== present ==
Spike looked in the sparkling green eyes of the witch as she
considered his story and his request. He remembered how innocent and
young she had been at one time. Her hair had been like living flame
and her eyes were dazzling emeralds that had gazed out at a world
with a sense of wonderment and awe. He spared a brief moment to
wonder what she would have been like if events had gone differently,
if Angelus had been destroyed instead of the destroyer.
What would the world be like if this one young girl *had* found the
lost spell that would have returned his Sire's soul instead of the
spell she *did* find? Granted, he wasn't upset that she had managed
to stop him from opening up Hell, he *did* enjoy the world, thanks
much, but still... Would Willow have managed to hold onto her
innocence and her love of life if she hadn't been the only survivor
from her group of friends? Would things have gone better if the
Slayer and the cheerleader had not been killed and Xander hadn't been
captured by Dru and Angelus only to be held as a mortal pet for over
a year?
He didn't know, but this wasn't the time to muse on this. A new group
of demon fighters had moved into Sunnyhell, and these blokes weren't
working with the new Slayer. These guys were commando's and they
guarded a secret government laboratory that conducted experiments on
demons.
Spike and Dru had been captured by the Initiative together. They had
finally had to stake the insane vampiress. She had seen another one
of her visions and when she went into the prophecy-raving trace state
the stupid bloody scientists refused to let Spike try to help her nor
would they listen to his instructions on her care. She hadn't
survived their tender mercies.
His Sire had managed to evade the commando's, but Spike didn't have
any idea where he was. That was what he needed help with. Well, one
of the things. He needed to find his Sire and he needed to find a way
to remove the implanted chip from his skull. And right now, he didn't
know where else to turn. After the whole debacle two years ago,
Drusilla and Willow had begun a tentative truce when the immortal
prophetess saved the red-haired girl's life from a few fledglings out
for a feed. According to Dru, the 'magical tree' would grow to be a
shady shelter for the lost and the damned. That sounded about what
*he* needed right now. Shady shelter.
Finally, Willow interrupted his increasingly morbid musings. Taking a
deep breath and obviously gathering her power around her until she
almost shimmered with magic, Willow stepped back from the open
doorway.
"Come in Spike."
== flashback ==
Xander Harris trembled in fear as he huddled in the corner. His fear
was an icy iron ball in the pit of his stomach, consuming him from
the inside out. It had already overtaken and wiped clean his vengeful
anger and his sarcastically barbed wit. The swirling maelstrom of his
thoughts were chaotic and without form under the onslaught of such
intense and sustained emotion. Only a few undeniable and inescapable
facts stood out, slicing into his mind like frost coated razors.
Amy's spell hadn't worked right. *Cordelia* didn't love him...
*Drusilla* did.
He had been Drusilla's personal *pet* for three months and *no one*
had come to save him... and pretty soon, there wouldn't be anyone
*left* who could save him.
Shuddering with a chill that was born in his soul as opposed to on
his naked flesh, Xander shifted his body slightly, being careful not
to rattle the chain that ran from the manacle on his left leg to the
iron ring imbedded in the stone floor. Risking a glance up to check
on his Mistress and her Sire, Xander saw that they were both too
involved in their bloody violent sex games to pay attention to him.
That was... good.
Taking a slow breath in, he didn't even notice that the air hitched
and caught in his throat on his thick choking emotions. Bracing
himself for being yelled at (at the least) or mind numbing pain (at
the worst), Xander leaned forward and stretched out with one bruised
and bitten arm until he could curl his (mostly whole) fingers through
Cordelia's soft dark hair.
The silky feel of those long thick locks broke Xander's heart into a
thousand shards and he felt a wave of goosebumps raise up all over
his scared and lash-marked skin. Then, he twisted the brown hair
around his fist and pulled the object of his obsession to him.
Futilely trying to stifle a gasping sob, Xander cradled the beautiful
face he had worshipped with his entire being since he had first
discovered the female half of the population. A gentle finger ran
down the soft skin of her cheek as he stared deeply into her dead
dull eyes. He had craved her and wanted her... but *not* like this.
Never like this...
"Oh look Daddy! It's soooo sweat and precious. My lovely little kitty-
pet is playing with his lovely new toy."
Xander's head jerked up and unthinking fear swept over his mind as he
found himself staring into the full gameface's of Angelus and
Drusilla from where they peered down at him from the immense bed.
Tremors racked his thin frame and he flinched back into the corner as
far as he could. Angelus saw this and smirked at him.
"See my beloved. I *told* you that would be a good present to get
Harris here. He's *always* wanted that little slut and now he can
have her... and it's all because of you... my wonderfully naughty
girl."
Drusilla preened at the praise from her Sire and turned a fang filled
smile of happiness at the mortal chained up in the corner of her
bedroom. Xander felt those glowing eyes rake over his exposed flesh
and settle onto the *gift* she had presented to him in a gold-foil
wrapped box earlier in the evening. Clutching Cordelia's decapitated
head closer to his chest, Xander hissed at the vampires and scooted
back further into his corner.
"*Mine* You *gave* her to me. *Mine*!"
The two vampires on the soft blood stained bed blinked in mild
surprise at his vocal audacity and then burst out into deep rumbling
laughter of mirth and amusement. Xander's skin crawled and shivered
at the sound, even as his cock began to harden at the attention and
focus being directed upon him by the only two creatures he had been
allowed contact with since his imprisonment began so very long ago.
== present ==
Spike scowled from where he stood leaning up against the side of his
DeSoto. Glaring at the tall brick wall and the black wrought-iron
gates, the bleached blonde vampire wondered if this would really
work. Not that he didn't trust the witch's spell. Willow had cast two
spells the night he visited her. One to find Angelus and one to tell
her what could be done about the blasted chip in his head. Spike
didn't like either answer.
To the first question, Willow couldn't give a complete answer since
strong and powerful magics were set specifically to hide his Sire.
She could only tell that he was still alive... as if were, and that
he was surrounded by a strong aura of mage-shielding. Beyond that was
anyone's guess.
To the second question, Willow had seen the face of her oldest
childhood friend. It was at that point that she had broken down, her
emotions finally getting the best of her. Even as she tossed his
undead ass out into the street on a wave of powerful shimmering blue
energy, he understood and didn't mind.
Xander Harris had been her closest friend, somewhere between a
brother and a soulmate. And his own beloved Sister and Sire had
driven the boy stark raving mad. Spike had very little to no contact
with the boy at that particular time. For most of it, he'd been out
of his Sire's good graces and out of Dru's bed as well. He'd been
wheelchair bound and righteously pissed off at the world. While Spike
spent most of his time sulking with the fledges, Dru and Angelus had
tortured the boy mercilessly. They'd killed off all of his friends
with the exception of Willow and all of his family as well. Then, in
a fit of Miss Edith induced madness, Dru had cooked up a magic potion
and mixed it with her own blood. Forcing the boy to drink it, she'd
then cursed him with psychic powers.
Now years later, after his amazing escape during a move across the
country, Xander was imprisoned here at Los Angeles State Hospital for
the Criminally Insane. Spike wasn't too sure what the boy had done to
wind up here, but after being kept on a chain as Dru's personal pet
mortal for over a year he figured that he probably had a flashback
and tried to stake someone or something like that.
Sighing, Spike shoved his thoughts aside and pushed himself away from
his car. Walking along the parameter of the wall, he considered his
options. Normally, he'd just barge in the front gate and kill and
maim his way to the boy, but he couldn't do that. The bloody chip
would fry his brains into a puddle of smoking mush if he even
attempted it.
So, that meant he had to resort to his old way of doing things. Pre-
Angelus thought patterns slowly emerged from the hidden depths of his
memory. He needed to case the joint and find out where everything,
including Dru's kitty-pet was. He had to get in, get the boy, and
then get out again. Preferably all without running into any of the
guards or medical staff. Then, once they were back out, they had to
get away from here and to someplace where the boy could do whatever
it was that Willow saw him do in her spell.
Finally completing his circuit around the grounds and a plan
beginning to form in his mind, Spike climbed back into the DeSoto and
drove off into the night. He needed to feed, get somewhere to rest
for the day and then try out his plan.
== flashback ===
Xander gulped down a deep choking breath of air, violent tremors
raking his tortured muscles as he strained against his bonds for one
never-ending moment before he collapsed, handing limply from his
wrists. The muscles and ligaments in his arms and shoulders stretched
and groaned against his weight and his head lolled back on his tired
neck. Greasy sweat glistened on his skin and rolled in rivulets down
his back to sting and burn as it mixed with the streams of blood
oozing from the lash marks that criss-crossed his whip flayed skin.
The flames burning up the wicks of the candles scattered about within
his line of sight flickered and danced from the stirring of the air
currents and then he felt a blessedly cool breeze caress his
screaming and agonized flesh. A low deep voice rumbled throughout the
room speaking words that Xander's ravaged mind couldn't quite
comprehend, but he *did* recognize his Mistress's squeal of happiness.
Angelus.
Her beloved daddy...
Xander didn't know if he should sing praises and thanks to the Saints
of Heaven for the Master Vampire coming in to distract her, thus
inadvertently giving him a respite from the searing pain born from
the kiss of the whip. He now had a chance to catch his breath and to
gather up his inner reserves of strength. He had time to swallow the
pain down instead of letting it consume him and turn him inside out
until all he knew was pleasure, unholy rapture of *finally* breaking
and *becoming* his pain.
Maybe instead, he should curse and damn the Demons of Hell for the
Master Vampire's ill-timed visit that distracted his beloved Drusilla
and giving him this unasked for respite from the beating. A chance to
catch his breath and gather his strength would prolong his decent
into the swirl of sensation that was destined to overtake him,
pulling him down into it and making him a part of it. He could feel
his adrenaline rush slow down and curl into his toes and he doubted
that he could *dive* into the darkness at this point. No, he'd have
to be dragged back to the sublime level of surrender... kicking and
screaming the entire way.
Xander was pulled from his swirling contemplation of the meaning of
pain and the depths of suffering that it took to unbend one's mind
from it's anchor as a cool wet tongue traced a thin trail along the
edge of his spine. Sparks of agonized white flared behind his eyes as
that wet muscle touched each individual welt even as he shivered from
the soothing pleasure of the very *coolness* and *gentleness*
showered upon him.
Finally, that torturously slow lick reached the top of his spine and
then that lushly evil mouth nuzzled at his neck. Xander tilted his
head to the side as far as it could go, exposing his neck and the
rich blood pounding right below the surface of his skin. A low hiss
of pleasure caressed his ear only seconds before razor sharp fangs
pierced his flesh, digging into him, burrowing into his very soul.
Pain spiced liberally with pleasure sang through his veins as those
cool dead lips sucked down on the freshly made wounds on his throat.
He could *feel* the pull on his lifeforce as his blood fled his body
only to slip down the maw of his Mistress's Sire.
