The moon was high in the jeweled sky but the two lovers took no notice. They
had eyes only for each other. He had proposed to her this evening upon the
beach and they were making love tenderly in the most romantic spot he could
think of. The roar of the ocean was like soft enchanting music as he showed
his love to her with the promise of many more nights of such passion to
come.
As the waves lapped over their feet as they lay much too close to the water
the man felt something touching his foot. He absently kicked thinking it was
just a bit of seaweed that had come in on the wave. He had time to only gasp
as he felt the touch tighten then pull him into the water.
The woman sat up screaming as another creature came from the water and
grabbed her also. No promises saved them.
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Anya held on to the pillow tightly as Xander dressed for work. "You're going
to leave me someday."
Xander paused looking at her incredulously as he pulled on his shirt. "What?
No I won't! What makes you say that?"
"You will! Or I will. One of us will leave the other. It will happen. We
can't stop it. One of us is going to die. Sooner or later one of us will not
wake up someday. Or maybe one night we will go help Buffy and pbbt...that
will be it. Dead." Anya pulled the pillow up tightly to her body as she
pouted. Her pink satin nightgown rode up on her thigh and for a second he
was distracted.
Xander stared at her as he tried to catch up to the conversation that she
had obviously been having with herself long before she included him in it.
"I'm not sure I'm following this."
"We are going to die. Someday. And we don't know when. And then one day, one
of us is leaving the other. And we can't stop it." She had tears in her eyes
as she spoke. "I don't think I could take it if you died."
"Anya..."
"No it is true. I can feel this body...dying a little bit every day. I look
in the mirror and I can see it age. I have...lines appearing under my eyes.
I saw a GRAY HAIR Xander! I have GRAY! I'm getting old. And you are getting
old. True you don't look it but we are human and humans get old and die! And
either I'm going to lose you or you are going to lose me and it is SO not
fair." Anya was crying into the pillow softly.
"Oh Anya. Gray hair isn't a big thing. I've had a little gray since I was
thirteen. Heck back then I thought it was kinda cool." He smiled at he
gently. "Anya I can say with a certain amount of certainty that I don't
think I will personally be leaving you anytime soon. Okay. I promise."
To himself he wondered how she knew she had gray when she dyed it so often.
"You promise? You won't die on me?" Anya asked him.
"Let's just say it is hard to keep a good man down and leave it at that."
Xander told her with an almost sad smile.
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Xander worked hard for the rest of the day and only thought briefly about
his conversation with Anya. He didn't want to think about her dying. It hurt
too much. It hurt too much to think about any of his friends dying. It was
easier during the day to avoid the morbid thoughts that would sometimes come
to him in the night. He would find himself brooding when he should be
sleeping.
At night they would come and he had no other recourse but to think about
them and at those times he believed that he among all of his associates
probably understood Angel the most. Buffy may understand the man's heart but
Xander understood the man's soul. And sometimes he envied Angel the
knowledge that he did indeed have a soul. Xander had no such knowledge. No
such reassurances that he had that all-important aspect of life that would
carry him into any type of afterlife. Perhaps when he was gone...he would
truly be gone. No heaven, no hell, just gone like a flame blown out. He had
often thought about asking Willow if there were a spell that would tell you
if a soul were present. But then he would think about his best friend and
the other morbid thoughts would return. Someday his best friend would die
and just as before with Jessie he would have to stand there and bare his
loss.
He thought about Spike and other vampires briefly. Perhaps that is why they
didn't make friends among humans. Besides the whole, they are a food source,
lets not make friends with our snack idea. Perhaps it hurt too much to watch
them die. Did it hurt Spike on some level to know that Buffy would die long
before him barring a stake though the heart? Did Spike even realize that
yet? Had it occurred to him? What was it like to watch everyone you ever
knew die as you remained unchanged? Did immortality get old after a while?
Did they get bored and want it to ever end? Or do they strive to keep it
interesting? How do they handle the crushing loneliness that being so long
lived has to bring? Is that why they turned other people, in the hopes that
one will stay with them and make the loneliness all the more bearable? Is
that why Spike really loved the insane Dru? Is it because she had stayed
with him and made it easier? Would he have been as infatuated with any other
demon under those circumstances? Or was it a whole Sire and Childe thing?
So many questions burned in Xander's mind at night keeping him awake long
after he knew he should be sleeping. But they mainly boiled down to 'What
became of you when immortality became too tiring?'
And having avoided thinking about the entire subject all day, now that night
had fallen once more he looked at the ceiling and asked his unanswerable
questions. As he contemplated death and life and un-life, Anya slept
peacefully at his side calmed by his promise not to leave her unexpectedly.
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Giles held the morning paper in his hands as he read the front page over and
over again. The picture was much too blurry to see anything of consequence
but the story struck a cord that put him on alert. According to the news
item two late night swimmers had been attacked and partially eaten by
sharks. On a beach that had never had any dealing with such a thing. Giles
adjusted his glasses as he read the complete account of what was found over
and over again. It was ordinary yet it was not and if his time on the
Hellmouth had taught him anything it was to trust his instincts.
After a few minutes of considering it he finally called everyone and asked
them to meet him at the Magic Box later that afternoon.
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"So you think this was not a shark attack." Xander asked him later that
night.
They had spent a considerable amount of the afternoon researching the books
and discussing the possibilities.
"Something just isn't right. I can't put my finger on it." Giles told him.
The sun had already been down for a couple of hours and Buffy was preparing
to go on patrol when Spike rushed into the shop and slammed the door shut
behind him.
"Sea monster!" He barked.
They all stared at him blankly.
"Seeeeaaaaa Monnnnnsssster." He said slower as though talking to a slow
child.
"Huh?" Xander said.
"By the ocean. Big, mean, black lagoonish sea monster. Tried to take a bite
out of me. Thought that would be up your lots' alley." Spike told them
adjusting his coat.
"You do know that you aren't welcome here right?" Buffy asked. "Like as in
stake through the heart not welcome."
"Right so I should just stay in my crypt and let you guys figure out on your
own what is eating people?" Spike asked. "No problem...ta."
He started out the door and Giles sighed heavily. "Spike wait. What exactly
did you see?"
He had a put upon expression on his face as he waved Spike back. "You are on
probation as of right now until this matter is put to rest. Try anything
though and we will use the dust buster to clean you up with."
Spike rolled his eyes. "Right."
