WTF?
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Van Hunt


Elton John's song has always been right. What do I have to do to make you love me?. I haven't figured it out and I'm too sensitive to realize it doesn't make a difference if your family doesn't love you or care about you. A lot of people don't know that, and if you tell them that your parents or your siblings don't care about you they just think you are making it up or being melodramatic. I'm not joking. My parents really don't care. My brother and sister don't care, they are all too self-absorbed. I hope one day I have the strength to look at them and tell them to kiss my ass for all the times they lied to my face and all the times they made it abundantly clear that they had better things to do than to be there for me. If you just took the time to get to know me, you wouldn't be sorry. I'm the most loyal and compassionate person you'll ever know.

all right
Mood:  hungry
I still cannot believe that Ro and me are about to get our first apartment together...I have been waiting for this for a long time :)

The wedding has been pretty much officially moved to october, I'm not thrilled about that, but hopefully something great will happen to us and we won't have to wait that long...
I keep having dreams about my mom and dad being together, I wonder if that means she moved in with him, I REALLY hope that she didn't...perhaps its just my subconscious helping me let go of the pain and hell of last summer, that would be nice

random stuff
Mood:  not sure
hey, so you know that song, So Sick by Ne-Yo, well I liked it until this morning when Timmy sang it for 30 minutes, how obnoxious!


My head has been killing me all day, damn sinuses. I slept most of the day, Robert gave me some medicine and I passed out...


One of my dad's friend from BC called me today to see what the hell is going on with him? I don't know how I'm supposed to know that, I didn't make him go crazy...oh well, I gave her his number, let her cuss him out :)

another day
Mood:  caffeinated
I bought the rings so we are the proud owners of some pretty snazzy titanium rings with diamonds on top, diamond chips but diamonds no less


I still feel like a bum, perhaps its that time change crap...

I had some pretty crazy dreams last night, but I have not had any nightmares since Joey gave us that pendant that is supposed to keep the bad dreams away. Thanks Joey!


Thought of the day: How come the french press isn't the normal everyday coffemaker of choice? It is so easy to use! Then again, who does stuff the easy way?
BTW, will someone please tell that crazy little girl that keeps calling my phone to stop it?

crazy day
Mood:  spacey

Do you ever wake up and feel like you are in more of a dream than you felt when you were asleep? I feel like that, but not necessarily in a good way.

I feel like a bum today :( oh well

A closing thought...I wonder what the people that traded shells for goods would say about us using paper, how dumb is that...also coffee was used for currency back in the day, now THAT is an awesome money.

Lazy day
Mood:  a-ok
Happy April Fool's Day! Nothing is really bothering me today except that I've been looking at rings since the summer and I still can't make up my mind so I just went ahead and made a decision, I should know if they are mine in about 5 hours.
Other than that, Ro's roommate, let's call him Timmy, is playing his infernal soccer and I can't hear the damn tv so I'm on the computer, haha