeth paused and glanced at the child’s legs. “Sam, I know you can’t walk so I’ll put you on one of the horses but then you’re on your own. You’ll have to find someone and you’re going to ask for help. Can you do that?”

 

Sam didn’t respond.

“I better get some food ready for Jay.” Elizabeth started scurrying around getting a fire started. Sam watched her for a few minutes and then curled back up in a ball and fell asleep.

 * * * * *

 

Audra managed to open the front door without dropping any of the bags in her arms. She hurried over to the sofa and dropped them there. Victoria followed her daughter in, her arms also filled.

“Welcome home.” They turned to see Nick and Heath nearing them. “Where’s Jarrod? He was suppose to meet you at the depot.”

“He never showed up” Victoria told them. “Heath, what happened to your head?”

 

Heath rubbed the still visible bump on his head. “Had a run in with a wild stallion. But I’ll live. Did you two leave anything for others to buy?”

“Don’t worry,” Audra teased, “I think there’s something here for you. Somewhere” she added as she started sorting out the bags.

“Any news?” Victoria didn’t mention Sam’s name but she didn’t have to…they knew what she meant.

“No.” Nick shook his head. “I wonder where Jarrod is.”

 

Audra was still rummaging through bags and finally she found what she wanted. “Don’t make fun of me but I found this and I thought it would be adorable on Sam.” She glanced over at her brothers. “I know we may never find her but I still believe we will.” She held up a small dress. “It’s a size bigger just in case she’s grown while she was gone.”

“She’d love it,” Heath said after a few minutes of silence. “So what’d you get me?” Heath asked trying to change the subject.

“Nick, please get the suitcases and bring them upstairs.”

 

Nick did as his mother asked. A half hour later the suitcases were unpacked, the packages sorted and the family was sitting in the living room and talking. The front door opened and Jarrod rushed in.

“Nick! Heath!” He rushed in to the living room and then noticed his mother and sister. “I’m sorry. I forgot to pick you up.” He was frazzled and the family noticed immediately.

“Jarrod, what’s wrong?” Nick stood up and approached him.

 

Jarrod reached into his pocket and brought out a piece of paper and handed it to his brother. “Read this. Nick, read it out loud.”

 

Nick read the first sentence silently and felt his hands shaking.

“Nick, what does it say?” Heath impatiently asked.

“This is Elizabeth Cole. Samantha is still alive but she won’t be for much longer if she doesn’t get away from my husband.” Nick paused as the whole family gathered around him. “We are near a small town called Mesa, in Arizona and I will set her free a few days after I send this. My husband will kill me when he finds out what I did and then he will go after Sam and kill her if he catches her.” Nick’s voice was shaky by the time he finished. “That’s all it says.” He looked at Jarrod. “Is this a joke?”

“I don’t think so.” Jarrod took the telegram back.

“Praise the lord,” Victoria whispered as Audra hugged her.

 

Heath stood alone until Nick suddenly gave him a bear hug. “Did you hear that? Sam is alive.”

 

Heath couldn’t find his voice so he nodded his head.

“We can’t celebrate yet,” Jarrod reminded them. “Mother I forgot you were coming home so I only bought three tickets to Mesa. But I think it’s better if you and Audra stay here in case any more telegrams are sent.”

“I want to go” Audra piped in. “Mother, we have to go.”

“Audra we’ll stay here in case Sam tries to contact us. Besides we can get things ready for her homecoming. Jarrod when do you leave?”

“In the morning. I also wired the sheriff in Mesa and explained the situation. They’ll be on the look-out for Sam.” Jarrod walked over and sat down heavily on the sofa. It had been a few hours since the telegram arrived and it was finally setting in. After six months, they had a clue and hopefully they would find Sam soon.

 * * * * *

 

Elizabeth stood over her husband and watched him sleep. He had come home drunk with a bottle of whiskey in his hand. The bottle was now finished and Elizabeth was sure he would sleep the night. It was the perfect opportunity to get Sam away and Elizabeth wasn’t going to let it pass. She threw whatever food they had left in a bag and filled up a canister with water. Sam was sleeping on the floor and Elizabeth waited until the last moment to wake her. She thought about going with the child but felt if she stayed behind she could stall her husband when he woke up and saw that Sam was gone. Gently she shook the child until she was awake. Sam opened her eyes and tried to get away from Elizabeth.

“Sam! It’s time to go.” She pulled the child to a sitting position. “I’m going to put you on a horse and you have to go find help. Sam, you have to talk and tell them who you are. Your family will come for you.”

 

The child was still sleepy and Elizabeth wasn’t sure how much she understood.

“I wish I had clean clothes for you.”

 

Elizabeth tidied up the child the best she could and then lifted her into her arms. She grabbed the bag with food and then walked outside.

 

“Samantha, I’m so sorry about everything. One day I hope you forgive me.”