He sat down and put his feet up on the table. "Right it was big, scaly,
looked like the creature from the black lagoon and had many sharp teeth and
likes to eat people including yours truly which means that I would prefer
that it wasn't around. I mean I may not be top of the food chain anymore but
I don't need to be someone's Vampire McNuggets either."
He pulled out a piece of paper while he was talking and started to sketch
what he saw while everyone grabbed more books. Buffy took her jacket off and
sat back down. A couple of hours later they still had no luck locating
information on it but they had recognized the creatures.
"The swim team. They've come back." Xander said quietly.
Giles rubbed the bridge of his nose. "Apparently."
"Swim team? That is a bloody stupid name for a demon." Spike said.
Everyone ignored him as they stood up. "We should go take a look around and
see if anything is still moving tonight."
As the young people filed out the door Spike brought up the rear. "Swim
team? I mean come on...that hardly strikes fear into your enemies does it?
Beware...the swim team. They have come to eat you up. Nope not even a
chill."
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They walked along the beach as they looked for any sign of the creatures
that were once human. Each took a different section in teams of two. Xander
walked quietly along Spike as they checked out a small section near an
outcropping. Spike growled. "Nothing here."
Xander nodded. "They probably already ate and are sleeping it off somewhere
by now. We won't find them tonight."
Spike said nothing as he looked up at the clear bright stars.
"Thinking about Dru?" Xander asked him quietly.
"Obvious?" Spike asked just as quietly.
"I remember her thing with the stars." Xander shrugged.
They walked on in silence as they turned to head back toward the others.
"What is it like?" Xander asked finally.
"What is what like?" Spike asked confused as he pulled out a cigarette.
"Living so long. Is it lonely? Do you get bored? If you had a choice would
you be mortal again?"
For a few seconds Spike said nothing and Xander could only hear the ocean
and feel the give of the sand under his feet.
Spike turned to look at Xander as though he had just grown another head.
"What the bloody hell are you talking about mate?"
"Never mind. Just mindless ponderings." Xander said with an embarrassed
smirk.
Spike crushed the newly lit cigarette out suddenly. "Yeah sometimes. Miss
Dru. She was my Dark Goddess after all. But I don't get all broody like that
pouf of a grandsire of mine. Try not to think about it too much truthfully."
"Do you think the loneliness will ever get to be too much?" Xander asked
quietly again.
"You are rather morbid tonight aren't you mate?" Spike lifted a brow.
"Sometimes. Just trying to imagine what it is like to watch the centuries
pass you by as everyone you ever cared about dies. I would just think it is
lonely."
"God you are depressing." Spike pronounced as he walked a little faster.
Xander shrugged.
The night was pronounced a bust and they all tiredly went home vowing to
meet the next night to try once again to locate the monsters in question.
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Xander woke up late. It had been his day off and he slept through the day
and woke up well after the time that he was supposed to have met his
friends. Anya had already been gone since earlier, she worked at the Magic
Box. He raced to get cleaned up and dressed and threw the refrigerator door
open. It was bare of what he needed.
"SHIT!" He had forgotten to buy more the day before.
He raced out the door intent on meeting them there and hoping that the
hunger wouldn't present too much of a problem.
As he raced through the park a woman came out hobbling. "Help me!
I...I...was...just attacked!"
She looked hurt and reached her hands out to him to steady herself. He put
his hands on her arms to pull her up.
Her demon face slid forward as vampire teeth came down. He almost sighed as
she tried to bite him and instead shifted his weight throwing her off
balance. She ended up in his arms and he pulled her head back and he leaned
forward grabbing flesh between teeth.
Xander turned quickly as he heard the shout behind him. He dropped the girl
he held in his arms and tried to wipe at the blood upon his lips as Buffy
gasped in shock. The girl fell briefly before staggering up and running as
fast as she could despite the blood loss. He tried to think of something to
say as in one brief moment he saw everyone there. Willow looked ready to cry
as Tara tried to hold her. Anya had grave acceptance upon her face before
she turned away. Giles looked sad and resolute as Buffy raised the stake in
her hand but it was the look of shock and confusion on Spike's face that
took him by surprise. He almost smiled at the look when he remembered the
stake being held near him.
"Buffy, you don't know..." He started.
"You aren't Xander." She said sadly almost to herself. As though she were
trying to convince herself so it would make her job easier. Her eyes held
tears as she took a step forward.
"Maybe we could curse him..." Willow began.
"You don't have t..." he started as he stepped forward trying to convince
them that it wasn't necessary really.
She gasped as she perceived an attack and stuck out quickly imbedding the
stake deeply within his heart.
He sighed as he slid silently to the ground with only a slight gurgling
sound issuing from his lips. As his eyes closed and he started to feel
himself die. "Sorry." He whispered as he felt his body grow colder.
He was dead within seconds.
Willow stared at him wide eyed a few seconds before she started moaning.
"Oooooh no. oh no oh no oh no" over and over again as she fell upon his
body.
Buffy looked at him with a dull expression as she stood in shock. "He didn't
turn to dust. Why didn't he turn to dust? He should have turned to dust."
Giles covered his mouth and closed his eyes while Anya walked away crying
silently. Spike shook his head sharply trying to clear it and find his
voice.
"He wasn't a vamp. He was still human." He leaned heavily against a nearby
tree. "She was the vamp."
He stared at the dead man on the ground and shook his head. {Yet he was
draining her as though they were reversed.}
Giles gently yet firmly pulled Willow off of the body as Tara wrapped her
arms around the crying red head still chanting "oh no". Giles nodded his
head at Spike and Spike understood.
"We will deal with the...the...the body...Xander...later." Giles spoke
softly. "Spike I want you to take him to your crypt until I can contact the
council. I will need their help to deal with this. Seeing as how you are
on...probation...with us I suggest you do it without argument."
Suddenly Buffy broke out in tears as Spike lifted the seemingly boneless
body in his arms. The larger man looked out of place in the smaller man's
arms and was awkward to carry. He shifted him around until Xander's head
fell upon his shoulder. He turned without a word and started for his crypt
as Buffy started to cry in earnest.
He heard the screamed "NO" behind him as Giles started to make shushing
sounds.
He felt curious eyes on him as he made his way through the cemetery by the
other denizens of the night but none tried to interfere with him or stop
him. They were curious but not curious enough to risk a fight.
He kicked the crypt door open and walked in kicking it close behind him.
"Well whelp, I always knew you were going to get it in the end but I didn't
figure on the slayer doing it."
He laid the man upon what served as his bed and looked at him carefully.
"Just what the bugger were you doing anyway? Never saw a human biting a vamp
before unless he was being turned...and you'd have to be close to death for
that to happen. What the bloody hell were you doing?"