"Aaaahhh..."
The rough sound of his own voice echoed around his head and even he
could not say if it was a demand for the demon to stop drinking from
him... or a plea for him to take ever more. Angelus swallowed down
another sticky red mouthful and Xander's hard throbbing cock cast the
deciding vote by jerking and twitching at the sensation.
Delighted and completely insane giggles wrested his attention from
his draining life and back out into the room where his body hung by
chains from an iron hook imbedded in the ceiling at the exact center
of the candlelit room. The sound, like so much broken glass upon his
raw and bleeding nerves, forced his dark eyes to open and gaze upon
She Who Rules his Universe.
Drusilla.
The vampiress stood before him wearing nothing more than bright red
splashes of his own blood upon her pale silken skin. Dark lush hair
swirled around her face and shoulders, enhancing the deep shadows
that lived in her eyes and mind. She held a bright edged knife in one
small delicate hand and it's keen blade glowed from the reflection of
the flickering candle flames.
Xander shivered, each tiny wave of movement sparking little pinpoints
of agony across the surface of his ravaged skin. And only one thought
swirled through his damaged mind.
Beautiful.
She was so beautiful, from the down fine hair on her arms to the
glowing whiteness of her skin to the demon bright yellow of her eyes
to the glistening death of her fangs. His cock jumped at the
enchanting sight of her standing before him.
"I think he like's it when you bite and nip upon him Daddy. He's so
tender and juicy, my little kitty-pet is, and he's *so* lovely in his
endless suffering. His mind twists and bends and he quivers and
flinches even as his dark dark eyes beg for more more more... Let us
ride his body and his soul. Let us twist him and turn him until the
stars cry his name in the terrible heat of the day."
Xander flinched and moaned in horrible loss when Angelus slid his
fangs from the bruised flesh of his neck. His whole body stretched
towards the demon, silently begging for more even when his lips knew
no words to explain the *hunger* that grew deep in the back of his
skull. That hunger which fed upon his own living terror and his own
horrifying and irrefutable darkness. In response to his pain born
whimper and the burning *need* clear to any who merely looked for it,
Angelus ran a gentle and teasing fingertip down his shoulder in a
swirling circular pattern.
"Mmmm... my naughty little girl. You are thinking dirty thoughts
again, but that is why I cherish you so very much. Yes, let's... kill
him with kindness, as if were. We can make him feel so good, can't
we?"
Drusilla threw back her head and laughed a deep rich laugh of joy and
happiness as she danced around in a small circle. The flickering
candlelight threw ever changing patterns of light and shadow along
the curves and hollows of her body as if the bright flames were her
secret lover, caressing her and teasing her to heights of pleasure.
Xander felt himself grow jealous of the light that touched her. It
should be *him*. He wanted to wrap himself like living liquid worship
across her body only to seep into her very essence, to become a part
of her and to never leave her. He... *wanted* and the rough deep
whisper of his voice reached not *her* ears, but the ears of her
maker.
"To be her tears... The agonized pleasure of being born in *her*
eye... to live out my life upon the silken white of *her* cheek...
only to die, in hope and desire upon *her* soft full lips... Yes...
if only *I* could be her tears..."
Then the gentle fingers that had been caressing his back and teasing
sparks of hot pain from his multitude of welts dragged up the skin of
his neck to grasp a painfully tight hold upon his hair. Angelus
yanked his head back, but Xander's eyes never left the dancing form
of his Mistress.
"Don't worry little mortal... You *are* her tears... and you *will*
die upon her lips. I like you enough to grant you that one request...
In fact, I think I'll be there to watch... You'd make me a lovely
GandeChilde. After all, you already crave the pain and the bloody
kisses more than most minions and you're a *human*. Just imagine the
depths of depravity you could reach with a demon rolling under that
tender skin of your's?"
Xander's soul flinched away in horror and gibbering fear even as his
throbbing pain riddled body pressed tightly against the Master
Vampire, a silent entreaty. A dark soft chuckle tickled his neck and
he felt the two newest puncture marks on his skin throb and ache with
emptiness. Then, in a lightening fast move, Angelus shifted and
buried his thick marble erection between the bloodied globes of his
ass and thrust deeply inside his suddenly stuffed full bowels.
A harsh thready scream was torn from his raw and bloody vocal cords.
== present ==
Spike stood outside the wrought iron gates of the Los Angeles State
Hospital for the Criminally Insane and shifted nervously. Glancing
around and trying to find the nerve to start this ball rolling, he
tossed his cigarette onto the ground and snubbed it out with the toe
of his scuffed Doc Martin. He wasn't sure *how* this would turn out,
but he was getting desperate.
He could barely stomach the pig's and cow's blood that he was forced
to buy or steal from the butcher's shop and he *longed* to be able to
hunt and fuck and kill the warm-blooded and hapless humans that
wandered around the city. The thrill of stalking hunting and chasing,
the pleasure of biting tearing and killing as he drank down the rich
sweet liquid iron pumped directly from a quivering terror-filled
heart had been *ripped* from him. Hell, he'd even been slammed into a
migraine headache strong enough to thrust him into agonized
wakefulness after he'd dreamt of stalking and slaughtering some
luscious little girl.
Enough was enough.
He was a hunter and a killer. Not because of some twisted bit of
insanity inside his head, but because he was a *demon*. It was what
he had been born and bred to do. Killing wasn't a kink for him in the
sense of a mortal serial killer, it was how he *survived*. Granted,
he enjoyed the killing, but this whole situation was a threat to his
very existence.
And the witch had promised him that Xander Harris could fix him.
Taking a deep unneeded breath to try and pull his scattered thoughts
together, Spike sauntered over to the side of the gate where a black
metal box hung from the brick wall. He pressed down on a small white
button and turned his head slightly to catch the sight of an
electronic security camera, it's little red light blinking at the
top. Shortly, a small staticy voice hissed from the small speaker
under the button.
"Yes?"
Spike raised up his scared eyebrow, but didn't argue with the seeming
ridiculousness of the whole setup. He figured that the extreme
security measures were due to the mortal's who ran this place being
afraid of the one's they imprisoned here and not the thought that
someone would break into the place.
"Right. Uh... I'm here to visit a patient. I'm a... friend. Knew him
real good a few years back, but then I... went abroad. Came back to
look him up and they told me he was... living here."
There was a moment of silence and Spike wondered if the loons that
they kept under lock and key at this joint were not allowed to have
visitors. Or if perhaps they were allowed, but they just didn't have
too many on the outside as wanted to visit. The blonde vampire was
jolted out of his speculation suddenly when the static filled
electronic voice spoke once again.
"Okay. I'll buzz you through the gate. Follow the main drive around
the the side entrance. Go inside through the white painted doors and
walk up to the main reception desk. The duty nurse will be able to
help you."
Spike nodded absently and turned back to his car. Climbing into the
DeSoto, he started the engine and watched as the big wrought iron
gates slid open on greased tracks. He didn't have to worry about not
being able to get onto the grounds or into the hospital. The security
guard had issued him a invitation. Putting his car in gear, Spike
eased it past the gate and onto the main drive.
The hospital grounds were surprisingly well manicured and cared for.
Lush grass and neatly trimmed bushes and beds of colorful flowers
abounded. There were park benches scattered about and even a few
umbrella tables with chairs. Spike wasn't sure if this is where the
staff visited for their lunch break or if the less violent and more
easily controlled patients were allowed to roam in the sunshine. If
the latter was the case, he wondered if Dru's kitty-pet would be
counted among the privileged few. Probably not... the mortal had been
too found of playing hide and seek with Dru. And any mortal trained
to run and hide by a vampire who wanted to practice her hunting
skills would be able to get away from a group of overly muscled
orderlies.
The winding drive was fairly short and Spike soon found himself in
the main parking area. It was a quick matter of finding an empty spot
close to the doors and in moments, Spike was out of his vehicle and
crossing the shadow strewn lot. Making his way to the twin white
doors he'd been told he'd find, the bleached blonde vampire opened
the door and stepped inside. He had to blink a few times to allow his
eyes to adjust to the bright florescent lighting in the atrium after
the soothing darkness of the early evening.
Looking around, he found the main front desk and the plump dark
haired woman with the thick glasses sitting behind it. She was typing
information into a computer from a pile of paper lying next to her.
As soon as his attention focused on her, his preternatural senses
began to sift and gather information about her. She wore a light
flowery perfume that barely disguised the minty-medicinal smell of
some sort of ointment or another. Her heartbeat was steady and sure,
pumping blood through strong healthy veins, however her breathing was
labored and strained as if she was suffering from a mild case of
asthma. She radiated an aura of living warmth and Spike imagined that
he could almost taste her thick living blood splash upon his hungry
tongue.
A small sizzle of pain flashed across his skull and he hissed.
Snarling internally at the thrice damned chip lodged in his brain
that made even *thoughts* of lovely violence a painful thing, Spike
took slow measured steps towards her. He tried to twist his features
into a soft and comforting smile as the woman glanced up from her
work at him. He knew that he came across as intimidating and
dangerous, even when he *wasn't* planning to drain the life out of
some tasty mortal. He was a predator... and prey could instinctively
sense this. The woman stiffened up slightly, but then made a
conscious effort to relax before addressing him.
"Yes? Can I help you?"
Spike smiled his most charming and innocent smile. He knew it would
miss it's mark slightly, but if he oozed sexual promise, she might
just overlook the killer gleam in his eyes. Games of distraction and
illusion where something he'd learned at his Sire's knee and Angelus
was a pastmaster at wrapping mortals around his little finger. Spike
smirked inside his head as the slight scent of arousal and heat
drifted across his nose.
"Yeah luv, I'm hoping you just might. See, I'm hear to visit a long
lost friend of mine. We was mates as... young children. I had to go
abroad to live with me Aunt and Uncle when me Mum fell ill. Lost
track of each other, we did. Stopped back to the States for a quick
visit and when I looked the bloke up, found out he was a guest
here... Was hoping to pay m' respects before I headed back across the
pond."
Spike had deliberately thickened his accent while he spoke and he
allowed one of his fingers to trace invisible patterns along the
surface of her desk as he shamelessly flirted with the mortal. He'd
had over a century of practice at toying with his food and he knew
which buttons to push to get the reaction that he wanted. The musky
scent of arousal grew thicker and he could feel the warmth of blood
rush to the surface of her cheeks. He flashed her a slight smile and
graced her with a long look into his bright blue eyes. Her heart rate
speed up slightly and he found himself hungering for a taste of her
blood... so close and yet. Damn chip! So far away...
"Who is your friend, Mr?..."
Spike listened to her voice trail off in question and he let his
smile melt into a slightly sheepish grin. Charming to the last.
"Oi, my manners. Sorry luv. I'm William, William Bradford. And I'm
here to visit Alexander Harris."
