March 11, 2001
okay, im kinda bored right now and in a sorta *bleh* mood, so i thought i'd just type some stuff on my mind. it's close to 3AM sunday morning, the first weekend of spring break. its been pretty good, so far, i think. since school got out thursday afternoon, i spent time at a friend's house (which was great!), and the next day i played "kickball/throw people around and get thrown in the mud" for a few hours with some awesome friends randomly in the park down off of mccoy. that night, people came over and we watched tv/star wars (i'd never seen it before). one of them spent the night, and then today was my friend's birthday party, which was pretty fun too. so things are going great. right? yeah. right. my 16th birthday was week before last (tuesday the 27th). i had a really cool paintball party the weekend before, which included coming over to my house afterwards to watch Dirty Work. i went down to the DPS and actually got my [paper] license on my birthday (i've had my permit since august), and i received my plastic license in the mail yesterday. i also got a car finally - a silver 1985 volkwagen cabriolet convertible. but i dont think my parents want me to drive yet. i have had my license for almost two weeks now, and i havent driven by myself yet cuz my mom wont let me. and they say there's stuff wrong with the car, having to do with the oil or something. but honestly, it drove fine on the way back from the people's house in dallas that we bought it from. so i think they just dont trust me, or something. i dunno. its sorta depressing. im really impatient tho, too, which doesnt help things. and im also pretty mad right now at their decision to not let me go to prom this year with a good friend of mine. we're only friends, and its not like anything would happen. but my mom wont let me, and the only excuse i get is that im too young. im finally technically allowed to date now that im 16. but no one more than a year older than me. which cuts out the seniors. but like, i really wanted to go with him to prom. he's really fun to hang out with, and prom with him and two of my other friends (one which is a sophomore), just seems really really fun! but my mom has her own view on it, and wont let me go. i was really excited about it too...i mean, im a sophomore! i was asked to go to prom. this sucks. i dunno. i think i should be allowed to go. its not like im dating him. heh its not like im dating anybody. i kinda miss having a boyfriend sometimes. *eh* i only feel like this right now cuz ive been around such happy couples lately. i want that happy, healthy relationship that they have. who doesnt? i guess i shouldnt say that. lotsa people are content with what they have. and lotsa people would be content with what i have. i just really dont know tho. but then again...i have these great guy friends. they're fun to be around and they're just cool in general. and then...i have that one guy friend. ya know, the one that you find thats so good of a friend that you dont find another one like him your whole life, which is okay cuz you know you will be friends with him forever? and im happy with that. very happy. so in other words, i have no reason to be complaining about anything right now. heh sometimes ya just need to get things off your chest, right? well i guess what this was for. hope none of you who read this expected anything more interesting. im going to go to sleep.