The corpse had no answer for him as it lay motionless before him. He
stretched out the limbs in a more natural position and pulled out the stake
still embedded within his heart. "Now what do I do with you?"
Spike sat next to the dead body and studied it. Xander looked like he was
merely sleeping. Soft and long eyelashes brushed soft cheeks that had no
flaws. And the tousled hair just added to the idea of a young man only
sleeping. Lying down and relaxed his body looked bigger than it usually did.
Broader and more muscular since he was no longer hunched over as though
ashamed of his body. Spike reached out in spite of himself and prodded an
arm. He was surprised at the muscle he felt there. He ripped at the shirt
and pulled it back to look at the wound closer. There was lots of blood
surrounding it and he smirked. "No one would notice if I had a bit of a
nibble."
He leaned closer and flicked a tongue out at the wound taking a generous
lap. A few seconds later he was spitting it out and trying to wipe his
tongue off as he glared at the body next to him. He grabbed a bottle of
whiskey off a nearby table and gargled with it before he spit it back out.
"YUCK! What the HELL have you been taking?"
He gargled again and spit.
He glared at the body and pouted. Even in death the young man had managed to
spite him. "Some Nummy Treat you turned out to be. Gross! Blatant false
advertising!"
He walked to his sitting chair and turned on the television intent on
watching it. He smiled at the movie and lost himself in it. Several hours
passed without incident when suddenly he felt eyes upon his back. He hadn't
heard the door open. He was positive he would have heard it opened since it
had a pronounced squeak recently. He steeled himself and turned around
slowly.
Xander was sitting up looking at him blinking tiredly.
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Spike stood up slowly and swallowed hard. "Xander?"
Xander tilted his head slightly and opened his mouth. Then he closed it with
an audible click as he looked down and saw the blood upon his chest. He
grimaced and looked up at Spike with an embarrassed expression.
"What are you?" Spike asked quietly unable to bring himself closer. He
cautiously sniffed the air but it only told him that a human was nearby.
Xander rubbed at the blood on his chest and watched as it rolled and flaked
off. "Yuck I hate blood it gets so sticky."
"True." Spike agreed softly.
As he rubbed the blood off Spike could see that the wound had disappeared
completely. "What are you?" He asked again.
"I'm...me...same as I've always been. Never changing. Just me." Xander told
him.
"You died mate. Watched you. Heard the heart stop. You were dead. And you
haven't been turned." Spike told him in a tone that was almost accusing him.
The tone said, 'You are breaking the rules and I don't appreciate it so lie
back down and be dead again'.
Xander half shrugged. "So what else is new? I get killed at least three
times a year. I feel like Kenny on South Park. 'Oh my God! They killed
Xander! You bastards!' It's okay though, next day I feel fine. Hurts like
hell at the time though."
Spike's eyes got wide and he looked vaguely innocent while confused. A look
not lost entirely on Xander. {How cute...no not cute. Bad Xander bad
thoughts...not cute. Except that he is.}
"It's okay. It takes some getting used to. The others didn't know, I guess
they will now." He sighed unhappily. "I guess you all sort of caught me in
the act."
"You mean the GRRR I'm not a vampire but I play one on the telly
impersonation you gave us? Yeah we caught you." Spike said leaning against
his chair trying to look casual as he remembered that Xander's 'victim' had
been a vampire. "Just what was that about mate?"
Xander looked down miserable. "I was hungry. I ran out of blood at my place.
What with everything going on... I was on my way to see everyone and she
jumped out at me to try and drain me. I figured what the hell..."
"So you said Cheers and decided to grab a bite to eat? As a vampire no one
would miss her?"
"Pretty much. I mean...she would have been staked normally at least I could
save a buck tonight right?" Xander looked hopeful at Spike who only managed
to look slightly disturbed.
"You smell like a human but you drink blood and you don't die...what the
bloody hell are you?" Spike demanded finally.
"Immortal." Xander told him sadly. "It's been about three or four years."
"You've been immortal that long and none of us caught it?" Spike asked
incredulously.
"Well it isn't like I advertised it. Besides I heal real fast so most the
time I was alive again before anyone noticed I had died. Depending on the
wound it only takes a few seconds to half a day." Xander told him pulling
the rest of the ruined shirt off of him as he stood up.
Spike backed up further not wanting to get too close to Xander. Xander
searched around and managed to find a spare black T-shirt lying in the
corner. He slid it on and found it really tight but it covered him. He
prowled around finding himself slightly amused as the closer he got to Spike
the more Spike would move to get further away.
"Did you...well you know...die...around me...before?" Spike asked crossing
his arms over his chest as Xander picked up the television controls to flip
the channels.
"Yeah a few times...recently in fact. Remember the big troll guy that was
Anya's ex? Remember he hit me with that damn hammer...it killed me. But the
wound was pretty simple...healed in a few seconds. Anya was impressed, she
thought I was just dazed. Spike I was dead for that few seconds. I was
amazed because no one could figure out getting hit by a hammer that size
would kill me!"
"I thought it should have but I figured maybe he didn't hit you hard
enough." Spike said quietly.
Xander shrugged as he sat down with a sigh. "Do you have any blood here? I
mean it is only fair...I used to share mine with you!"
Spike's eyes went wide again and pointed numbly at the small refrigerator
near the chair.
"Cool thanks." Xander pulled one out and drank it quickly without heating
it. {Again with the cuteness...no again not cute...okay cute.} "Tastes
nasty cold but I couldn't wait."
Spike bit his lip and rubbed at his arms as he kept the makeshift bed
between himself and Xander. "You still haven't told me why you drink blood."
"Because it is not as bad as eating people." Xander told him as he changed
the channel during a commercial. "You have cable? How do you get cable in a
crypt?"
Spike made a strangled noise. "Got tired of static...and not legally that is
for sure...You're a cannibal?"
Xander looked at him sadly before nodding his head again. "Not by choice
though...and I don't really do it even though I crave it so bad. The closest
I've done is buy a pig and ate that. Usually I do the blood bag thing. Angel
told me how he did it so...I adapted. I mean I was sort of sweating it when
you came to stay with me that time because I was afraid that you would
notice that I ALREADY had blood in my fridge before you even showed up."
"I wasn't paying too much attention actually...too busy whinging on about my
own problems." Spike admitted quietly.
Spike ran a hand through his hair before he asked. "How did you get like
this?"