Her eyes dimmed with confusion for a quick moment as she tried to
place the name. Spike could *see* when the recognition hit her. Her
frame stiffened up slightly and her eyes grew just a touch colder and
her face twitched with sadness before sliding smoothly into a
professional mask. Spike's internal curiosity turned up a notch at
that. He wondered what Dru's kitty-pet had done to earn such a
reaction.
"Well, Mr. Bradford, your friend is quite... ill. I don't think he'll
be anything like you remember him."
Spike tried not to laugh out loud at *that* statement. If she only
*knew* what his memories of the mortal consisted off, she'd run away
from him screaming in abject horror. He didn't have a chance to
comment one way or the other however, before she began to speak again.
"In any case, we generally don't allow visitors during the evening,
only the day. However, with you only being in town for a short visit
and the fact that Mr. Harris has never had *any* other visitor...
perhaps the doctor would make an exception to the rules."
Spike smiled encouragingly at her as she turned and picked up her
phone. He watched as she dialed an internal number from memory and
allowed his thoughts to roam.
So, Xander never got any visitors. Not too surprising as the only
person still left alive that would even remember him or care was
Willow. And the witch had her own scars to tend to. She probably
found the very idea of visiting him to be far to painful. Xander had
escaped his pain by delving into madness and Willow had escaped her's
by losing herself in her magic. The witch literally lived on top of
the Hellmouth. She had stopped Angelus from ripping it open, but when
the Mayor reached his ascension, he had done something to it and it
became a conduit for power and strength, if not an open gateway for
solid flesh. Then, with the need to monitor and control it, he had
built a large house upon it. And Willow lived there, guarding it for
him and preventing it from tearing open any further. No... she was
far to busy to come all this way just to stare into the broken eyes
of her oldest friend and wonder if he even recognized her.
"Mr. Bradford?"
Spike was jerked out of his thoughts and he spun around to find the
duty nurse gazing at him with a clipboard full of papers in her hand.
With a shudder, he forced his killing instincts back and offered up a
lazy smile to her instead of her own death.
"Yes ducks? What is it?"
Flashing him a triumphantly conspiratorial smile, she stretched out
her arm and dropped the clipboard into his open hand.
"The doctor has agreed to allow you to go up and visit your friend
Mr. Harris. They are readying him now. I just need you to fill out
these visitor forms for our records. The doctor will be up shortly to
take you to him."
Spike smiled at her.
"Thanks luv. I knew you could do it. My... father always said that
secretaries ruled the world. They know which strings to pull and
which ones to cut."
He offered her up a sexy wink and she beamed at the praise even as
she blushed at his flirting. Taking the forms and a pen, Spike walked
over to sit down on one of the vinyl covered chairs that lined the
wall. Glancing quickly through the small stack of forms, he paused
slightly.
The first one was something like what he expected. It was your basic
form that required you to give up all sorts of legal information
about yourself. Name, birth date, address and such. That wasn't a
problem, Spike *did* have a false identity after all. In fact, he had
three.
No, it was the form *under* that one that had given him a slight
internal giggle. It was a legal document that would release the
hospital from responsibility if Xander somehow managed to kill him or
cause him grievous bodily injury. Spike wondered what they would say
if he admitted that he was already dead and then he wondered if it
was *just* Xander and other violent types who required this form...
or if *all* the patient's visitors had to fill it out. And if it
*was* just the really nasty case's, what had *Xander* done to get on
that honored list?
== flashback ==
Xander sat huddled up in the corner of the ugly green couch, his arms
clasped tightly around his pajama clad knees as he rocked back and
forth, back and forth. He had been here for two whole weeks and he
was confused and bored and unsure of what to make of anything. His
dark Mistress would *surely* come for him soon. He *had* to get away
from these people and this sterile and endless *now* that held him
here.
No one beat him, kicked him, cut him or even whipped him. No one bit
into his flesh and drank his soul or made him feel exquisite pain and
torturous pleasure in equal amounts until they mixed and melded
inside of him as his whole body literally *quivered* from the
overwhelming sensations.
Instead the coddled and pampered and cleaned him as they shuffled him
from sunlit room to sunlit room. Soft soothing voices whispered at
him that it was 'okay' and everything would 'be fine' and that they
would 'help'. But it *wasn't* fine and okay and he didn't *want*
help. He wanted to go *home*. Home to his Mistress and her Sire and
her Brother and the endless pain and yearning.
He didn't understand this world nor did he relate to these people.
These warm living people that breathed and pulsed and throbbed with
*life* and hope and dreams. He turned his mind inward and away from
their eyes and their voices. He listened to the whispering sing-song
hiss that his Mistress had taught him to hear. She could hear the
stars speak to her of things to come, but *he* could hear the very
stones of the earth and it told him *how* to do things.
Even now it's dark slithering voice coiled around his mind and
tingled up his spine and it asked him to *remember*.
[ Angel wouldn't *do* that! But he's not Angel anymore, he's
*Angelus* and he is going to break open the mouth of *Hell*! And you
need a stake so you can turn his minions into *dust* and save the
girl with the shinny blonde hair that he *loves*! The Slayer and the
Watcher and the Witch are *calling* you to do battle and you *need*
to feel the *violence* and the *pain* calls out to you and it sings
in your veins. ]
Xander shivered and rocked faster as his liquid dark eyes swept the
room. A small black and white television caged high up on the wall
near the ceiling bubbled with mindless cheer as it spouted the
miracle of dish detergent. Old mismatched furniture was scattered
about the room as mental patients shuffled about aimlessly or sat in
odd groupings to play checkers and cards. Three large men in crisp
white uniforms stood guard at the doors and at the water fountain.
[ Hurry hurry hurry to the fight. Save the world and keep the
Hellmouth *closed* and pick up your weapon and *shove* the wooden
point *deep* into the unbeating heart as a shower of unholy dust
coats your body in sparkling shimmers. And blood pounding through
muscle and vein as *pain* and *violence* and *hurt* rule your heart
and mind. *Kill*. Kill the minions and *save* the blonde Slayer and
the Watcher and they will not *die* and *this* time you will win and
it will be different and you will *not* be lost to the pain and the
dark. ]
Xander rocked in his small corner and no one cared and no one watched
as he looked about the room. Warm living bodies shuffled past and he
blinked. He could *feel* the hot living aura of their souls slide
away to be replaced by the coldly burning *hunger* of the demon. Tan
skin gave way to white marble and *he* was the human and at the same
time he was the *hunter* and he *knew* what he had to do to save his
friends from the fate they had already suffered. He wanted it to be
different *this* time around.
[ Hurry hurry hurry before it's too late. You need a weapon, a
*stake* to drive into their unbeating hearts and the minions will fly
into stardust before you. *Will* a weapon into existence and _THIS_
is how you create it. A stake *your* stake, go now and fight and kill
and kill and kill... ]
Knowledge of *how* to just reach out his arm and twist his fingers
*just so* and then a bending popping sensation flares white hot pain
just behind his eyes and the small wooden table next to his ugly
green couch *explodes* into fragments and splinters. And in his hand
he holds a perfectly formed wooden stake that he conjured with the
force of his mind and the strength of his will and for a brief half-
second he thanks his dark Mistress for cursing him with the Gift and
then he strikes.
Leaping up from his crouch, sudden wash of adrenaline pounding into
his brain, Xander twists and kicks out with one leg to send a light
blue robed minion sailing into a patch of burning sunlight. And
without stopping his fluid grace, he *slams* the wooden stake into
the chest of the next minion. Bright red hot blood floods over his
hand and splashes into his face, but all he sees is *dust* exploding
around him.
Yanking back the stake, he turns on the balls of his feet and punches
out with his empty fist and he feels the delightful stinging contact
of flesh upon flesh and *screams* fill his ears and he begins to
laugh in joy at the lovely sound.
The older and more dangerous minions, the ones dressed in white rush
towards him with death in their yellow eyes. Grinning widely at the
intense *fun* he's having, Xander leaps over the back of the couch
away from them and *thrusts* his stake into another minion. Hot wet
red dust splashes over him and drips onto the floor and the coppery
scent of life *slams* into his nose and this *hot* taste fills his
mouth and his teeth *ache* and he *wants* and *yearns* for his
Mistress to come and take him away from here and to drink him and
hurt him and bathe him in her scent.
And then strong hands grab him tightly from behind and pin his arms
to his sides as his stake is *yanked* free of his fist. Mindless
panic wells up inside him and he struggles against the tight bands of
flesh that have captured him and he tries to explain. To *make* them
understand.
"NOOOO! I *have* to kill them and stop Her Sire from opening up Hell
and killing Buffy and Giles and you *have* to let me *go*! They're
*evil*! Can't you see that? Can't you see?"
There is a sharp small pin-prick against his arm and he feels
chemically induced lassitude swamp his body immediately and he
struggles against it. Somewhere in the back of his mind he becomes
aware that he *wasn't* dusting vampires, that he is in a mental
hospital's day-room and that he has just beaten up a few fellow
patients and violently murdered a few more. But that thought seems
unreal to him somehow and so he continues to struggle and try to
escape even as the world turns fuzzy and a deep soft blackness rises
up from the drugs to consume him.
With a shudder, he falls limp in his captor's arms and he knows no
more.
== present ==
After turning over the paperwork to the nurse, Spike followed Dr.
Slatterly through pale blue painted cement hallways until they came
to an elevator. The thin doctor with the graying hair and the white
lab-coat strongly reminded Spike of the scientists at the Initiative
and he felt a brief surge of sympathy for the mortal he was here to
see. He was sure that Dru's kitty-pet found these doctors and nurses
as vulgar and oddly chilling as he did.
Vampires, by their very nature, were extremely intimate creatures.
The fed directly from the still living bodies of their prey, they
shared every aspect of their unlives with their family and they felt
no need or desire to hide any of their emotions or wants. They laid
everything bare for all to see. And Xander had lived as a member of a
vampire family for over a year. Granted, he was the mortal family's
equivalent of the pet dog, but he was *still* a member of a powerful
vampire family. And as such, Xander had been forced into an intimacy
with Drusilla and Angelus that had been doubly reinforced by
lingering torture and violent sex.
The cold and aloof sterility of this place was a purely mortal
fascination and no true vampire would want to live this way.
Placating gentleness, pretended understanding and casual concern did
nothing to hide the truer and less morally pleasing aspect that
*really* drew the doctors into this field. The insatiable curiosity
to unravel a bizarre mystery. The scientists at the Initiative had
wanted nothing more than to figure out what made him tick, and Spike
had the feeling that these doctors wanted nothing more than to figure
out how Xander was broken. True caring about the boy wasn't a
motivation for these lab-coated mortals at all.