 

She kissed the child’s cheek as they neared the horses.

“This one is gentle and easy to ride.”

 

She put Sam down as she got the horse ready and tied the bag to the saddle. Elizabeth then picked up the child and carefully placed her on the horse.

 

“Keep the reins in your hands and gently kick the horse to keep moving.”

 

Sam seemed terrified as she leaned forward on the horse.

“Sam, the town is west of here. You keep going in that direction and you’ll find it.” Elizabeth pointed and then turned the horse so it was facing the right way.

 

Sam didn’t do anything to get the horse moving so Elizabeth hit it lightly to get it going. Silently the woman prayed that Sam would find help before her husband found her.

 

Part 12

 

Heath slammed his hand against the desk.

“Take it easy.” Jarrod pulled his brother away from the sheriff.

 

“Jarrod, we’ve been here a day. Where is she?” Heath shook himself free.

“Elizabeth Cole is dead.” They turned to see Nick rushing in along with one of the deputies. “We found her body near a small shack, shot in the head.”

“Sam?” Heath quietly said her name.

“No sign of her or Jay Cole. Damn.” Nick ran his hand through his hair. “What if he caught up to Sam? He shot his wife in the head. He’s capable of doing anything to that child.”

“We’ll expand our search,” Jarrod stated. “We’ll start where you found the body and head towards town.” He sighed deeply. “It’s possible Sam never made it this far and she’s hiding somewhere out there.”

 

He saw the despair in his brother’s faces.

“Don’t give up. Let’s get started.”

 

He ushered his brothers out of the building, and then they quickly mounted their horses and headed towards the direction that Elizabeth Cole’s body was found.

 * * * * *

 

Heath and Nick were in the general store buying some supplies before it closed. It was too dark to keep searching and they would stay in the hotel and try again in the morning. Nick was doing the buying as Heath stood sullenly in the corner.

“Excuse me.”

 

Heath moved so two elderly women could get by him. He tried to tune out their conversation as they debated which outfit to buy for a child. Heath heard them say green eyes and suddenly his interest peaked. He moved a bit closer.

“Who are you buying that dress for?”

 

They looked up at him suspiciously.

“Please! I need to know who that dress is for.”

 

The older of the two women stepped forward. “Why do you care?”

Heath sighed and then took a picture out of his pocket. “My name is Heath Barkley and my sister was kidnapped. Have you seen her?” He handed the lady the picture.

 

She studied it and then passed it back to the woman behind her.

“Well?” Heath was extremely impatient. “She’s been missing for six months and we have reason to believe she’s around here. She’s small for her age and has large, green eyes.”

“Millie, tell him.”

 

The younger lady stepped forward. “A girl rode up near our house on a horse and then fell off it. That was two days ago and she hasn’t said a word to us or let us near her. Alice thought if we bought her some clothes and a toy she might trust us.”

 

Heath’s heart started racing. “Does she look like that child in the picture?”

 

Alice shrugged. “Hard to say. But she does have green eyes and she’s awfully thin.”

“Nick!” Heath shouted for his brother. “Nick, come here.” When he didn’t move fast enough Heath rushed over to him. “Nick.” Heath grabbed his arm.

“Take it easy. Let me buy this stuff and then we’ll go.”

“Nick, forget about this.” Heath grabbed the items from his arms and plopped them on the counter. “Nick I think they have Sam.” He pointed to the women who were intently watching them.

“What?” Nick asked as Heath pulled him towards the women.

 

“They found a girl and it could be Sam.”

 

Nick stared at the women. “What are we waiting for? Take us to her.”

“Who are you?” Alice asked.

“This is Nick, my brother. Please just take us to this child.”

 

The two women briefly conferred with each other. “We’re not sure we can trust you.”

“For god’s sake.” Nick let out an exasperated gasp. “If you can’t trust us we’ll go to the sheriff.”

“Alice, the child is alone,” Millie reminded her. “We need to get back home.”

 

Alice finally nodded her head. “Let’s buy the outfit and then we’ll go home.” They walked to the counter to pay.

“Nick, should we get Jarrod?”

 

He shook his head. “I don’t want to let them out of our sight. If it is Sam, one of us will let him know.”

 

The ladies got into their buggy and the brothers followed them on their horses.

 

As they rode along Heath got discouraged by the direction they were going. “Nick, this is kind of far from the body. Do you think Sam would have made it this far?”

“I don’t know” Nick answered, “but this must be the house.”

 

The buggy stopped and Nick jumped off his horse and helped the ladies down.

“Keep your voices low so you don’t scare her.” Millie opened the door and they followed.

“Missy, it’s just us. That’s the name we’ve been calling her,” Millie quietly explained.

 

It was a small, two room house and they followed the ladies into the second room. One of them lit the lantern and at first the room looked empty.