Xander was interrupted as the crypt door opened and his friends all filed in
slowly. He gulped as they stared in horror at him. They looked terrible and
he felt guilty for having worried them but before he could say anything
Buffy shrieked in anger.
"You turned him?" She rounded on Spike who gaped at her.
"I...?" Spike choked out as she started to chase him around his bed.
Xander rolled his eyes and sighed. "Buffy stop!"
Buffy stopped shortly and wiped tears from her eyes. "It is okay Xander...we
will curse you and get your soul back. We will...we will deal with
this...maybe Angel could come down and help..."
"BUFFY! I'm NOT a vampire!" Xander finally interrupted her.
Willow wiped her nose frantically as with the other hand she pulled out a
water gun and shot him in the face. He closed his eyes as it hit him right
between them then down toward his mouth. She stopped and he shook the water
off a little.
"Done yet? Or do I need another Holy Water shower?" Xander asked wiping at
his face with a hand.
Buffy dropped the stake that she was holding in her hand and broke into
fresh tears. "You aren't DEAD!"
She scooped him up into a giant bear hug. "I thought I killed you! Why
aren't you dead?"
He patted her on the back gently trying to figure out the gentlest way of
telling her the truth. "Buffy there...is...some stuff...you all should
know."
They all looked at him apprehensively. They all still had questions and they
all knew that something was very wrong. None of them had forgotten what he
was doing when they had found him.
He backed away from her and looked around the interior of the crypt. It was
dark and dank and he didn't want to tell them here. It would make things
seem so much worse. "Can we go back to Giles? I want to be where there is
more light. Someplace warm..."
"Of...of...course. Of course we can." Giles said flustered. "The sooner we
get...this...settled the better."
The trip to Giles place was uneventful. Spike and Xander rode in silence as
Spike practically hung onto the door sitting as far away as possible while
looking casual.
As the car pulled to a halt Spike all but tumbled out as he opened the door.
Xander rolled his eyes and shook his head to himself. {Not cute Xander. He
is SO not cute when he is having a wiggins.}
As they all sat down he tried to think of the best way to begin. He honestly
couldn't think of one.
He took a deep breath and grabbed the letter opener off the table next to
him. He toyed with it for a few seconds in his hands before he began to
speak.
"A few years ago do you remember me being on the swim team?" He asked still
turning the letter opener over and over in his hands.
There were varying degrees of nodding and muttered yes and yeahs.
"Do you remember what the Coach said was in the steam?" He asked.
"Shark stuff I think." Buffy said.
Xander nodded. "Yeah...shark stuff. There was other stuff in it too but I
found that out later though."
He looked at each of them silently. He noted that Anya was missing from the
group and he wondered where she was. He shook his head to himself.
"There was more in the steam than shark...stuff...in fact those were
like...inactive...ingredients. After what happened I did a little bit of
snooping and found out the truth. The main ingredient was Mermaid."
Giles looked shocked while the others with the exception of Tara merely
looked confused. "Mermaid is a terrible poison!"
"You are familiar with it?" Xander asked hopeful.
"Not really. I just remember reading a little about it from my days learning
the arcane. I don't remember that much. Just that it was a poison used in
certain spells." Giles confessed guiltily.
Xander felt his face fall. "Oh, well you are right it is a terrible poison,
a horrible poison in fact. It is also really rare. REALLY rare. I have no
idea how Coach got it. Don't really want to know either. See all he would
have had to do is expose us one time to the steam bath. It would have
worked. He would have gotten the results he wanted and it would have been
done. Everyone on the team would have had some of the effects without being
poisoned by it. But he got greedy. He exposed everyone over and over again.
He wanted to win so bad. When I came onto the team he needed to change me
quickly. I found out about the steam but I didn't realize that the special
dinner he threw us that one night had a little extra kick to it. He did it
to give me the full benefits faster. Or at least that is what he thought."
"He fed you Mermaid?" Giles asked dreading the answer.
"Yes. Me. The others he didn't because they had already had enough of the
steam to give him what he wanted. Me, he knew he didn't have the time short
of locking me in the steam bath for a couple of days."
"Okay so what did the steam and the...oh gross...food...do to you?" Buffy
asked bluntly.
Xander sighed and lifted the letter opener up. "Mermaid has always been
sought after because if you can live through it and if you are strong enough
and if you are LUCKY it imparts something many people want."
He drew the letter opener over his wrist cutting deeply into it. The blood
ran freely and Spike turned away from it. Everyone gasped and tried to stop
him but he held up a hand. "Wait."
After a few seconds he wiped at his arm revealing no wound. "You receive
eternal life and eternal youth depending on the part of the Mermaid used."
Everyone quietly regarded him as Giles finally asked. "You're immortal? Why
didn't you tell us?"
Xander ran a hand through his hair. "For a short time I didn't know, I knew
something was wrong with me but not what. Then there was a certain amount of
shame as I discovered more about what my life now meant. I was exposed to
the steam first. The Mermaid had been made into a mist spray and put into
the air. Depending on the part of the Mermaid it can do different things to
you. It wasn't until later that I actually ate Mermaid's flesh."
He blinked rapidly and bit his lip. He closed his eyes tightly and waited
until he could control himself. "I changed. Just as the others changed but I
was one of the lucky ones that didn't become a monster due to exposure. The
creatures we are looking for...the swimmers...they have a name. They are
called Lost Souls. I didn't learn that until later after they had swam away
that first time. The Mermaid's poison can grant you eternal life and leave
you human, turn you into a monstrous Lost Soul or just kill you. I know you
never kept track of the others afterwards but I did. They all died within a
few months after it all happened. The poison finished working its way
through their bodies and it killed them."
He stood up and picked up one of the books off the table that they had been
researching in earlier. Giles had brought it home after Spike had taken his
body to his crypt. "You won't find them in these books and I should have
told you that. And I should of told you all about my change. But I was so
ashamed. I had become like the very creatures we hunt down! I was scared to
tell you."
"What exactly have you become?" Spike asked quietly.
"A living human vampire at best. A cannibalistic monster at worst." Xander
told them in a hushed voice.
Willow cried quietly. "How long? How long have you been feeding off of
people?"
Buffy paced behind the couch trying to reign her temper in.
"I...I don't!" Xander said urgently. "I don't really! I drink from bags I
have never fed off a human. Ate a pig once...not the first time of course
but that time it was on purpose."
"But earlier..." Willow started.
Spike shook his head quickly. "She wasn't human pet. She was a vamp. She had
jumped him and he turned the tables on her."