When they stepped into the elevator, Dr. Slatterly turned and began
to speak to Spike about Xander. He was deliberately vague and Spike
could tell he was sugar coating things a lot, but Spike knew that the
doctor didn't realize that after more than a century of killing and
torturing with his Sister, Drusilla, he was far more familiar with
insanity than the doctor ever could be.
"Now, Mr. Bradford. Your friend is very... ill. I'm not trying to
upset you or frighten you, but Mr. Harris has very complex problems
in recognizing and associating with reality. We believe that at one
point, he was horribly mistreated and that the abuse combined with
his family's death was what led to his breakdown."
"However, if he does talk with you and his words don't make a whole
lot of sense, don't worry too much. He claims to hear a voice in his
head and he often talks about a dead woman and her father. We keep
him medicated, as it helps to drown out the voice in his mind and
leaves him calmer and more easy to manage. However, I must warn you,
he is strapped down. This is for *your* protection. He can be quite
violent when allowed to run loose."
Spike looked at the doctor a long moment and pondered just *how* he
was supposed to respond to that. He *knew* what had happened to
unhinge Xander's mind. He might not have taken too much of a personal
hand with his breaking, but he had been a witness to it. He also knew
that the voice Xander heard was *real*, a gift from his beloved Dark
Goddess.
He was curious about Xander's violent behavior though, but before he
could comment about it, the elevator stopped. Spike watched as Dr.
Slatterly pulled out a magnetically coded card and waved it in front
of Spike's face while he gestured to the still closed doors.
"This is the top floor. The Violent Ward. We house all of our... "
Spike bit back a grin and offered up a description for the
floundering doctor.
"Psycho killers?"
The doctor blanched, but didn't deny it.
"... *ahem* hard to control patients up here. You need a specially
coded card just to open the elevator doors. That way, no other
patients will wander up here by accident."
The doctor swiped his card and the doors opened after the control
panel blinked from red to green. Dr. Slatterly stepped out of the
small elevator and Spike followed him into the hallway. The walls
here were not the soft pale blue from downstairs. The were a crisp
white and at different checkpoints along the corridor were iron bars
with armed guards standing by the doorways that led past them.
Spike's one eyebrow raised up to his hairline, but he silently
followed the doctor.
The first guard pulled out a keyring and unlocked the barred doorway
that he guarded and they stepped through and continued down the hall.
At an intersection, they turned left and passed through another
barred hatchway. The corridor was lined with steel doors with their
locks and small sliding plates that allowed one to look inside
without the door being opened.
Finally, the came to a metal door that had a white uniformed orderly
standing outside of it. He glanced up at their approach and Dr.
Slatterly nodded. The orderly then turned and unlocked the door. Once
they stopped in front of it, the doctor turned to face Spike once
more.
"Mr. Bradford. Once again, I'm not trying to upset you, but... please
do not remove any of the straps confining Mr. Harris to the bed. They
are for *your* protection. While you are visiting, I and Carl here
will be directly outside this door. Call us in if you need us, and
don't worry if you don't feel comfortable enough to stay long. Most
people *don't* find it easy to spend time with the insane."
Spike turned away from the doctor to hide his smirk. He was a *demon*
and by the very definition of that fact, he *himself* was insane.
Every member of his entire bloodline had been crazy without
exception, Dru just took it to extremes.
"Don't worry Doc. Can't be any worse than the rest of my bloody
family, now can he? After all... he was *just* the pet."
Spike chuckled at the confused expression on the doctor's face, but
he didn't give the man time to form a reply to his statement.
Instead, he reached out and yanked open the metal door. He stepped
inside swiftly and pulled it shut behind him. And then he stopped
short, a broad smile rushing across his lips at the sight before him.
Xander, as promised, was indeed strapped to a bed. The mortal's dark
hair had grown rather long, almost to his shoulders. It's color and
waviness reminded him of his Sister, but the length reminded him of
his Sire from before the nasty curse. He was still thin and wiry, but
he seemed to be bigger too. Probably grew a few inches in height
since Spike had last seen him. He wore nothing but a pair of faded
mint green pajama bottoms, even his feet were bare.
Xander was lying flat on his back and his arms were down along his
sides. A fleece lined leather strap bound his upper chest and upper
arms to the bed. A second strap crossed his stomach and and elbows
and a third large strap bound his thighs right above the knees. His
wrists and ankles each had an identical strap that bound his hands
and feet to the bed. He was squirming slightly under his restraints.
All in all, he was quite luscious and beautiful to Spike's eyes. He
licked his lips.
"'Ello kitty-pet. Long time no see, innit?"
Spike wasn't sure *what* reaction that he would get from the boy, but
he *didn't* think he'd get the one he got. Xander's dark haunted eyes
*sprang* open at the sound of his voice and for a long moment the boy
just *stared* at him intently. Spike had figured that the boy would
shake and quiver in fear, possibly beg for mercy. Instead, Spike's
sensitive nose got hit with a *staggering* wave of pheromones and the
strong musky scent of Xander's arousal. His heart began to beat
faster and slight shivers of fear and dark delight tingled through
the very air.
"S... Spike... *Spike*! Oooowww... *HOME*! *Please* Spike, take me
*home*. I don't wanna be *here*. I their be with *her*. Please take
me home to Mistress. I *miss* her and I *need* her... *please*..."
Spike's jaw dropped open in shock. He *never* would have guessed that
the mortal boy *missed* the woman who had caused him such unspeakable
pain and agony. That he wanted to be with the being who had nearly
single-handedly destroyed his life. Yet he did. Drusilla had broken
Xander and then reformed him into her own image. Now, he craved and
needed that which he was denied.
His home. His Mistress. His *family*.
Spike felt a wash of understanding and sympathy. He missed Dru as
well.
The only thing that he didn't understand was why Xander had run off
if he was so infatuated with Drusilla. He blinked in confusion, a
small frown playing at the corners of his mouth, even as he walked
over and sat on he edge of the bed. He reached out with one hand and
gently ran the backs of his cool fingers along Xander's warm living
cheek. The mortal leaned his face into the soft touch and smiled
happily, almost nuzzling him.
"Kitty-pet? If you loved Dru so much, why did you run off? We thought
that you escaped and never wanted to come back."
Xander's eyes turned stricken and he shook his head in denial.
"...no, no, *no*, NO! *Hide and Seek*! She *hunted* but I was smart
and sneaky! *Clever!* She never found me, never came, and then I was
lost! Lost and alone..."
== flashback ==
Xander leaned his naked and scarred back against the rough brick wall
that he was chained to and watched his dark and deadly Mistress
flitter about between her Sire and her Brother. The deceptively
peaceful scene left him with an odd sensation of pride welling in his
chest. They were his family and they were beautiful. Dark, deadly,
devious... and he *belonged* to them. Or did *they* belong to *him*?
Sometimes he forgot. But that didn't matter now, what was important
was that they were all together and he enjoyed being able to feast
his eyes upon their lovely forms.
Now that Spike's injuries had healed to the point where he was able
to walk and run and hunt and their, Angelus was taking more and more
of an interest in him. His beautiful dark Mistress had whispered in
his ear softly of how things were slowly going back into older and
more delightful patterns. The two males were slowly getting over
their respective animosity and resentment towards each other and they
had recently begun to hunt and have sex together. Xander's Mistress
was well pleased that her family was healing itself and she expressed
her joy upon his flesh with wicked pain and lush pleasure.
Now, to Xander's delight and excitement, Angelus wanted to celebrate
Spike's recovery and renewed their of him as leader of their clan.
So, they were going off on holiday. Just the four of them. Spike's
DeSoto had been completely overhauled with both engine and body work
done on it and then it was cleaned inside and out. The minions had
already packed up most of their belongings the night before and as
soon as the sun set, they were to be off.
[ hurry and run and hide... escape escape escape... *think* of stone
and rock and dirt packed tight around you... a grave... buried deep
in the earth... hidden deep in the arms of the earth... hide hide...
no scent, no sound, no light.... buried deep under stone and age and
weight of rock covering you hiding you... not to be found... escape
escape escape... ]
At the moment, the Master Vampire and his bleached blonde their were
pouring over maps and arguing about the best route to take to reach
the first destination on the agenda. Drusilla stood between their
chairs, lightly swaying back and forth. She alternated between
humming a gentle tune under her breath and offering up her own ideas
and suggestions.
Her comments were usually met with raised eyebrows and odd looks, but
Xander couldn't figure out why. Everything that she ever uttered was
terribly important and the gospel truth. Didn't they *realize* that?
Finally, in a fit of frustration, Angelus turned and snarled at
Xander's beloved and feared Mistress.
"Damn it Drusilla! I'm trying to *plan* here. I don't have *time* to
play now. We only have a few hours until the sun sets."
[ pain and sadness and lonely aching in the night and lost so lost
alone alone alone... hide in the stones hide in the stones... alone
and lost, alone and lost... ]
Xander watched his beloved Mistress pout and her dark eyes filled
with a mix of anger and sadness. The very sight of her beautiful face
displaying such hurt and pain made him feel all tingly and he wished
he could nibble on her thrust out bottom lip. She was *so* lovely
when she suffered and hurt. A sparkling rush of excitement sizzled up
his spine at the thought that maybe Angelus would be angry enough to
punish her. Xander could cum merely from watching his beloved
Drusilla being whipped by her Sire. It was the most wonderful and
erotic thing he had ever seen before and he hoped to see it again.
Soon.
[ power and greed and hate and vengeance are coming and the stones
will shift and break and cry... hide and run and escape his ascension
or the sunlight shall pierce the grave and dust will mingle with
dirt... power and greed and hate and vengeance are coming... the
ascension draws their... ]
"I only want to help. Our grand adventure calls to me, whispering of
blood and violence and broken little dolls all in a row. They itch
and burn for us to come upon them and scratch their glassy eyes out."
Xander shivered at the sound of her voice and his chains rattled
slightly, but Angelus merely exchanged a long and exasperated look
with Spike. It was the blonde vampire that interceded.
"Princess? Why don't you go play with your kitty-pet? He'll be
trapped in the car soon and so he won't have the chance to exercise
later. I'm sure he'd love to be allowed to stretch his muscles out a
bit."
When Dru nodded in agreement, Xander felt a wash of bitter
disappointment pool in his stomach. He had *really* wanted to watch
as her Sire flayed her bare flesh raw with his belt. Opening up rough
jagged cuts along her smooth porcelain skin, dripping bright red
blood in splashes and splatters along the stone floor.
[ run and hide and pull the *idea* of stone around you wrap you in
it's embrace... hide and escape to the towers of stone and metal and
wait for he who shall come... escape the ascension... ]
But then she turned to face him, her deep mysterious eyes piercing
his soul and he felt a jolt of sensual pleasure mixed with familiar
terror. As she stepped up to him, he once again marveled at the flood
of emotions that she made him feel with the simplest of gestures. He
loved her and hated her. He feared her even as he coddled and
pampered her. She was the bane of his existence and he worshiped
every detail about her with a mindless devotion. She was the ultimate
center of his universe.