“She’s in the storage closet,” Millie stated. “We carried her into the house and she crawled in there and hasn’t come out since.”

“Crawled?” Nick and Heath exchanged glances.

“Something is wrong with her legs and we don’t think she can walk. We put a bucket in there for her to go to the bathroom and we’ve offered food but she hasn’t eaten at all.”

“I can’t wait any longer.” Nick grabbed the lantern and started towards the closet but Heath stopped him.

“Nick, let me do this. Please.”

 

Nick nodded and handed the lantern over.

 

Heath lowered himself to the floor and peered into the room. “Sam, is that you?” He saw a child huddled in the corner. By the smell in the room he knew the bucket was unused. He brought the lantern closer and tried to make out the child’s face.

 

She wouldn’t face him so Heath reached in and gently forced her to look at him.

“Sam!”

 

She did not show any emotion as she turned away from him.

 

After a few minutes Heath stood up and walked back to Nick. “It’s her but I’m not sure she knows who I am. Nick, go get Jarrod and see if a doctor is around.”

 

Nick didn’t budge.

“Nick, please. I’ve seen her like this before and we have to be careful.”

 

Nick wanted to go see his sister but something in Heath’s face scared him. “How bad is she?”

“I don’t know. Her eyes are empty and her legs are bent funny.” He sighed deeply. “Nick, I don’t think it’s good.” Heath bit down on his lower lip. “I’m going to get her out of there and try to give her a bath.” He glanced over his shoulder. “Do you have a bathtub?”

 

Millie nodded. “We’ll get it ready” she said and the ladies scurried away.

 

“Nick, just hurry back.” Nick gently grasped his brother’s shoulder before rushing out of the house.

 

Heath went back to the storage room and crouched down. “Sam, I’m going to carry you out of there.”

 

Heath held his breath as he gently lifted the child. He let it out slowly when it became clear she wasn’t going to fight him.

“I’ve missed you so much.” Heath lightly kissed her cheek, and then noticed she was watching him. “Sam, I’m going to give you a bath, ok?”

 

The child remained unresponsive as Heath undressed her and placed her in the tub. He was sickened by all the marks on her body and he heard the ladies gasp behind him. He gently started to wash her, humming a tune their mother used to sing.

“Did you buy underwear?” he asked Millie.

 

She nodded and brought him a pair. Heath dried Sam off and put the underwear on, then wrapped her in a blanket.

“Don’t forget her hair” Alice reminded him.

 

Heath held the child as Alice gently rubbed her head with a towel.

By the time Nick returned with Jarrod, Sam was sleeping in Heath’s arms.

“How is she?” They hovered above Heath, their eyes never leaving Sam’s face.

“She hasn’t said a word, her body is covered with bruises and scabs and I don’t know about her legs.” Heath’s voiced cracked and he wrapped his arms tighter around Sam, hiding his face against her head.

 

Jarrod knelt down and tried to comfort his brother. “Heath, she’s alive and we’ll deal with everything else.” He glanced up at Nick, who was also struggling to keep his composure.

“Where’s the doctor?” Heath asked after a few minutes.

“It’s too late” Jarrod answered. “Can we stay here tonight?” Jarrod glanced at the ladies who nodded their heads. “Tomorrow we’ll take Sam into town and get her checked out.”

“The child can use my bed,” Millie offered, “and I’ll double up with my sister.”

“No.” Heath shook his head. “I’m not letting her out of my sight until that man is caught.”

“Thanks for the offer.” Jarrod smiled at Millie. “But she’s fine where she is. My brother and I will just sleep here on the floor.”

“Jarrod, she’s so much thinner than before.” Heath shut his eyes and tried in vain to keep the tears from falling.

“Heath, let me take her from you.” Jarrod was afraid he would wake Sam up. “Go outside and get some fresh air.”

“I’m fine.” Heath swiped his hand against his face. “I just want to sit here and hold her.”

“OK.” Jarrod gently patted his shoulder. Jarrod stood up and pulled Nick to the side. “Be very careful with him. If we push him he’s going to fall apart.”

 

Nick nodded slightly.

 

“We’ll take turns tonight watching out for Cole.”

“You think he’s still around?” Nick asked.

“I do.” Jarrod nodded. “I think he wants Sam dead and he’s not going to leave until she is.” Jarrod glanced over at the child. “One of us will stay with her at all times until he’s caught. Nick I’ll take the first watch.” Jarrod walked outside and closed the door behind him.

 

Nick knelt down and gently kissed Sam’s cheek.

“We’ll get her through this.” Nick tousled his brother’s hair and then settled down on the hard floor. He smiled gratefully when Millie came out with an extra blanket and pillow. “Thank you” Nick whispered and then settled back down.