Tara rubbed little circles on Willow's back. "I read about
Mermaids...when...when...when I was younger. They are cannibals. They
eat...eat...humans...and even each other. When...when you eat their
flesh...it would do its best to turn you...you...you into a mermaid like
them. That is why...why it is a poison...the human body isn't made to be
changed so completely. It is bad stuff. I've read some of the legends...most
ended...not happily ever after."
Xander nodded. "Tell me about it."
Buffy gestured helplessly toward Xander. "You didn't tell us...we...we would
have tried to understand. We would have worked through a cure! You should
have told us the blood transfusions didn't save you."
Xander shook his head. "Buffy there is NO cure other than chopping off my
head. And by the way the only way to stop the Lost Souls is to cut off their
heads too."
Giles absentmindedly cleaned his glasses. "Just when did you discover that
you were immortal?"
"Um that would have to be when Angelus tried to kill me. He was going to do
it to get to you. He was NOT a happy camper by the way. He was going to turn
me at one point but I taste awful apparently."
Spike nodded to himself.
"He was going to kill you?" Buffy asked.
"Didn't quite work out."
Spike jumped. "Wait I remember that! You had him cursing a right blue
streak! I thought it was funny myself."
Spike chuckled at the memory.
Angelus had the young man tied down as he drew a knife down his chest. He
had already tried to taste the blood only to be repulsed by it. "I'm going
to make you scream."
Spike sat in the corner looking bored. "Look just get on with it will you?"
Angelus growled at Spike and returned to what he was doing. Xander finally
obliged him with a loud scream as he sank the knife deeply in his chest. He
pulled the knife out and smiled. The dead body lay on the slab as he turned
back to Spike after he cut the ropes that had held the boy down. "I'll just
leave this on her porch for her to find..."
"I'm not dead yet."
Angelus turned back to the body mouth gaping. Spike blinked in surprise and
lifted himself up a little on his arms to get a look. "He's right you know.
He isn't dead yet."
"Yes you are!" Angelus told him coming to stand back over him.
He raised the knife again and plunged it down several times in a row. Spike
raised an eyebrow. "Seen Psycho too many times mate?"
Angelus wiped at the blood that had splattered up into his face. Even the
smell was a little revolting. He turned back to Spike again. "As I was
saying before being so rudely interrupted..."
"Nope still not dead yet."
Angelus whirled around with fury in his eyes. "Will you just die!"
"Hey maybe it's a trick knife or something?" Spike offered.
Angelus held it up and wiggled the blade. "Nope...but just to be sure should
I try it on you?"
"No...no I believe you." Spike said wheeling himself back a little.
Angelus came back close to the boy and grabbed him by the hair and cut his
throat. He pulled the skin open just a little to make sure it was really cut
then pushed it back. He made a satisfied sound and turned back to Spike.
"After she finds his body she will come looking for me. When she finds..."
"Ya still didn't make me dead yet." A small voice spoke and echoed around
them.
Spike bit his lip as Angelus looked as though he was about to have a
conniption fit.
"You're dead, you're dead, don't argue with me you're dead!"
Xander raised himself shakily on his wounded arms. "Then can I go now? I
have a test tomorrow."
Spike smothered a chuckle. "Mate I think you are losing your touch."
Then in a humorous voice he said, "And now for something completely
different..."
"I hate Monty Python," Angel growled before turning to the boy and yelling,
"GET the hell out of here!"
Xander slid off the slab and left as quickly as possible. Angelus turned
back to Spike, "Not a DAMN word! Do you hear me? Not one single DAMN WORD!"
Spike laughed quietly to himself as he pulled out of his memory, that night
had been filled with Angelus ranting and raving and cursing at everyone and
everything. Even Dru couldn't do anything right in his eyes.
"Yeah Angelus wasn't too amused that I wouldn't stay dead if I remember
right." Xander "That was the first time, second and uh third time I was
killed. It was after that I started to investigate what may have happened to
me. I was able to get my hands on the Coach's notes and read them. Once I
found out about the Mermaid in the mix I started researching them, you know
not a lot out there about them. Mostly just old legends and like Tara said
they don't end too happily ever after. Most end with death."
"Why? I mean what is so bad about eternity mate. I'm signed up for the hitch
myself." Spike asked suddenly.
"Well for one thing not all of them got the completely human or human
looking package deal. Most people die and if they don't die they become
monsters. Lost Souls...remember those cool freaky dudes from earlier...they
live forever like that. Then even if you get the you-get-to-be-human package
deal there is an expensive price tag. What becomes of you once you tire of
immortality? What happens when you've done everything you ever wanted to do?
What happens to you when everyone you ever cared about dies? Because only
one human every few centuries becomes immortal like this."
"There...there...is a legend about a Nun...in Japan." Tara said quietly she
was still extremely nervous and upset.
"Yes, not of the good." Xander nodded.
"She died and she had...these...ashes." Tara spoke a little bolder. "They
were the ashes of a Mermaid. If you sprinkled them on flowers they would
bloom and be healthy even in winter but she got killed and the ashes fell on
her. She became a soulless demon and killed everything in her path. She had
no thoughts and no remorse. She was hollow and killed everyone."
Buffy stared at Tara. "What happened?"
"She wandered into the forest and eventually the ashes wore off, she became
a corpse again. Different parts of the Mermaid have different effects. The
steam affected Xander first. He told us that because...it is why
he...wants..." She tapered off looking down. "There was a little girl that
had a Mermaid's liver and she wanted to eat other people's livers...a woman
that just had the blood she lived for revenge on her sister. She had the
claw of a Lost Soul and was old inside but her face was eternally young."
"Different parts do different things." Xander said quietly.
"So what do we do now?" Buffy asked sitting down finally.
Giles cleared his throat. "Well first things first. We need to stop
the...the...Lost Souls. We now have a way of killing them so we will deal
with that first."
"Where is Anya?" Xander asked quietly.
Everyone looked down or away from him not wanting to answer.
"Where is she? I mean I don't want her to think I'm still dead..."
"She's gone Xander. We don't know where she went. She packed and left as
soon as she got home earlier. She didn't leave a note. We looked for her at
her apartment. We figured that she couldn't deal..."
Xander sat back in shock. She was gone? She couldn't be gone could she? He
was alive there was no real problem. He wasn't any different than when she
first met him they could work through it. But she was gone.
Giles squeezed his shoulder briefly.
"It's almost dawn, we should all catch a few hours sleep then start
searching for possible hiding places for them. I'm thinking near the ocean."
Buffy announced quietly.