And she was going to play with him.
Her deceptively delicate slim fingers brushed along his cheek gently
and then carded through his hair leaving a trail of tingles and
shivers in their wake. Helplessly, he wondered what the torment he
was to suffer for her pleasure would be this time as a quiver raced
down his spine and the hairs on the back of his neck stood up on end.
"Shhh.... my lovely kitty-pet. So soft, so tender, so... easily
bruised. So quick to bleed for my pleasure. So pretty, so very very
pretty."
Xander nuzzled his head into her hand and hummed low in his throat.
He wasn't a vampire, so he couldn't purr, but that didn't stop him
from trying to imitate the sound of contentment that they made.
Drusilla giggled slightly, her soft voice leaving little pricks of
fear and lust dancing on his nerves. Then she leaned forward until
her body was pressed against his and ran her cool wet tongue along
the side of his neck. With a shudder of desire, Xander instantly
tilted his head for her, offering his throat to her whims. She nipped
lightly at the skin, drawing blood, but not opening a vein.
"The stars sing such lonely songs. They whisper whisper of loss and
regret. They know that pain is coming and they sing such sad sad
songs."
Xander arched his neck further as his Mistress began to hum her soft
tune again. She pressed her lips to his skin and he could feel the
light vibrations tickle at his sensitive throat. She stopped her
humming suddenly and nipped at him again. He hissed in pleasure/pain
and his cock stirred in the tight black leather shorts that she had
dressed him in today.
"Kitty-pet? Are the stones and rocks and dirt speaking to you? Do
they whisper in your ears about our journey the way the stars are
singing to me?"
Xander shifted slightly, the bare flesh of his back rubbing against
the brick wall, little scratches and scraps along his tender and raw
skin. His voice was horse from the weight of his screams the night
before as he answered the deadly beauty nibbling on his vulnerable
and hungry skin.
"The Mayor... the stones speak his name. And violent deaths. The
Hellmouth screams for it, demands it. We must flee... hide... escape
the burning sunlight..."
A delightfully wicked giggled tickled his ear.
"Yessss... Miss Edith told me all about *that* one. She says that he
will be very powerful soon. He will *become*."
They exchanged a quick glance and Xander *saw* the knowledge and
understanding deep within her. Power shimmered about her like an aura
of glittery red light and the stones and pebbles of Sunnydale
murmured her name in his ears, whispering of her gift and her
strength. She *knew* that change was coming and coming soon. And it
would not be for the best.
[ buried in rock and thoughts of rock, in stone and thoughts of
stone... hidden and hiding... flee into the night... run far and run
fast... hide in plain sight behind veils of thought, dreams of
stone... ]
Then, in a heartbeat, the connection was gone and Xander became
fiercely aware of her body pressed tightly to his and he *hungered*
for her. The pain, the pleasure, the bloodshed. He arched against
her, silently begging for her attention, for sensation, for her
touch. She giggled and leaned her hip against the erection trapped in
his tight black shorts.
"Someone is thinking naughty naughty thoughts. Mmmm.... I think I
should allow you to play a fun game. You go off and hide and I'll
hunt you down. Then I'll punish you like the bad little boy that you
are. Nip and bite, hit and twist. You'll be begging for more by the
time I'm done..."
Xander whimpered with lust and his cock jerked painfully in his too
tight shorts at the very thought.
"Undo your restraints my pet. Set yourself free to run and hide from
your wicked wicked Mistress."
Xander closed his eyes and reached out with the Gift she had cursed
him with. There was a wrenching *twisting* sensation deep inside of
his skull and his ears *popped*. Five solid sounding *clicks* echoed
through the room as Xander used his mind and his willpower to unlock
his chains. They fell back against the brick wall with loud metallic
rattles.
He slowly lowered his arms and rotated his shoulders twice to loosen
his stiff muscles and then he stepped away from the wall without any
help from another being. He stood there wearing nothing more than the
black leather short-shorts, his leather collar and matching leather
wrist and ankle shackles, complete with multiple D-rings while his
Mistress gazed on with delighted pride. She clapped her hands in glee
and gave a little bounce.
"Wonderful! Oh, my sweet precious, Mummy's so proud. She has twisted
you and bent you and made you into something so... wicked. You are
getting stronger and stronger with your abilities all the time. Once
I turn you, you'll be even *more* powerful!"
She flipped her fine boned hands in a shooing gesture. Xander
imagined that he could see wet red blood flying from the tips of her
fingers to splash along the stone floor.
"Run along. Go off and hide so I can hunt you down and bite you all
up with my pretty little fangs."
She nipped at the air by his ear and he shivered, a tendril of fear
and exhilaration flooding through him. He *loved* this game and yet
he never won it. She *always* found him, but he tried *so* hard to
make it difficult for her. She loved it more when he hid himself well
and then afterwards she would bring him to even higher plains of
pleasure and deeper chasms of agony as his reward.
[ run and hide run and hide run and hide... thoughts of stone and
rock and sheltering in a crypt of the mind... ]
With a quick smile, he turned and hurried off, his bare feet slapping
on the stone floor. He was so glad that he had the their to play hide
and seek with his Mistress one last time before they left for their
vacation. He had a new hiding place that he'd never used before and a
new trick that he'd learned from the hissing grating voice whispering
hollowly in his head and he wanted the chance to try it out. He'd
just have to get there and then be quiet as a mouse.
He just had to go into the cellar where all of the walls, the floor
*and* the ceiling were made of rough stone and then he *knew* he
could get them to hide his lifeforce. The rocks and dirt were his
friends after all. They spoke to him a lot and they had told him how
to do it, how to build a mental shield of rock and stone.
== present ==
Spike gently petted the mortal's face, neck and chest as he watched
those haunted dark eyes unfocus. Emotions flickered across Xander's
handsome face and the vampire found himself idly wondering what it
was going on inside the boy's twisted little mind. With a soft sigh,
he hoped that Xander didn't fade off all the time, or perhaps that it
was only the medication doing it, because he *needed* the psychic to
*focus* on the problem at hand. Specifically, the chip.
Hoping that it would work on Xander as well as it did his beloved
Dark Princess when she had suffered from her visions of the future,
Spike ran his long pale fingers through the boy's thick greasy dark
hair in a soothing and repetitive manner. He vaguely noted that the
boy needed to be thoroughly showered, but he figured it was probably
difficult for the orderlies to bathe him considering they didn't have
vampiric strength. Slowly, Xander began to relax. Spike started
purring, a low rumbling in his chest and throat even as his other
hand began to trace long soft strokes up and down the boy's chest.
"Xander... Xander... Come on back to me pet. Come on. I need to talk
to you about getting you out of here. About us leaving together. Come
on Xander... focus on my voice. Come back to me."
Little by little, the soft touches, the rumbling and soothing purr
and Spike's whispering had it's desired effect. Xander's eyes
sharpened and then locked onto Spike's face. It was like watching the
boy wake up from a dream. A tiny smile creased his mouth for a brief
second, then the mortal tilted his head sideways and frowned at him
in confusion.
"The wicked pills they force down into me cage the voices. I only
hear a hissing whisper that teases and torments me because it is so
very far away. But every now and then a pebble falls through the
cracks and everything is clear and shinning for a tiny bit. A little
tiny stone in the heart of the garden is calling your name Spike. It
is hissing and spitting about pain and frustration, loneliness and
need."
The mortal blinked at him in shock and struggled against his
restraints, desperately trying to get closer to the Master Vampire
while Spike blinked at him with a strange mixture of hope, awe and
confusion swirling in his head.
"You're *hurt*! Someone *broke* you!"
Spike felt that tiny kernel of hope begin to blossom in his cold dead
chest. His Sister, Dru, had seen visions that told her of what was to
come, but her kitty-pet, the mortal she had planned on taking as her
own their someday, had visions of what *was*, now, in the present.
And he somehow *knew* that Spike had been hurt and was still hurting
because of everything the Initiative had done to him.
"Yeah, pet. I'm hurt. I was captured by some government soldiers and
their pet scientists. They put some damn microchip in my skull
against my will. Now, every time I go to hunt or kill, the microchip
sends a blast of blinding pain through my brain."
Spike watched Xander's face as he told him about what had been done
to him. His expression flip-flopped from outraged anger to shuddering
horror and then to a strange sort of understanding.
"I was captured too. The doctors tie me up, but they won't play with
me or let me play with the other patients here. They *never* bite me
or hurt me or do *any* fun stuff. And they feed me these awful wicked
pills that make the voices dim and the Gift quiet. And they won't let
me just *go* *home*!"
Spike could feel a frown spreading across his face as he considered
everything that the mortal just told him. He was right about the
similarities in their two situations. Xander wanted his freedom from
the asylum as much as Spike had wanted his own from the Initiative.
Spike knew right then and there that no matter what else happened, he
would find a way to get his beloved Dru's kitty-pet out of here.
But beyond that, Spike was worried about the medication. If it dulled
Xander's link to the voices and his psychic powers, *how* would he be
able to remove the chip from Spike's skull? Well... maybe the boy
would know how. After all, he'd been here for a few years, maybe he
had figured out a way around it.
"Pet? Xander? If the meds make the earth and stones all fuzzy and
quiet, how can you talk to them? I need you to get this chip out of
my head so I can hunt and kill and that means you *have* to use your
Gift."
A wash of arousal hit Spike's sensitive nose and the mortal boy
flushed all over his body. Spike wondered what in the hell made the
boy have *that* reaction to what he had said when Xander answered his
unasked question.
"Sex."
Spike blinked in confusion.
"What pet? Run that by me again. What does sex have to do with
anything?"
Xander blushed again, but his dark eyes never left Spike's own blue
ones.
"Sex. When you have sex it creates *lots* of energy. I can tap into
*that* energy to use the Gift. That's *one* of the reasons I'm not
allowed to play with others. Strong emotions allow me to tap into the
Gift too, but those wicked pills keep me fuzzy and sleepy, so that
doesn't happen."
Spike nodded thoughtfully as he considered it. It *did* make sense
and sex would also probably help to burn out some of the medication
in the boy's blood stream as well. Then something the mortal said
stuck out in his mind and he *had* to know. Curiosity was burning too
brightly inside of him to ignore it.
"Pet? Um... if you using sex to get enough energy and power to use
your Gift is only *one* of the reasons why they don't let you spend
time around the other patients, what are the *other* reasons?"
Spike watched a wicked and evil grin spread across the boy's face.
His dark eyes sparkled with mischief and a low throaty chuckle
rumbled through his bare chest. Spike couldn't help but answer that
nasty smile with one of his own.
"Oh... that would be because I like to play with the other patients.
You know, tie them up, hit them, kick them, occasionally bite them."