 

He was nearly asleep when a blood-curling scream brought him to his feet. Heath was trying to calm a thrashing Sam with very little success. Jarrod ran in and grabbed the child from Heath and started pacing with her in his arms. Sam was still only clad in underwear and it pained Nick to see how thin she really was.

“Sam, you’re safe.” Jarrod continued to walk with her and whisper softly in her ear. It seemed to work and soon she was quiet, resting her head on Jarrod’s shoulder.

 

Millie walked over and handed him a shirt. “This was my son’s but I don’t think he would mind the child borrowing it.”

 

Jarrod placed Sam on the table and wrapped the shirt around her. She seemed more alert as she stared up at Jarrod. “He’s going to kill me.” They were the first words Sam had spoken and Jarrod was relieved to finally hear her talk.

“No he’s not.” Nick had come closer and heard what the child had said. “Sam, we’re not going to leave you alone for a minute, I promise you that.”

“I’m scared.” She was shivering so Nick grabbed the blanket and wrapped it around her.

 

“Sam, that man is not going to touch you again.”

“Promise?”

 

Nick lifted her into his arms. “I promise.” He hugged her for the first time in six months and savored every moment of it.

“Sam, are you ready to go back to sleep?” She glanced at Jarrod and then shook her head.

“Do you want to sit with Heath?”

 

She nodded yes so Nick handed her to Heath and they settled back in the chair.

“Heath, sing that song again.”

 

That was the last thing he wanted to do but at that moment he would do anything for his sister. Very quietly Heath sang the song he had earlier hummed. Nick listened with a broad smile on his face. Later, when things calmed down, he would remember to razz his brother about his bad voice.

 * * * * *

 

Heath flinched every time Sam screamed. She was in with the doctor and Jarrod, while he and Nick waited in the hallway. It seemed like an eternity before the doctor walked out with Jarrod following.

“My assistant will stay with Sam while we talk.”

 

They followed the doctor to his office.

 

“We’re dealing with two issues here.” Doc Baker sat in his chair and scrutinized the three men. “It’s amazing that child is doing as well as she is considering how underweight she is.” He shrugged slightly. “She needs to start gaining weight now before permanent damage sets in. I would recommend starting with light, small meals five times a day and then progressing to larger meals three times a day.”

 

He waited but no one commented.

“As for her legs.” The doctor paused and smiled slightly. “I’m not a specialist but I don’t think there’s any permanent damage. Her muscles have atrophied from being immobilized for so long.”

“How do we fix them?” Nick asked.

“Exercise. Lots of exercise and stretching and it will be very painful for her. You saw in there how much pain some stretching caused.” The doctor addressed Jarrod. “I can draw up some exercises you can do with her until you get home, but I highly recommend you contact a specialist and have him examine Sam.”

Jarrod nodded. “We’ll do that when we get home. For now we’ll do the exercises and work on getting her to eat. Thank you.” Jarrod shook his hand. “Heath, go get Sam. We’ll come back later to get the exercises.” Jarrod was anxious to get Sam to the hotel and go looking for Cole.

 * * * * *

 

Nick walked through the town with Sam on his shoulders. This was their fourth day in Mesa and still no sign of Cole. Jarrod had started talking about going home but none of them felt comfortable leaving until Cole was found. So they took turns staying with Sam and going out with the daily posses to search for the monster. He felt Sam lean over and rest her chin on his head.

“Sam, are you tired?”

“No.”

“Hungry?”

“No.”


Nick smiled slightly. He could understand the child’s mood. Each day started with pain as they tried to stretch out her muscles. She would cry so hard that she would end up throwing up whatever little food they had managed to get down her. After Sam was calm they would ice her legs while trying to get her to eat more. Nights were just as bad. Sam clung to whichever brother was willing to stay up and hold her and if she did fall asleep a nightmare was sure to follow. She was afraid to be alone and positive that Cole was always watching her. They were all frustrated and tired and Nick wanted badly to go home. He was sure that seeing their mother and Audra and just being on the ranch would help Sam greatly.

“Sam, let’s stop here for a few minutes.” Jarrod had asked Nick to send a telegram home and give their mother an update. When he was finished he bought some chocolate and handed Sam a piece.

“Nick, my legs hurt.”

“I know.” Sam had been complaining all morning that they were sore and they were a bit more swollen than the previous day. Nick had taken her to see the doctor and he assured him that it was just the exercises and that more ice would help. Because of Sam’s size he was reluctant to prescribe any pain medication. He told Nick to keep her occupied so that she didn’t think about the pain.

“Sam, we’ll put ice on them when we get back to the hotel.”

“Won’t help.” Sam finished her chocolate and went back to resting on Nick’s head.

 

When they got back to the hotel Nick placed Sam on the bed. “I’ll be right back, I need to get more ice.”

 

He grabbed the bucket and closed the door behind him. He hurried back and entered the room. Nick’s eyes widened. Jay Cole stood there with a gun to Sam’s head.