Willow rubbed her face and hugged Xander. "I'm glad you aren't
dead...permanently."
Xander smiled at her but it felt hollow. He took the hugs all in stride then
walked out the door surprised when Spike fell into step with him.
"So is that why you asked the questions before? About loneliness? Not
looking forward to your precious Anya dying?"
Xander glared at Spike. "What about you? Don't you love the slayer? She will
die too you know. She will die sooner than Anya most likely."
Spike's face darkened. "I know that."
Xander softened a little. "I know you know. It hurts. I wonder if I'm
destined to always be alone."
"I doubt that pet." Spike said lightly. "You have your friends."
"For how long Spike? We fall in love and then our love is taken from us.
Taken either by death or by those we had given it to."
"Your slayer says that soulless demons can't love." Spike growled.
"Therefore if that was true why should I care."
"Because I have to wonder if it is true." Xander turned to him. "I don't
know that I have a soul still. But I know that I love. I care. And if I am
soulless and I can love then that means that vampires can too."
"Why would you have no soul mate?" Spike asked him confused.
"Didn't you listen? Different parts do different things not everyone is
affected the same. Those creatures are called Lost Souls for a reason. The
Nun lost her soul and became a terrible demon...the majority of the ones
that have been infected by some part become killers. I am no exception
really. I want to eat flesh I want blood. I just don't go through with the
kill."
"I think I see where you are going with this." Spike said quietly. "You are
afraid they will start to question that and then..."
"Yeah."
Spike nodded.
"You're lucky in a way...you know one way or the other." Xander mumbled.
Spike bit his lip as Xander turned a different corner and he continued on to
his crypt. {Do I really?}
Xander approached the door of his apartment gingerly. It was cracked open
and he knew that he had left it closed. He pushed it open further and his
first thought was that someone had broken into his apartment and ransacked
his place. But he quickly saw that was not really the case. Nothing
expensive had been touched. But the majority of his pictures from the walls
and tables were missing. Personal items that he cherished including his
Babylon Five memorabilia were missing as well. But the stereo and television
were not touched.
As he entered the bedroom that he shared many times with Anya he felt his
heart drop as he saw the piece of paper on the dresser.
Dear Buffy and all,
I'm sorry for the mess but I knew that if I waited I wouldn't be able to get
the things I needed the most. Between his parents and everyone else they
would take everything that would remind me of him. I can't stay here any
longer. I can't bear to be so close to him and not have him. The memories
are too much. Please forgive me. I loved him so much. It just hurts too
much. I'm sorry. I'm leaving town tonight.
Anya
He crinkled the paper up in his hand and sat heavily on the bed. She was
really gone. Gone out of his life forever. She would never know that he was
still alive. And worse she would think that he broke the one promise he knew
he could keep. That of staying alive.
As the sun came up he remained sitting on the bed in shell shock still not
entirely absorbing that once again he was alone.
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In the crypt Spike sat quietly on his bed as Buffy slammed the door behind
her. She had come to tell him not to get any ideas, That there would never
be ANYTHING between them ever. He crossed his legs and sat with his elbows
on his knees supporting his chin in his hands. {Maybe I'm destined to be
alone too.}
He shook his head hard at the thought. {No, no we are not going to brood. We
are going to go on and act like everything is fine because everything bloody
well is fine.}
He lay back and straightened his body. {I sound like the bloody Queen...we?
We who? Do I have a mouse in my pocket? Well maybe in my coat...I really
should clean out the pockets in that thing.}
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The next evening Xander laid the note down for everyone to read as he sat
down in a corner. Willow sighed and hugged him. "I'm so sorry Xander."
He shrugged without saying anything. Spike sat down next to him without a
word. Everyone turned to Giles as he opened up a notebook where he had been
keeping notes.
"We've already checked the initial beach and we now know how to kill these
creatures..." Xander tuned out the sound of Giles speaking as he brought his
clasped hands to his chin.
Spike cast a small glance at Xander out of the corner of his eye. In a low
voice he finally said. "Sorry the ex-demon chit ran away."
Xander glared a little before turning forward.
"Maybe she will come back or we can find her. We could ask the Pouf, he's
into that kind of..."
"No." Xander told him quietly.
"Why not? I mean I know you aren't fond of the bugger but..."
"No I mean no in finding her. Let her find a happy life away from here. She
deserves that." Xander closed his eyes briefly trying to focus again on
Giles.
Spike stared at him. {Do you mean let her find a happy life or let me hide
from life pet? That way you don't have to watch her die.}
Xander felt the look and kept resolutely looking forward.
As the others all stood up grabbing swords and axes Xander felt a little
panic. He had missed a major part of the conversation and he had no idea
where they were heading. Spike lit a cigarette and walked easily out of the
store with everyone not caring where they were heading. He had finally
decided that Xander was no different than he had been and it wasn't very
'Big Bad' to avoid him. So he liked to munch on vamps. Lots of things did.
He flicked the ashes off his cigarette as he walked silently beside the
young man. He briefly thought of the Nun that had been covered with
Mermaid's ashes and came back soulless and evil. Angelus would have loved
that story. He might have even been tempted to try and get some and play. He
shook his head to himself. Angelus was insane now. A secret part of him
would be happy if he never came back. And he knew that Dru knew that secret
and it created a bigger rift between them.
The group stopped and both in back hoped that they would tell them where
they needed to go without having to ask and admitting they had not been
listening.
They were rewarded when Buffy started pointing in the directions they needed
to go. "Tara, Willow you go to the park where the fountain is. Xander, Spike
you go to the public pool over near the apartments. I and Giles will go to
the pool near..."
They turned heading in the direction they were being sent. Spike twirled his
ax around like a baton with his cigarette hanging loosely in his mouth. "Are
you going to brood all night. Because if you are I'll have you know...you
still aren't as good as Angel at it."
He laid the ax on his shoulder and flicked the cigarette. "Trying to ignore
me? Oh that just makes it more interesting. How about some limericks! There
once was a slut named Buff who liked it rather rough..."
Xander growled.
"Don't like that one? How about this one...There once was a slayer called
slutty who..."
Xander gave him an exasperated look. "So you are the one that has been
writing those limericks on all the men's room walls!"
Spike gave a short bow. "I also copied her home phone number on every
bathroom wall, men and women's, in Sunnydale. That was a two-week project by
the way. I'm rather proud of that. Also if you look at the moose at Willie's
on the far wall that is in that dark corner...the Slayer's underwear is
hooked to the upper antler. Nicked them before I got uninvited. They have
flowers on them."