Xander's grin dimmed slightly and a look of haunted sadness entered
his dark eyes.
"It helps me feel better. I just get *so* homesick sometimes and it
helps to share the pain with other people. And I *know* they could
*learn* to like it just like *I* did!"
Spike chuckled and Xander's grin turned evil once more.
"Of course, it *could* be that I tend to kill people whenever I get
loose. But, I don't understand why that gets everyone so riled up. I
mean, I've been killing things since I was just a kid. Vamps,
demons, animals.... now I've added humans to the list. What's the big
deal. Right?"
Spike grinned and petted the mortal's hair in sympathy and
understanding.
"You're right pet. It *isn't* a big deal. And when you get this chip
outta my head, we'll leave here you and I, and we'll go find some
humans and kill 'em up good and proper. Sound like fun?"
Xander nodded his head vigorously and Spike chuckled. He could smell
the excitement and arousal rolling off of the human even as his blue
eyes dilated to take in the lovely little wiggles and squirms that
were all that the restraints allowed him to do. After a brief moment
of enjoying this delightful visual feast, Spike noticed that there
was a distinctive pattern to Xander's wiggles. He was trying to free
his hands.
Spike frowned. Xander had, at one point, been able to undo *any*
lock, buckle or clasp with just his Gift and his willpower. Now, he
had reverted back to squiggles and squirms. A wash of protective
anger rolled over him as he realized that the drugs that the doctors
fed to the mortal was, in it's own way, a lot like Spike's chip. It
prevented him from doing what now came naturally. Granted, the drugs
would wear off, or could be gotten around in a few minor ways,
whereas the chip couldn't, but it was the same principle.
Right then and there, Spike promised himself that he'd kill anyone
who ever tried to drug the boy again. With his Sire missing and
hidden by a mage-shield and Drusilla and Darla dust, he was Spike's
last remaining family member and the Master Vampire planned on
protecting him with extreme prejudice.
That decision made, Spike reached down and began to unshackle the boy
one buckle at a time. Chest. Waist. Legs. Ankles. Wrists. As soon as
the last strap came apart, it's leather ends fluttering to the
bedsheet, Spike found himself with a double armful of Xander.
The boy wrapped his arms around Spike's shoulders and buried his face
against his long pale neck, muttering and whispering in between soft
kisses and gentle nips pressed into his skin.
"oooowwww *so* cool, almost cold ::kiss:: dead, no heartbeat ::lick::
like coming home ::nip:: so pale, so lovely ::kiss:: missed you, miss
her, miss him ::nibble:: gonna fix you ::nip:: then you and I will
hunt ::lick:: and we can be happy again ::*bite*::"
Spike felt a shiver run down his spine as Xander's blunt human teeth
bit down on his throat hard enough to break the skin and draw a few
drops of bright red blood. He brought his arms around the mortal's
waist and pulled him up onto his lap. Xander spread his long legs
wide so that he was straddling the blonde. Spike squeezed the warm
body close to him, enjoying the exquisite heat that leached through
his clothes to tease his flesh.
Xander ran his warm wet tongue up the length of Spike's neck until he
reached the vampire's ear. Then he wrapped his soft full lips around
the pale lobe and suckled gently for a long moment before he bit down
on it... *hard*. Spike hissed and a bolt of lust surged through his
body to gather in his groin. He reached up one pale hand and thrust
it into Xander's thick shaggy hair at the back of his head and curled
his fingers into a fist. Yanking the mortal's head back, he leaned
forward and attacked those lush full lips with his own. Immediately,
Xander opened up to him, silently begging him to just take and taste
and plunder the warm moist depths of his mouth.
The man-child in his arms moaned deep in his throat and shifted so
that his pajama covered erection rubbed up against Spike's stomach.
The musky scent of lust and sweat and leather swirled in his nose and
the thumping sound of Xander's heartbeat echoed in his ears even as
the promise and hope that the bloody chip would be destroyed rolled
about his passion soaked mind.
With a gasp of air that he didn't really need, Spike broke the
desperate kiss and carefully shoved Xander off of his lap and onto
the bed. It was a fine line to walk, rough enough to arouse the
violence deprived mortal, but gentle enough to not cause any actual
pain that would send the chip in his skull to flaring white hot agony
down his central nervous system.
Spike quickly stood up and shrugged out of his leather duster. He
draped it across the only chair in the room. Then, he peeled off his
t-shirt and tossed it on the seat of the chair. He undid his belt and
unzipped his black jeans. As he pushed them wide open and then down
to his knees, he glanced over at the boy.
"Strip!"
He saw a shiver race along Xander's spine as the boy rolled onto his
back in a flash and grasped the waistband of his faded pajamas. Then
in one smooth move, the mortal *yanked* them down to his knees. One
leg at a time, he hurriedly kicked them off and onto the floor.
Spike spared a long moment to run his eyes over the boy's body. Long
lean muscles and smooth pale skin. It was painfully obvious that the
boy rarely, if ever, saw any sunlight. He hadn't the entire time he
had lived with Spike's family and the vampire was pretty certain that
the doctors wouldn't allow Xander to freely roam the hospital
grounds. Still, the moon kissed skin was a striking contrast to the
long midnight curls and the deep dark eyes. What's more, the mortal's
long thick cock was painfully erect, purple-red with his desire and
need. He was utterly beautiful.
Grinning, his own erection standing proud from a nest of dark curls,
Spike turned and sat on the edge of the bed, his feet planted firmly
on the floor. He reached out towards the mortal with one hand open in
invitation. A slow sexy secretive smile bloomed across Xander's face
and he crawled his way across the mattress to Spike. Wet warm tongue
flicked across his cool earlobe even as a large warm hand pressed
against his bare chest.
Willingly, Spike lay back against the mattress only to get lost in
the dreamy look of lust etched onto the mortal's face. With an almost
reverent touch, Xander ran one fingertip down the length of his pale
muscular chest. That gentle feathery touch teased at his skin,
leaving tingles of warmth and heightened sensitivity as it delicately
traced the lines of his ribs and lean curves of his flesh.
"So beautiful... so lovely... so smooth..."
In a heartbeat, the gentle teasing touch turned harsh and heavy as
Xander *dug* his fingernails *into* Spike's pale skin and then
*dragged* his hand down the creamy expanse. Burning stinging *pain*
flashed through Spike's body and the scent of blood filled his nose
even as his cock *throbbed* and began to leak pre-cum at the
sensation.
"Oooo..."
The shaky breathy gasp pulled Spike out of his own mind in time to
see Xander's eyes go wide with a dark and wicked hunger as he bent
his head down towards the bloody scratches running along his right
pectoral. Spike shivered and clutched at the bedsheets when he felt a
warm wet tongue delicately lap up the spilled drops of crimson
pleasure.
His head swirled with disjointed thoughts of what it would be like
once they finally left here and began to journey through life... or
their together, when Xander suddenly swung his leg over Spike's hips
and straddled his body. The movement caused their erections to brush
against each other and they both moaned in pleasure at the sensation.
Never one to hesitate, Spike reached up and grabbed Xander's ass with
both of his hands. One quick tug and he had the mortal's body pressed
tightly to his own. Erection to erection, chest to chest, face to
face. The feeling of hot sweaty skin melded against his cool body
sent thrills of almost overwhelming pleasure coursing through him and
he felt a rumbling growl erupt out of his chest even as he thrust his
hips up against Xander.
His hands methodically squeezed and molded the firm lush ass that
filled them and his hips found a rough and quick rhythm that the hot
mortal blanketing his body easily picked up. A hot wet mouth found
his own and the delicious *taste* of Xander exploded across his
tongue. Wet, warm, wild and just enough spice from longed for pain
and violence. The darkness in his soul and mind sending thrilling
sparks through Spike's preternatural senses.
Pleasure and need and *hunger* built inside of him, spiraling
upwards, seeking out the demon within him. His hard and greedy
erection pulsed and throbbed as he ground his hips against Xander's
and he felt his face begin to shift, bones melting and melding into
harsher lines and deep ridges. His gums *ached* in the most delicious
way and then the *wonderful* feeling of *release* as his fangs
elongated and sharpened into deadly points.
The mortal in his arms took one long look into his glittery yellow
eyes, moaned in ecstasy and plunged his warm tender tongue into his
fang filled mouth, seeking out and then deliberately slicing open his
lips and tongue on the razor sharp canines. Rich pleasure/pain
flavored *living* blood bubbled into his hungry mouth and Spike
*groaned* at the heady and wonderful taste. His demon *roared* in
his head and he sucked down *hard* on the cut and bloody tongue in
his mouth.
Husky and breathy whimpers and moans vibrated in Xander's throat even
as the mortal began to thrust down on Spike faster and faster with a
broken and desperate rhythm. The scent of arousal flooded the air and
Spike could taste the boy's orgasm in his blood even before his
burning hot erection *exploded* against his own cock and abs.
The combined scent/taste and the physical sensations of Xander's body
spasming on top of him was too much and with a growl, Spike tore his
mouth from Xander's and howled out his own release even as Xander
reached out with two shaky hands and clamped them down on top of his
skull with great force.
Spike was still shaking and trembling with the aftershocks of his
orgasm when there was a *twisting* *pulling* flash of red streaked
white glittering light and then he heard a sharp *crack-pop* inside
his head followed by a feeling of vague *emptiness* behind his eyes.
Spike wasn't sure *what* had just happened to him and was about to
demand that the boy explain himself when suddenly Xander sat up so
that Spike's semen soaked flaccid cock nestled between the mortal's
warm cheeks. Xander's expression was one of exhausted exaltation and
he reached out to Spike with one hand, palm up. Sitting there on his
pale flesh was a twisted bit of metal and plastic with brightly
colored wires and tiny connection plugs dangling from it.
Disbelieving shock rocked him to the core as he stared at it. Slowly,
as if waking from a dream, Spike realized *what* that thing was and
that it was no longer on the *inside* of his skull.
"... the chip..."
His voice was a mere whisper, yet it carried like the glorious hail
and call to war by the Lord of Demons himself to Spike's ears. His
pale hand shaking with emotion, Spike gently plucked the tiny piece
of technology off of Xander's hand and *squeezed* it with all of his
inhuman strength, leaving it nothing more than a crushed and twisted
bit of shiny trash.
Then he turned his glittering gold eyes onto the naked mortal sitting
on his lap. Oh... he was *never* letting this one go.
"You *did* it pet! You did it!"
A happy and satisfied smile raced across Xander's face for a quick
moment and then his dark eyes rolled up in his head and he toppled
over in an unconscious sprawl across Spike's body. A wave of
protectiveness rippled through him and he wrapped his long pale arms
around the mortal, cuddling him close.
"Shhh... that's okay pet. You did good, you did. You just take a
little nap. When you wake up, we'll see about getting you out of here
so that we can go kill people. But for now, you just rest up."