He looked really pleased with himself and grinned from ear to ear. "Did that
one earlier tonight."
Xander stopped short and stared at him.
"What?"
Xander snorted then laughed then giggled hysterically.
"You okay mate?"
Xander leaned against a dark building holding his stomach. "Just...just...I
don't know. Here I've been wondering how I'm going to go on. Go on without
Anya...go on after my friends die...go on forever...and here you are already
over a century old and you are pulling childish pranks."
"Not childish...no child could reach high enough to hook one of those
antlers."
Xander laughed again sliding down the wall. After a few minutes he stopped
and looked up at Spike. "Thank you."
"For what?"
"Making me laugh again."
"Not a problem mate." Spike sat next to Xander with his back against the
wall. "I have a secret whelp. A secret about how to survive through the
decades and I'll share it with you."
Xander looked at him and raised an eyebrow.
"You do it one day at a time. Try not to look that far ahead. No further
than you would if you were mortal. No further than at most five years. Just
do everything ONE day at a time. Because that is all you can live it is one
day at a time. Take it as it comes and worry about the here and now and let
the future bring itself to you."
"I just...everyone I know..."
"Will die." Spike finished. "But they will even if you were mortal. Buffy
could walk out tomorrow to go to class and get hit by a car. Giles could
have a heart attack tonight in his sleep. Joyce died because her time came.
No one did anything to her and mortal or immortal you had to live through
that. And immortal or not if one of them dies unexpectedly...it would make
no difference. You will experience it, you will deal with it and you will
move on. Hell if you want to get technical about it you could get in a wreak
and get decapitated. You would be surprised how often someone loses their
head in an accident...literally. I'm a vampire...but I could die tonight if
I was in the same wreak and lost MY head. Or someone stakes me."
Spike looked Xander in the eye and continued. "Mortal or Immortal we can end
up alone. Anya could have decided some day that she wanted to experience the
thrill of dating someone new...Buffy wouldn't go out with ME if I was human
and graduated with you lot. Bloody hell mate... there are NO guarantees
whether you have a short life span or an incredibly LONG one. I can make
minions all day long...I could make childer... but that doesn't mean that
any one of them would stay with me. You could get married to someone but
that don't mean they will stay with you. Look at the divorce rate pet."
Xander stood up and pushed himself away from the wall. "That was most likely
the most morbid pep talk I've ever heard but it works. Thanks."
"Not a problem pet." Spike stood up and they fell into step next to each
other as Spike started to swing his ax around.
"Please be careful with that thing." Xander told him.
Spike shrugged as he swung it in smaller circles.
"You know it still don't change the fact that I'm some sort of monster."
Xander told him.
"That is all just a matter of perception pet. One man's monster is another
man's friend. People hate snakes but they eat the mice that carry the
diseases. It's all in how you look at it." Spike told him easily.
"I'm a cannibal Spike pretty sure that falls under the category of monster."
"Nah! 'Sides it isn't like you've actually eaten anyone. Lots of people eat
pigs and cows. Some eat steak so rare it is still bleedin." Spike told him
humming to himself for a few minutes. "Cannibalistic behavior has been noted
in the human race for centuries. It is present in everyday speech...people
tell each other that they are so yummy they could eat them up. You can trace
such thoughts and actions clear back to human origins if one must be
accurate. In fact clear up till contemporary history. Mad Cow disease,
bovine spongiform encephalopathy, is basically a result of cannibalism as is
Scrapie in Sheep and Kuru in humans found in Papua New Guinea in 1957. Some
people consider cannibalism religious in nature. In John 6:53 though 6:57
Jesus said 'Most assuredly I tell you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son
of Man and drink his blood, you don't have life in yourselves. He who eats
my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up at
the last day. For my flesh is food indeed, and my blood is drink indeed. He
who eats my flesh and drinks my blood lives in me and I in him. As the
living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father; so he who feeds on
me, he will also live because of me.' And that is in the bible. An
interesting note is that the art of mummification in Egypt was actually an
early attempt to prevent cannibalism..."
Spike felt the stare and turned to meet it. "What?"
Xander blinked slowly at him. "Oh...my...GOD! You sound just like GILES!"
Spike nearly cut himself with the ax as he almost dropped it. "Do NOT!"
"YES you did! Even the accent!" Xander pointed at him in accusation. "You're
smart!"
"No I'm not! I-I-I mean..." Spike tried to figure out a way around it.
Xander smiled evilly. "What were you in life?"
"Uh...pick pocket?" Spike tried.
"Were you a librarian?" Xander asked.
"NO! I most certainly was not. I will have you know I earned the title of
William the Bloody long before I died!" Spike drew himself up.
Xander considered him then got excited jumping up and down. "Oh Oh OH I
know! I KNOW! You were a schoolteacher! I can smell them a mile away! All my
teachers were evil too, guess it wasn't that big of a change for you huh?
Wow isn't redundant to be an undead evil schoolteacher? I mean you should
just say...evil evil evil! All three words mean the same!"
He was yelling it as he waved his finger at the blond vampire.
"SHHHHHH!" Spike clamped a hand over Xander's mouth. "Shut the bloody hell
up!"
He took his hand off the young man's mouth slowly.
"You were a school teacher!" Xander declared again.
"And you are about to be headless if you don't shut up!" Spike hissed.
Xander grinned and laughed. "Let me guess they called you William the Bloody
because you flunked everyone?"
"No. I wasn't a teacher all that long before I was turned." Spike growled as
he turned away and started walking. "I was a history teacher."
Xander wrinkled his nose. "Ew. I sucked at history. I sucked at English...um
I sucked at school period."
Spike didn't say anything as he tried to walk faster.
"So why were you called William the Bloody then?" Xander asked. "Aw come on.
Can't be any worse than being a teacher. I think all my teachers hated me. I
mean most my teachers tried to eat me. I guess you sorta fall in that
category." He said offhand.
"I was a good history teacher but a bloody awful poet." Spike made a face.
Xander giggled. "Well your limericks are good if that is any consolation. I
liked the one about what she does with the stake at night. Don't you DARE
tell her that!"
Spike laughed. "She got right up my nose that night."
As they rounded the corner their laughter died as the saw in the pool the
dark shapes of the creatures they were looking for.
"Uh-oh." Xander said intelligently.
"They look a lot bigger." Spike said vaguely.
"I think it is because they are in the water."
"Well I can't swim let's go home." Spike said brightly turning back.
Xander grabbed his shoulder and pulled him back. "Here you call the others
and I'll keep watch."
He handed Spike a small cell phone with its tiny numbers and writing and
turned to the pool. Spike brought the phone close to his face then held it
far away squinting. Xander glanced over and rolled his eyes. "Glasses? Where
are your glasses? I should have known."
"Dru broke them after I was turned. She thought I looked better without
them." Spike admitted.
"You know they invented contacts." He took the phone away from him.
"Oh and how many eye docs do you know that cater to vamps mate?"
Xander shook his head and dialed the number. A few minutes later he ended
the call and turned to the vampire that had taken up a position where he
could look around a corner to watch the creatures but could pull back out of
their view.
"They are on their way. We just need to make sure they don't leave before
then."
"That might be a bit of a problem mate, look." As Spike pointed the
creatures climbed out of the water one by one.
"You know something? Murphy was a bastard." Xander said as he lifted up his
sword.
"I always thought so too." Spike agreed lifting his ax.
"Aim for the neck and try to make it clean. If we don't do it right it will
just piss them off." Xander said stepping out from around the corner.
"Well judging from the look on their...faces...I'd say something already
beat us on pissing them off."
They lumbered past them as they jumped out in front of them. "Um guys?"
They ignored him as they continued down the concrete path from the swimming
pool.
"Well that went well." Spike said balancing the ax on his shoulder.
Xander scowled and raced ahead of them. "Whoa! STOP!"
The three fishy monsters stopped and looked at him. "Fight now?"
They looked at each other and shrugged and then walked past him.
"I feel so...dissed." Xander said.
Spike shrugged and followed them at a leisurely pace still carrying the ax
on his shoulder. "Call the others and tell them change of plan."
Xander dialed as he jogged after the monsters and the vampire.
They followed the creatures that did not seem so much as in a hurry as they
were determined. "Where do you think they are going?"
"Why ask me?" Spike asked lighting a cigarette.
Xander talked into the cell phone giving directions as they went. Soon it
became apparent where they were heading, the burnt out school.
They made their way into the school carefully as Xander lowered his voice.
The old gym seemed to echo a little as they walked through it.
He spoke quietly into the phone. "You are out front? Good we seem to be
heading toward the old swimming pool."
He heard the pounding of footsteps down one of the many halls and knew that
soon they would be there. Spike and Xander watched as the monsters slowly
stepped into the now long empty pool and saw the giant opening in the center
where it had split sometime during the explosion. Buffy and Giles were the
first to reach them but Tara and Willow followed close behind them as one by
one each creature wiggled through the crack at the bottom.
"What the hell are they doing down there?" Buffy asked.
Xander shrugged and cast a look at her as he jumped down. "One way to find
out."
Spike dropped his cigarette and stomped it out before also jumping down into
the empty pool. "Sounds good to me."
They each carefully pushed their way down the large crack in the floor,
surprised when there was already a light down below.
"A sub-basement?" Giles whispered.
The light was weak and was barely enough to see by but not far ahead they
could see the three ex-swim team members steadily walking. They flicked
their flashlights on to aid them in seeing and followed.
The sub-basement opened into another room. In the center of the room a large
cage sat. And in the center of the cage a corpse lay pinned down with
harpoons. Small stones lay around the table and the hair of the dead woman
lay over her face. She had no legs but a long tail with fins.
Xander felt weak kneed as he saw her. "The Mermaid!"
"That bastard actually had captured a Mermaid." Xander breathed.
Tara looked at her in shock. "I-I-I never thought I would see a real one."
The three Lost Souls that were once named Dodd, Cameron, and Gage circled
the dead mermaid sorrowfully.
Xander tentatively joined them and they made room for him by their side. He
looked back at his friends and made a decision. He reached out and grabbed
one of the harpoons and pulled it out. It was difficult, as it had gone
through the body and through the table underneath. He threw it to the side
and stepped back, as he did he nearly slid on the tiny smooth stones
surrounding the table and he reached down to pick one up. Pearls. Perfect
pearls along the ground. The Mermaid's tears shed long ago, as she was
tortured for the pieces that the Coach would use.
He held it tightly in his hand as slowly each of the Lost Souls reached out
and grabbed the three remaining harpoons. They pulled it out and threw them
upon the ground then waited. They were rewarded when minutes later the
Mermaid lunged forward snarling and baring fangs.
Though standing far back the others jumped.
"Thought Mermaids were supposed to be pretty little chits." Spike gasped.
Tara calmed herself down visibly as she slowly found her voice. "They can be
but that is her natural face. Like vampires have two one human, one demon."
"She was alive like that all this time?" Giles asked sadly. "Trapped here
with no help?"
As the Mermaid ran out of strength and collapsed back on the table the Lost
Souls gently picked her up in a loving embrace. Xander reached out carefully
and pulled her long blonde hair back away from her face revealing a
monstrous visage. Finally one who seemed to be the leader gathered her up
completely into his arms and held her close. They walked back slowly the way
they came and the group that had been watching stepped back.
They escorted the aquatic creatures with their unconscious charge back to
the beach where they had first arrived and saw them off as they began their
trip home.
Xander hugged himself as he watched them swim away pulling the creature that
was responsible for the change in each of them. A gift or a curse that had
been forced from her without consent and now rescued by those that were now
forced to live under it.
"I guess they had a good reason for coming back." Willow said vaguely.
Xander nodded as some small part of him wished he could go with them.
They all walked away from the beach slowly. Buffy decided that it would be
best to go back out on patrol and the others agreed easily with her but
still Xander hung back.
Spike slowed also until he was even with him. He whispered quietly to the
young man. "Feel almost like she was your sire?"
Xander nodded. "A little."
"Hurts to be left by your sire." Spike told him. "Feels so lonely."
Xander nodded again. "I guess you know the feeling."
Spike looked ahead and saw that the others were almost swallowed by the
darkness and he reached out to take Xander's hand. "Don't have to be alone
though."
Xander looked up at him shyly. "Didn't think you..."
"Gender's never been an issue."
Xander squeezed his hand. "I think I would like that actually."
"We could see how long it takes before we get tired of eternity. See how
long it takes to tire of immortality."
Xander smiled. "And we'll take it one day at a time."
"Yes pet. One day at a time, as slow as you like." Spike agreed.
Xander chuckled. "Won't have to take it too slow."
Xander pulled Spike a little closer. "Stay, tonight."
"I can do that." Spike said.
"Every night."
"I can do that too one night at a time."
As they kissed they could hear the ocean roar and the stars looked like
jewels hanging in the sky.
THE END