== flashback ==
He was cold.
It's an odd sensation to notice first, especially when there are so many other's that seem to be clamoring for his undivided attention. Raw bloody skin, stinging and tingling with whispers of pain from where she'd last hit him with her cat-o-nine-tails whip. Stretched taunt muscles that were cramping and twisting from his enforced stillness. Aching emptiness and clawing hunger because she had denied him food for three days as a part of the 'ritual cleansing' in preparation of the spell. Throbbing and needy erection trapped in a painfully tight leather cockring.
But his twisted and broken mind choose to linger on the fact that he was cold.
Goose bumps and shivers traveled up his chilled naked flesh, but there was more to it than that. It was a coldness of the spirit as well. All hope for redemption and release had died within him, only to be reborn into a twisted and reversed image of what and who he had once been.
No longer did he crave his freedom from Her. No longer did he fall into tortured dreams, his last conscious wish that at least *one* of his friends remembered him, thought of him, was planning to rescue him. No. Those days were gone. There was no turning back. Now, he only craved Her touch, both gentle and cruel, graceful beauty and hellish cruelty. The taste of Her, the scent of Her, the sound of Her cries and Her laughter ringing in his ears.
And now... today, she was planning on *changing* him. Making him a part of the darkness which dwelled within her own mind. Her soft lilting voice had whispered sweet pleasures and grand pain into his seething brain, promising power and comfort and madness. She planned to bind him to the Hellmouth and to Herself with blood and magic and pain and sex.
Didn't his Mistress know that no mere magic spell could bind him to her any tighter than his own heart and mind already did? He was *Her's*, now and forever, a willing and broken servant. She was his only need, his only desire, his only *fear*.
Dragging in a ragged and shuttering breath, Xander opened his bruised eyes and looked around at the room he was confined in.
He was lying flat on his back on a small twin sized cot. The thin lumpy mattress was wrapped in black cotton and his arms were stretched over his head and then bound to the metal frame. He legs were also stretched out and spread slightly, his ankles similarly shackled. Every surface of the room itself was painted a dull black and then sprinkled with bright white glittery stars of varying sizes. The walls, the floors, the ceiling. Even the furniture.
There was a long dresser along the far wall and it held a multitude of candles and the wall sconces on the other side of the room also held burning candles, their bright flames dancing and flickering, but the dark walls and ceiling seemed to absorb and eat the light. A small table near the bed held other items. A heavy and obviously old leather bound book. A silver chalice and a silver knife. An iron cauldron set up on a small tripod over an unlit candle. A glass of wine and two silk pouches full of... something.
Xander felt an iron ball of fear settle into his stomach as he studied the items. He *knew* that she was planning on destroying what was left of his soul, corrupting it, blackening it, breaking the last part of him that held compassion and goodness in it. He knew that she was going to pervert him into something more... or was that something less... than human. She had told him that he would survive, that she wouldn't kill him. Yet.
And a little part of him wished that she would kill him. Just *do* it. He *knew* it was coming and he half feared that day and half hoped it would come in the next minute. He didn't like being the only living creature in the big Mansion. All of his old family were dead, most of his old friends were dead. His Mistress and her family were all animated corpses... he wanted to be dead too.
The sound of the door opening yanked his twirling and morbid thoughts out of the ether and into the here and now. Twisting his neck around so that he could see who was there, Xander got his first glimpse of Drusilla this night.
Her breathtakingly beautiful pale face swam beneath a heavy black velvet hood and her lithe and lovely form was draped within the folds of a heavy black velvet robe. The merest whisper of fabric rustling was the only sound she made as she glided across the room to the table. Her dark eyes sparkled with madness and power and a soft gentle smile graced her lips. Xander's soul flinched and shrieked in horror even as his body quivered with hunger for the feel of her touch.
She ignored him, walking over to the table. With trepidation and lust battling for dominance in his mind, Xander watched as she flipped open the large book to the page marked with the bright red satin ribbon. She read the page silently for a moment and then lit the candle under the cauldron. Her soft breathy voice sent chills along Xander's naked and exposed skin as she began chanting in a demonic language he didn't understand, even though he recognized it. He had heard it before and had even learned one or two words, but he had no idea what it was she was saying as she began the spell.
Drusilla carefully poured half of the wine into the tiny iron cauldron and then opened one of the silk packets on the table. Still chanting in her soft breathy voice, she sprinkled a double pinch of dried herbs into the slowly heating wine. Then, she lifted up the knife and raised it high into the air. She chanted and sang to it softly for a long moment and then she quickly sliced through her left wrist with it's keen edge.
Tilting her bloody and dripping wrist over the cauldron, she let the stolen blood flow from her undead veins into the herb and wine mixture. Still, she chanted the demonic magic spell.
She began to stir the mixture with the knife in her right hand, even as she lifted her bloody wrist up to her face. Her long pink tongue darted out and licked up the remaining splashes of bright red and Xander's cock jerked and twitched at the erotic sight. Her eyes flashed over to him briefly as she lowered the knife back to the table.
Still singing those unholy words, Drusilla lifted the cauldron up with her bare hands, heedless of it's heat. Carefully, she poured the mixture into the silver chalice. She put the cauldron back on it's tripod and picked up the remaining silk pouch. Reaching into it, she pulled out a piece of crumbling pressed spice and ground it between her fingers over the silver chalice. The wine/herb/blood mixture bubbled and hissed as the spice dissolved into it. Still, she chanted with her soft breathy voice.
Finally, she lifted the chalice and carefully made her way across the room towards Xander and the bed he was strapped down to. Tingles of excitement and fear washed over his skin, leaving him extra sensitive and responsive. He *yearned* for her and he *craved* her and he would willingly submit to *any*thing she required from him, yet he was frightened. His Mistress was going to *change* him, at some *very* basic levels. He didn't even like who he was now, let alone what she wanted him to become. But he wasn't asked. He had no choice, no will of his own.
Taking great care not to spill a drop of the liquid in the chalice and still speaking the words of the demonic spell, Drusilla pushed aside the front opening of her robe, revealing her naked pale flesh beneath. Xander felt the breath catch in his throat at the very sight of her and his cock jerked and twitched in it's bondage.
Moving slowly, she climbed across his lap and positioned his straining erection against her wet opening. Her chanting got louder and louder as she slowly slid down his throbbing length, wrapping him in tight wet coolness. Xander's heart beat furiously against his chest as he fought with his bindings. He wasn't sure if he wanted to get away, to run far and fast, or if he wanted to thrust deeper into her, to turn them over so that he could thrust and thrust and thrust...
He moaned and writhed. Finally, her weight settled firmly over his pelvis, his shaft buried in her to the hilt.
Her loud chanting was now practically shouted from her lips and she held the silver chalice in both hands level to her face, as if she were a priest of old blessing water, turning it holy. Xander felt a hysterical bubble of fear laced laughter get trapped in his throat at that image. His Mistress was no priest blessing holy water, instead she was a demon, a seer of Hell, cursing a potion of blood tainted wine.
She turned her face towards him, her fangs fully distended and her eyes a glittery gold. Then, she brought the silver chalice down and tilted it to his lips. The bitterly metallic mixture poured into his mouth even as her soft lilting voice rang in his ears. The potion burned his tongue as if he had swallowed a mouthful of the bright sunlight that his family hid themselves away from. He was *certain* that he was going to die. Fear rippled up his spine, and *still* she poured the vile liquid into his mouth. The awful taste caused a ball of nausea to form in his stomach.
A faint grin crossed her fang filled mouth and she reached out with one hand and pinched his nose closed. He could feel panic begin to well up inside of him and sweat beaded up on his brow. She shifted slightly and pleasure sizzled through his body and he almost gasped, but he *tried* not to swallow. He didn't *want* to feel that tingling stinging burning mixture slide down his throat, but he *needed* to breathe and black spots were forming in front of his eyes... and... and...
He swallowed.
And swallowed.
And then gasped in pure clean air to fill his empty lungs.
*Pain* blossomed inside of his stomach as soon as the foul potion hit it. Nausea swept over him and vertigo sent the room to spinning violently and Xander was *sure* that gravity just *stopped* suddenly because the only thing holding him to the bed was his shackles and the negligible weight of Drusilla. Icy hooks and claws tore it's way out of his gut and throughout his entire body, *digging* into tender and hidden organs and then *dragging* itself deeper into his flesh, imbedding itself into his very cells. *Agony* exploded in the base of his spine and traveled up his central nervous system, setting every nerve ending on *fire* along the way.
He could feel his balls try to go home and his erection try to wither, but the cockring wouldn't let them and his Mistress *rode* him, laughing and giggling and shrieking in the demonic language of the curse even as she raped his body for her own pleasure. And then the potion worked it's way up into his brain, reaching deep into his gray matter with acid tendrils, dissolving his thoughts and reforming him, making him, changing him, perverting him with Drusilla's Gift.
Mercy rained down upon him then. He blacked out from the pain.
== present ==
It was the pounding on the door that pulled Spike from his delightful thoughts of slaughter and mayhem with the dark haired mortal at his side as his newly turned Childe.
"Mr. Bradford? Are you okay in there? Do you need assistance with Mr. Harris?"
Spike growled at the metal door that held Xander's Doctor and the white clad orderly beyond it. He took a deep breath that he didn't really need in order to calm down slightly and then yelled back.
"No thanks mate. We're just ducky in here. I'll be out in a moment or two."
Turning his attention to the sleeping mortal in his arms, Spike gently shook his shoulder.
"Pet. Wake-y up-y..."
The sleepy brunette snuggled against his chest and murmured something about 'sweet cool dead flesh' and 'go away, comfy now'. Spike grinned. He didn't blame the poor boy. He'd had a big job to do and he did it wonderfully and besides, who *wouldn't* want to cuddle up to him? He *was* an amazing piece of vampire flesh, after all. Still... he had things to do and people to eat. He shook the boy again, harder this time.
"Xander. You have to get up Pet. We have to get you dressed and ready to go before the doctor takes it into his fussy little head to barge on in here."
More mumbles and cuddles. It was cute at first, but now Spike was beginning to get annoyed. He would try just *one more time* and then he'd get angry.
"Xander. Wake up and I promise I'll bite you. Nice little nip on your tender flesh. You'd like that wouldn't you?"
The mortal shifted in his arms slightly, tipping his head back and grinning hugely. However, he was *still* sleeping. Well, dozing is more like it. Spike grinned at the response. It had been a few years since Xander had spent any time around vampires, and he *still* ached for their bloody kisses. His dark Princess had trained the boy well.
He sighed. He might enjoy the cuddling and the cute willingness to offer up his neck, but Spike wanted to leave, and he wanted the boy to come with him. And that meant he had to be awake and dressed. He was, really, left with no choice, even if he *did* enjoy doing it. With a rolling of his eyes, he shoved the human up off of him and into a startled and confused heap on the cold tile floor. A startled, confused, and most importantly, a wide *awake* heap on the floor. Spike grinned cheekily at him.
"Wha... what happened?"
Spike slid up off of the bed and began to pull up his jeans and fix his clothes.
"What happened mate, is that you got that thing outta me bleedin' skull and then you passed out. You need to get dressed now. We're gonna bust you outta this place. Somehow..."
Spike smirked as the boy's face light up like a bloody Christmas Tree with all the trimmings. He jumped to his feet and went over to the floor where his pajama bottoms had been thrown. Ignoring the drying semen on his groin and chest, Xander hurriedly slid the faded mint green pants on. Then, he went to the tiny side table and opened the large lower drawer. He pulled out a faded cotton top that matched the pants he wore and a faded darker green terrycloth robe. Then, with a wide grin plastered across his face, he pulled the last items out of the drawer. A battered pair of slippers.
Quickly dressing into his meager clothing, Xander turned to flash a bright and cheery smile up at Spike.
"When we get out of here, can we get me some *real* clothes? Huh, Spike? Please? I haven't had *real* clothes since these doctors got a hold of me. At least the *police* let me wear clothes, even if they *were* ugly."
Spike looked Xander up and down from head to toe, imagining him all decked out in tight blue jeans and a leather jacket. He smirked with pleasure at the lusty thoughts those images roused in him.
"Sure thing Pet. First kill once we leave here will die for his clothes, then after that, we can work on getting you a decent wardrobe. Sound good?"
Xander finished tying up his old robe, slid his feet into his slippers and nodded.
"Yeah. Mistress will be so happy to see me again, but I don't want to show up looking like an escapee from the mental ward... even though I *am* one. I can't *wait* to be with her again. Oh Spike, this is *so* wonderful."
Spike winced. Visibly.
"What? Spike, what is it?"
A sliver of trepidation wormed it's way into Spike's mind. He *didn't* mean for his emotions to have been noticeable, but the loss of his sister was too fresh in his memory and it still cut like a knife into his undead heart. But he knew that this mortal boy, who had been broken and reformed in her image, would *also* take the news of her final death hard. He shook his head and forced a false smile onto his features.
"Nothing pet, nothing."
An odd look crossed Xander's face and his dark eyes unfocused for a brief moment, painfully reminding Spike of his lost Drusilla.
"You're lying. Something is wrong. What is it? What are you trying to hide from me? It's... it's about Mistress, I can see *that* much. What happened? *Tell* me!"
For a long moment, Spike considered lying to the boy, just making up some false little thing and hoping that he believed him. But he knew that would never work. Eventually, the drugs would wear out of his system for good and the voices he heard would become clear. *They* would tell him about Dru and he would *know* the truth anyway. In the long run, it would be better if he heard it right from Spike's mouth.
Out of all of the vampires in their family, Spike was the one with the shakiest bond with Xander to begin with. Only the minions had less contact. At first, Spike had also had no contact with the boy, but as he healed and as his relationship with Dru and Angelus improved, he got to see more and more of Xander. Granted, he'd never *really* beaten the boy, and they'd only had sex a few times that Dru permitted it, but they *had* been exposed to each other quite a bit in the last three months before Xander disappeared. This... sharing of grief, it might cement what little bond they *did* have.
And Spike *wanted* Xander for his own. He didn't want to lose the boy now that he'd found him again. So... that meant the truth. With a sigh, he walked over to the mortal and rested one hand on his shoulder comfortingly.
"Xander... the same git's that put that microchip in me head? Well... they, um... they staked Dru. My dark Princess is dust now. There *is* no Mistress for you to go home to."
Spike felt a shiver of concern tinged with fear flash through him as he watched Xander's already pale face lose all of it's blood, turning him chalk white. The very *air* around him literally *filled* with massive amounts of energy that made his hair stand on end. Then, Xander tipped back his head and *screamed* in denial and unfathomable pain and grief.
"NNNNOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!"
With a *huge* bang, the metal door to Xander's room *flew* open with enough force to *rip* it from it's hinges and send it flying into the face of the rude fussy doctor and the muscle bound orderly. Alarms and whistles began to sound from every corner of the hospital and Spike's sensitive vampiric hearing could hear the sounds of thousands of glass windows *shattering* all at once. This was swiftly followed by countless voices yelling, crying, babbling and calling out for medication and codes and for someone to call the police. Chaos reigned everywhere on every floor.
Spike was stunned. He could barely believe what was happening around him and he wondered what in the Hell was going on. Suddenly, he was yanked out of his startled thoughts by Xander literally collapsing. With preternatural reflexes, he managed to catch the boy before he fell to the floor and he pulled him up close. Looking into Xander's suddenly exhausted and drawn face, Spike figured out what had happened.
The boy had told him that one of the things that could release his Gift was extreme emotion. And his grief and anger at hearing Dru's fate had been a catalyst for his power. He had done... *something*... *huge* and it had drained him of all reserve energy.
He picked the boy up and carefully tossed him over his one shoulder. Arranging him so that he had the most freedom of movement and the best possible balance, Spike stepped out into the hall. And paused in shock.
Every single solitary door and gateway had been *flung* open with terrible force. All of the locks were twisted and bent, many of the actual doors were yanked from their hinges, just as Xander's had been. Spike saw two large piles of glittering sparkling glass all along the floor half way down the hall outside of the Nurse's Station and realized that *that* was what he had heard in Xander's room. What's more, patients were loose, wandering freely around the hallways, tormenting each other and the panicked staff.
Spike smirked. This would be easier than he thought. It would be even better if Xander were awake and able to walk on his own, but no matter. The staff was terribly distracted and Spike could now kill anyone who tried to stop him. By the time Xander woke up, he planned to be far from this horrid place.
== flashback ==
Panic seized him. He cringed back into his corner and clutched at his chains futilely. Mindless fear rolled through him, leaving him trembling and cowering. He whimpered low in his throat and shook his head back and forth, desperately hoping for a reprieve.
He'd *never* left her bedroom. In all of the four months since he'd been kidnapped, he'd *never* once ventured out of this suite of rooms. He'd been shackled to her floor, tied to her bed, strung from her ceiling, and occasionally dragged into her private bath for a good cleaning and scrubbing, but he'd *never* *ever*, not even *once* been taken out into the hallway beyond her private and personal domain.
Until now.
He'd *dreamed* and *longed* and *hungered* to be able to just get up and walk out of here. He'd *wished* for it and *prayed* for it and *cried* out to the heavens above to grant that one gift to him. But now that it was here, now that she had come to him and told him that she was taking him outside... he was terrified.
Inside these walls he had suffered torments that had broken his mind and his spirit. He knew this. He was *very* aware that he was no longer sane. Inside these walls he had soared to heights of pleasure that he hadn't even been aware could be reached. Every touch, every tease, every piercing agony that shredded his soul and his hopes and his mind had come to him in these very rooms.
But they were *familiar*.
He knew them and what they held. He had every inch memorized. He could walk across the room a dozen times while blindfolded and not bump into a single object. These walls were his *world* and he was... *used* to them.
But the outside? It held *things* and *people* and *ideas* that he was *not* used to. And he *didn't* want to go. He didn't want to face those things and people and ideas that he had embraced in his life *before*, because he was not *him* anymore. Mistress and her Sire had *killed* that boy... they had broken him and warped him and danced on his grave.
He didn't have a choice however, just like with everything else in his existence, it was not for him to say. Shuddering and crying and pleading for mercy, he was dragged out of her rooms by a strong chain leash attached to his collar.
"Shhh... kitty-pet. Mummy has a surprise for you. You'll like this one... Daddy has a new pet and I want you to meet him."
Insane giggles whispered past his ears and his thoughts swirled around him in a bizarre mix of terror, humiliation and... jealousy. He didn't *want* Angelus to have a pet. *He* was the pet around here...
Finally, after enduring a frightening and confusing tour of the big Mansion past giggling and pointing minions, Mistress dragged him into a large stone room lit by medieval looking straw torches. He found himself being led over to a far corner where Angelus was beating a man chained to a support pillar with a thick black strap of leather. He stopped at their approach and turned a fang filled leer at them.
"Oh good... you're here. Sweetling, why don't you show off your pet to my new plaything? I think he'd *like* that, don't you?"
Giggles echoed hollowly from damp stone.
"Oh *yes* Daddy, I do think he would enjoy it ever so much."
Xander was then led around the pillar that held the man with the bloody and raw back chained to it so that he could see the man's face. It was an older man, and he seemed to be *very* familiar to Xander. His thick hair was dark with just the beginnings of gray to it, but it was plastered down to his skull with sweat and blood. His hazel eyes were slightly unfocused and his skin was drawn and tight from his pain. A little tiny part of Xander's brain *screamed* that he should know this man, and know him well, but he couldn't *quite* place him...
It didn't matter anyway, he wasn't important. The only things in Xander's life that had any *real* meaning were his Mistress's pleasure and her Sire's pleasure. All else was inconsequential to him.
Then the man *looked* at him and gasped in shock.
"Xan... Xander? Is... is that *you*?"
There was something about the clipped British accent that Xander knew he should remember, but the man was from his life *before* and that was all a hazy blur in his mind. It seemed... unreal in the face of all of the pain and agony he had survived since that time. Still, his curiosity got the best of him and he leaned up close to study his feature's a bit more.
"Do... do I *know* you?"
The man's face shifted into one of horror, then pity, and then horror once more.
"Y... yes. You *do* know me. I'm R... Rupert. Rupert *Giles*! The *Watcher*!"
A flicker of memory passed through his mind. Blonde hair, vampires collapsing into dust, a warm dusty Library, shared laughter, *love*... A wave of overwhelming loss and regret flooded his mind and a single tear dripped from his eyes.
Then he turned away and leaned his trembling and abused body back against the legs of his Mistress. He turned his face up to her and *pleaded* with her.
"Mistress... I want to go *home*. *Please* Back upstairs to your rooms... I... I don't like it here. I want to be back where I belong. *Please*."
The man... Giles, gasped and sputtered.
"Xander! You *don't'* belong with *her*! She is *not* your Mistress!"
Red hot anger washed over him and a vicious snarl escaped his throat at those words. His vision grew hazy and his limbs trembled with the force of his rage. Flashes of bizarre images of pain and violence and blood and a surge of strength and anger and hate devoured his mind as screams and protests and then pitiful whimpers assaulted his ears.
Finally strong cool arms clamped around him and a soft lilting voice whispered darkly into his brain. Xander leaned back into the comforting and possessive embrace of Angelus's inhumanly strong arms and slowly, little by little, he came back to himself. When he did, it was to find himself standing in front of a dying Rupert Giles, his torn out eyeballs in his clenched fists.
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TBC